because i'm pretty

46. ​​Don't be afraid, I'm here

"Is your blood pressure off?"

"It's been measured," the nurse said first, "but it's still high, and I haven't gone down after taking the medicine."

"Can I not be tall?" Yuan Songqing sat down with her waist supported, "You shouldn't tell her to think about it, what are you thinking about? Don't even think about it."

Yuan Zhiming said: "If I don't make a match, they will come again in the future, and you will be angry again once you come."

In fact, he didn't think about it so clearly, he just thought that since he didn't match Yuan Songqing, the probability of being with his cousin should be lower: "Failure is a one-and-done one."

Yuan Songqing was hard-nosed all her life, and said decisively: "That's not okay, don't give them this hope, and don't need any steps."

If he really had such a decisive decision to kill, he wouldn't be unable to drive people away for most of the day.Yuan Zhiming wrapped him with a blood pressure monitor: "Okay, I'll listen to you."

"But I went to tell them myself, Dad, don't worry about it, and don't think about it anymore."

Yuan Songqing was finally relieved, and let him play with it. The hand that used to press the shutter and outline the meticulous painting was trembling faintly on Yuan Zhiming's knee.

When the nurse went out to call the doctor, Yuan Songqing suddenly said, "I'm afraid of this. What I'm most afraid of is that they will affect you."

"It has already affected me, this is my business," Yuan Zhiming said, "Old Yuan, it has nothing to do with you now, you just need to take care of your body."

After the busy work was done, Yuan Zhiming was far less confident than he seemed.

He opened the window in the room, and the cold wind and fresh air came in. In winter, the plants in the yard were dull dark brown. He remembered that when he was a child, very early, there were a few summer vacations, cousin He will give him a piece of glutinous rice cakes and laugh at the math problems he has never learned.

Li Yikai's phone call interrupted the memory, he came back to his senses and found that he hadn't figured out a solution at all.

"How are you? Uncle, how are you?"

After the other party said a few words, Yuan Zhiming rubbed his thumb back and forth on the edge of the window twice, and he replied: "It has not been stable, the doctor said to rest."

"Well, don't panic, he will be quiet when you are quiet," Li Yikai said.

Yuan Zhiming agreed softly: "I know, I didn't show it."

"That means I'm actually panicking." Li Yikai's voice was low and slow: "Need to speak up, do you need to talk about it?"

They were all ugly things, Yuan Zhiming was silent for a while, but decided to take a step forward: "I don't know how to reject some people."

Li Yikai asked: "Who?"

How to describe it, Yuan Zhiming pursed his lips and said, "A person at the end of his life."

"Difficult to deal with", Li Yikai said the same as Yuan Songqing: "If you really want to refuse, you can only give no hope at all, say the word to death once, and then close the door and don't see you, and don't answer the phone."

Yuan Zhiming didn't say a word, and Li Yikai could guess: "But are you ruthless?"

"I, I may be afraid of having nightmares." Yuan Zhiming looked at the withered vines outside: "I rarely have conflicts with others, and I don't know if I can do it."

"You must have your own reasons for refusing, and this reason is undeniable, right?"

"Yes", Yuan Zhiming was very firm.

"There is always guilt when you reject others. Even if the other party's request is too much, the party that says no will still be under pressure," Li Yikai said, "It's not that you dare, it's not that you're afraid, it's not that you can't say it, it's just that disturbed."

"I may not be as powerful as I imagined," Yuan Zhiming said lazily.

"You are just kinder than you think." Li Yikai's tone seemed to be coaxing, and his words were orderly: "So now, my suggestion is to think about what else you can do to help beyond the bottom line. The opponent's."

Yuan Zhiming asked: "Are you saying that kindness and power are combined?"

"How can there be so many people who know the truth?" Li Yikai laughed silently: "It's just to make yourself more comfortable."

It is also a kind of diversion of attention. Since rejection is inevitable, Yuan Zhiming no longer immerses himself in entanglement.

