kiss Me

"Brother... um, why—!"

The rain was much heavier than when they went out, and it made a mess of the street lights, making it difficult for people to see the way ahead.

Lin Wu was somewhat repulsed by such a cold night rain. He would unconsciously think of the night when his mobile phone battery was exhausted and he was alone in a foreign land. He subconsciously leaned towards Qin Shu, lowered his head, and completely handed over control of the direction to Qin Shu—— ——Qin Shu didn't bully him at this time, but put his arm around his shoulder to comfort him consciously or unconsciously, and leaned most of the umbrella to his side.

He just didn't speak, which made his heart pound, hesitating whether to find an excuse to expose it in time, or go further and further to defraud his brother--accidentally, he was fascinated by the thought, and when he looked up again, there was no sound of wind and rain left. It was so quiet that it seemed familiar.

Underground Parking Lot.

A few months ago, he was kissed here by Qin Shu until he was about to die. For the first time in his life, he was directly exposed to his brother's dark desires that were different from ordinary people.

He watched Qin Shu put away his umbrella and throw it on the ground making harsh noises. Before he could ask a question, he was pulled into the shadows without warning.

Qin Shu leaned over to hug him, his arms wrapped around his shoulders, and the familiar scent of white sandalwood enveloped the sky, but it was not as reassuring as usual, but full of aggressiveness—it was a posture that he could not break free from. More like confinement than hugging.

He had no resistance to Qin Shu at all, his legs went limp the moment his breath merged, and he had no sense of the danger to his prey, instead he took the initiative to reach out and hug him, trying to maintain a little useless balance.

Then he heard Qin Shu call his name softly, his tone was still steady, but the ending trembled a little, like some kind of helpless torture: "Where did you go...why did you lie?"

Lin Wu was startled, and met his gaze in the dim light, only to realize that there was something quiet and dark in his eyes, as if a gap had been torn from the long-standing restraint and forbearance, and the balance he was trying to maintain suddenly suddenly It collapsed, exposing the paranoia of the invisible light underneath.

Then he suddenly realized that Qin Shu didn't have enough sense of security in matters related to him.

That's why she gets jealous so easily and has an excessive desire to control—but she's afraid of hurting him, so she always hides it in her heart so that he won't find out.

When those desires to control are fully satisfied, everything is fine, but when it is out of control-as it is now-this shaky calm and tenderness can easily collapse.

Such a straightforward sense of need made his heart burn, and he completely gave up the idea of ​​making excuses to lie. He couldn't give a reasonable answer, so he could only obey the instinctive impulse of this second, wrapping his arms around Qin Shu's shoulders and kissing him up. .

The underground parking lot is cold and dark, with a certain inorganic, raw smell, which is not suitable for kissing or flirting.

However, as soon as he closed his eyes, only the minutiae related to Qin Shu remained in the world, the arm wrapped around him, the cold fingers caressing his cheek, the body temperature mixed with water vapor, breathing, heartbeat - and the dying Kiss him as rationally as possible.

This kiss was long and gentle, not as menacing as he had imagined, and even thoughtfully stopped before his shortness of breath, and spread down finely and lingeringly.

With lowered eyes, Qin Shu kissed the corners of his mouth and chin, and finally stopped on his neck, mumbled in a voice that only each other could hear clearly: "Xiao Wu, don't leave me."

Lin Wu's shoulders trembled, and his Adam's apple rolled with his swallowing instinct. He couldn't figure out why this man clearly bit his most vulnerable place, and the tip of his teeth even brushed against his throat when he spoke, but he looked more like a passive party. There is no bargaining chip in the hole card, and the words spoken are like begging.

He didn't know what Qin Shu thought of before he said this, and how he came to the conclusion that he was going to leave from the mere hours of losing contact, but he knew that this must be a nightmare that had trapped the other party for a long time—too sleepy It takes a long time to breed such a desperate, paranoid but cautious affection.

It was like the first time he knew that those Gujing Wubo eyes could reveal such a strong love, mixed with stubbornness and pain, just one glance could make people fall.

Qin Shu straightened up and looked at him silently, as if he was waiting for an answer from him—he knew it well, he would do anything, as long as he opened his mouth to say something, even if it was an excuse, Qin Shu would accept it all , Reverting to her usual tight and gentle appearance.

However, when he met Qin Shu's gaze, his heartbeat accelerated uncontrollably, but he closed his mouth tightly, turned his eyes away, and shook his head silently.

He wants to hear more.

Seems like a little over the top.

Slowly breaking free from the suffocation, Lin Wu leaned against the wall, raised his head and inhaled heavily, trying to swallow the faint taste of rust in his mouth - without even thinking about it, he knew that his lip was bitten and his neck was broken. There was a dull pain on the side, and there were probably a few finger marks left.

It wasn't too uncomfortable, this level of pain was already acceptable to him, but his heartbeat was too fast, and his breathing seemed to be on fire, which made him feel a little helpless.

