What about Mr. Faint?

She hugged her legs like a queen mother, sat on the threshold of the hut with her chin resting on her knees, rolled herself into a ball, and stared straight at the small wooden door not far away.

The wooden door that locks the courtyard is very old, and the top of the door has signs of excessive rainwater soaking.The vermilion lacquer bulged out into a big bubble, and it seemed that after this winter, a thin piece of red could be peeled off.I don't know what the painted wooden door looks like, is it golden yellow?

In the corner of the wooden door on the right, a hole about the length of an arm was newly cut.The hole was only a palm high, and it was covered with another layer of wooden boards outside, blocking the outside view.Originally, Gu wanted to complain that it was a mouse hole, but when the board was blocked, it wasn't even a mouse hole.

"It's so boring, Queen Mother..." Holding her legs, watching the sun rise from the east and climb to the top of her head, "Queen Mother, it's really boring." After dragging the voice for a long time, the empty yard can still Hearing the echo, it was as if someone was complaining with Gu—it was so boring.

Even without looking back, the queen mother was lying quietly behind Gu, looking through the open door, looking through the snow-covered courtyard, and looking at the locked wooden door with Gu.The queen mother does not speak, and the orphan has no interest in talking. The orphan still remembers the attitude of the mother to the orphan before, so he does not want to be cold-faced by the mother.

But Gu has already thought about it, if the mother is submissive and coaxes the orphan first, Gu will not be angry, and he will still be a good child of the mother.Read to her, help her copy the scriptures, make tea and pour water, and talk about the world.When the queen mother is talking, Gu will never interrupt again, and Gu will do what the queen mother says seriously.

But it's been No. 11 days, and the queen mother still doesn't want to talk to Gu.She just lay there stubbornly, looking at the direction where her father left, and at the vermilion gate.Straightforward, like in the past when Gu came back from school, he could see it by chance, waiting for someone, but he will never be Gu.

The difference is that in the past, Gu could still get a smile, but now, Gu can't get anything.Gu likes the smile of the Queen Mother, her dimples are very beautiful, like blooming stamens.The queen mother also always said that she likes to laugh, because there is nothing in this world that is hard to get through, and if it is really hard to get through, just smile.

It's a pity that Gu's dimples are not obvious. If the mother laughs once in ten times, it's considered very good.If in the past, when thinking of the dimples, Gu would still be able to approach the queen mother and smile at Gu, and then Gu would be able to poke the queen's dimples.But now, Gu is arguing with his mother.

The snow was no longer falling. The snow of the past few days had piled up on the ground, and the tough weeds criss-crossed. Even if they were buried half of their bodies, they could not overwhelm their waists.The yard was empty, with no flowers or trees, no rockery, no streams, no pavilions and lofts, and some were just overgrown grass.

so boring--

It's not bad to live alone, after all, no one will pick Gu out of the bed when Gu is reluctant.Although the quilt is no longer warm, but wet and cold infiltrated into the bone marrow, but you don't study, you don't have to listen to anything, you don't have to write and practice martial arts, you can do what you want, but you don't want to be disciplined by others. a joyful thing

The shutter of the mouse hole moved, and was suddenly pulled away from the outside.A small tray was pushed in. The tray was very naughty. It ran two steps on the steps, but it didn't notice the steps, and fell down with a crash.The plain white porcelain bowl on the plate was tilted, submerged into the snow, and blended with the white snow, which was a bit dazzling in the sun.

"Queen?" Turning to look at the queen, the queen stared at the fallen dinner plate with rigid eyes, and did not speak.

That is the meaning of letting Gu solve it by himself. It happened that he was hungry for most of the morning, and his legs were still a little numb when he got up.However, after touching the frozen winter snow on the calves, the discomfort was quickly relieved.Kneeling in the snow, he rearranged the food, picked up the dishes with chopsticks, and slowly put the food into his mouth.

Compared with the dishes of the past years, the food in front of me is really far worse.In the past, when Gu wanted to eat, which time was it not that those palace people were busy shouting, and which time was it not a table full of choices for Gu to choose.If you don't eat much, you will kneel down and apologize, if you like it, you will see you at the dinner table the next day.

But now, probably following the proverb taught by my husband, falling into the phoenix is ​​not as good as killing it.Knowing how luxurious it was in the past, you will realize how desolate it is now.Although the poultry are kept in fences, if the chickens that have never soared high can see the big world like a phoenix, they have never lived in the sycamore tree.

If you don't get it, you won't lose it.

But what can Gu ask for? When acting like a baby loses its effectiveness, when tears become worthless, what can Gu do within the tall palace walls?He couldn't even get out of the yard, couldn't even protect his younger brother, couldn't even keep his friends, couldn't even support his husband, and even lost his identity in the end.

If he lost the favor of his father, if he lost his status as a prince, he would be really lonely, nothing at all.

