After kissing the professor

"Speaking of which, we have known each other for eight years." Tan Ning was observing Yan He's expression while saying this. Seeing that the light in Yan He's eyes had obviously dimmed, she sighed and wanted to say something What, but he still hesitated and didn't say anything.Some words should not be said by her.

"It's been a long time." Yan He smiled. She knew that her smile must be ugly, but in front of Tan Ning, she had to smile like this.She didn't even know why she had to respond to such a meaningless sentence that just repeated Tan Ning's, as if she would not be so embarrassed if she did so.

"It's all in the past." Tan Ning raised his water glass and smiled slightly.She is also implying to Yan He that the past has passed, and everything before it belongs to the past.

Tan Ning felt helpless for Yan He to be jealous because of himself.Don't say that she and Shen Jinrong have nothing at all, even if there is something - but this assumption is not true.

She wanted to say something to Shen Jinrong, but looking at Yan He's lonely eyes, she felt that it would be inappropriate for her to say these words.

Tan Ning blinked, and thought, anyway, Shen Jinrong is coming soon, so he has to leave things like coaxing their children to Shen Jinrong himself.Watching Shen Jinrong fall in love, Tan Ning's mood of being entangled by her ex-husband has also improved a lot—as expected, she should see more of young people's sweet love affairs.

Oh no, it should be Shen Jinrong's wife-chasing crematorium now.

Tan Ning rubbed his chin and thought.

"Then——teacher, I'll leave first!" Yan He bowed slightly, she wanted to escape from this place quickly.

"Ah, don't you want to sit down for a while before leaving?" Tan Ning tactfully held back, thinking, why Shen Jinrong hasn't come yet.

Yan He smiled: "No teacher Tan, I have something to do later, please."

Tan Ning could only nod and smile, "Okay, then you should be careful on the road."

Yan He also nodded with a smile, opened the door and walked out.

Sitting on the seat, Tan Ning muttered, "Where's Shen Jinrong? Everyone has left, will she come today?"

Everything seemed to be the same as usual, Yan He walked downstairs, the teaching building was empty.She could vaguely hear the voices of the teachers lecturing, but the voices were extremely low, as if they were coming from other teaching buildings.

The stairs she was walking on were backlit, a little dim compared to other places where the sun fell.Yan He knew in her heart that she would definitely go this way in the future - at least before she graduated, she would meet Tan Ning many times.

What about Shen Jinrong?Now what excuse do I have to find Shen Jinrong?

Today, Yan He is actually afraid of meeting her.She fears the upcoming parting, fears the upcoming unknown that will make her jump out of her comfort zone, and also feels uneasy about her own thoughts and Shen Jinrong's attitude.

Even though I thought so, I was still looking forward to seeing each other from afar.It's good enough just to see her and not let her find him - even if we meet, Yan He thought, I'm afraid I'll run away.

She walked down the stairs slowly, listening to her regular footsteps, her heart slowly settled down.Then, her routine was broken by another sound, which seemed to be the sound of high heels stepping upstairs.

Yan He thought, she must be crazy, she was expecting Shen Jinrong to come - but she didn't want to see Shen Jinrong here - at least, it shouldn't be at the door of Tan Ning's office.

Yan He let out a long breath, she lowered her head and slowly went downstairs, no one could be seen, she deliberately walked to the right to avoid it.She doesn't want to socialize now, she doesn't want to flirt with others, she just wants to be alone.

But the sound of high heels stopped.

Subconsciously, Yan He's footsteps also stopped.

The stairwell was empty and quiet, the sun happened to fall, and the dust flying in the air was clearly visible.

She had dreamed countless times in her dreams that the moment when the lingering voice sounded, Yan He almost thought that she was in a dream: "Yan He."

It's like a dream, the sister she likes is standing where the sun is setting, still smiling, calling herself like this.When she called herself, her voice was still gentle and her eyes were still focused, but Yan He felt that something had changed.

Has Shen Jinrong changed?Probably not, what has changed is myself.

It just happened to be next to Tan Ning's office.

Yan He couldn't get over the hurdles in his heart.

"What a coincidence, Professor." She called that on purpose, and then saw the bewildered expression on Shen Jinrong's face, saw her change from joy to bewilderment, and saw her eyes slightly red, Yan He felt There should be a sense of revenge in her heart - but no, she regretted it the next second she called out.

Why did she want revenge on Shen Jinrong?She shouldn't have done this.But what he said was like dust scattered in the air that could never be taken back, Yan He pursed his lips and remained silent.

