The pilot's boyfriend said I broke him

Xu Yan sat on the carpet with his head resting on Chang Geng's lap, and asked Mr. Chang to blow-dry his hair.

Chang Geng especially enjoyed this feeling since blow-drying Xu Yan's hair last time. When the soft hair ran across his fingertips, it was like brushing the tip of his heart, and he felt a sense of relief.

Xu Yan looked at the carpet, and was pulling the hairs on the carpet with his hands, pulling out one and replacing it with another.

Chang Geng's voice came from the top of his head: "I have to buy a new carpet tomorrow. I'm going bald."

Xu Yan raised his head to look at him, Chang Geng turned off the hair dryer, pinched his nose and said, "Let's go, go to bed. I didn't sleep well last night, go to bed early today."

Xu Yan sat cross-legged on the carpet with his head drooping, motionless.

Chang Geng ignored him, stood up and put the hair dryer back to its original place, and went to brush his teeth again.

When he came back, he crossed his arms and glanced at the person on the carpet, then took a stride, bent down and hugged the person horizontally.

Xu Yan was taken aback, grabbed Chang Geng's clothes tightly, and looked at him with wide eyes.

Chang Geng put him on the bed, touched his face and said, "Don't think too much, go to sleep."

Turning off the light and covering the quilt, Chang Geng hugged him from behind and brought him into his arms, with a low voice: "I know, you are afraid. We are not in a hurry, take your time, okay?"

Xu Yan moved and wanted to turn around: "But..."

Chang Geng "hush": "There is no but, there is no need for but. Xu Yan, I am already very happy that you can accept my feelings. More other things, step by step, you need time."

He kissed Xu Yan's head, and said bewitchingly, "Sleep, good boy."

The person in his arms quickly fell asleep, but Chang Geng couldn't calm down.

The words were beautiful, but the truth was that he was burning with dry firewood all by himself, and holding a large handful of firewood in his arms, Chang Geng felt that he was about to be burnt.

After Xu Yan fell asleep, he sneaked up and went to the bathroom to finish his work before returning, feeling quite helpless in his heart.

Chang Geng still had one more day to rest, and he drove out shortly after Xu Yan went to work in the morning.

When Shen Chuxin saw Chang Geng in the consulting room, he was so surprised that he didn't speak for a while.

Chang Geng looked at ease: "Dr. Shen's account is really hard to get."

Shen Chuxin regained his composure, and the light from the computer screen reflected in his eyes: "I don't know what kind of help Captain Chang came to me suddenly, and he wanted to ask for help?"

Chang Geng said solemnly, "I'm here for Xu Yan."

Dr. Shen shook his head: "I'm sorry, the psychological clinic does not accept third-party diagnosis. If it's about Xiaoyan, then Xu Yan will come to me by himself."

Chang Geng looked at him for two seconds and said, "I'm here for my boyfriend."

Shen Chuxin was stunned, pursed his lips, and frowned slightly: "Pilot Chang is here to show off?"

Chang Geng said: "There is nothing to show off. Even if I wanted to show off my love, I would not go to the psychology clinic to show it. The big screen in the downtown area will show my sincerity for one night." He did not intend to discuss this delicate matter with Shen Chuxin , straight to the point, "I want to know what happened to Xu Yan before?"

Shen Chuxin took off his glasses, wiped them and put them back on again: "Why do you ask that?"

"He has a strong resistance to intimacy, and the kissing time should not be too long, otherwise he will lose control, tremble, shout, sweat profusely until he collapses. This is not a normal person's reaction. Something must have caused him a psychological shadow." Chang Geng spoke without pausing at all, "If my guess is correct, has he ever been hurt because of his sexual orientation?"

Shen Chuxin looked at him silently for a long time before saying, "Did you ask him?"

Chang Geng shook his head: "Not yet. I still can't grasp the speed."

Shen Chuxin sighed: "You guessed right. Xiaoyan couldn't get over that hurdle in his heart. He could accept you. This incident itself has shocked me. As for the others, unless..."

Chang Geng sat forward: "Unless what?"

Shen Chuxin said: "Unless he agrees to receive complete treatment, this shadow will never be pulled out." He looked at Chang Geng through the lens, "Kissing is the furthest distance you can go."

Chang Geng sneered: "What? Dr. Shen thought I came here to ask for help because my sex life was blocked?"

Shen Chuxin has no expression: "Isn't it?"

Chang Geng gritted his teeth: "What do you think of me? Can't he live happily? What is it that hurts him so much all these years? I came here just to ask, can you cure him?"

