My beta is horrible

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It was almost noon the next day when Du Hengxuan woke up.When I woke up, I found myself lying on the big bed, my shoes were off, and my clothes were still the same as yesterday.

He rubbed his temples, remembering that he went to eat hot pot with Chen Che yesterday.I don't know how I came back.By the way, the wine in that store is quite delicious, but the aftertaste is too strong, which makes people overwhelmed.

He sat up, thinking he had to apologize to Chen Che, the first time he went out to eat alone and drank like this, Du Hengxuan really felt that he was such a fucking bastard, not decent at all.

His head was still groggy, Du Hengxuan knocked on his head, waking up the dream from last night.

He had a dream last night, dreaming that Jiang Wan said he was not leaving.

Du Hengxuan had this dream too many times.

The dream has been done to despair.

This dream was too real. He had dreamed so many times, but none was as real as last night.It seemed that Jiang Wan's temperature still remained in his arms.

When Jiang Wan just left, he was pretty useless, but he didn't cry, make trouble, or hang himself. He just sat all night, unable to sleep, and the day and night were turned upside down.

He was thinking about everything, thinking about all the reasons why Jiang Wan left, and the more he thought about it, the more he felt like a bastard everywhere.In the final analysis, I am not worthy of such a good person.

Friends advised him to open up.In fact, he has nothing to worry about, he is not a sloppy character, and he is not a person who will die or live because of his feelings.Jiang Wan left, so let's go.

He is so chic.

I sealed up everything about Jiang Wan in the room, and I don't know if I finally didn't make up my mind, but I didn't throw it away anyway.Didn't throw it away, but never looked at it either.Closed the door together with the past, closed the door and never opened it again.

He, Du Hengxuan, can pick it up vigorously, and put it down quietly.

Enough of being useless, he's not going crazy anymore, he's quiet, he's better than a normal person.It was very peaceful, and life remained the same, or it could be said to have improved to a higher level.His studies and career are not bad, and his whole life is very nourishing and prosperous.

I thought that was it, but who the hell knew that the more peaceful and smooth his life was, the more those insignificant things would touch him.

Like a small stone thrown into a lake, it can easily set off a stormy sea.

When he saw the young couple at the gate of the middle school, he would think of Jiang Wan, when passing by the river, he would think of Jiang Wan, and when passing by the dilapidated old towns of every city, he would think of Jiang Wan.I don't even dare to drink too much, because I miss Jiang Wan when I drink too much.Others use wine to drown their sorrows, but he worries even more.

It's been four years, and he can't even remember Jiang Wan's face.

He thought he had slowed down, but in fact his stamina had just picked up.

It was as if Jiang Wan had planted a handful of weed seeds in his bone marrow, and the wind would blow the weeds to grow every year, and they couldn't be pulled out and burned.

It's almost crazy.

It's okay during the day, but at night I have insomnia and dreaming.

He often dreams about Jiang Wan.The scene of Jiang Wan's departure was repeated in his dream again and again. He lowered his face and tried to persuade him so uselessly that he almost knelt down and kowtowed.But Jiang Wan still left without looking back.

Jiang Wan wanted to leave, so he left.But no matter how carefree Jiang Wan walked, she would still leave lingering memories like memories.To put it bluntly, this kind of thing is really troublesome. If he really wants to leave, Du Hengxuan wants him to take away his memories and feelings.

Why let the people who are left suffer for this.

Du Hengxuan came out of the bedroom and opened the refrigerator. He doesn't cook, there are no vegetables and meat in it, but there are quite a lot of eggs, fruit and drinks.

He took a bottle of soda and opened it.Opened and didn't drink, the more I thought about it, the more uncomfortable I felt.

He has already laid down and accepted Jiang Wan's departure, but why did Jiang Wan in his dream agree to stay, why did he give him such hope that it would not come true.

Where does this make me put the feelings that I have always wanted to let go?

He saw a bag of brown sugar glutinous rice cakes on the table, he pinched a piece and put it in his mouth, it was so sweet.

Chen Che just finished "Finance Theory", and met Mu Jin when he left the classroom.

"Hello, Senior Mu." Chen Che's eyes were red and swollen, he cried for half a night last night, today his eyes are swollen into walnuts.

Mu Jin didn't go abroad to study anymore, she repeated her studies for a year, and followed Du Hengxuan to Tsinghua University as an art and sports student.