"Yan He, I..." Shen Jinrong seemed to want to explain something, she opened her mouth halfway, Yan He saw that her eyes were gradually filling with tears, saw her hesitate to speak, saw her heading in his direction After taking a step, the high heels collided with the floor and made a pleasant sound that belonged to Shen Jinrong.

——Yan He stood on the stairs and looked down at her.

In a trance, Yan He suddenly felt that such a scene looked familiar, as if time and space had been reversed. She thought of the time when she came out to ask for her contact information after helping Li Xiuxi in a substitute class. At that time—their positions were opposite.Shen Jinrong stood on the steps and looked down at her with a smile on her face.

She didn't have time to think about the reason for this change, she wanted to escape, she wanted to run away, she didn't want to see Shen Jinrong feel sad because of herself.

Her mind was blank, and she only felt that her heart and stomach were throbbing at the same frequency. She didn't even dare to look into Shen Jinrong's eyes, trying not to sound so dry: "Professor Shen, Teacher Tan Ning is waiting for you in the office." .”

Shen Jinrong frowned, and his voice became much softer: "Yan He, can't we talk?"

"Teacher Tan is very important to you, right?" Yan He raised his eyes to look at her, but met the sparkle in Shen Jinrong's eyes.She couldn't bear to look any longer, and she shifted her gaze.

Shen Jinrong didn't speak, just stood there and looked at Yan He, as if thinking about why she said that - why she said that.

She didn't deny it.

"I didn't treat her—" Shen Jinrong wanted to grab Yan He's hand, but she dodged it.Shen Jinrong couldn't utter the next words anymore, and she seemed to realize that it was useless to say anything at this moment.

They looked at each other, and Shen Jinrong suddenly panicked. She seemed to have a premonition of what Yan He was going to say next, but there was still a glimmer of hope in her heart.

Then, her little friend—she always smiled and came to hug her little friend, her young lover, looked at her, and said softly: "Professor Shen, you just want someone to love you."

Her voice is very soft, like dust scattered in the air, like a meteorite that never stops in the universe.

Yan He took a step back, and looked at her with a look that Shen Jinrong never thought of, and never realized that she would look at him like this.

Seeing the emotion in her eyes as if looking at a stranger he had never met before, Shen Jinrong thought that he was probably about to lose her.

Shen Jinrong knew that in the next sentence, Yan He would probably say "anyone is fine with this person", but Yan He didn't say it.But only Shen Jinrong knew, and in the past she thought Yan He knew too, this person was only Yan He, and it could only be Yan He.

But, Yan He, why, why do you say that?

She wanted to ask Yan He why, but all the sorrow came up and blocked her throat. She trembled, but she couldn't say a word.

"Let's talk after I come back." Yan He smiled at her, looking at Shen Jinrong's teary eyes, she tried her best to control her urge to go forward and hug her, and said so.

She didn't wait for Shen Jinrong's response, she didn't dare to look, she hurried past Shen Jinrong, leaving only a gust of wind to shake Shen Jinrong's hair.

The moment they passed by, Yan He smelled a completely different perfume from her body than before.Different from the sweet citrus in the past, her current perfume is mixed with faint sandalwood, which is cooler and has a touch of fruity aroma.Like flowers, like grass, like all the beautiful things in the world.

Only it's not like before.

Yan He walked down the stairs slowly, and she heard her own regular footsteps again, but she didn't hear Shen Jinrong's high heels—is she still standing there?

Yan He thought of the little lime he cut open yesterday, and thought of the water vapor and the aroma of the green peel bursting in the sun at the moment of cutting.

——She was deprived of even the right to miss her.

What does Shen Jinrong mean to Yan He?

It means the whistling of her standing at the subway entrance waiting for a car that is about to arrive, and the pious wish she made standing by the wishing well, is the one that blows across the Alps and lands on the Christmas tree in the center of Bolzano The gust of wind is the sun shining through the dark clouds on the sea of ​​Naples in the early morning.

She is every aspect of her life.

But now?Anger dazzled her brain, so much so that she said those words to the person she loved deeply——Yan He never thought that she came to find her, just like when she saw Tan Ning holding Shen Jinrong in the mall The moment when I didn't dare to look at it anymore and ran away.

She walked out of the teaching building, and the moment the sun fell on her, there was no warmth, only a biting cold.

She turned her head and glanced at the familiar teaching building, and saw that the teaching building reflected the familiar light under the sunlight.She wanted to go back and apologize to Shen Jinrong, but she flinched shamefully again.Holding the phone, she clicked on the dialog with Shen Jinrong.She didn't realize that her hands were shaking until she was typing.

"sorry."

She sent it like this.

Shen Jinrong did not reply.

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