reverse trapping

The world is colorful, and there are countless substitutes for almost everything.

As a result, fewer and fewer people promise "forever", and their feelings are no longer absolute. It is difficult to guarantee even the family relationship connected by blood, let alone other things.

From this point of view, the sentence "it must be him" is too heavy, so heavy that Cheng Mu thinks it's just an excuse to fool his parents.

He buried the shock that remained in his heart for a short time, walked in as if nothing had happened, and put down the kettle.

The atmosphere is subtle.

Through the bed curtain, the people around the other hospital bed kept talking, making their side extremely quiet.

Wan Weiduo laughed twice, and said to Shen Jinzhi: "Okay, Xiaoshuo and I have other things to do, so we will go back first. You should take good care of your illness and try to come back as soon as possible. My project is still waiting for you."

Shen Jinzhi glanced at him and said nothing.

Cheng Mu sent them away.

After returning, he opened the fruit basket delivered by the two without saying a word, and silently peeled the fruit.

The sun rose slowly, and the sunlight gently sprinkled on the floor of the ward, neutralizing the smell of disinfectant.

Shen Jinzhi looked at Cheng Muze quietly, and asked, "What's the matter, you don't seem very happy?"

Cheng Mu didn't want those messy things to bother Shen Jinzhi, so he just shook his head.

Beside the peeled apple skin, the screen of Shen Jinzhi's mobile phone lit up.

It was a phone call with no notes from the caller.

Cheng Mu freed one hand and pulled out a tissue.He grabbed Shen Jinzhi's cell phone through a tissue and handed it to him.

Shen Jinzhi glanced at the calling number and picked up the phone.

Throughout the call, Shen Jinzhi just responded.

Cheng Mu continued with his hands unaffected, and didn't care about the content of their conversation.

Shen Jinzhi hung up the phone, and slowly got up: "Ah Xia."

Cheng Mu raised his eyes.

Shen Jinzhi continued: "My mother called me just now and said she would come to the hospital to see me."

"what?"

Cheng Mu licked his lips and put down the fruit knife in his hand: "Then, when will she come? Do I need to avoid it?"

"Avoid?" Shen Jinzhi chuckled, "You want to see my mother, so you are so nervous that you want to hide?"

Cheng Mu shook his head in a daze.

He rubbed his fingertips awkwardly, but said stiffly, "Why should I be nervous?"

Shen Jinzhi's eyelashes curved slightly, he stopped teasing, and no longer exposed it downwards.

After a while, he called Cheng Muze again: "Last time you said you wanted to get to know me, does that still count?"

Cheng Mu did not expect that Shen Jinzhi would suddenly bring up this matter.

At that time, he said that just to test the other party.

Although Shen Jinzhi's identity has been confirmed now, he hasn't figured it out yet.

Wan Weiduo is right, he needs to be cautious.

After all, they were so close in his memory, but in the end he still rejected Shen Jinzhi.

Cheng Mu still doesn't know the reason why he made that decision back then, but this kind of thing really can't happen again.

After a while, Shen Jinzhi raised his voice and said, "If you don't speak, I will take it as your agreement."

He stroked the bed sheet with his fingertips: "Then let me tell you about my family."

Cheng Mu raised his head in astonishment.

When Yuewan Weiduo had dinner, he clearly remembered that the other party said that Shen Jinzhi always liked to hide his emotions.

But now, is Shen Jinzhi talking to him?

He was still surprised, but Shen Jinzhi had already started.

He said indifferently: "My parents divorced in my third year of PhD. They didn't discuss it with me, but chose to notify after the fact. I was unprepared, and I didn't even have time to prepare for the last family dinner, so I was very depressed during that time. "

As he said that, a faint smile appeared on the corner of Shen Jinzhi's mouth: "But luckily, I made a friend at that time. He is enthusiastic, cheerful, and loves to laugh. It is difficult for anyone to stay with him and stay sad all the time. .

"With his encouragement, I went to my mother and asked for a reason, the reason for their divorce."

Shen Jinzhi's eyes were slightly closed, and his eyelids covered half of the light in his eyes.

"At that time, she told me that she didn't actually love her father, and she just didn't hate him when she got married. Compromising to reality and getting married is her biggest regret. If she could do it all over again, she would desperately fulfill that 'not him' 'No' agreement."

Cheng Mu was speechless for a moment when he heard this reason, which sounded unexpected but seemed reasonable.

Promises are easy to make, but fulfilling them is difficult.

Shen Jinzhi raised his eyes, weak emotions were pressed in his voice, bringing a little weight to his voice.

He whispered: "I can't change her regret, I can only prevent myself from having regret."

The ward fell into silence for a while, and the occasional footsteps outside the door became more and more clear.

The next bed broke the peace.

The girl sitting by the bed was puzzled: "I still want to eat fruit? Didn't you just finish eating?"

The boy said in an almost coquettish tone: "Oh, I just want you to take care of me."

Shen Jinzhi moved his eyes and landed on Cheng Muze's half-cut apple: "Axia, I also want to eat fruit."

His brows were soft, and the light in his eyes silently flowed to Cheng Muze's heart.

The subtext seemed to say, "I want you to take care of me too".

Cheng Mu couldn't see that look, so he picked up the fruit knife again.

After lunch, Shen Jinzhi's mother arrived at the hospital.

I don't know if there is a professional halo bonus, but Shen Jinzhi's mother has a high-spirited temperament.

