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Chu Rui came to the psychiatric department for the third time.

Xu Yao was neatly dressed and looked very energetic.

"How do you feel these days?" Xu Yao asked him.

Chu Rui shook her head: "I feel even worse, and even have hallucinations."

Xu Yao was taken aback: "Why is this happening, did you take the medicine on time?"

Chu Rui paused for a few seconds, then nodded: "I have taken medicine."

"Is it a hallucination after eating?" Xu Yao asked again.

Chu Rui continued to nod. The young man looked sluggish, with only slight movements to support his actions.

"I feel that I can't distinguish between reality and dreams more and more. I always feel that everything is fake now, and sometimes I see the people around me as monsters..." Chu Rui stared at her hands, " I even began to doubt myself, am I the real me now? I don’t know.”

Xu Yao said in relief: "This is a normal reaction after taking the medicine. You must close your eyes and rest immediately after taking the zolpidem tartrate tablets, otherwise you will experience hallucinations."

"Is that so? Isn't it because of my illness?" Chu Rui asked, "I thought I had some kind of mental illness."

"Of course not," Xu Yao denied, "Chu Rui, you just have a sleep disorder. Your current situation is commonly known as thinking too much! Don't think too much, any mental illness starts from thinking too much, Eventually it slowly became sensitive and suspicious."

The white coat was shaking in front of him, and Chu Rui stared at it without blinking.

"I'll give you some calming medicine, and take one when you feel anxious." Xu Yao approached Chu Rui, bowed his body and said slowly, "You have to see clearly, the environment you are in now is real."

"What is real?"

Xu Yao and Chu Rui explained that his eyes were particularly bright, as if he was talking to Chu Rui, and he seemed to be telling himself: "Do you like the current life? Do you prefer the current life or the life in the dream ? Is that horrible, lonely experience what you want?"

Chu Rui's silence told him the answer, he smiled slightly, and patted Chu Rui's shoulder lightly: "Everyone has a subconscious mind, and dreams are an extension of the subconscious mind, which means that there are such fearful things in your heart So, it could be that what you've seen may be an extension of a horrible experience you've had, but whatever the reason, it's a dream, it's false."

"Then why would someone have the same dream as me?" Chu Rui asked him.

Xu Yao explained calmly: "It means that the way you think and the things you encounter are very similar in a certain period of time, and your subconscious minds think in the same direction. This is normal. There are many examples of similar dreams in the world. .”

"Are you dreaming too?"

Chu Rui asked suddenly, Xu Yao swayed, and said calmly: "Of course, I also dream, but our dreams are different."

"Are you also insomnia?" Chu Rui asked and added, "I'm sorry, you were not there when I forgot to pick up my things that day, and I accidentally saw your computer."

Xu Yao's eyes became dark: "Well, I didn't sleep very well... Do you have anything else to do? If not, go back first, I'll call the next patient in."

The eviction order was too obvious, and Chu Rui even saw panic in Xu Yao's body. The panic shattered all the calmness he had pretended at the beginning, and he was about to be unable to hide it.

"Doctor Xu, am I really sick, and you think you are sick too?"

There was no one else in the room, only the two of them. Chu Rui told him: "The first time I had hallucinations was during the day, and the second time was last night. I didn't take any medicine."

Xu Yao showed a confused look: "You didn't take the medicine..."

"Doctor Xu, do you know something?"

It was raining heavily, and the humidity was constantly creeping in from outside the house. The leaves of the sycamore trees outside the courtyard were already wilted by the rain.The hospital was brightly lit, but it was pitch black outside, and the world was at the intersection of noise and silence.

Xu Yao poured coffee after cup of coffee, gulping down several cups like pouring water.

"As long as you firmly believe that the world you live in is real, you will never dream again." After Xu Yao finished speaking, fear appeared in his eyes.

The positions of the two of them were reversed from the beginning, and the identities of doctors and patients were switched.

As soon as Xu Yao exposed his fragility, he became unable to control himself, and his body trembled uncontrollably.

"What did you dream about?" Chu Rui asked him.

What could make a psychiatrist have such a strong fear?

Xu Yao raised his head: "I, like you, dreamed of a monster."

The air seemed to stand still.Chu Rui nodded: "What else?"

