On the rebirth of the scumbags

No one stipulates what kind of occasions must be used to express love, or what kind of sentence structure must be used, must send roses?Must have a candlelight dinner?Must be well-dressed?

But in any case, confessions in the shower should be rare.

He had already said that he could do it, but he still had to wait not far away. Yu Qiusheng looked at Di Ze's foggy back through the foggy glass.

"I'm afraid something will happen to you."

He said so.

"What can happen to me?"

Having said that, Yu Qiusheng took a bath a little faster.

The shower gel of this hotel is very fragrant, a kind of fragrance that is not very popular, maybe because I like the smell of the shower gel, or it may be because of Di Ze not far away, Yu Qiusheng felt the long-lost peace of mind.

He raised his head and closed his eyes, feeling the warm water flowing from the shower to the face and then along the skin...

After Yu Qiusheng didn't reply for a while, Di Ze called him again.

"Autumn?"

"What's wrong."

"It's okay, I just wanted to call you."

Yu Qiusheng's mind still echoed what Di Ze said before, he said that he would not have to pay those debts anymore, he said he would pay them for him, and said that if Yu Qiusheng didn't like to do those things, he wouldn't do them...

Don't do it if you don't like it...

May I?

This sounds really tempting.

Out of a cautious attitude, Yu Qiusheng didn't say a word at that time, and he didn't agree. He asked, "How do you know?"

Di Ze seems to know his situation very well, even he knows that he is repaying the loan, 10,000+ is quite small for him, and he can say that he will pay it for him without blinking an eye.

Then since when did he stare at him?

Is this person... trustworthy?

After rinsing off the foam on his body, Yu Qiusheng walked out of the shower with wet hair. The dry bathrobes were neatly stacked and placed on the sink outside, along with slippers.

It looked like he had prepared it.

But Yu Qiusheng didn't wear slippers on purpose, but simply wrapped a bath towel around his waist, and stepped barefoot on the cold tiles, but within a few seconds, he was seen by Di Ze at the door.

"Why are you barefoot, you'll catch a cold."

When Di Ze walked up to him, he first bent down to put on the slippers for him,

Yu Qiusheng stared at the hair on the top of his head, and said softly, "Di Ze, I'm not worth it..."

"Whether it's worth it or not is not up to you, it's me."

After putting the shoes on for him, Di Ze first put one of the bathrobes on him with a bit of compulsion, and took another dry towel to wipe his wet hair, muttering while wiping.

"You are too thin, you should eat more."

"Qiu, why are your hands still so cold?"

"It will be fine in a while."

The warm air from the hair dryer and the temperature of Di Ze's fingers running through his hair, he stood behind Qiusheng like a wall, and his broad and strong chest conveyed a sense of security.

Let Yu Qiusheng's tense body relax unconsciously, this change is subtle, and by the time he reacts, he has already leaned on someone's body.

His feet are warm, his hands are warm, and even his scalp is warm.

"But what can I give you in return?"

Yu Qiusheng whispered, as if talking to himself, "What can I do for you? I can't seem to do anything...it's worthless."

Di Ze put aside the slightly hot hair dryer. Yu Qiusheng's freshly blown hair was still a little frizzy. He touched some hair care essential oil on his hand, and wiped it on him carefully...

Yu Qiusheng pinched the edge of the bathrobe pocket anxiously with his fingers.

That feeling came again, it was an inexplicable powerlessness.

I don't know when, this kind of tiredness has been surrounding Yu Qiusheng. Every day, every step he takes, every word he says, and even every movement makes him physically and mentally exhausted.

This time before he was completely sunk in, his hand was wrapped in another warm palm.

"Qiu, when I told you that I liked you, I didn't mean that I wanted you to agree to be with me... or that I wanted something from you... no, no."

Di Ze grabbed Yu Qiusheng's shoulders and forced him to look up into his eyes. "Feelings have never been an equivalent exchange."

"What I told you before, that's what I want."

In the damp bathroom, the mirror surface with thin water mist reflects the intimate figures of two people, so intimate that there is no gap.

"..."

The facial features of the man in front of him are profound, and the affection in his eyes is indeed bewitching, and his expressions and movements are sincere enough to be irreproachable.

Yu Qiusheng, however, seemed to be in a dream, the picture in front of him was too beautiful, but it made him a little afraid and unbelievable.

"If Qiu feels sorry and must give me something..."

