God is poisonous

In the bar, the dazzling light, bright and dark color blocks, and the crazy music are like a sharp knife that is dissecting everyone's soul. They know that it is an abyss, but they are willing to sink into it.

Lei Yi has always been a straightforward person, even when Lu Ling mentioned his crush on Luo Xingchuan affectionately, he felt that he was just looking for trouble for nothing.But now it was his turn, but he suddenly became an unprecedented self-deception.

He knew very well that before confronting Styx, it was very likely that everything was just a prank, but he couldn't help but frantically went to that Tianyou Kagura over and over again, asking him and him about everything in detail. Every detail of Styx together, and then piece together the bloody memories into a shocking whole like a jigsaw puzzle.

He wanted to find a flaw, even if it was just a mistake or omission of a word, to expose Tianyou Kagura's lies, and Tianyou Kagura also described every detail and every bit to him with an unprecedented enthusiasm.

It was a terrible and cruel curiosity, and the more you asked, the more heartbroken it became, to the point where Lei Yi wanted to take a knife and cut his heart out to see why it hurt so much.

Lei Yi regards Styx as the sustenance of all his feelings, but Styx still carries the real life beyond their feelings.Lei Yi only needs the momentary joy of holding him in his arms, but Styx wants far more than that.

After being together for so long, Lei Yi realized for the first time that he actually didn't know Styx well.

Styx called at around ten o'clock, and Lei Yi laughed while looking at Styx's name on the phone screen amidst the deafening music. He couldn't hear the phone ringing, nor could he hear his own laughter.

After the phone rang three times, there was no news.

Maybe Tianyou Kagura is right, everyone is a man, no one can live without one.

The alternation of dawn and dusk that day was like a dream. He walked into the bar vertically and was carried back horizontally by Lu Ling and Shao Hang. Lei Yi didn't even know how much he drank.

When Lei Yi opened his eyes, he suddenly felt a splitting headache, and he was groggy outside the window, and he didn't know if it was not dawn or it was dark again.Styx lay beside him, gently stroking the broken hair on Lei Yi's temples, his eyes also condensed in the darkness with a glimmer of light that seemed to be able to penetrate people's hearts.

"How did you come?"

"Lu Ling called me." Ming He answered his words lightly, and then asked a more embarrassing question, "You put a lot of lipstick on your clothes, and I have already washed them."

Lei Yi didn't answer, and Styx didn't ask further questions.

It's been a long time since they got along with each other so tenderly.

Thinking that he was about to tear everything into pieces with his own hands, Lei Yi's pride suddenly shrank back into a snail shell, thinking that there was nothing wrong with just going on like this.If he was only mentally unbalanced due to the pressure of life, if he only made a mistake once in a while, if he had already repented... that's enough, as long as Styx is still by his side.

"Lei Yi, do you already know?" Styx's tone was not a question, but a statement.

"what?"

"Tianyou Kagura, Kang Tianyou." Hearing this name from the mouth of Styx is far more cruel than Tianyou Kagura repeating those unbearable scenes ten thousand times.

Lei Yi's hand stroking his back suddenly stopped, not knowing how to continue this topic.

"Looking at your reaction, I should know." Styx's face was pale and his body trembled slightly, "Let's break up."

"Break up! What right do you have to break up with me!" How much Lei Yi wished that Styx would jump up and yell that everything was false, even if it was just a few lies full of loopholes.Obviously Lei Yi had already prepared a reason to forgive him, but he admitted everything so calmly, disdainful of even a single excuse, so his anger reached its peak in an instant.

Even he himself was surprised by such a fierce beating.

Apart from sparring in the training hall, Lei Yi never imagined that he would punch Styx again.

And Styx did not fight back at all, nor did he plan to fight back.

"You fight back! You fucking fight back!" Every punch on Styx's body was like hitting Lei Yi's own heart, and in the end the pain was so painful that he couldn't even breathe.

Styx shook his head silently.

When Lei Yi pounced on him, Styx thought he was going to beat someone up again, but unexpectedly, he suddenly kissed him like a lunatic.

"Why... why on earth are you?" The roar that Lei Yi pressed tightly in his throat sounded like the mournful cry of a dying beast.

"Lei Yi, let me go. For the last time, and then... let me go." Styx put his arms around his neck to meet his movements, but stared blankly at the roof, "I can float here and there forever Swing, but I can't be responsible for your future."

At that moment, the last flame in Lei Yi's heart was completely extinguished.

He once thought that Styx wanted to hold him firmly, but he never thought that Styx's real wish was to escape from him.

"...Okay, I'll let you go. I hope you will never regret it." This sentence was said so calmly that even Lei Yi didn't believe it.