"There are many monsters, all kinds of monsters, I can clearly remember their faces, haunting my mind every night, and I have been walking in the dark, fighting and killing monsters, and almost died several times. "Xu Yao smiled wryly, "It sounds ridiculous, but they all actually appeared in my dreams."

"Who were you in the dream?" Chu Rui asked him.

"I don't know, maybe it's a Taoist priest who subdues demons."

Chu Rui looked at Xu Yao, pondered for a moment, and asked him: "Why do you think that as long as you insist on believing that reality is reality, you will stop dreaming?"

"Because I tried!" Xu Yao said, "When I firmly believed that those were dreams, I never dreamed again..."

Chu Rui: "Don't you think this is beyond the scope of what science can explain, Doctor Xu?"

When they are determined that those are dreams, they will no longer dream, it seems to be deliberately interfering with their cognition of dreams.

Interference occurs when they begin to doubt whether the space they are in or the dream is real.

What does this mean?

"Dream or reality, which one is real?" Chu Rui uttered these words slowly.

Now he began to understand what Fang Yilin said before he died, because Fang Yilin couldn't tell the difference, she began to suspect, so she was regarded as a mental illness.

In fact, is she really sick?

When Chu Rui was thinking, Xu Yao said to him: "Don't you think we are so crazy like this? Who would question whether this world is real or not! If this continues, we will become really crazy! "

As if Chu Rui didn't realize the horror, Xu Yao once again warned Chu Rui: "No matter what the truth is, no matter why we have these messy dreams, one thing you have to think about is whether you still want to continue your current life. Life?"

Chu Rui didn't speak, as if he was thinking, Xu Yao looked at him, and said with a little fear: "You know? You stand in front of me now, analyze calmly, and tell me the process of your routine as a doctor...you The way you look now doesn't look like a mental illness at all, the way you show up is very similar to what you described in your dream."

This is exactly what Xu Yao thinks is the scariest thing. If you have a mental illness, you can calmly analyze it, is it the same as ordinary people?

Blue umbrella leaves fluttered out of the hospital gate.

Chu Rui stood in the rain and fell into deep thought.

Is he more and more like himself in the dream?

So which one is the real him?

If the result will completely overturn his current life, can he accept it?

Chu Rui stood in the rain for a while, then got up and went home.There was no such stench in the house anymore. The woman found a wooden plank to block the sewer, and complained by the way that the clothes could not be dried in the rainy days. It was really terrible.

The man sat beside him and looked at the woman: "Stop complaining, blame the rain, it will be fine when the rain stops."

It was a very ordinary conversation, Chu Rui stood in the living room and looked at them.After going through last night, he was very worried that if he turned around, his parents would turn into rotting corpses.

Thinking carefully about why her parents were not by her side in the dream and how they died, Chu Rui couldn't remember anything.

"Come back, Hua Leshen has come to look for you. In your room, Mom will cut some fruit and bring it to you..."

Yes, there is also Lao Hua. Is it really Lao Hua who saved him in times of crisis with a sword in his dream?

He can remember what happened in the dream, but he can't remember the details of the conversation, and there are many questions that he can't figure out.

The man didn't complain about his last night without saying goodbye, they were close enough, close enough to ignore the little things.

"I thought what's wrong with you. When I got up in the morning, I saw a text message saying that you got up and went home in the morning. I thought you were not feeling well..."

"No, I'm fine..." Chu Rui explained apologetically, "I made you worry."

"There's no need to talk about this between us." The man sat down generously, "Shall I sleep with you tonight?"

Chu Rui was taken aback for a moment, then acquiesced to the man's actions.

In the middle of the night, Chu Rui opened the door of the guest room.

The bulging figure lying on the bed looked like an ordinary person. The man was facing the wall. Chu Rui held her breath and slowly approached him, until she could see the man's face clearly.

Sure enough, Lao Hua is still Lao Hua.Whether in reality or in a dream, Lao Hua will not change.

Chu Rui breathed a sigh of relief, turned and left the room.

Chu Rui didn't feel sleepy at all now that she didn't take sleep aid medicine, but the night and the sound of rain outside the window calmed him down.

In the past, he always thought that no one knew him better than him, that he was just an ordinary social animal, his life was boring, step-by-step, he had no characteristics, no specialties, and he was inconspicuous, but what happened to him now seemed to be different.

Good hearing?Have a good sense of smell?very smart?

He needs a test.

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