Shen Chuxin stared at him, and said for a long time: "I can. But the premise is that he is willing." Seeing that Chang Geng wanted to speak, he raised his hand to stop him, "The treatment process was very painful for him. The medicine completes the superficial treatment and treats the symptoms but not the root cause, so he can only do this these years. As you said, he is often worried, afraid, inferior and helpless. Do you think I don’t want to help him? If there is anyone in this world who most wants to cure Well, it’s only me. But he doesn’t want to, and I can’t do anything about it. Seeing him in pain makes me feel very uncomfortable.”

Chang Geng loosened his frown: "You..."

Shen Chuxin seemed to have just realized what he had said, and smiled self-deprecatingly: "I am not your rival in love, you don't need to be so nervous. Xiaoyan needs me to be a friend, brother, relative, or other things, but I don't need I'm his lover. So, I can only do a role that he wants, nothing else is possible. I don't know why he accepts you, this is the first time he has opened up in so many years, I hope you don't Let him down, let alone allow you to hurt him."

Chang Geng said, "Do you have any advice?" He looked at Shen Chuxin raising his eyebrows, "Being Xu Yan's boyfriend, do you have any advice for me?"

"There is no lesson learned from the past, so you can only find out on your own. As for the others...he probably can't accept sex, so you'd better not stimulate him."

Chang Geng's appointment time ended, and when he left, Shen Chuxin said: "If he reacts aggressively, he must contact me immediately. As for receiving treatment, there is no indication at present, and it may not be a good time to intervene. Wait a little longer." .”

After Chang Geng came out of the hospital, he sat in the car and drove aimlessly.

When he was in Seattle, he made up his mind to come to Shen Chuxin.I didn't expect this kid's account to be so popular, and it took several days to grab it.

Originally, she was mentally prepared and expected that Shen Chuxin would keep her mouth shut, but she did not expect that he would tell the truth so frankly, not even hiding his own thoughts, which made him admire him.

As for Xu Yan's matter, he felt that he had to think about it.

When Xu Yan saw the small box last night, he couldn't hide the fear and flinch in his eyes, he saw it all, and felt pain in his heart.

I don't know what kind of treatment Shen Chuxin said would be very painful, drug injection?electric shock?

These thoughts made Chang Geng tremble twice, it's not a scumbag, why is it so scary.

Since Shen Chuxin said that now is not a good time to intervene, let's watch while walking.At most, I have to go to the bathroom a few more times.

Because the flight will be resumed soon, and because he has just been abroad for a month, Chang Geng feels that he has to go home today, otherwise his parents will be unhappy.It was only when I got home that I remembered that the two leaders were not at home on weekdays, only the grandfather and the nanny were there.

So he could only have a meal with grandpa, bragging, and asked the nanny to cook two dishes for him to take away, and Xu Yan could still eat ready-made ones when he came back at night.

Chang's mother came back from get off work and heard that the stinky brat just came back and ran away again. She settled Chang Geng's account on the phone for a long time.Chang Geng didn't dare to refute, he acted submissively and coaxed his mother for a long time.

the next morning.

There was an early shift to be performed, Chang Geng got up very early and tried his best to tiptoe, but he still woke up Xu Yan.

Xu Yan fell into a drowsy sleep, and asked in a low voice, "What time is it?"

Chang Geng leaned over and kissed him on the cheek: "It's still early, go to sleep."

Xu Yan went back to sleep.

After washing up and eating breakfast, Chang Geng had just changed when Xu Yan came out of the bedroom.

Chang Geng went over and hugged him, and said softly, "Woke you up again? Why don't you sleep more?"

Xu Yan shook his head in his arms and said, "Are you leaving?"

Chang Geng stroked his back gently: "Well, I have a task today."

Xu Yan wrapped his arms around his waist: "When will you be back?"

Chang Geng laughed so much like a child acting like a baby: "It will take four or five days to fly to London. Take good care of yourself at home and be careful."

Xu Yan's hands tightened a bit, he didn't lift his head, and his voice was muffled: "It took so long! I just came back for two days."

Chang Geng feels distressed.After returning from the United States, he stayed at home for only two days, and it was still a working day. Xu Yan had to go out early and return late every day.

Although it is helpless, there is really no way.He kissed the top of his head: "I need to make money to support my family, kid. Be good, it's time, I'm leaving."

Xu Yan lowered his head and followed behind him like a kitten, watching him lift the suitcase and go to the entrance to change his shoes.

After Chang Geng changed his shoes and put on his hat, Xu Yan suddenly stepped forward, stretched out his hand to straighten his tie, then touched the tie, and pulled it down hard, making Chang Geng's neck lower. He looked up and kissed her.

Chang Geng stretched out his hand to grab him, held him in his arms, and kissed him deeper, but soon let him go, hooked his fingers around his nose and said, "Okay, I can't kiss anymore, or I won't be able to leave. "

When the elevator door closed, Chang Geng saw Xu Yan's eyes outside the elevator, and sighed deeply: What should I do, I really don't want to go to work.