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"There is no problem with your sexual orientation, and I don't even have a spirit. How did you come to this point?" The voice was trembling.

"I don't know either, but I love him, regardless of his gender." Wu Xie lowered her head and spoke calmly.

"If you really like it, I won't interfere with you, and I won't use those traditional concepts to pressure you. Mom has been struggling in the mall for so many years. I haven't seen anything. All I do is hope you are happy. , for this reason, I can accept you being with the same sex." Mother Wu said this passage almost choked up, as if she was suppressing the great pain in her heart, Wu Xie listened blankly, her heart churned, and then her mother took a deep breath In one breath: "But, Mom won't agree with you being together."

In fact, it was an expected response, but Wu Xie still felt uncomfortable. It was a feeling that could not be blessed. No matter in this society, this country, or this era, he was destined not to be able to live under the sun, but he was still sad. Attitudes have a different meaning than the vast worldly notions.

Wu Xie took a deep breath, looked up at her mother, the sadness in her eyes made Mother Wu's heart tremble, it hurts, how can she not feel distressed?

"Mom, thank you." Wu Xie's voice was exhausted, and her mother didn't get angry, nor did she force them to separate immediately. This was already the biggest concession, and Wu Xie didn't expect more.

"Mom just doesn't understand, why...why it's you?" Mother Wu finally couldn't help but shed tears.

Wu Xie turned her head and wiped away her tears, feeling guilty in her heart: "I know we are brothers."

Mama Wu shook her head and broke down in tears: "I shouldn't have let you into Zhang's house in the first place."

"Mom, I'm sorry," Wu Xie frowned and hugged her, his tone unprecedentedly serious, "But after entering this home, I realized what real happiness is. If you don't get married, I haven't met brother, I think this It will be a regret that I will never be able to make up for in my life, don't think like this, it's not your fault, it's my fault, it's my lack of measure."

Mother Wu broke away from him, wiped her tears, and stood up: "I don't want to discuss this issue with you anymore. In short, I will not agree with you to be together. You'd better separate from him as soon as possible."

"Why?" Wu Xie couldn't help asking the moment Mama Wu opened the door.

Mother Wu took a deep look at him, raised her head and closed the door: "There is no reason."

The door was closed with a "bang", and at the same time it was closed by Wu Xie's last sliver of luck.It's not that he didn't know it would be this kind of result, but when it really came to this point, Wu Xie still couldn't help feeling uncomfortable.

The night was dark, Wu Xie sat alone on the bed, watching the moon climb up little by little, the faint halo was hazy, just like their unknown future.Leaning against the head of the bed, he suddenly wanted to smoke, but he had no cigarettes, and he didn't know how to smoke. The silent room was cold and cold, which made people feel hopeless.

The mobile phone by the bedside turned on, Wu Xie raised his head, was taken aback for a moment, then quickly grabbed it, opened the screen tremblingly, his silent heart twitched like an eruption - "Sleeping?"

Silently comforting, Wu Xie gritted his teeth and pressed the phone, "No, I'm thinking of you".

What I usually dare not say, and the tone that I usually feel hypocritical, but today I really want to say it. I owe him love words and less dependence on him. Wu Xie suddenly wants to give him everything without saying a word.

"I am at your door".

Wu Xie was stunned for two seconds with his mobile phone in his mouth. After reconfirming that he had read correctly, he jumped out of bed and opened the door in two steps. Before he could speak, a familiar breath came over his face with warmth, and then The whole person fell into his arms.Being hugged tightly, Wu Xie closed his eyes and reached out to hug the person in front of him, he knew what he was talking about, Zhang Qiling didn't make a sound, but he just knew what he was talking about, he was saying, I miss you too .

Sometimes, Wu Xie feels that words are really the most useless thing in this world. People who really understand you often don't need words at all.There are so many people who said I love you, but they failed to get together in the end, but why do people still say that, it is probably because the distance between the heart is far away, so it is necessary to use language to reach it, precisely because it is not enough Love, that's why it needs to be said over and over again, and emphasized over and over again.

Leaning on Zhang Qiling's warm chest, Wu Xie finally fell asleep listening to the beating of his heart, sleeping peacefully.In the darkness, a pair of deep eyes never closed.

"Do you know what you're doing?"

"You're playing with fire."

"If you are with him, you will kill him sooner or later."