Chen Che knew that Mu Jin was Du Hengxuan's friend, they were in contact and could talk, but he felt that there was something weird between them, and he couldn't tell what was wrong, only later did he know what it was like.

Like a bowl broken in half, put the two halves back together, it still looks the same, but it is still broken, and nothing can be contained.

Mu Jin looked at Chen Che with the disdain that a royal palace would look at a side concubine, and never took Chen Che seriously.He concluded that Du Hengxuan would not like this little chicken-like child, except for that mole, he and Jiang Wan looked too different.

But such a person who didn't catch his eye, went out to dinner alone with Du Hengxuan last night. He obviously invited Du Hengxuan many times, but was rejected every time.

"Chen Che, did you and Heng Xuan go to dinner last night?" Mu Jin smiled, seeing Chen Che's red and swollen eyes, he suddenly felt relieved.

"Well, I ate it." Chen Che couldn't tell if he didn't like Mu Jin.

"What's the matter? Is the confession rejected?" Mu Jin asked very straightforwardly, and the interrogative sentence was so firm that he almost dropped the word "do".

Chen Che kept silent, looked at Mu Jin, and felt that he had malicious intentions.

"You, you are still young, and you can meet better people. Hengxuan and I were young, and we grew up together. You are indeed not his type. Just think about it, don't be too aggressive." Sad." Mu Jin spoke softly.

Chen Che finally knew why he didn't like Mu Jin.Mu Jin's gentleness is always with a knife.He said comfort on his mouth, but his eyes couldn't hide the happiness.

There is no one with a bad brain who can enter the Department of Finance of Tsinghua University. Chen Che saw Mu Jin's thoughts on Du Hengxuan right away.

Chen Che smiled.It's just that he has too little experience and is not mature enough, and he doesn't look better when he laughs than when he cries. "I know. I know myself. Senior brother likes those who are particularly good-looking. Their faces are clean and there is no scar."

Mu Jin was taken aback, he touched the flesh-pink scar on his face that was almost invisible, and his breathing was obviously short of breath, "What did you say?"

After all, Chen Che was just a kid who had just entered college. Looking at Mu Jin's appearance, he felt compassion again, and couldn't bear to continue talking.

Chen Che turned to leave with the book in his arms, but was stopped by Mu Jin. "One after another, you are all thinking about things that don't belong to you. What a toad wants to eat swan meat. What's the point of not buying a mirror to look at yourself?"

Chen Che was the proud son of heaven and the apple of his parents' eyes since he was a child. He had never been scolded like this before.In a moment of panic, he patted Mu Jin's hand away, and said without hesitation: "Then senior brother is even less likely to be yours. What he is thinking about is not your senior brother Mu. The senior brother kept talking about it when he was drunk last night." The name is Jiang Wan."

Jiang Wan?

Jiang Wan? !

Mu Jinxiang fell ill, and the fire that surged up in his heart burned away his reason.

Impossible, it's been four years, everyone knows that Du Hengxuan has forgotten about Jiang Wan. "Stop talking nonsense here. So what if he misses Jiang Wan? What if they fall in love again? In the end, Jiang Wan was forced away by me, and even Jincheng didn't dare to return. You and him..."

"What the hell are you talking about?"

Mu Jin and Chen Che turned their heads when they heard the sound, and were both stunned.

Du Hengxuan's face was ashen, and his eyes were red, like a wild beast about to run away.

Knowing that Chen Che was in class here, he came over to apologize, but unexpectedly heard Mu Jin's last two words.

Mu Jin woke up suddenly, knew that she had said something she shouldn't have said, and panicked, "Hengxuan, no, Hengxuan, I didn't say anything."

"Did you force him to leave? Did you force Jiang Wan to leave?" Du Hengxuan's chest/mouth heaved, and his heart was full of mixed feelings, sour and astringent.

He hadn't heard it for a long time, and he hadn't mentioned the name.

As soon as the name was said, those past events rolled in, overwhelming like a torrential rain in June, washing out the dusty past of four years.

Jiang Wan's voice, Jiang Wan's face, Jiang Wan's figure, even the scar on Jiang Wan's palm and the mole on her little toe are all clear, as if yesterday.

"No, I didn't..." Mu Jin stepped back step by step, he had never seen Du Hengxuan like this.Even if he scratched his face to frame Jiang Wan, Du Hengxuan never made people so frightened.

Like a wild dog baring its teeth, but also like a hungry wolf grinding its claws.

