After kissing the professor

The young man's eyes are too sincere, like the wind, like the sun, like the bright moon, and like spring rain.This is the love that belongs only to teenagers, and the sincerity that belongs only to teenagers.They are not afraid of anything, they just want to hold a sincere heart in front of you.

Shen Jinrong looked into her eyes and saw himself in a daze.But she knew that the self back then was far less determined than Yan He is now.

When she saw Yan He for the first time, she felt that this child was very similar to herself.This similarity is not in appearance, but a strange feeling.Yan He's firm and clear eyes made her feel dazed when she first met. Seeing Yan He's eyes, she seemed to see herself looking in the mirror when she was 21 years old.

The emotions in those eyes are exactly the same, but she is different from Yan He, her family is not happy, even though she is firm, there are always shadows in her eyes; Yan He is different, her eyes are firm and clear, she grew up with care child.

Sitting in the seat and listening to "La Traviata", Shen Jinrong's heart is not on the opera. Accompanied by the sometimes high-pitched and sometimes low-pitched singing, her heart also shakes, and her brain keeps thinking about her appearance at the beginning.Sometimes when I look back inadvertently, I will also see the eyes of the children beside me who are dodging in a panic.

Shen Jinrong thought, how young.

When she was 21 years old, what was her greatest wish?

Before meeting Tan Ning, she thought that her greatest wish was to get rid of all this and leave this world.

When she was fully prepared to leave, Tan Ning, the psychological counselor at the school she had talked with during the day, noticed something was wrong with her, called her, found no answer, and called the police.

Then what?

Is it the coldness of the whole body, the numb pain, or the panic of being rescued?

Shen Jinrong couldn't remember anymore. She liked to be fully prepared when doing things, but she was still young at the time, and she didn't expect that all her plans would be defeated by Tan Ning.At first, she was angry, but when she woke up and saw Tan Ning standing beside her bed, something hit her heart.

She still remembered that at that time, Tan Ning leaned on the chair and closed her eyes to meditate. When she heard the sound of waking up, she opened her eyes, which were bloodshot.

No one has ever cared so much about himself, and the last person who cared so much about himself has passed away.That was many years ago, and Grandma Shen was not in good health, so they didn't have many chances to meet each other.

Shen Jinrong felt that Tan Ning was stupid, she didn't have to work so hard since she was just a stranger.Tan Ning has a sense of responsibility and is very generous even to an ordinary student.

But she later found out that Tan Ning was too sensitive, she could detect her intention to leave, and also her attachment to her.

Of course, Shen Jinrong knew that her feelings for Tan Ning were not love, she just wanted someone to rely on.But later she discovered that Tan Ning was alienating herself intentionally or unintentionally. This alienation was silent. At first, she kept away quietly, and then deliberately avoided.

Of course Shen Jinrong could sense it, she knew that she couldn't rely on Tan Ning like this.So, when Tan Ning told her that he was going to get married with a joyful face and another kind of emotion, Shen Jinrong's heart trembled violently.Then, she said to herself, it was over.

Tan Ning never owed her anything, but she owed her a lot.Later, she returned to her alma mater after finishing her PhD, and finally became ordinary friends with Tan Ning.It's just that she knows, and Tan Ning also knows, that they can only be ordinary friends.Tan Ning knew that she had been miserable in the past, Shen Jinrong was not so frank, and she didn't want to worry about the wrong things she did in the past.

Shen Jinrong took a deep breath, seeing Yan He standing beside the mouth of truth stubbornly waiting for his answer, his heart trembled again.Yan He is frank, she is willing to tell herself everything about the past, but Shen Jinrong can't be as frank as she is, she doesn't know when she will have the courage to tell Yan He about her past.

She originally thought that she could bury the past and pretend nothing happened, but she met He Wei again—Yan He's aunt.Fate is like a blunt knife. It has been slow to give her a happy life, but it always makes her suffer from it.

She staggered a bit.

Yan He hurriedly ran two steps to help her: "Sister! Are you alright?"

Shen Jinrong supported her arm to stabilize her body, raised her eyes to look over, Yan He's eyes were very clear, and she could see her pupils with a clearer and lighter color when she got closer.But now, those beautiful amber eyes were full of tension and apprehension.

"I'm fine." Shen Jinrong smiled reassuringly at her.

Yan He breathed a sigh of relief, she secretly looked at her sister, and found that she didn't respond to what she said before, and felt a little disappointed in her heart.She was just about to say that we should find a place to rest for a while, but she was suddenly embraced by Shen Jinrong.