……

Father Zhang's words and the scene of Wu Xie protecting him with his hands kept switching in his mind, caressing Wu Xie's soft hair, watching the moonlight on his peaceful sleeping face, Zhang Qiling sighed inaudibly, The more this time, the more you can't let go, Wu Xie needs him.

sleepless nights.

The sky was getting brighter, and there was some faint light in the distant sky. Zhang Qiling lowered his head, and gently pulled his arm out from Wu Xie's neck and shoulders. His movements were very small, but Wu Xie woke up immediately.

"Where are you going?" Wu Xie turned over and circled him.

Zhang Qiling smoothed his messy sleeping hair: "They are about to wake up."

Scenes of last night flooded my brain, all the scenes, all the dialogues were brought up at the same time, and the anxiety that never dissipated in my heart, Wu Xie suddenly hugged him willfully: "Don't go."

Zhang Qiling didn't speak, didn't move, let Wu Xie hold her, a sliver of dawn light pierced through the mist and fell through the gap in the forest, the two of them hugged quietly, cuddled and passed each other.

"Will we separate?" After a long time, Wu Xie gripped Zhang Qiling's clothes tightly, and the voice came out muffled through the fabric.

There was a sparrow chirping on the branch outside the window, looking very cheerful.

There was no answer, Wu Xie smiled wryly, let go of his hand suddenly, and raised his head to meet a pair of dark pupils: "Can you kiss me?" Almost begging tone.

The eyes that had been indifferent all the time drooped down. After a long time, a familiar breath leaned over. Wu Xie closed his eyes, and felt a cool touch on his forehead, and then his usual low voice pierced the eardrums: "Don't think too much."

Hearing Zhang Qiling pat his head, get out of bed, open the door, and leave, Wu Xie never opened his eyes.Gritting her teeth, she buried her face in the pillow the two of them had nestled in, Wu Xie pulled the quilt over her head, that's really cunning, Zhang Qiling.

Zhang's father smiled as always, Wu's mother couldn't hide her thoughts, she looked worried, and Zhang Qiling disappeared early in the morning.When they were together, even Uncle Zhang could feel the strange atmosphere, Wu Xie couldn't bear it, so he packed up a few clothes and went to the fat man's place.Fatty had a two-bedroom, two-living room house in Hangzhou. Hearing that Wu Xie was coming to live, he opened the door to welcome him.

Wang Meng recovered very quickly, and the wound healed within a week. Wu Xie asked other shop assistants to help take care of the shop, and did not let his mother know.Early in the morning, he brought some donuts to Wang Meng. Wu Xie went straight to the cemetery with Fatty. Although there was still a month before his death, Fatty valued affection, let alone someone he liked. He has been there several times since he arrived in Hangzhou, and Wu Xie knew that he couldn't let go, but he couldn't help, so he could only try his best to accompany him.

A thin layer of leaves fell on the quiet stone road, and the uncle who cleaned them dutifully picked them up bit by bit with iron tongs into the trash can. It was so strange that there were so many fallen leaves even though it was spring.

The new tomb was at the innermost. Walking all the way, Wu Xie found many nearly decayed tombstones, with a thick layer of dead leaves accumulated on them, and many of them had begun to rot. It seemed that no one had cleaned them for a long time.

"Is there no one to clean the tomb here?" Wu Xie asked.

"These? These people have been dead for a long time. Some relatives have emigrated, and some have lost their relationship after several generations. In short, these are abandoned tombs. No one pays them. Who will clean them." The fat man didn't think so.

Wu Xie was silent.Yun Cai's cemetery has been cleaned very well. Fatty often comes here recently. There are several layers of flowers on it, all roses. This is probably the only way this man can express his love, Wu Xie thought.

After leaving the cemetery, the fat man didn't go back directly, but took Wu Xie to a nearby temple, saying that he was praying for Yun Cai. The temple was very big, and although it was in Hangzhou, Wu Xie had never been there.

A lot of people came here, burning incense and worshiping Buddha to pray for safety. The fat man seemed to believe in this very much. He bought incense and candle paper and prayed again and again. , had to quietly back out.

At the gate of the temple, an old lady set up a small stall, which was filled with various architectural models. Out of professional instinct, Wu Xie took a closer look. Most of them were models of ancient Chinese buildings. They didn't look very realistic, but there was A quaint beauty.Wu Xie picked up one of them and found that they were made of wood chips glued together. Each piece of wood chip had been polished, and the squares and circles were uniform. The joints were made of composite pine glue.This kind of glue is very special. It is very fragile when it is first glued, and it must be carefully cared for. If it is stored properly, it will bond tighter and tighter as time goes by, and eventually it will become one with the wood, and it will be inseparable.The whole model is very finely made with great care, and Wu Xie couldn't put it down even holding it.