The days that followed were not as painful as imagined.

As Lei Yi's first love, this breakup should have been a catastrophic event, perhaps because he knew it too long in advance, and the deep pain had already tortured him too hard. No energy to suffer.

But... the physical and psychological emptiness has to be filled with something.

The first time he walked into a gay bar, Lei Yi just sat in the corner drinking.

The strange thing is that he didn't do anything, but there were always men who looked very popular swaying towards him.

In Lu Ling's words, it is a very mysterious pheromone, even a man with a relatively strong nerve can read through the pheromone that you need someone to heal you now.

After experiencing that innocent time, Lei Yi's heart became extremely tenacious, and he became colder and stronger in his relationship.

Someone once said such a sentence: the gay circle is a circle that is so impetuous, superficial, self-righteous, and self-pitying.Most people think that they are the poorest people abandoned by this world all day long. They don't know what meaningful things to do in life, they don't fit in with others, they don't know how to be grateful, and they take themselves too seriously. Everyone They all unswervingly declared that they were looking for true love, but everyone was restless in their pants. In the name of love, they were doing despicable things.Because everyone wants to keep themselves from being hurt, so everyone is not sincere; because everyone knows that such a relationship is fruitless, so everyone doesn't know how to flow, can't stand the mediocrity, and would rather be as short as fireworks and live forever Addiction is dead.As a result, everyone hurt each other in this circle that lacked love, and everyone was bruised and bruised, beyond redemption.

This is the true portrayal of this circle.

So Lei Yi cast aside this kind of emotional process of repeated death, and would rather go outside the circle to meet those hidden targets.

Fortunately, Lei Yi's appearance and personality are very attractive to those who have a special preference for the same sex.

And the habit brought to him by Styx made him a new star on the basketball court that made the girls scream.

Facing his hot market, sometimes Lei Yi even thought proudly, Styx, do you know what you missed?

By the way, there is another habit left to him by Styx.

That is the consistent liking of the Shemale.

Even if the ignorant first love had a tragic ending, because that period was full of memories of Styx, Lei Yi will always remember the shape of the sun that year, the bright smile with canine teeth, and the temperature of sleeping in his arms at night, He even established his aesthetic standards for men.

After Wei Yuzun couldn't laugh and cut off the relationship with Styx, Lei Yi had three or four wives successively, and they were all transvestites without exception.

There are those who acquiesced in his nonsense, and some who scolded the world and directly scolded him for being perverted. In the end, the woman who married back, Erinnyes, should be the most desirable one.It took Lei Yi a long time to convince him to meet him in reality. When we met for the first time, I only felt that his facial features were as delicate as an SD doll, and his smile was so clean, just like meeting Styx for the first time.

Facts have proved that even his thoughts are as clean as a blank sheet of paper.

He never concealed his indulging and fascination with Lei Yi in his eyes. He was so panicked after being pushed on the bed by Lei Yi, but he was still so immature that he didn't even know how to resist.

At that moment, Lei Yi suddenly decided to let him go.

Possession is too easy, but his possession may completely destroy the cleanliness and simplicity he loves most.

When I opened my eyes again, the time axis suddenly arrived a few years later.

Not only Styx has become dust in time, even Erinnyes' expression begging him not to leave him at the end has become a distant and blurry picture.

Far from the ignorance and innocence of first love, he thought he would never have any feelings other than desire.

At this moment, such a special snow-covered country appeared in his life.

It is not a clean and beautiful existence, nor is it a mutual satisfaction that is eager for quick success. He can easily provoke Lei Yi's desire to conquer and possess, but he has always created a sense of distance.

It's close at hand, but you just can't get it.

If this is seduction, then Xue Man Jiang Shan is too successful.

If this is resistance, then Xuemanjiangshan has failed too much.

After putting on his clothes and getting up, Lei Yi brushed his teeth and washed his face in front of the mirror with an inexplicably tired face.

When the towel wiped his neck, he suddenly froze.

There is an obvious mark under the collarbone, which is blue and purple.

When Lei Yi licked Jiang Chenyi vigorously, he absolutely did not respond, this hickey could only be when he was still drunk and unconscious.

Lei Yi was really in a good mood when he went back to school, the hickey on his collarbone was like an ironclad proof of everything, making Jiang Chenyi's feelings for him no longer hidden.

After Lu Ling saw Lei Yi finally returned, he immediately began to sigh: "Boss, I thought that the one who couldn't get up today must be Xue Manjiangshan, but I didn't expect that it was you who couldn't get up today! Xueman Jiangshan can be called the idol of the whole people, I must Put up a sign and pay respects!"

Lei Yi: Get out!