My beta is horrible

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Du Hengxuan got off the plane and went home, took a key from the locked drawer and came out again.

The car drove in that familiar old alley, flanked by waist-thick sycamores.The branches and leaves are luxuriant, and the sound of cicadas is known.

The façades of the buildings on the street have been remodeled, and the newly painted walls can't cover up the dilapidated and disastrous lines on the walls.

Du Hengxuan hasn't been here for four years, and nothing seems to have changed here, everything is still the same as when Jiang Wan left.

Du Hengxuan walked here as if he came here yesterday, and now he is just going to pick up Jiang Wan to go out.

After stopping the car, he walked inside with ease.Grape vines in Mr. Li's small courtyard are growing gratifyingly, and they are crawling all over the shelf as if they were having fun.As soon as August and September arrive, bunches of grapes will be hung.

Jiang Wan doesn't like the sour grapes from old man Li's house.Thinking of this, Du Hengxuan couldn't help laughing, how could there be such a cute person, like a child, who loves sweets.

In the hot afternoon, the heat wave was rolling, and no one in the community was hanging out outside.Du Hengxuan went up to the second floor in twos and threes, and walked to the door, feeling very nervous.

A young man in his 20s becomes a young high school student.It was like returning to that summer, still wearing the school uniform of Moore Middle School, holding a strawberry cake in his hand, and the throbbing in his heart remained unchanged from beginning to end.

He raised his hand to knock on the door, but was afraid that he would not hear a response.

After hesitating for a long time, he finally took out the key.

The door squeaked open, and Du Hengxuan held his breath, feeling that Jiang Wan would poke his head out of the kitchen in the next second, staring at him with a slight smile, his eyes seemed to be full of stars. "Du Hengxuan, you are here."

Du Hengxuan pushed open the door, and the room was dead silent.

A thin layer of dust was spread on the dust cover, and Jiang Wan never came back.

I feel uncomfortable even if I smoke a whole pack of Da Chong Jiu.

Du Hengxuan pulled up a corner of the dust cover and sat on the bed.Spread out the crumpled letter on the desk and read it again.

Reading it four years ago was painful and hopeless, but reading it now is helpless and sad.

The room was very hot and stuffy, and he felt like he was in a sauna, and sweat beads penetrated the fabric on his back.

He thought that after graduation, Jiang Wan would definitely come back, even if it was just a visit.

He can guard him in Jincheng.

Two days ago, Lian Cheng asked him what his plans were.

Du Hengxuan said he would go back to Jincheng.

Lian Cheng said: What do you want when you go back?You can expand your territory in the capital.

Du Hengxuan shook his head: No, there is nothing there when I go back, but I want to wait there for Jiang Wan to come back.

Du Hengxuan sat here all afternoon with Jiang Wan, thinking about many things.Many things that had been forgotten gradually became clear.Like a dusty photo, it is still the same when it is blown away.

He finally understood, the night before Jiang Wan left, the two were blowing on the bridge, Jiang Wan hugged him so tightly, as if using all the strength in his body, what kind of despair and suffocation must have been.

If he could really go back to that day, Du Hengxuan would definitely hold his hand tightly instead of watching him go alone.

The sky was already turning red, and Du Hengxuan suddenly heard the whistle of pigeons, from far to near, he went to the window, but this time he still didn't see the pigeons.He suddenly remembered Jiang Wan saying, "They should be going home."

Du Hengxuan muttered to himself. "Jiang Wan, when are you going home?"

It was getting late, and Du Hengxuan got into the car. It was very hot in the car. He opened the window to cool off the heat, and lit a cigarette. He was addicted to cigarettes, and he couldn't suppress the depression in his heart without smoking.

A sycamore leaf floated down, passed through the window frame and landed at Du Hengxuan's feet.

Du Hengxuan bent down after smoking a cigarette. When he picked up the leaves, he just missed seeing a young man in white walking into the gate of the community in the rearview mirror.

Du Hengxuan threw the leaf out of the window, and looked in the rearview mirror inexplicably, but there was nothing.He let out a breath, like a soft sigh, then closed the window and drove out.

Jiang Wan opened the door and went home, and sniffed it as soon as she entered. She always felt that there was a smell of fir trees in the air.

He felt that he was really nervous, thinking that he had lost his sense of smell when he wanted to be alone.

