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"What are you doing?" Wu Xie hurriedly tried to break free. As soon as the wind blew when she went out, she realized that her whole body was sweating and her hands were shaking constantly. Where are you taking me, you haven't answered my question—"

"Wu Xie." Zhang Qiling turned around suddenly, his eyes were sharp, Wu Xie froze in place for a moment, his ears suddenly cleared up, and only then did he feel his temples throbbing wildly, and his brain, which had been running at high speed, felt an inexplicable pain.

"Get in the car." He took Wu Xie's hand, stuffed the passenger seat, fastened the seat belt for the sluggish person, started the engine, and drove straight out of the yard.

Sitting blankly on the side seat, Wu Xie was like a sculpture, his muscles all over his body were in a tense state, without leaning against the cushion, he just sat upright, motionless, his eyes dimmed, The formerly radiant look was gone.

Zhang Qiling glanced at him from time to time, no matter how many times, he still looked like this.

The car drove out of the urban area and drove straight to the suburbs. The two of them didn't speak during the journey. For the first time, Zhang Qiling felt that quietness is such a bad thing, but judging from Wu Xie's situation, although it is bad, silence is still better. Some.

There was no concept of time for a long time, Wu Xie raised his head slightly, and suddenly realized, why does the sky seem to be dawning soon?Is it a night?

The car drove away from the outer ring road and drove towards a winding mountain road. The winding road made people dizzy for a while. Wu Xie closed his lips and looked at the lush mountains outside the window. There was a thin layer of water mist, and looking through the dense water vapor, a hazy white light could be faintly seen blurring in the sky. It was going to be dawn, Wu Xie thought while leaning on the glass.

The car eventually stopped at the top of the hill.

There is no road any further. People don’t seem to come here very often. Weeds are everywhere on the side of the road, showing their vigorous vitality. Fortunately, it is early spring and the grass has not fully grown, otherwise the whole road will probably be destroyed. Covered by this raging vegetation.

At first glance, the endless sky seems to be right in front of your eyes, and you can't help but have the illusion that you can touch it with your hand. The white light on the sky gradually turns red, and a few clouds stretch leisurely.

After turning off the engine, the two of them sat in the car without moving. They were in a stalemate for a long time. Finally, Zhang Qiling broke the silence, "Go for a walk."

Wu Xie shook his head, his eyes were empty.

After a moment of silence, Zhang Qiling paused, and looked at Wu Xie: "Wu Xie..."

Anyone will have a special reaction to their own name, but Wu Xie's call to Zhang Qiling is particularly obvious, and it seems to be at any time.

"Don't hold back." In just four words, it was really difficult for King Zhang Damen, Wu Xie looked at him blankly, but shook his head slowly: "I'm fine."

"It's useless to suppress the inner emotions with rational thinking." King Zhang Damen continued. Of course, he didn't say these words, he read them from psychology books.

Wu Xie lowered her eyes: "I didn't, I was just thinking about what's going on."

Sometimes Wu Xie is just too stubborn. Maybe he didn't notice this. Zhang Qiling frowned, unfastened his seat belt and got out of the car. He walked around to the other side and opened the door, took off his seat belt, and led him out of the car. Get in the car: "Come with me."

The road was not easy to walk, a lot of stone materials discarded during road construction were piled up on one side, a bit rough, Wu Xie was led along behind Zhang Qiling in a daze, not caring where he was going.

After turning over a small hill and climbing up a platform, what Wu Xie saw was an ancient tree with a trunk as thick as two people surrounded by it.Standing on the edge of the platform and looking down, you can have a panoramic view of the surrounding mountains, large and small, and the patches of emerald green are fascinating.The sun has not yet come out, and in the dim light, a faint mist can be seen lingering around, swimming with the breeze. Looking around, the vision is unobstructed. This should be the highest mountain in this area.

"What did you bring me here for?" Wu Xie turned around and saw Zhang Qiling standing under the old tree with his head up, not knowing what he was looking at.

Zhang Qiling glanced at him indifferently: "Come here."

Taking two steps forward, and gradually getting closer, Wu Xie discovered that there were many large and small scratches of different shades on the seemingly smooth trunk: "This is..."

"This was when I was four years old," Zhang Qiling pointed to a shallow mark near the ground, "I picked up a stray cat on the side of the road and brought it back, but they said it could infect diseases, so they burned it alive in front of me .”

