What about Mr. Faint?

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"I have a crush on you."

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Probably Gu has not slept well in the past few months and has auditory hallucinations.There is no human-shaped pillow at night, and the bed alone is too cold, so I have not been able to rest well, and I have auditory hallucinations...

"Your Majesty, I have a crush on you." The general stood up and walked in front of Gu, squatting down and looking up at Gu, "Since seeing you in the hall when I saw you smiling when I heard that the feudal kingdom came to congratulate you, since I heard that you were in the court hall Swear to never betray your own nation, and start with your desire to entrust this country to your ministers."

He raised his head, like a boy kneeling in the snow, with thousands of stars in his eyes: "I have a crush on you."

General, are you kidding me?

"Ha, ha, ha." He laughed awkwardly three times, "The general's joke is so funny."

He really has the potential to tell jokes. A dignified general, the hero who saved them from the fire and water in the eyes of the world today, fell in love with the faint king of the previous dynasty?

This joke is really funny.

The general looked at Gu without changing his face, under his eyes, all the hidden things became irrelevant: "Gu thought, if you want to sit in that position, you want the supreme position above ten thousand people , there shouldn't be these...children's love that shouldn't exist in the world, General."

The general has a crush on Yu Gu, has Gu ever realized it?

Maybe he knew it, or maybe he didn't know it, but if he dared to use his loneliness like that, how could he be worthy of his liking.It's not because of being humble, but when the big brother fell in front of Gu and looked into Gu's eyes before dying, Gu realized that the most unusable thing in this world is love.

"But, I don't want that seat." The general squatted in front of Gu, just like he knelt in the imperial garden that day, "Now I fight for it, just because it is your wish, your hope for me. And your wish is my wish. Whatever you want and ask for, I will give it to you."

Suddenly felt that Gu was very mean: "What about you?"

"I'm not threatening you, and I don't have any other meaning." The general raised his hand to cover Gu's eyes, and his words seemed to come from the bottom of his heart in the darkness, "I just don't want to keep going around in circles with you. I want Things, if you don't fight hard, you will only be immersed in the warmth of the old people and absorb the remaining warmth."

Gu is very clear about who he is talking about, and he is also very clear: "So Your Majesty, I want to do better than him, so that when you have nightmares at midnight, what you call out is not his name, but mine. The general lowered his voice, "When you want someone to rely on, when you are at a loss, what you think of is not to support yourself, but to ask me for help."

With a sneer, he felt that the general's face was really big.

He didn't seem to hear Gu's ridicule, and he continued on his own: "Your Majesty, I will not have my own heir." Rather than stating his point of view, it is better to say that he is expressing his heart to Gu, "When I removed the concept of passing on the family line, I realized that there is no difference between men and women."

Gu was not moved by his sweet words.

How loving the father and mother were back then, didn't they also hate each other in the end.Occasionally, when I look back, I can still recall the curse-like voice of my mother, cursing my father that he will not die well, and cursing that what he wants will eventually leave him.

How long ago did the world praise the love of the emperor and empress, which is the blessing of my Jing Dynasty.

Do they even know about his father's love and the three thousand beauties in the harem waiting for his blessing.But the love of the queen mother can only sit alone in the deep palace, waiting for someone.Or recall the unspeakable love, and hope that the person who will never look back will occasionally think of him in the sky.

Such an empress's love, such an unequal love, what is there to praise.

This world is full of flirtatious men, how can one trust men's sweet words.Gu Nian also promised to accompany her mother, and Gu Nian also vowed to let this country be buried with her.And the one who is living in the world now, and the one who is trying to help this country choose another Mingjun, isn't it also Gu himself.

There was a sudden light in front of his eyes, the general moved his palm away from Gu's eyes.His palm was scorching hot, and when he moved it away, there was a sudden coolness around his eyes, making people want to move forward to keep the warmth.

The general stood up straight in front of Gu, raised his hand and began to disarm.Gu didn't stop him, just watched him unbutton his armor, revealing the bright red robe, and then peeled off one by one, like opening a gift, until the snow-white inner garment, the last one was not left, □□Standing in front of Gu with her upper body crossed.

There are many scars on his body, some are dark and sunken downwards, or the scars are slightly protruding outwards, and there is also new flesh that has just grown.The criss-crossing scars all over his upper body are his meritorious service, his glory, the result of his many years of fighting, and the best proof of his service for the country and the people.

The general's body is actually very good-looking, those scars are intertwined on his body, and the texture cut off his tight muscles, which only makes people feel dry in the throat: "What do you want to see alone?"

"Here." He bent down and grabbed Gu's fingers, leading them to climb up his clothes.There is a deep depression there, as long as a child's forearm, and it looks like it has been for some years: "At that time, my father was the general of the expeditionary army, and I almost failed to save this knife."