Jiang Wan opened the window, it was as hot outside as inside.I haven't been back for four years, and when I come back, I feel as if I have never been there.

He took a cold shower, went into the bedroom and took off the dust cover on the bed.With a glance, he saw the piece of paper on the table.

Jiang Wan picked it up and saw that it was a farewell letter written by herself to Du Hengxuan.The paper was crumpled and spread out.The empty space is filled with "Jiang Wan, I miss you."

Du Hengxuan came.

Jiang Wan stayed for a long time, then walked out in a nonchalant manner.

The closer the train got to Jincheng, the more he missed him.Like a jar of wine buried under a pear tree, it becomes more and more mellow with age.

Du Hengxuan came.I have treated him like this, why would he still come?Did Du Hengxuan never forget him?Thinking of this, Jiang Wan's heart couldn't help trembling.

If he wanted to find Du Hengxuan, he could just take a sneak peek.He really wanted to see Du Hengxuan.

Jiang Wan's steps were not calm at all, and her usually indifferent and good-looking eyes were full of anxiety.

Has Du Hengxuan returned from the capital?Where?He should be at home, and he will definitely go home when he comes back.

Du Hengxuan really went home, and before he sat on the sofa, he answered the phone and went out again.

The butler was obviously a little older, and saw Du Hengxuan off at the door.

"Master, walk slowly."

Du Hengxuan nodded, "Go back, it's hot outside."

Looking at the butt of the car leaving, the housekeeper really felt that his young master had grown up.In the past, the young master would knock his chin to look at people, and the servants didn't look straight.

Now he is mature and stable, and he will tell you that he will definitely be an excellent heir in the future.

The butler turned around and was about to go back when another taxi came, and a young man got out of the car.

The butler glanced at it and then looked back.Hey, strange, this guy is prettier than the guy on TV.Can't help but look twice.

Jiang Wan was anxious, looked at the butler, opened her mouth, but didn't know what to say.

"Who are you looking for?" The housekeeper didn't intend to start a conversation, but he couldn't resist the good-looking person.Human beings are visual animals, and it is inevitable that we will give special preferential treatment to those who are pleasing to the eye.

"That... Excuse me, is Du Hengxuan back?"

"Oh, you're looking for my young master? What a coincidence, he just left the house. Are you a friend of the young master?" The housekeeper then carefully looked at Jiang Wan, who was dressed in a white T-shirt, gray sweatpants, and pull-back canvas shoes. Add up and down less than 300 yuan.

The guests who stepped into the Du family's threshold were all well-dressed and well-known brands. The housekeeper had never seen Jiang Wan like this, and he didn't quite believe that Du Hengxuan would have such a friend.But he doesn't have the heart to dislike the poor and love the rich.

"Ah... yes, they are friends." Jiang Wan nodded, his eyes averted a little, he didn't know what kind of relationship he and Du Hengxuan had now.friend?predecessor?Or... people who like each other?

"Oh, what a coincidence, the young master went to the restaurant for dinner." The housekeeper could not disclose Du Hengxuan's whereabouts in detail, but only for this sake.

"Changqing?" Jiang Wan asked.He didn't know where Du Hengxuan would go for dinner, and he could only think of Changqing for a moment.

The butler smiled and said nothing.

"Thank you." Jiang Wan slightly bent over, and got into the car again.

The lights are on.During the day, it seems that Jincheng has become more and more prosperous.At night, it still looks like Jincheng.

Thinking of seeing Du Hengxuan, Jiang Wan's heart beat fast.Faster than the day of confession.

What will become of Du Hengxuan?Jiang Wan thought in her mind, no matter how she thought about it, it looked the same.Smiling with a sunny face and a ruffian face.It's his favorite look.

Jiang Wan took out her mobile phone, which was the one Du Hengxuan gave her.The latest model from four years ago is not worth two bucks now.

Nowadays, everything is updated so fast, Jiang Wan doesn't know if the relationship she had in those years has not been updated, whether it has been eliminated by Du Hengxuan.

He touched the handsome young man on the lock screen wallpaper, feeling uneasy.He slapped his head violently again, and scolded himself secretly: Jiang Wan, Jiang Wan, are you fucking insane?It's just to take a look at Du Hengxuan, what else do you want, just take a look and be satisfied.

"Master, please drive faster under the premise of ensuring safety." Jiang Wan was a little anxious. She didn't feel like urging her, but the traffic was so congested that she panicked.

