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"Brothers, brothers! My goddess—damn, she agreed!"

Zha Zhahua yelled, but only one person in the dormitory responded—the last night I organized a group to watch a horror movie, and the remaining two roommates were so frightened that they went out together early in the morning, saying that they got up early in the morning to embrace the sun, Demons and ghosts are not haunted.

Lin Wu hadn't woken up not long ago, but he woke up from his yelling, and poked his head out, his hair was disheveled like a golden bird's nest, and he didn't have the mood to get up: "Are you promised to be together?"

"That's not true, but she promised to go out with me!" With an excited face, she threw down her bag, held her mobile phone under his bed, showed the chat history with a few words on the screen, and reacted belatedly , scratching his head again, "Are you alone?"

The only listener was lying cross-legged under the thin quilt. He thought the plank bed was hard, and was lazily moving his shoulders and neck. Hearing this, he looked down at him, with one hand propped on the railing, and made a sign of cooperation with great interest: "Well, it's going well—— Where are you going?"

"I have no idea, I just came back to learn from the scriptures." When this matter was mentioned, the roommate's face wrinkled into a ball, and he grabbed his hand and said in distress, "Hey, Xiao Lin, you seem to have a lot of experience, what's wrong with you?" Any suggestions?"

Rich experience...Lin Wu calmly withdrew his hand, tasted these four words one by one, and felt that he should prove his innocence: "I have no experience, and I have only liked one person since I was born. At present... it is considered dating. middle."

After all, he added under the shocked gaze of the other party: "However, I still have a little understanding of feelings. I often act as someone else's wingman. It's good to go to the mall on the first date. It's good to go shopping for ordinary meals and pay timely. Patience is a plus in the eyes of women—by the way, if you have patience with children and small animals, you will get more points."

"Going shopping..." The roommate leaned weakly on the bed ladder, the previous excitement was gone, but the distress was even worse, "I only have [-] living expenses left for this month. I play games to buy clothes, and I plan to go to school in the afternoon. Hairstyle... Hey, Xiaolin, I wish I was as handsome as you, and I don’t have to worry about being liked by anyone.”

Lin Wu blinked, raised his hand in a daze to straighten his messy hair, and thought to himself that he should dry it obediently after washing next time: "Where do you spend money for so many places?"

"I just went to college, I see everything new, and I want to change my image - don't tell me, if it weren't for this outfit, the goddess might not be able to take a fancy to me."

Lin Wu nodded, recalled his original intention, and patted the other person on the shoulder to express comfort: "I can lend you the money for the date first."

"Ah? Don't you also fall in love? It's a waste of money..."

Associating the word "love" with a specific person, the boy's expression softened unconsciously, he swallowed the words "I'm not short of money" and replaced it with "I eat soft food" ——It is meaningful and straightforward.

"Go get your hair done. I think your face shape suits you so you don't need to be too ostentatious." He took the phone, lowered his head and said while typing, "I should start dating."

The weekend of the first week of school is usually the most idle time in the whole semester—even Meng Qi, a workaholic, took a day off to go shopping with his sister, Qin Shu was the only one left in the dormitory, and it was rarely quiet .

Maybe it was because he got tired from squatting early a few days ago, Lin Wu was also abnormally quiet today, and there was no movement until ten o'clock.

Qin Shu finished processing the news left over from the night before, and opened the space to take a look—except for the work of the school council, he seldom checked QQ, but there was a storm of Lin Wu being trafficked on WeChat, and recently he only occasionally checked it. Go to the confession wall and seriously consider whether, as the vice president of the student union, you have the responsibility to correct this trend of selling private information.

He had a clear purpose, and he slid down one by one as if he was dealing with official business, his expression was always as calm as water, until he caught a glimpse of a certain photo before he narrowed his eyes and stopped.

The person in the center of the thumbnail is wearing a white shirt, has blond hair, and is rarely flamboyant among his peers. The accompanying text of the photo submission is "Broken love, best wishes", followed by two crying emoticons, and comments below A lot, the content is similar.

It seems to be Lin Wu and a girl he doesn't know—holding a painting kit bag with a roll of rice paper poked out in his hand, and he also took it for the other party in a rather gentlemanly manner. Judging from the sky in the background, it should be a festival that needs An evening class using Chinese painting materials.

Let's send him to the cross-district class in the future.The young man's eyes darkened slightly, and he thought silently.

Qin Shu's feelings for Lin Wu are actually very contradictory.

On the one hand, when he was still trying his best to be a qualified elder brother, the care and warmth were not mixed with water, and they were not as clear-cut as when he got along with others. Lin Wu is the son of his mother's best friend, entrusted by the parents of both parties. His younger brother is also a child who trusts him unreservedly from the moment he knows the matter, so he must take it seriously. Over time, he gets used to it and becomes a part of his life, so there is no need to discuss how much sincerity is involved in it.

But this was only before the age of 16, when he simply regarded Lin Wu as his younger brother.

When he was 16 years old, he received an anonymous love letter, mixed with seven or eight other letters, which was "delivered" to him by Lin Wu.

Of course he could recognize the child's handwriting, and he suddenly realized like a thunderbolt that the child's excessive dependence on him seemed to be something that could not be explained simply by coquetry.

However, he is indifferent by nature, has precise control over his own life, and his personality is always perfect, and "feelings" are not in his plan-in line with the idea that children's hearts should be taken seriously, this is the first time in his life that he set foot on the In this field, I began to consult all the ancient and modern books and materials I could find, trying to understand the strange and solemn concept of "love".