Yuan Zhiming felt that he still had the ability to make money and didn't need to occupy these resources for the time being, so he didn't look at the public welfare foundation materials that Li Yikai helped him sort out before.This time it came in handy.

Li Yikai sent him the information package again, and couldn't help complaining a few words - "If this was about work, I would have fired you a long time ago."

Yuan Zhiming has a good attitude of admitting his mistakes: "Because I didn't have time before" "I was wrong, I know I was wrong."

Li Yikai looked at the emoji he sent, and sat in front of the computer and pressed the corner of his mouth.

"Why are you so happy to watch?" Feng Xin walked around and asked him, "Who is that, Xiaoyuan asked for leave again?"

Li Yikai looked up: "There is really something at home, so I didn't delay work."

Feng Xin nodded without revealing anything: "Is Hongda doing well? If there is a shortage of manpower, I can lend you."

Li Yikai said no, and briefly talked about the current progress. Feng Xin felt at ease, and went to the next group for "investigation".

"Shanshan", Li Yikai called out, "When will the ice sculpture data be delivered?"

"Immediately," Sun Shanshan was also busy, taking a sip of water before continuing, "I know, I've checked everything, and the data is all right, and then Sister Dong said that she would connect with the factory, which would be faster."

When transferring jobs, the more people you handle, the more likely problems will occur. Li Yikai nodded: "Remind her more, don't let her forget."

"Don't worry, boss."

That weekend was boring, the project disturbed people here and there, Li Yikai's mind was dragged, but his spirit was empty.

Qi Chau asked him to play ball, but after thinking about it, he refused. He would rather go for a swim by himself, and then watch Zhao Kaisi's exhibition preparations, and have a meal and watch a movie in peace.Only in the dead of night did he dare to call Yuan Zhiming. After chatting for more than ten minutes, he felt that his heart that had been hanging around seemed to be a little more stable.

Yuan Zhiming contacted his aunt again a few days later. He listened to Li Yikai and tried to delay for a while to make the decision more deliberate and unchangeable. It also stabilized the emotions of himself and Yuan Songqing, so that he could bear the other party's pain. fluctuation.

When he went out, Yuan Songqing leaned on the rocking chair, Yuan Zhiming said: "I went this time, and I may completely cut off contact with them in the future. Do you have anything to say?"

Yuan Songqing closed her eyes and said: "I have helped them all these years, and I also have selfish intentions, because I think your uncle has suffered retribution, which made him deteriorate so quickly. I want to accumulate some virtue for myself."

"I see," Yuan Zhiming said, "I'm not going to settle this with them."

"It's up to you."

Yuan Zhiming went there by bus. The last time he came was when his uncle passed away.This neighborhood is even older than the one Li Yikai lived in back then, and there is a faint smell of decay in the corridors in winter. Old cardboard boxes are stacked at the corridor entrance, and you have to turn sideways to pass.

When Zhen Yun opened the door, Yuan Zhiming said hello, and first handed the lily in his hand to Yuan Weiru.Her eyes were red for a moment, and she held it carefully, looking at it as if she had never seen flowers before, but she still didn't speak.

Yuan Zhiming took out a stack of reports from his schoolbag and handed them to his aunt. He said, "This is the result of the matching I did with my dad before."

Zhen Yun almost snatched a few pages away, but Yuan Zhiming said, "This is useless to you, it's just a specific match between me and my dad."

"The result?" Zhen Yun asked him.

"The result has nothing to do with you," Yuan Zhiming said, "I did it without telling him. I didn't even tell him about the transplant, and I didn't even dare to tell him about the matching."

Zhen Yun didn't seem to understand, and was still flipping through the reports, so Yuan Zhiming said directly: "The doctor told me later that even if my father and I had a good match result, he still wouldn't recommend me to have an operation." .Because of that, my dad's emotions will be greatly affected, probably more seriously than the body itself."

"So, first of all," Yuan Zhiming looked at her and said, "I can't do anything to hurt myself because of my dad's emotions."

"Parents can't bear their children." Zhen Yun shook his head, pleading: "I can't bear your sister either..."