The Jincheng taxi driver is used to being wild, and snorted coldly: "On the premise of safety? Look at me, who is crowded left and right, it is already unsafe."

Jiang Wan thinks about it, yes, it's amazing to be able to move during the rush hour.

Jiang Wan asked the master to stop the car ahead of time, and he got out of the car and walked towards Changqing, wondering if he could see Du Hengxuan.

The heart swung the sledgehammer, bang bang bang bang, as if it wanted to smash Jiang Wan's emotional wall into pieces.

The exterior glass of Changqing is very clean and is wiped every day.Jiang Wan stood in the darkness, looking inside, a glass separated two worlds.

He searched for a long time but didn't see Du Hengxuan, feeling like he was in an elevator, sinking a little bit.

"Hey brother, I'm here!" A boy passed by Jiang Wan, about the height of Jiang Wan's ears, very slender, about eighteen or nineteen years old, a very young boy.He happily walked into Changqing.

Jiang Wan turned around and was about to leave when she suddenly saw Du Hengxuan appear.

Du Hengxuan held the mobile phone in one hand, smiled very nicely, and was very handsome.He was tall and had long legs, and he was wearing a brand name that Jiang Wan didn't recognize. He was very decent and looked even better.The face is also more mature, and it is still as eye-catching as before.

Jiang Wan was dumbfounded.It turned out that the more mature Du Hengxuan looked like this.His eyesight is really not bad.He smiled, and suddenly felt sour in his heart.

He regretted sneaking a look at this.Because seeing this will only make him more reluctant to leave, and after one glance, he will greedily want to see more.

Eye circles were sore, Jiang Wan rubbed her eyes, and when she looked again, the slender boy had already walked in front of Du Hengxuan.

Jiang Wan suddenly became nervous. He stretched out his hand to lean against the glass wall, and saw Du Hengxuan raised his hand and rubbed the boy's head. Shy, her ears are red, just like when she was in love.

Standing in the bright lights, the two of them matched so well that he, a monster, felt ashamed.

Jiang Wan's eyes turned red, and his heart began to constrict violently. He turned around and walked back as if running away.

He had thought about what it would be like to see Du Hengxuan again, he had thought about any ending, the worst would be that Du Hengxuan forgot about him, and the newcomer was by his side.

But when he really saw this scene with his own eyes, he realized that the pain was surging, and he couldn't bear it. His world began to collapse, with gunpowder and smoke, and finally ruins, boundless desolation.

Jiang Wan didn't shed a single tear.

He chose the path, and he deserved it.

He doesn't blame anyone, not even Mu Jin.He even felt that he could understand Mu Jin's mood, the feeling of being robbed of his sweetheart, it was really heart-wrenching, so heart-piercing.

He felt that he deserved what he had today.Jiang Wan deserves it!

He left Du Hengxuan once, and Du Hengxuan also left him once, isn't that fair?It doesn't get any fairer.

Jiang Wan felt that the cold was worse, his body was sweating, and his body was weak. After returning home, he lay on the bed without drinking a drop of water, as if he was about to die.As soon as I closed my eyes, it was the day I was on the bridge with Du Hengxuan.

"You go first, I'll watch you go." Du Hengxuan smiled at Jiang Wan, that was the last sentence he said to Jiang Wan.

"I won't go, I won't go... Du Hengxuan... I won't go..." Jiang Wan had a fever, so high that she couldn't distinguish between reality and dream.But the feeling of regret is so real. "I'm not leaving... I'm really not going... Don't forget me..."

Jiang Wan never admits that she will regret it, but when she is vulnerable, she will run out to do evil with sincerity.In fact, he really didn't want to leave Du Hengxuan, not at all.If Mu Jin wants to die, he can die. What does it have to do with them?Du Hengxuan asked him to heal and healed him for a lifetime. If he couldn't heal, the two of them would fall into hell together.He is with him, going to heaven or going to hell, there is nothing better than this.

He regretted it.

Leaving Du Hengxuan, he regretted it, really regretted it, regretted it so much that he was about to die.

But what's the use of regretting?

After four years, Du Hengxuan is no longer Jiang Wan's Du Hengxuan.

Jiang Wan felt like she was falling into an abyss, but she couldn't catch anything when she reached out.There was no light around, and it was desperately dark.