Passing by some tourists from time to time, they cast kind eyes on the action of the two hugging each other.Beside them is the Mouth of Truth, with its mouth wide open and its eyes staring blankly.

This hug came suddenly but was extremely firm. Yan He was caught off guard by her and caught in her arms. For a moment, he felt that the world was completely torn apart at this moment, and the surroundings instantly became quiet. A space that completely locks two people inside.

A sense of security, and a heartbeat.

Yan He didn't expect this hug to happen in front of the Mouth of Truth, she thought it would be next to the Wishing Fountain, next to Piazza Venezia, but now, with their backs facing the Mouth of Truth, this hug is more like a firm choice , Sincere and fearless lies.

Shen Jinrong's body trembled slightly, Yan He couldn't feel his body temperature through some heavy clothes, but she could feel her sister's fiery breath ringing in her ears, as if she was deliberately suppressing something, and like He was hesitating for some unspoken answers.

"Thank you." Shen Jinrong's voice was choked with sobs, and Yan He felt tears slipping from her eyes and falling on his shoulders in a daze.

Yan He didn't know what to do, she felt her hands trembling slightly, her senses were infinitely magnified, but she couldn't hear any other voices that had nothing to do with Shen Jinrong.She could hear her sister's choking, and the small sound of her sister's tears falling on her shoulders.She rested her head on her sister's shoulder and sighed silently.

Shen Jinrong has burdened too much.

Sister, if those words can't be said, hide them in this hug.

Yan He hugged her back, patted her back lightly with one hand, and said softly: "Okay, be good, don't cry."

Shen Jinrong sniffed and left the hug.Her eyes were red, like a wronged little rabbit.Yan He handed her a tissue, and Shen Jinrong took it and said thank you in a low voice.

"I just wanted to say..."

Shen Jinrong wiped away her tears and raised her eyes to look at Yan He. The latter was a little surprised and held her hand tightly without making a sound.

What is she trying to say?What do you want to say to me?If it is a refusal - can I choose not to listen?

But Yan He looked at her with a smile, hiding all the panic in his heart in this smile.

"I am also very lucky to meet you."

Shen Jinrong brushed Yan He's wind-blown hair back to her ear, showing a bright smile.

Obviously it's me, I'm the happiest to meet you.

Yan He froze for a moment, then smiled.She held Shen Jinrong's hand and asked, "Would you like to go to Plaza de España to eat ice cream?"

Shen Jinrong pursed her lips, feeling aggrieved: "You obviously just walked over there." Bad boy, you don't think about your sister at all!

They walked for a while holding hands, and Yan He said, "Why don't you find a place to eat first."

Shen Jinrong agreed.

There are many people around, with different skin colors.In a foreign country, because of Shen Jinrong, Yan He suddenly felt that he was not so strange anymore.

They can walk hand in hand in unattended alleys, stepping on floor tiles with a history of more than 100 years; they can also walk on the spacious and bright streets, listening to the horns of the passing cars.Look at the products in the transparent window next to it.

There is nothing that cannot be done, and there is nothing that must be done. As long as the two of you are together, you can do anything and go anywhere.

Sitting in a certain restaurant, Shen Jinrong suddenly asked Yan He: "What do you think 'history' represents?"

Represents the glory of the past?Or is it the past that no one cares about?

There has never been an accurate answer to this question. History can be what happened yesterday, or it can be traced back to ancient times thousands of years ago.

Yan He tilted her head and thought for a while, and she replied: "History is the past."

"What happened in the past is history, glorious and dilapidated. Some cities may be brilliant and then disappear in an instant, and some cities may have been shamed, but they are still flying today." Yan He said slowly, she seemed to have guessed Shen Jinrong asked himself the purpose of this question, and his words revealed firmness-"History is a fact, it is there, whether we want it or not, it is something that actually happened." Yan He thought for a while, and said : "I took contemporary history before, and the professor said this: 'The study of history is a nostalgic desire to see ancient dead things resurrected in warm life'."

She looked at Shen Jinrong with unprecedented firmness in her eyes: "Sister, the past is in the past, no matter what happens, it's just the past."

It's all just the past.It will only be the past.

Shen Jinrong pursed her lips for a long time, then suddenly laughed.

"You're right." She held Yan He's hand and winked at her: "Then—to praise the children, what would you like to have for lunch today? My sister invites you!"

The author has something to say: Yes!I will confess my love at Christmas!

Shen Jinrong wanted to ask Yan He how she should treat the past. In her opinion, her past was not glorious. She had always wanted to cover it up, but she wanted to tell Yan He again!my sister!

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