Di Ze leaned towards one side of his cheek.

"Then... give me a kiss."

"..."

"Okay, I was joking. ""

At this moment, Yu Qiusheng finally understood why he always felt that Di Ze was different from other lists.I only knew it was different before, but I can't say exactly what is different.

Is it the look in his eyes?Or the tone of voice when talking to him?Or when getting along, did he take care of himself intentionally or unintentionally?There were two times when he almost passed through and he just didn't see it?

Now Yu Qiusheng seems to be able to understand a little bit.

Di Ze already knew that "Yu Qiu" was Yu Qiusheng, and the others were looking at who made the perfect "Yu Qiu".And he was looking at Yu Qiusheng in the "Yu Qiu" skin.

He seemed to be confessing to himself, but he didn't seem to be confessing.

After all, Di Ze only had calmness on his face.

He spoke from his heart, saying that he had known him a long time ago, those embarrassing things he had been embarrassed about, how many jokes he had made about how uncomfortable he was when he first arrived abroad, and so on.

Talking about how bad he was, he told others that no one is perfect.

Yu Qiusheng didn't take Di Ze's words to heart at first, but as he narrated, he finally understood what he said about the former acquaintance.

"Qiu, do you remember the first time we met?"

Meeting Yu Qiusheng again, Di Ze would never have thought that one day this person would be associated with words like inferiority complex.In the gym before, when Di Ze did all kinds of training, he thought it would be Xiao Qiusheng's smile at most, like the bright sunshine.

It is precisely because Di Ze has seen Yu Qiusheng's radiant appearance that he feels heart-wrenching pain for every moment of his gloomy and drooping eyes.

"Sorry...I, I don't remember very well."

It is true that Yu Qiusheng can't remember clearly. Who can remember what happened in elementary school so deeply? Firstly, he is too young, and secondly, there are also factors that he himself is trying his best to avoid recalling.

He himself doesn't want to recall what it was like when his father didn't get involved in gambling and the family was still happy. The more he thinks about it, the more it will reflect how bad his life was afterward.

"Actually, I don't remember exactly what you said."

Yu Qiusheng pursed his lips, "I'm really sorry."

Di Ze's breathing was stagnant, and Yu Qiusheng's every move made him feel distressed, "Why are you apologizing? It's not your fault."

What does Yu Qiusheng need to apologize for?Is it normal for him not to remember?Why even feel guilty about it?

After all, the two of them just met once, and most of the time, he just looked at him one-sidedly. From the window of his bedroom, he could see the play area of ​​the community.

In the past, Di Ze could often see Yu Qiusheng doing his homework on the stone table, and occasionally playing with a few classmates, and occasionally when others were playing chess, he would concentrate on watching the game beside him.

"It's better if you don't remember it."

Di Ze stroked Yu Qiusheng's hair on the temples, "Maybe you don't like me when you think of my terrible appearance at that time, what should I do?" He said in a relaxed tone, "After all, I was so ugly back then, and I was so ugly. Fat and ugly...I wish you couldn't remember."

"Hey, you don't know how much I weighed at that time, do you?"

Yu Qiusheng didn't speak, he must have sensed Di Ze's intentions in what he said now, the reason why he brought up the past and showed him his scars was just to comfort him.

He also said that he looked for him after returning to China...

This is really strange.After such a long time, he realized that in this vast sea of ​​people, among the more than 70 billion people on this huge earth, there was such a person who once looked for him.

Been to their hometown, to the school he used to attend...

"But I..." Yu Qiusheng blinked his dry eyes, "I might not like you..."

Saying yes, he hurriedly added: "No, what I mean is, I still don't know what my feelings for you are..."

This, this is too fast...

Yu Qiusheng himself still can't respond to Di Ze's passionate feelings like him, and he has been so busy in the past that he didn't even have a moment to spare, so naturally he never liked anyone.

What is liking, he has no idea at all.

How dare you accept another person's confession casually.

What's more, this person is still of the same sex.

Di Ze was not surprised by his answer at all.

"I don't need your response, if I have to say what I want from you." Di Ze bent down slightly, and hugged Yu Qiusheng horizontally.

"I definitely hope that Qiu can be free from illness and disaster, and be happy, but right now."

He put Yu Qiusheng on the bed, bent down and kissed Yu Qiusheng on the forehead.

"Don't think about anything, go to sleep."