Then he realized that his understanding seemed to be different from others, he was not interested in ordinary romantic and sweet feelings, but resonated with some twisted love.

It's like walking together on the road that started with "closeness, affection and care", but deviated from the direction while walking, most people are heading towards "lingering", "romantic" or "deep love", but there are only dark words in front of him bars, each pointing to "damage".

The ghost hidden in his heart is composed of paranoia, possession, abuse and all emotions that cannot be seen, cold and viscous, dirty and absurd.

He couldn't even comprehend the lingering romantic love in his mouth, or the meaning of hugs and kisses - the only thing that could arouse his inner turmoil was Lin Wu's frown in pain and the embarrassment he endured after being hurt by him.

No, maybe he knew it a long time ago, otherwise he would not have taken such a homonym from his foreign name when naming the child. Obviously there are many words with the same pronunciation, and there are also many words with beautiful meanings... But Lin Wu Never asked, has been used to this day.

Realizing that his possessive desire for children may be mixed with ambiguity, pointing to some dirty greed, his first reaction is to restrain himself, warning himself that he can only treat the other party as a younger brother, and act as a responsible elder brother all his life, lest love Crazy growth, unknowingly hurt each other.

However, there are some things that he doesn't want to control, so they can be sealed to a watertight.

As Lin Wu's pursuit of him became more and more straightforward, he gradually began to waver, and tried to understand ordinary people's love in the past.In the third year of high school, he deliberately chose a person who looked similar to a child and had a similar personality among many suitors. He made three chapters with the other party, explained his purpose and nature, and began to learn from ordinary people in exchange for a period of public communication. view of love.

Then naturally it failed.

The foreign girl knew that he didn't love her but still agreed to date her. She was more or less pregnant with the idea of ​​impressing him, but after a few months, she made no progress. Cursing and begging again, after tossing all night, they finally broke up under his indifferent gaze - there was a small episode in it, so it's worth not mentioning it.

Until now, he still indulges Lin Wu, takes whatever he wants, and even agrees to such absurd request as trying to date, but there is always an alarm bell hanging in his heart, forcing himself to treat him only as a younger brother, and not to cross the line, lest he almost risk it like three years ago. Lose control and do things that hurt children.

Fortunately, it is true that he is not emotional. Like the foreign girl said, he is as dull as a cycad tree, an old cypress tree that hasn't bloomed for a hundred years, and can turn a blind eye to even the hints sent to him, at least Lin Wu's usual tricks It doesn't work for him, as long as he deliberately understands it as a child acting like a baby, the ghost in his heart will not show its original shape.

After three months, the relationship ended, and he no longer had to endure the torment of inner conflicts—even though he couldn't be sure whether there would be "five months" or "seven months" after three months, but with his love for Lin Wu Understand that when you say that request, the emotion in the eyes of the other party is not inevitable, but desperate.

But... the young man adjusted his glasses, looked at the candid photos that were magnified several times in front of him, and felt that the other party had made a mistake—in the intersection of conventional love and him, he was not only not slow to be "jealous", but also very special Sensitive, possessive so much that even he himself feels absurd.

The phone vibrated, as if Lin Wu had woken up and sent him a "Good morning".

Qin Shu glanced at the already sunny sky, but decided not to pursue the matter through the screen at this time, thought for a moment, and replied: "Is there any arrangement for today?"

"Brother, is this a date?"

Taking someone to have brunch before visiting the campus, Qin Shu didn't know what kind of date this was: "It doesn't count, I just showed you the school."

In fact, many places were being renovated, and there was nothing to see. He just asked Lin Wu to come out to do some boring things close to declaring his sovereignty because he was a little concerned about confessing to the photo on the wall.

Lin Wu was noncommittal, and naturally stretched out his hand to climb his arm, and asked, "Then...as a boyfriend, even if it's not a date, shouldn't we hold hands?"

The answer this time was straightforward and expected: "The influence is not good."

As if he didn't hear it, the young man interpreted all his ambiguous answers as acquiescence, and the hand holding his arm moved down naturally, slipped into his palm, and interlocked his fingers.

Qin Shu didn't stop him, and took him across the school's iconic bridge like a formality, slowed down, and asked gently, where he wanted to go next.

He was wearing a loose long-sleeved sweater today, and his two intertwined hands were hidden in the sleeves. It looked like Lin Wu was holding his sleeves—it really wasn’t an illusion. He was much more restrained than he remembered. If it was placed three years ago, this little trouble would have deliberately pulled up his sleeves to let others see clearly.

"Hmm... there's nothing interesting in school, but I heard that there is an exhibition at the West City Art Museum recently. One of the authors is a professor who taught me in high school. I planned to go and see it next week when I was free. It's a bit far away. Do I want to go? "

It’s approaching noon, take the subway for two hours and then transfer to the bus. It’s probably close to closing when the museum is there—it’s rare to go there, and you can stay nearby for one night on the grounds that you can’t enjoy yourself, and then watch the exhibition the next day. If you have a good temper, you probably won't refuse.

After thinking for a while, Qin Shu nodded his head as expected: "It's a bit far away, can we make it in time today..."

"It's too late," the little liar said calmly, "Take the subway directly, let's talk about it after we go."

With a hint of coquettishness on the hook, Qin Shu would not refuse.