Du Hengxuan grabbed Mu Jin's arm and dragged it out.

Chen Che was so frightened that he stood still and didn't dare to move. Du Hengxuan was polite to everyone and always calm. He had never seen such a Du Hengxuan, as if he was red-eyed.I didn't know what to do for a while.

"Hengxuan, can you let me go? I hurt." Mu Jin begged.Five red marks have been pinched on the arm.

Du Hengxuan's fingers sank deep into Mu Jin's flesh, and his head was empty.Thinking repeatedly of the night of confession, Jiang Wan took his hand, blushed and said that no one would take it apart.

Du Hengxuan pushed Mu Jin to an empty aisle. He pinched Mu Jin's face, his fingertips trembling, "Tell me, how did you force Jiang Wan to leave? If you don't tell the truth, I can strangle you right now." !"

Mu Jin's tears fell drop by drop, trembling with fear.Do not admit it. "Hengxuan, I didn't, I didn't do anything to him, I really don't know. I know you don't like me, how dare I touch him? I won't, really I won't."

Du Hengxuan slid his hand down and pinched Mu Jin's slender neck, "You don't believe me?"

Mu Jin felt the strength on her neck increase sharply, her breathing became more and more difficult, and the oxygen supply to her brain was insufficient.He finally believed that Du Hengxuan would really kill him. "Say, I will."

Du Hengxuan let go of his hand, Jiang Wan slid down and sat on the ground, coughing and panting heavily.

Du Hengxuan stood in front of him with cold and disgusted eyes.Like looking at a disgusting dead dog.

Du Hengxuan's eyes looked like a vicious gangster, Mu Jin dared not lie. "I said him, he is the lone star of the devil, he killed his parents, and said he will kill you."

Du Hengxuan's life is tough, don't be afraid, no matter how lonely the gods are, he can make people a lucky star.Besides, Jiang Wancai is not a fucking lone star, Mu Jin can actually say such a thing, his heart is really rotten, exuding a disgusting stench.

"What else?" Du Hengxuan looked at Mu Jin, he couldn't suppress his anger.How angry, just as angry as the day Jiang Wan was robbed.

"No, no more." How dare Mu Jin say it again.

Du Hengxuan added fuel to the fire when he heard it.He didn't believe that these two words could make Jiang Wan leave him and run away, and continued to scare people and tell the truth. "Do you believe that I'm going to break your leg right now?"

Mu Jin's shoulders trembled uncontrollably, sobbing uncontrollably, he spoke intermittently. "Then I said that if he didn't leave, I would jump off the building. I said that I died for you, and you would be restless for the rest of your life. He was afraid. He didn't dare to come back after he left, also because I said , if he appears again, I will die in front of you and make you feel guilty for the rest of your life. I know he will be afraid that you will have a bad life. I know he will, so I threatened him. "

Du Hengxuan finally understood.It was not easy for the two to be happy, but Jiang Wan suddenly wanted to separate. It turned out that it was all for her own sake.

Jiang Wan is so stupid, she is always in the dark, but she always wants to shine for Du Heng.

"He, he is so stupid." Du Hengxuan felt sour in his heart.

Once he brought Jiang Wan yogurt lumps, they were so sour, Jiang Wan didn't like them, he liked sweets, and he couldn't bear to throw them away, so he insisted on letting himself eat them.His heart is even more sour now.

He remembered what Jiang Wan wrote in the letter, "I have decided to break up with you", "It really is not suitable between us", "I don't think it's worth it", "I really can't stand you", "Really, I don't want to see you again".

Every word punishes the heart.Let yourself always wake up in the middle of the night.The heart was torn open again and again.The old scars are not healed, and the new pain is so specific.

It turned out that everything in the letter was false.

Jiang Wan must have been more sad than herself when writing these sentences.I don't know if I cried, if I cried, I should feel distressed.

Du Hengxuan's heart was sore and painful, but he still wanted to laugh.Jiang Wan left for himself, he is happy!Like an old case brought to light!

Du Hengxuan suddenly laughed, but he was very happy.

Smiling and laughing, I found my face was wet, and when I touched it, it was full of tears.

The old case has come to light, but in those wasted years, who should I ask for an explanation?

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The author has something to say:

啊啊啊啊，这样的剧情可以吗……感谢在2022-03-1514：47：08～2022-03-1621：13：05期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦～

Thanks to the little angel of the irrigation nutrient solution: I saw 3 bottles for the first time;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!