Dize had indeed recognized Qiusheng long ago, but he still acted with him, but because of his own selfishness, if he pretended not to know anything, the love game between the two of them would last longer.

God knows how happy he was and how hard he tried to restrain the corners of his mouth every time he met Yu Qiusheng who took the initiative to hold his arm, called him brother one by one, and acted like a baby at him on the street.

"I regret it, I should have told you sooner."

It wouldn't be such an embarrassing scene...

The bathrobe in the hotel was a bit too big, and Yu Qiusheng's body was a bit loose, revealing his collarbone and a little shoulder. His hair was a bit warmer under the light, and Yu Qiusheng didn't know what he was thinking, but his thin appearance made him feel distressed.

Di Ze wanted to hug Yu Qiusheng again, put his hand on his waist, and felt how it could be so thin, and was feeling emotional when the sudden stabbing pain on his shoulder caught Di Ze completely off guard.

"?!"

He didn't expect that Yu Qiusheng would suddenly open his mouth and bite his shoulder. The bite was very sudden, not the kind of pretended bite, and it was really hard.

The tingling sensation was transmitted from the shoulder to Di Ze's brain. You don't need to look to know that there is a high probability that you will be bitten and bleed. After all, the bite force of an adult man is not a joke...

But Di Ze didn't seem to feel the pain, and while relaxing his body as much as possible, he attached his palm to the back of Qiusheng's head and stroked it gently, as if he was comforting Qiusheng or encouraging him.

Not only did he not resist at all when he was bitten, he even turned his head slightly to make Yu Qiusheng bite more smoothly.

"It's okay, it's okay, I'm here."

Di Ze was like coaxing a child in a nightmare, with a gentle tone.

Gradually, the force of the bite became smaller and smaller. As for Yu Qiusheng, who let go of Di Ze as if he just woke up from a dream, he didn't seem to know why he suddenly wanted to bite.

He blinked his dry eyes first, and only realized how hard he had bitten just now when he saw the faint red color on Di Zebai's shirt, so that even the cloth was covered with his teeth marks.

It hurts just looking at it, Yu Qiusheng reached out to touch it.

"Does it hurt..."

"It's okay." Di Ze covered his mouth, "Don't say sorry."

"Qiu is not wrong, and there is no need to apologize." Di Ze sighed softly, "Don't always blame everything on yourself."

"You shouldn't be like this..."

"You're so tired..."

Di Ze's tone was obviously distressed...

Yu Qiusheng felt his eyes slightly hot, crying for the first time in so many years.

The things in front of him became misty, from the first drop of tears, to the second, to the third, more and more, Yu Qiusheng's eyes flowed out like a spring.

Di Ze hugged him even tighter, this scene was slightly reversed, obviously the one who was bitten was Di Ze, the one who bled was Di Ze, the one who was in pain was still Di Ze, but the one crying for no reason was Yu Qiusheng .

Qiu Sheng's body trembled, and the silent tears gradually became soft sobs, and then the voice became louder and turned into a soft whimper, and then gradually turned into a mournful cry, and finally wept until he couldn't breathe.

"me……"

He finally said that sentence, and said it extremely difficult.

"Woo...I'm really...so tired..."

Yes, it's so tiring. Teenagers are forced to experience the cruelty of life when they are ignorant. They are terrified all day long. They have no time for entertainment, and their minds are full of how to make money.

He even tried medicine, that is, the kind of medicine that has not yet been marketed as a guinea pig, and paid for the course of treatment. The reward is called nutrition fee. How can he get better if he tortures himself like this.

"Ugh... I... I..."

Tears soaked the cloth on Di Ze's shoulder, obviously he didn't feel any pain from being bitten like that just now, but now a few drops of temperatureless tears gave Di Ze's shoulder a burning sensation like being scalded.

The burning sensation spread to Di Ze's heart.

"Hey, I know, it's over... There will be no future."

Di Ze held his face in his hands and kissed his tears away.

It was really late at that time, after coaxing Yu Qiusheng to almost fall asleep, Di Ze wrapped him tightly in the quilt and was about to leave quietly.

As soon as there was a little movement, I felt a little tugging.

It was Yu Qiusheng who was tugging at Di Ze's sleeve.

"You... don't go."

At that moment, Di Ze was so flattered that he couldn't believe it, and Yu Qiusheng who said such words was also very embarrassed, his whole ears were red.

"Don't... go."

"Okay, okay, I won't go, I won't go, I won't go."

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