Yuan Zhiming let her hold his forearm: "You are for sister Wei Ru, and I am for my father. We all only care about the people we value the most."

He paused, cleared his mind, and continued: "I'm sorry, people are selfish, I, I can't exchange my father's and my health for sister Wei Ru's health."

Zhen Yun was stunned for a moment, and finally dared to meet Yuan Zhiming's eyes. She looked at the man who was two heads taller than her, and she was no longer the quiet child.The corner of her mouth twitched: "You are crueler than your father, and you are more like your mother."

Yuan Zhiming's heart seemed to be stabbed thinly, it didn't hurt very much, but it was clear.

He bit the lip of his mouth before continuing to take out a stack of documents that he had sorted out for a long time and an envelope from his schoolbag.

"This is all charities in China that are applicable to your situation, and there is also a free application for the treatment of polycystic kidney disease, which may be useful."

"This is the money I have earned since I graduated. It's not much, but it's all I have now."

Zhen Yun didn't answer, but just watched: "Father and son, what else do you have besides money? Are you sending me away with money?"

"We are not that rich. My dad worked day and night at the time, and I am about the same now." Yuan Zhiming put the things on the coffee table. He couldn't utter sharp irony. Will he ignore his father for money?If you feel that giving money is being sent away, how can you still accept Yuan Songqing's remittance every year?

"But if I have the ability, I will try my best to give you the money my dad gave you, but don't look for him anymore, just look for me."

He turned his head and looked at Yuan Weiru in the wheelchair, but soon couldn't bear to look any more. He lowered his head and looked away and said, "This is not owed to you by my father or me, and it has nothing to do with your previous grievances. I just want to let Wei Ru Sister Ru has a better life."

Yuan Weiru finally raised his head from among the lilies, looked at Yuan Zhiming, and said after a long time, "I'm sorry."

Yuan Zhiming shook his head lightly, he didn't want to stay here anymore.

However, Zhen Yun seemed to be touched by these three words. She looked at the money on the table and finally burst into a dry cry. She said, "Why do you say I'm sorry? What did you do wrong? I did it wrong What?"

Yuan Weiru said, "Yuan Zhiming did nothing wrong."

"Then who forced us to be like this? Who asked me to marry your family?" Zhen Yun looked at his daughter, and then at Yuan Zhiming who stopped at the door, with an expression as if he saw an enemy: "When I got married, Your Yuan family didn't tell me that I have this disease, I only found out when I had a child, your grandfather, your father, your father, and you!"

She pointed at Yuan Weiru: "You are all sick, you have dragged me down for the rest of my life!"

"You still blame me, hate me and don't care about you!"

……

When Yuan Zhiming ran down the stairs, he knocked over the stack of cardboard boxes, and the rumbling sound chased him from upstairs to downstairs.

He nearly tripped over the steps and stopped by grabbing the doorknob.

When he finally opened the door, left the dark stairs, and cut off the cardboard boxes chasing after him, he was out of breath, exhausted, raised his head with the remaining strength, and saw the cloudless blue sky.

"Li Yikai?"

The person opposite was stunned for a moment, and quickly replied: "It's me, what's wrong with you?"

Yuan Zhiming couldn't speak, but just as if he was saved, he held the phone tightly, holding the call that happened at the right time.

Li Yikai pushed open the door from the conference room, and gestured to the anxious Sun Shanshan behind him.

He came to the balcony and asked Yuan Zhiming where and what happened as calmly as possible, although the other party didn't answer a word, only intermittent panting and coughing.

Sun Shanshan followed, and Sister Dong also chased after her.

Li Yikai used another mobile phone to send them a message: "Shanshan first asked the factory the shortest time for modification, and at the same time prepared the timetable for the delay after the opening ceremony." "Sister Dong, no matter what the problem is, you go to the factory and check with them face to face. correct data

"Yuan Zhiming", after he finished dealing with it, he said to the other end of the phone, "Don't be afraid, I'm here."