kiss Me

At that time, he hadn't made it clear to Qin Shu, or even revealed his untimely liking, but only appeared in Qin Shu's social circle as his younger brother.

So naturally, many senior girls found him and asked him to hand over some small notes like love letters to Qin Shu——at that time, he was not very jealous, and he didn't mind people coming to watch his moon, and he was even a little nervous. And proud pride.

But the postman will always get bored after working for a long time, especially when he mixed his own writing into the pile of notes again and again and handed them to Qin Shu, but there was no response as expected, and the frustration subtly wrapped around him. He, even with those pink notes in the drawer, became hideous.

So he wanted to go on strike for the first time, and packed up the girls' wishes that he had handed over and threw them into the trash can.

At that time, he hadn't come into contact with the dark side of Qin Shu's character, wishful thinking that his brother, like him, was a "good guy" who respected other people's wishes, and he was very nervous for a while, worried that if his small actions were discovered, he would make the other person angry.

In the end, he stood in front of the school's garbage truck and tried to convince himself before the car drove away, thinking that there is an old saying that barefoot people are not afraid of wearing shoes. If he finds out, he will be criticized at most - he is not afraid of Qin Shu getting angry, he has never seen it before, so he is not afraid.

He is very smart, he used the time difference between junior high school and high school to throw things away, and made an excuse for himself "I've been in the studio recently, and I don't have a chance to collect small notes". Qin Shu didn't notice the difference at all. The matter could have been concealed like this, and then let it go.

But he was too kind and failed to convince himself of his excessively abundant empathy in this regard. Afterwards, he still regretted it. He felt that it was not good to ruin others like this. At least the right to destroy should be left to Qin Shu.

So he earnestly wrote a letter to admit his mistakes, did not deliberately change his handwriting, and even used a very special stationery that could be seen at a glance as his aesthetic, and other notes that appeared on his desk inexplicably and asked him to hand them over Together with the note, it was handed over to Qin Shu face-to-face—he later handed over the love letter in the same "blatant" way, which is another story.

Unexpectedly, Qin Shu finished reading the letter as he said, but didn't bother with him. He just threw those "girly feelings" into the trash can in front of him, and then told him in a coaxing tone that sooner or later he would have to throw them away. Don't take it too seriously.

That may have been the first time he vaguely and half-believingly glimpsed the dark side of Qin Shu's indifference, and began to realize that this person's understanding of "emotion" might be a little weird.

——After a long time, he finally realized that things like "emotion" should not have appeared in Qin Shu's life.

He didn't bring his pajamas. He was wearing a shirt that had been washed and dried on the first day. The conditions here were limited, and there was a strange scent of flowers hanging from the collar, which was a little greasy. Even if you have a cold and your sense of smell is blocked, you can smell it. arrive.

He sighed in the sweet fragrance, and unbuttoned two shirt buttons, while stroking the glass button on his chest, which was warmed by body temperature, he thought of that question again.

What if their relationship was a false proposition from the start?

To put it more cruelly, whether it is family affection or love, is Qin Shu really indispensable in his life?

He suddenly felt that their relationship was a bit like a clichéd youth movie, a hopeless gangster who fell in love with a good student who was both good in character and academics. Similarly, not everyone is as romantic as I am, can't live without love, and can't even find much evidence that the other party likes me too.

A top student, who lives in an ivory tower from birth, has a bright future, and it is understandable that he does not understand the feelings of ordinary people.

Of course he knew that they were in love now, and he knew it from the very beginning, otherwise he would not have been so determined to seek the answer from the beginning to the end, and tried again and again without fear.

It's just that he used to stand on his own standpoint, and he was concerned about whether he could get the response he wanted. This relationship has become his ideal form, but he hasn't changed his position from Qin Shu's perspective. Think about the other party Do you also need these illusory things.

Because Qin Shu is too used to him, pampering him without temper or bottom line, and occasionally escaping, he will be entangled again as a matter of course-in this relationship, he is always the favored party.

He'd been pampered for so long that he didn't start thinking about these issues until they actually started dating, all these years later.

So sometimes he knows that Qin Shu is protecting him, doesn't show abnormal possessiveness in front of him, doesn't even ask about many of his private life, just acts as a listener who can give a response at any time, but instead hopes that the other party can ask more A few words - so that at least he can be sure that he is needed instead of relying on the other party unilaterally.

Thinking too much - he shook his head, contradicting himself in his heart - Qin Shu wasn't that kind of character in the first place.

There is always someone who can live alone without all social relationships, does not rely on anyone and does not place hope on anyone. He knows better than anyone else that Qin Shu is the kind of person who is so indifferent and unreasonable.

What's more, they chatted much more frequently in the past two days than before, and Qin Shu gradually took the initiative to send him some "non-essential" messages, which was already a good change.

He was afraid that Qin Shu would be worried, that those abnormal jealousy would grow into thorns between each other, so he chose to deal with Wang Han's crossing the line alone, and he didn't say a word about these things or show any strangeness, so he couldn't ask Qin Shu Ask him abnormally.

It can be regarded as progress, he thought, after all, a few months ago, he would still deliberately make people jealous to show his presence, he is a naive liar.

Although he is not sure whether such progress is a good thing.

Just like in the past, he was always free, with a romantic and absurd character, out of tune with the world, he couldn't figure it out, and he didn't have to worry about being caught by someone.

But now that he voluntarily gave up this freedom, stopped playing some deliberate scheming, and obediently handed over his true self to the other party, he seemed to have lost.

If it was Lin Wu in normal times, he would soon realize that he was digging into a dead end, and then choose to temporarily interrupt his thoughts, so as not to let himself be trapped by trivial and unsolvable problems.

But sick people always lack a sense of security, so they fall into the same trap endlessly, circling in the huge illusion of isolation and helplessness, and finally lose in the desire to depend on what they can't ask for.

Looking at the hazy moonlight, he fell into a dream with such a desire to depend on what he couldn't ask for, and naturally dreamed of Qin Shu.

is a nightmare.