After kissing the professor

When was the last time you were here?Shen Jinrong stood on the steps, feeling a little dazed.Standing here, she seemed to see her former self through the light blue pool water.At that time, under the glare of the sun, among the bustling crowd, she was pushed to the front, looking up at Poseidon, the sea god with a high head.

Trevi Fountain.

The 21-year-old Shen Jinrong stood in front of the pool of water, and silently recited these three words in his heart.How could it be so effective?She lowered her eyes and saw that a layer of coins had been laid on the shallow bottom of the pool.She wrapped her coat tightly, saw the pope's triple crown on the top, and heard the person next to her whisper in English: "Heaven, hell, and earth."

Meeting Shen Jinrong's eyes, the man smiled and stood quietly in place.

Shen Jinrong touched his left wrist, which was still wrapped in gauze, through his clothes, thinking, if God really exists, how could it be so painful?

She thought of the conversation with the people next to her when she was sitting on the steps eating ice cream—you can make three wishes in the wishing pool, and the first wish must be to return to this eternal city again. In the wishing pool, use your right hand to throw a coin from your left shoulder, turn around and see the coin fall into the pool, and your dream will come true.

Shen Jinrong didn't believe it.

But when people are in despair, even if they don't believe in gods and Buddhas, they still want to find a spiritual sustenance somewhere, no matter whether it is true or not.She touched a coin in her pocket that she had bought for ice cream just now, and thought to herself, should I make a wish too?

At that time...it was the end of March, and she would be 22 years old in just over three months.In the afternoon, the sun was shining brightly, and people couldn't keep their eyes open.She went away alone with her bag on her back. She didn't want to face her father's persecution, nor did she want to meet Tan Ning's concerned eyes.She wanted to escape, to run, to chop with a knife, to cut off all ties with the past.

When 21-year-old Shen Jinrong was standing at the empty subway entrance with her bag on her back, looking at the pitch-black void next to her and hearing the roar of the subway approaching, she wanted to jump off countless times.But she couldn't, when she thought of grandma and Tan Ning's eyes, she felt a heavy weight on her shoulders.

Why has to be this way?Shen Jinrong didn't know either, she thought, that kind of experience once was enough, she wouldn't have any bad thoughts anymore, before the age of 21, Shen Jinrong had died and lost her soul, what was left now was an empty shell or a brand new self?she does not know.

"You can also make a wish." The man standing beside smiled at her: "What if it comes true?"

What if it comes true.

Shen Jinrong took out the coin from his pocket and smiled at the man.

She turned around and turned her back to the wishing pool. Her gaze did not fall on the bustling crowd in front of her, but on the ancient church obliquely ahead. The white marble shone brightly in the reddish sunlight.

She clutched the coin in her hand, closed her eyes, and began to make a wish.

"I hope to return to this eternal city again."

"Hopefully out of bondage."

"hope……"

"I hope I can find someone I love."

After muttering these words in her mind, she opened her eyes and threw the coin back over her left shoulder. Then, she turned around and happened to see her coin fall into the water.

"Your dreams will come true." The man beside him said with a smile.

Shen Jinrong whispered a thank you.

Dreams come true?Shen Jinrong didn't believe it at all, her last wish was just made up out of words.She knew in her heart that she probably would never have a loved one in her life. These wishes were just fantasies and would never come true.

As if seeing Shen Jinrong's disbelief, the man whispered again: "May God bless you."

Shen Jinrong smiled at him, turned and left.

Eight years later, Shen Jinrong stood on this step again.She stood side by side with Yan He, looking down at the wishing pool.Through a layer of mist, she seemed to see the bustling and lively crowd, as if she saw the bright sun of that day, as if she saw her young self with a bag on her back and an expressionless face.

She slowly closed her eyes, and when she opened them again, the hand hanging by her side was gently held by Yan He, and a concerned voice rang in her ears: "Are you okay?"

Shen Jinrong's fingertips felt cold, so Yan He held her fingertips. The slightly cold temperature made Yan He feel a little shivering.

Sister, do you remember anyone?

Yan He pretended not to notice anything, and asked her, "Do you want to go down and have a look?"

"it is good."

Shen Jinrong turned his head and smiled at her. There was apology, trance, and even a bit of helplessness in this smile.

Yan He only felt her heart tightening. When walking down with Shen Jinrong, she asked calmly, "When was the last time sister came?"

Shen Jinrong said, "Eight years ago."

Eight years.

Eight years ago, did my sister know Tan Ning?

Eight years is too long, Yan He thought, time flies by, never stays for human will, he appeared too late, missed too much.

Yan He didn't continue to ask, Shen Jinrong noticed her silence, but didn't say anything.What can I say?Said she made a wish when she came last time?Or tell her that she was just discharged from the hospital the last time she came to the wishing pool?

The past cannot be traced, and some things do not need to be mentioned again, but just thinking about it occasionally makes people feel astringent.