The old lady who sold the models was very kind. Wu Xie chatted with her, and only then did she know that these models were all made by herself.First, sandalwood was polished carefully, and then carefully glued together. There were no drawings, no instruments, and only hands and patience. After hearing this, Wu Xie was very emotional. I bought a bunch of sandalwood chips at a high price and took them back.

After the fat man heard about it, he was so angry that he called him stupid on the road, but he was not annoyed, but was still smiling, with an expression that I was cheated and I was willing. caught.

Back at the residence, Wu Xie preempted the fat man to occupy the living room, spread out the wood chips on the floor, and kept picking and picking with a ruler. The fat man was confused by his nonsensical behavior. After asking several times, Wu Xie was just stupid She raised her head and smiled mysteriously at him.At first, the fat man thought he was bewitched by evil spirits. Then he got up several times in the middle of the night to turn on the water, and saw Wu Xie grinding and measuring in the room with the lights on. Only then did he realize that he was making an architectural model. As for construction, Fatty only thought he was a fool and didn't care.

The seemingly peaceful days dragged on day by day, but the time to meet Zhang Qiling became less and less. Zhang's father gave him a lot of work. Every time Wu Xie went to him, Lao Hai always said that he was in a meeting. On a business trip, Wu Xie knew that the family was putting pressure on them, but he just didn't want to give in.

On the day Wang Meng was discharged from the hospital, Zhang Qiling still came, handled all the formalities, and sent Wang Meng back to the shop. While waiting for the settlement, Wu Xie took a sneak peek, and the gunshot wound on the report was changed to a car accident. , The doctors' signatures are not lost, sometimes Wu Xie admires Zhang Qiling very much, his ability to deal with these troublesome things is beyond people's imagination, and he doesn't know what method to use.

Crouching in the car and waiting, it was already dark, and the street lights on the street were already on, dimly, smelling the long-lost smell in the car, Wu Xie felt a little sleepy.That's right, I haven't slept for several nights, I'm not used to Zhang Qiling's absence, and the fat man's snoring is like thunder, anyway, there are still things to do, so Wu Xie simply didn't sleep.The fat man must not guess why he bought those wood chips. The day after Yun Cai's death was the day when he and Zhang Qiling were together for a year. It may be ironic to say it, but Wu Xie has never thought about it like this before To commemorate a day, whether it is a testimony or a reminder, maybe even just to appease his uneasy heart, just like a drowning person, even if it is a straw, he will struggle to grasp it.

"Tired?" A person came up and the door was closed.

"Yeah." Wu Xie nodded with her eyes closed.

"You're thin," a pair of hands reached out, touched Wu Xie's cheek, stroked the corners of his eyes, and said with a frown, "Did you sleep well?"

Wu Xie opened his eyes, grabbed his generous hand, and hugged the person in front of him, pretending to be angry: "You're not here, why should I sleep?"

Zhang Qiling didn't answer, Wu Xie glanced at him out of the corner of his eye, seeing his apology, his heart softened immediately, he can't be blamed, Wu Xie closed his eyes and murmured: "You can accompany me today, I don't want to go back. "

After a moment of silence, Zhang Qiling nodded, and Wu Xie hugged his shoulder and smiled.

An SUV has one advantage, it is spacious.The front and rear seats are all put down, enough for Wu Xie to have a little roll. He has indeed lost weight recently, and the little belly he raised before has disappeared. In fact, Zhang Qiling is not much better. The blue eyes are scary, and I don’t know if this guy Wu Xie felt distressed thinking about what he was forced to do.

"Brother, what did Dad tell you that day?"

There was only one pillow in the trunk, and Wu Xie leaned tightly on Zhang Qiling's shoulder, playing with his fingers.

In fact, Wu Xie knows what he said without asking. It will definitely not be a good word. Zhang's father will definitely think that Zhang Qiling has led him down. If there is any blame, he will definitely throw it on his head. Wu Xie hopes that someone He could blame himself and scold him fiercely, but unfortunately, everyone, including Zhang Qiling, looked at him with the eyes of a victim. This was what Wu Xie couldn't bear the most.

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