Cheng Mu stood up to greet him, his words full of restraint and reverence.

"Hi Auntie, I'm Professor Shen's friend."

Listening to his self-introduction lines, Shen Jinzhi easily discerned the embarrassment in his words.

He raised his eyes to look at Cheng Muze: "A Xia, why don't you pick up the medicine that the doctor said this morning?"

Cheng Mu frowned, and was thinking carefully about what Shen Jinzhi was talking about, when he suddenly saw him pointing slightly towards the door.

After receiving Shen Jinzhi's hint, Cheng Mu hurriedly said goodbye to Shen's mother.

Cheng Mu walked out for a while before she approached Shen Jinzhi's bedside.

She hesitated and asked, "Is that the child? The one who has been with you for the past few years."

Shen Jinzhi didn't hide anything: "Yes."

Mother Shen fell silent.

She wanted to speak several times, but her lips trembled slightly, unable to speak.

After a long time, Shen Jinzhi picked up Cheng Mu's water from the bedside table and handed it to her: "You said what you should persuade three years ago, and my answer is still the same as before."

Shen's mother stared fixedly at the water glass, delicate ripples spread out on the narrow water surface, just like her hesitation, one layer after another.

Finally, she picked up the glass of water: "I see."

Shen's mother raised the corners of her lips, and the beauty folds at the corners of her eyes stretched slightly, as if helpless and envious: "Not all separated people can be reunited, Jin Zhi, you are much luckier than me."

She took a sip of the water in the paper cup and put it back again: "There is still something to do in the institute. I only took an hour off. I will be free next month. Can you bring him to my place as a guest?"

Shen Jinzhi nodded: "If he wants to."

Cheng Mu found a random corner and stayed for more than 20 minutes before returning.

When he returned to the ward, Shen's mother had already left, and Shen Jinzhi hung up the afternoon bottle and was resting on the bed.

He didn't disturb Shen Jinzhi, but just sat aside and stared at the needle.

Shen Jinzhi's father did not show up until he was discharged from the hospital.Cheng Mu didn't dare to ask more questions, for fear of making Shen Jinzhi sad.

When he was discharged from the hospital, Shen Jin confirmed three times that he had taken the cufflinks before leaving the ward.

Since meeting that person in the hospital, Cheng Mu has been more careful every time he goes out.

On the second day after Shen Jinzhi was discharged from the hospital, Cheng Mu went to the supermarket to buy some soup for Shen Jinzhi to replenish his body.

On the way back, there was a sound of approaching footsteps behind him.

The sound of high heels hitting the concrete floor was sharp, and Cheng Mu quickened his pace.

"Mu Ze!" The woman shouted while chasing, "Cheng Muze, it's me!"

The highly recognizable tone helped Cheng Mu to confirm the identity of the other party, and he walked to the gate of the community without looking back, and passed the verification gate.

The woman couldn't get past the guard's barrier, so she didn't give up and yelled at the door.

Cheng Mu turned a deaf ear to it, so she called.

Holding back his anger, he casually entered a unit, walked to the corner of the third and fourth floors, and looked out from the window.

The woman quarreled with the guard and left angrily.

He never thought that one day, Rongning City's strict security would have such benefits.

Cheng Mu didn't want to do everything wrong, but if everyone found this, they would inevitably find out that he and Shen Jinzhi had a close relationship.

He can bear it, but he will never allow this matter to implicate Shen Jinzhi.

Want to go out and hide for a while?

When this thought reappeared, Cheng Mu began to think quietly.

Shen Jinzhi's body has almost recovered, they can't maintain the status quo forever, and in the current state, he can't understand his feelings at all.

"If you have something you don't understand, just go out for a walk, and everything you know will be your teacher."

His mother's words lingered in Cheng Muze's ears, reminding him over and over again.

Perhaps, it is time to change the environment and calm down.

After dinner, Cheng Mu told Shen Jinzhi his decision: "Senior, I want to go out for a while."

Shen Jinzhi took a sip of warm water: "Okay, remember to wear a coat."

The other party obviously didn't understand what he said.

Cheng Mu explained more clearly: "What I mean is, I'm going on a long trip."

Shen Jinzhi paused when he took the cup.

Cheng Mu couldn't tell his true intentions, so he could only make excuses: "It was a delayed trip."

After a while, Shen Jinzhi put down his water glass.

The bottom of the thick glass knocked on the table, making a low, muffled sound.

"How long are you going?"

"not decided."

After all, Cheng Mu didn't know how to sort out his complicated feelings.

In the living room, the clock rattled, clearly recording the passage of time.

Without getting a definite result, Shen Jinzhi asked again: "Then can you still come back before our three-month agreement?"

Shen Jinzhi didn't mention it, but Cheng Mu almost forgot.

There have been too many changes recently, and he is almost unable to accept it. He just wants to go out quietly, and the return date will not be too far away.

It's just that he hasn't responded yet, Shen Jinzhi asked again: "Can I still wait for you?"

There was strong uneasiness in the words.

Feeling that emotion, Cheng Mu immediately replied: "I will be back."

Shen Jin's teeth clenched slightly, and he nodded after a pause.

Cheng Mu always felt that his tone was not sure enough, so he added: "I really will go for a while, and I will come back after the filming."

Shen Jinzhi gave a faint "hmm" and wrote lightly, "I'll wait for you to come back."

All the time, waiting for your return.

The author says:

Three years ago, and three years from now.