The two walked down the steps, and Yan He could hear Shen Jinrong's footsteps amid the rushing water.She pursed her lips, as if she wanted to say something to Shen Jinrong, but she swallowed the words when they reached her lips.She clearly saw the hesitation and sadness in Shen Jinrong's eyes. Those beautiful eyes became melancholy after being stained with sadness, as if they had hidden all their emotions in a deep pool of water, and the pool of water rippled , but can no longer hide.

Then, Shen Jinrong lowered his eyes to cover up the sadness in his eyes.But that sadness really fell into Yan He's eyes, she only felt that her breathing was stagnant, and even her heart was throbbing.

Sister, why are you hesitating?Why is it sad?Do you remember anything?

Shen Jinrong descended the steps very slowly, his eyes changed from hesitation to firmness.As if aware of Yan He's entanglement, when she went down to the bottom step and stood in the open space in front of the wishing pool, she pursed her lips, smiled softly, and asked Yan He: "What do you want to ask? "

Yan He has a lot of questions to ask - what wish did you make the last time you came here, why are you sad, why are your hands so cold...

She was full of doubts at first, but after meeting Shen Jinrong's smiling eyes, Yan He suddenly thought, it doesn't matter anymore.

Nothing matters anymore.

"No." Yan He smiled, but she just said, "I was just wondering why your hands are so cold."

"You've already warmed me up." Shen Jinrong laughed, "I've been struggling for so long and just wanted to ask this?"

Yan He nodded: "This is more important."

Shen Jinrong's heart trembled slightly, but the smile on his face was still gentle: "Maybe it's because it's too cold in the morning."

Yan He shrugged: "I'll just warm you up." She paused, and added: "It can also be like this in the future."

after.

Shen Jinrong didn't answer. She raised her eyes and looked at Poseidon, the god of the sea standing in the middle. She saw him standing on the carriage and watching all living beings, with his right hand slightly stretched forward, as if trying to grab something.

Shen Jinrong suddenly asked: "What do you think love is?"

Yan He withdrew his eyes from the statue and turned to look at her, but she only stared at the four keys surrounded by angels above, her eyes were calm.

Yan He wanted to say that love is the clouds, the wind, the movement of the lungs with every breath, and the pulse of the heart every time.

But Yan He thought, she is love itself.

In the past 21 years without meeting Shen Jinrong, Yan He has sometimes thought about what love is.She thought, maybe this is not a necessary thing, she sometimes sees it in the young lovers walking by close to each other, and sometimes in the two old people who have reached old age and faltering, but it is Rarely seen in parents who have been married for many years.

Later, after meeting Shen Jinrong, she stared at the ceiling and the silvery white moonlight leaking from the gaps in the curtains every night when she tossed and turned and couldn't sleep because of longing, and she gradually had an answer in her heart.

Her love is Shen Jinrong.

"Love..." A faint smile appeared on the corner of Yan He's lips: "The answer is very long."

She only said four words, but Shen Jinrong laughed.They looked at each other and smiled, as if they had already got the answer.

"Make a wish." Yan He took out two coins from his pocket and handed one to Shen Jinrong.

Shen Jinrong took it and said: "When making a wish, you have to turn your back to the wishing well, and silently recite three wishes in your heart. The first one must be to return to this eternal city again." She closed her palms, and the coin was taken by her. Holding it in the palm of the hand, Yan He's body temperature remained on the supposedly cold metal.

"Hold it in your right hand, throw it back over your left shoulder, turn around and see the coin fall into the water, and your wish will come true."

The tip of Yan He's nose was a little red, maybe it was blown by the wind: "Okay."

They turned their backs to the wishing well.The sound of running water came from behind, and the water vapor occupied the surrounding air.The street lamp beside him suddenly went out, and all the lights dimmed, as if the moment the sun rose to illuminate the earth, all other lights disappeared.

Yan He raised his head and looked towards the church diagonally ahead.A few pigeons parked above the church, pacing back and forth on the white walls.The sky is a beautiful sapphire blue, with some white clouds left behind after the plane flew by, like the plane dragging a long white tail.The moon can no longer be seen clearly.

This sky is always like this.Over the years, it seems that nothing has changed, and it has been like a day for more than ten years.

Yan He closed his eyes, silently recited his wish in his heart, and then tossed the coin out.

She turned around and saw that the coin fell into the water, causing only tiny waves, and then, without even a ripple, the coin sank unsteadily.

She looked at Shen Jinrong, her sister's eyes were still closed, her eyelashes trembling slightly.

Sister, when you first came here, what wish did you make?Maybe she will never tell herself, maybe the wish she made in the past has something to do with Tan Ning, but it's not very important.

Afterwards, Shen Jinrong tossed the coin and turned around, seeing it sank to the bottom of the pool.

She smiled, this smile was clean and clear, and her eyes were full of innocence.Yan He thought of the way she smiled at him with cream on the tip of her nose, and felt as if she had stolen her away and did not want to come back.

"I have returned to this eternal city again." She turned her head and smiled at Yan He: "Together with you."

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