For the first time since he was born, Gu has realized this matter so clearly.

After really calming down and looking back, the elder brother who is very lonely and indulgent, the second brother who is gentle and always humble, the third brother who doesn't like to talk, and the fourth brother who is uncertain, are far from the fifth and sixth brothers. Lonely close.At that time, I thought it was due to the age difference. At that time, the prince was fashionable, and he would not care about the details of these things because he had a lot of possessions.

But when I really had nothing to recall, the elder brother mocked the lucky younger brother that day to the second elder brother. It is the third brother who is disgusted by his fellow sisters, and the fourth brother who will get angry with others as soon as Gu talks about Gu's thoughts. Isn't it because they have grown up and realized that Gu is different from them, so they are separated? .

The fifth brother and the sixth brother, it's just because they haven't grown up yet, they didn't realize that Gu got much more than them.So not jealous, so not rusty.

Bite after bite of the cold food, the rice grains were hard and a little chewy, and the cabbage was frozen into popsicles.The queen mother was still lying there with her eyes open, looking at Gu, without blinking, as if she was eager for the food in Gu's hands, and seemed to be angry because Gu blocked her way.

The movement of chopping the rice in his hands slowed down, even from such a distance, Gu could clearly see the emotion in the empress mother's eyes.Is the queen mother waiting for her father to turn back, or is she asking Gu to accompany her?

His sight suddenly darkened, and a big hand blocked Gu's sight.That hand was very hot, and the warm palm was pressed against the slightly numb cheek, which was so comfortable that he wanted to groan.There is a trace of fishy smell in the senses, which is not obvious, but Gu just knows that it is the smell of blood.

"You are hurt?

"If you don't want to watch it, Your Highness don't force yourself to watch it." The elder brother's voice is still the same, low and rigid, but like a pearl at night, it is reassuring, "The empress has passed away, if the empress knows, she will definitely I don't want His Highness to be so distressed, His Highness let your mother be buried in the ground for safety?" He seemed to be begging Gu.

There must be a one-night awakening in this world, Gu just knows that he is comforting Gu.

Does Gu know that the queen mother is dead?

I don't know.

Gu felt the queen mother's pulse, felt the queen mother's breathing, pushed the queen mother's body, and even tried to move the queen mother.But there was no beating, no breathing, no movement, no reaction.

At that time, Gu knew that the queen mother was really cruel, so don't be lonely.

So Gu said that the queen mother should not be lonely, and Gu would not want the queen mother anymore.

But that's the queen mother who was pregnant and gave birth to Gu in October. She would play with Gu before going to school, and listen to Gu's story of a day's life after school.When Gu opened his eyes, the first person he saw was the queen mother, the first person to call was the queen mother, the first time he took a step was for the queen mother, and the first time he hugged someone was for the queen mother.

That's lonely...

The only mother.

That's the mother who always likes to call you a lonely idiot and a little fool, but she will let people cook a table of Gu's favorite dishes.That would make people collect delicious food from all over the place for fun, deliberately show off in front of Gu but not give it to Gu at all, the mother who made Gu cry and turned around and complained to Sister.

That gave birth to me, raised me, accompanied me, took care of me, taught me, teased me, comforted me, bullied me, protected me, pampered me, loved me, and in the end they were all planning for my life mother.

"She finally said..." Big brother's body was very warm, he probably untied his coat and wrapped Gu in his arms, "She doesn't want me anymore, she said she doesn't care about me anymore, she said she doesn't want me anymore I'm here to accompany you! She looked at her father, at her younger brother, at the painting, at the sky, but she never raised her eyes to look at me. You said..."

"Did she not want me?"

The big brother's embrace was so warm that it melted the frozen tears.Or someone finally accompanied Gu, and the teardrops realized that he was still valuable, and endured it for so many days, obviously thinking that there would be no more fluctuating emotions, but when they saw the big brother again, they finally erupted, no matter how difficult it is to restrain them difficult to control.

"I thought, even you don't want me anymore—" I turned around and buried my head, grabbing the big brother's clothes, it didn't matter even if my face was warm and sticky, "I thought, the queen mother is gone, the emperor father is gone , Sister is gone, little cousin is gone, and you are going too." I was left standing here alone, alone.

All the crowns of glory have really faded away. When I calmed down and looked at it again, I realized that the most precious thing is someone to rely on, someone to comfort, someone to take care of, someone to understand, someone to know my well-being, and someone to ask me about my health.

"The subordinate's life is given by His Highness, and the existence of this subordinate is for His Highness's well-being, so this subordinate will always be there," the elder brother put his palm on his back, "Unless one day, Your Highness no longer wants to serve you. "

"There won't be such a day!" Looking up at the big brother, he had a straight face, but I just knew he was smiling.

"Your Majesty believes in His Highness's words." He raised his hand to wipe away my tears, his eyes were gentle, "Your Highness, can I help you to bury the Empress?"