"It's just in a trance, I dreamed of a person." The general grabbed Gu's hand so hard that he almost cut off the blood in Gu's palm, and he felt chills, "In that dream, I dreamed of Gu's hand. Your Majesty, I dreamed that you were holding an umbrella, standing on the city wall and looking to the north, with sad and blank eyes."

"It's just a dream." What did he want to explain, "Anyone can dream."

Regarding Gu's words, the general looked down at his wound and at Gu's fingertips: "Your Majesty's palm back then didn't have such calluses." His eyes were filled with the same light as his big brother, "In the eyes of His Majesty back then, there was no callus like this." , and I don’t have the emotion of longing but loathing like now.”

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I think of the gray-haired eunuch, the yard where the queen mother and Xiaoba are buried, and the last look in the elder brother's eyes.His fingers seemed to be scalded, Gu pulled his hand back with all his strength, and subconsciously wiped the place where the general had scratched with his sleeve, but stopped when he saw the red mark on his wrist.

The general continued to say what he wanted to say: "If you are worried, I will accept as long as you give it yourself." He was hinting at Gu, but Gang Gu didn't want to accept it.The heart was beating fast, hitting the chest, and the punctured scar seemed to be bursting, it was very painful.

Gu saw the shadow of the big brother, and he was kneeling in front of Gu...

"Your Majesty," the general interrupted Gu's thoughts, and pulled back Gu's scattered thoughts, "I don't want to force you, but I just want to tell you that everything is up to me." His eyes are very gentle, tolerant of everything, "I just want to tell you that my ambition is only on you."

"If it's your wish to own the country, and if it's your ambition to rule the world, I'm willing to take this world as my job, as long as—"

"enough!"

The general looked at Gu, with sadness and intolerance gleaming in his eyes.But his words made Gu feel uncomfortable, psychological or physical, as long as he said that he wanted to get Gu, that as long as Gu was under him, he could give Gu anything, Gu would feel that his internal organs were tumbling, All boiling.

"Today, Gu didn't hear anything." Suppressing the embarrassment in his heart, Gu got up and shook his sleeves and left.

The queen mother was sitting on her imperial concubine couch, and a sister was beside her peeling melon seeds for her.With her arms around Gu, she looked at the wide open door, waiting for someone.A person who occupies the position of his husband, a person who has thousands of beauties who only visit him occasionally.Or maybe what she was waiting for was just a messenger telling her that the eminent monk had returned from enlightenment.

The emperor was sitting on his throne, and the courtiers were kneeling below him.He put his arms around Gu, looked at the courtiers below with disdain, waiting for their compliments, waiting for their compliments.There are thousands of beauties in his harem, all of which are his interpretation flowers, solving his worries and problems, whether psychological or physical.

At the gate of the small courtyard, every deep winter, the eunuch would drag one stiff body after another with a straw mat to pass by.The long black hair is like a broom, dragging long traces on the snow, and occasionally they can be seen staring with big, already lax eyes.

Are they also waiting for someone, someone who will never come, who will never be theirs?

Love, you can't get it if you ask for it, and it can't come when you look forward to it. When she comes, it will be a disaster.

"Lonely today, I didn't see anything."

"How long will Your Majesty want to lie to me?" The general wasn't annoyed. In fact, he could tell that he was in a good mood when he heard the sound of his clothes whirling behind him. "If you want to lie to yourself for another ten years, should you lie to yourself for five years?" ? Illusory A Gu, an illusory person who loves me and belongs only to me."

The raised hand was stagnant in mid-air, unable to use any more force.

"Your Majesty, flipping books has always been from top to bottom, from right to left, and so is life." The general's voice was deep, "If you don't want to move forward, you will only lose forever."

"Gu has nothing left."

"You still have me." The general's expression could not be seen, only his promise-like oath could be heard, "As long as you turn around, I will be right behind you."

'As long as you look back, I will be behind you.So please don't hesitate, don't worry, I will always be behind you, as long as you look back, you can see me. '

"This," raising his hand to lift the curtain, "Now I don't believe it."

"Gu will take you to find Xiaojiu tomorrow." Opening the curtain and lifting your feet to the outside, there seems to be a pair of beast eyes behind you, as long as Gu turns his head, he will pounce on him, tear Gu into pieces, and swallow him with poison.

There was some joy in my heart, but more of a conflict.

At night, the nightmare that had not been seen for a long time came again. In the darkness, there were hands sticking to Gu's body from bottom to top, from the top of his head to his toes.Those hands stripped him clean, everything he didn't want to expose, everything he tried to cover up, was completely seen and thoroughly seen.

Like a newborn baby, unable to struggle in these hands, it has to roll in the storm.

This time, no big brother appeared, using his coat to cover up all the filth, and softly sang a lullaby.

I miss him.

miss him...