Wu Xie frowned.

"This is when I was five years old," moved my finger to a deeper notch on the other side, "and was ordered to end the life of a dog that had been with me for a year for the first time."

"This was also when I was five years old," pointing to the next one, "on the first day of school, the only child in the class who talked to me fell off the horizontal bar for no reason and became a vegetable."

Wu Xie took a deep breath, "These..."

"This was when I was seven years old," Zhang Qiling interrupted, "I learned karate for the first time, and when I fought with my coach, I was beaten half to death."

Wu Xie stopped talking and listened quietly.

"These three are in the same month. For the task of winning the competition, I personally disabled three people."

"..."

"This one," the finger rested on a glaring white line, "investigate a case with the blind man and watch him kill someone."

"..."

"And this one," Zhang Qiling pointed to the latest nick, with sad eyes, "I couldn't save that man's daughter, he committed suicide."

"Brother..." Wu Xie choked up.

Zhang Qiling turned around, looked at Wu Xie, his eyes were indifferent: "These things were once unbearable for me."

"Wu Xie," Zhang Qiling pulled out a small knife from his waist, and slid a knife down on the rough black bark, "This is yours."

Wu Xie didn't say a word, just looked at Zhang Qiling motionlessly, his eyes were slightly red.

"Wu Xie," Zhang Qiling took two steps forward, slowly stretched out his arms to embrace him, took a deep breath, and said softly, "I don't know how many notches will be engraved in the future, but I assure you , your row will no longer exist."

Wu Xie didn't speak, but leaned against his warm neck with her eyes tightly closed, and stretched out her hands to encircle his back.

"Brother..." Wu Xie gritted his teeth and tried hard to hold back the sadness spreading from his chest, "Growing up...does it have to be like this?"

Zhang Qiling didn't answer him, closed his eyes and walked along his back again and again, with a soft and low voice: "Do you feel uncomfortable?"

Wu Xie took a deep breath: "It hurts a bit."

"Then cry."

The deep voice echoed in the ears, the sadness that had already filled the chest suddenly surged, all the depression was released in an instant, and the pain flooded like a flood, Wu Xie gritted his teeth, hugged Zhang Qiling's shoulders fiercely, and pressed down Tears flowed uncontrollably all night...

Dawn breaks in the sky in the distance, a ray of clear sunlight breaks through the clouds and shines down, the mist gradually dissipates, and it is new life that welcomes this world.

After returning from the suburbs, Wu Xie leaned on the back of the passenger seat and slept soundly. Zhang Qiling tried to drive the car as smoothly as possible. He knew that the person beside him needed to rest.

It is still too heavy for a person who has just grasped the surface to face death, but once he crosses this hurdle, what he will have is a brand new self.

Life is too heavy to carry alone, it is too heavy.

But it is precisely because of this that we need to look for, relatives, lovers, friends, little by little, slowly gathering, slowly getting closer, so we are no longer alone, the bottom of the family, the support of love, the support of friendship, we will eventually I will finish this not too long journey with a smile.

Wu Xie is like this, so is Zhang Qiling.

The trees along the way were mottled, the car had already driven into the yard, the people around him were sleeping peacefully, Zhang Qiling didn't wake him up, and sat quietly by the side.

When the wind blows, the old leaves on the branches are blown away, and the small buds sway up and down against the wind, casting little swaying shadows in the warm sunlight.

The wind blew the leaves and the rustling sound actually sounded a little lonely, but at this moment, it was unexpectedly reassuring, a small space, and a thick warmth.

The rare silence was finally broken by the vibrating sound of the mobile phone, Zhang Qiling pressed it in time, but still woke up the sleeping person.

"Brother..." Wu Xie rubbed her eyes, then patted her head again, "What time is it?"

"Ten o'clock."

"The weather is fine." Wu Xie smiled, leaning on the back of the chair and looking out of the car window over Zhang Qiling's face, his eyes were as clear as ever, the difference was that there was more firmness and less confusion.

"Brother," Wu Xie withdrew his eyes, "I decided to investigate the matter of Yun Cai, and I hope you don't object."

Zhang Qiling looked at him, remained silent for a long time, and said, "Okay, but you have to listen to me."

"Well," Wu Xie nodded and smiled, "Then you have to teach me how to fight. I don't want to be protected all the time."

"it is good."

"Also, what you know, if I ask you, you have to tell me." After thinking for a while, he added, "Don't worry, I won't ask what I shouldn't, I have a sense of propriety."

"Ah."

Another gust of wind blew, and there was a wild sound of flapping leaves, quietly staring at the person in front of him, Wu Xie felt palpitations, clenched his fists uneasily, and lowered his head: "Brother, we are now..."

Before the words fell, a breath slowly approached, and then the back of his head warmed up, and a soft touch came from his lips, Wu Xie was startled, and his eyes widened.A fair cheek was close at hand, and the distinct eyelashes were brushed against his eyes. Wu Xie's heart couldn't stop trembling, and the other's breathing intertwined with his nose, and he was stunned. Staring at his eyes, the curvature of the corners of his eyes gradually eased and decreased, and Zhang Qiling's unique breath diffused between his lips and teeth, lingering and intoxicating, obviously gentle but occupying his mind.Wu Xie closed her eyes, stretched out her hands to actively wrap around his neck, her cool lips pressed together, and in the interlacing of scorching breaths, the timidity like gossamer and the fear like catkins all turned into tenderness at this moment. The spring rain blends into each other's hearts without any barriers.

So what, brother, so what, just pass over.

There will be no more doubts, no more.

We have all waited too long for this day...

……

This accident caused a lot of reactions in Hangzhou. The police finally gave the statement that it was accidental injury caused by drunk driving. The criminal was a man in his 40s. He died of inexplicable sudden death less than two days after entering the prison. The forensic identification was a cerebral hemorrhage caused by drinking a lot of alcohol all the year round. , There are quite a few people who questioned it, but the strange thing is that the media did not pay too much attention to this matter, and in the end it was nothing.

Aning has never appeared since then, as if this person has never existed in this world, and has completely disappeared.

Yun Cai's funeral was held two weeks later. She was very popular and many people came.

On the day of the funeral, Wu Xie refused Zhang Qiling's company and went to the cemetery alone. After the ceremony, the crowd dispersed, leaving only Fatty sitting alone in front of the tombstone in a daze.

Wu Xie didn't speak, just took a box of beer and threw it on the ground, sat on the floor with the fat man, and finished the whole box of beer without saying a word.

The fat man didn't blame Wu Xie, he said that this matter had nothing to do with him, but his own fate.

Wu Xie patted him on the shoulder and remained silent for a long time without speaking. When he left, he finally took out a letter and gave it to him.

The letter was sent by Yuncai before he left, and he used Wu Xie's identity. Yuncai must have known that he was being targeted, and knew that the letter he sent would definitely not be received, so he used Wu Xie's identity.

Wu Xie didn't know what Yuncai said in the letter, but when he watched the fat man finish reading the letter and wailed at the tombstone, he still couldn't help crying, Yuncai is a good girl.

Yun Cai's parents decided to immigrate, and they didn't want to stay in this sad place anymore. When Wu Xie passed by them, she couldn't help bowing to them and apologized solemnly. Although the other party didn't understand, she still patted Wu Xie's face. Shoulder said it was okay, Wu Xie watched them go away, looking at the two old and stooped backs, a burst of inexplicable sadness and guilt surged.

Walking out of the cemetery, an old woman led two little girls past. The little girls bumped into Wu Xie's body playfully. The pain hurt and kept crying. Wu Xie picked them up and threw them high and then put them down again. , Provoking a burst of laughter from adults and children.

Listening to the childish "goodbye" voice of the little girl, Wu Xie suddenly felt that growing up is just a process of losing happiness.

As soon as he got out of the gate, a familiar blue SUV parked steadily at the door. The people in the car looked at him calmly with soft eyes. Wu Xie waved and jumped into the car in two steps.

Not at all.

……

When I got home, I took a good shower, and sorted out what happened during this period.

Opening the camphor wood box left by his grandfather, Wu Xie took out the cross-stitch pendant that Yun Cai gave him, and put it down solemnly. Next to it was the amulet given by Lao Tick. Two small pendants were lying on the left and the right. There, Wu Xie stared quietly for a long time...

The bitter smell of boiled porridge came from the kitchen, Wu Xie sighed, and finally closed the box.

Maybe, just because the people around me leave one by one, it is even more difficult to be sad.

Because what stays is more and more important.