——It wasn't out of physical instinct, if you want to blame, you can only blame Qin Shu for repeating the phrase "Don't leave me" endlessly by sticking to his ear, so obstinate that it's almost morbid, but it pokes into his heart impartially, Like poison teased him out of his mind.

He instinctively reached out for a hug, but was pulled closer by Qin Shu by the wrist, making a helpless posture with his hands behind his back, and he could only keep his balance by resting his forehead on the other's shoulder.

"Why lie?"

Qin Shu asked close to his ear, his tone was as gentle as a goodnight kiss, but it made him fear for no reason—this was the third time he heard this question, if he didn't answer, it would probably be like the previous two times, Deprived of breath by the vicious sweetheart, drunk to death in the fierce kiss, hands and feet are weak, trembling all over, until the soul is messed up.

He was shuddered by the breath brushing past his ears, and he didn't know whether it was out of instinctive fear of the punishment that would follow, or because it hurt so much to pinch his wrist like this, and even his fingers began to feel numb. It became dull, and he turned around and stabbed at him like a traitor, which made his heart ache, and he suddenly felt aggrieved.

A child will be wronged if he is wronged, not to mention that he is an adult with a long mouth, it is one thing to blame himself, and it is another thing to be misunderstood by his sweetheart - besides, he has done nothing wrong, of course, he must hide the surprise from the person involved .

"I didn't lie." His throat was hoarse, like some aftereffect of being treated roughly, and he was sobbing wetly as he spoke, as if he was infected by his exaggerated accusation, and the fake tears were mixed with some truth Real feeling, "How could I lie to you...Brother, how can you think of me so much?"

His eyes were originally pale, but covered with a layer of water, they showed a fragile texture. Looking at him pitifully from bottom to top, one glance can make people feel soft-in fact, the number of times he lied to Qin Shu He couldn't count with two hands, but it didn't prevent him from crying like a fake show at this time.

Qin Shu was taken aback by his tears, and his rationality suddenly returned when he left. He didn't care about whether his tears were just a joke, so his tone softened unconsciously, and he instinctively argued: "No, brother didn't mean that... "

"You are," Lin Wu moved his wrist—this time he broke free without hindrance, but the throbbing pain caused by the backflow of blood still made him frown uncontrollably, his tone was soft and hoarse, and he couldn't speak. It's distressing, "Brother, I didn't hide it from you on purpose, I just wanted to prepare a birthday present for you, and it's not a surprise to say a surprise..."

His eyes were filled with water, and tears rolled down his cheeks in the blink of an eye, but he still stubbornly raised his head to look at Qin Shu, not wanting to miss any subtle reaction.

Qin Shu was startled, and seemed to have spent a few seconds to understand the meaning of his words. When he came back to his senses, the previous anger had long been completely replaced by regret and heartache—he had hardly seen Lin Wu cry like this. What's more, the culprit is still himself.

The little fox was pleased by the panic in his eyes, fearing that it would be ruined if he continued to look at each other, he pursed his lips and lowered his eyes to avoid further eye contact.

Qin Shu thought he was angry, his heart beat wildly, and his tone was rarely at a loss. He reached out to wipe away his tears, held his face like coaxing a child: "Don't be angry... it's my brother who made a mistake." It's over, I'm sorry."

His tone was sincere and gentle, quite different from the paranoid monster a few minutes ago—Lin Wu was coaxed by his contrast, and couldn't help laughing after holding back for a while: "Okay, I'm not angry, just want to see me cry How will you react—if you are angry, you will not always cooperate with you."

Qin Shu looked at the flashing water in his eyes, still frowning, obviously not convinced.

His suspicious look made his heart twitch, and he couldn't help but leaned forward and kissed Qin Shu's chin, and whispered in a sticky nasal voice, "Brother, did I say that I really like you?" Not so calm... just like before."

As I was talking, I suddenly remembered something, my ears burned, and I blushed a little, and added without embarrassment: "By the way, the birthday gift I just mentioned..."

Qin Shu's attention was all on his red eyes, and he didn't pay attention to any birthday presents at all. Hearing this, he said "Huh?" in a daze, seeing the vivid emotions in his eyes, he secretly heaved a sigh of relief.

"Well, let's just pretend that I haven't said anything, and the surprise should be kept until it's just right," he didn't want to say anything at first, but the atmosphere was just right, and he couldn't help but use this as a bargaining chip to fuel the flames. My son regretted it, so I could only act like this, "Don't ask me what the gift is in advance, I will definitely tell you if you ask..."

He looked like a little fox when he was doing the fake show, but now he showed a childish and straight-forward look... Qin Shu couldn't help but rubbed his hair, agreed with a serious tone, picked up the umbrella and led him out .

After walking a few steps, I suddenly remembered something, stopped in a place where the light was slightly bright, and held his hand, looking over and over again at the finger marks on his wrist: "Does it still hurt?"

Lin Wu shook his head, accepted the answer under his persistent gaze, and nodded honestly: "A little bit."

"Blame me," Qin Shu lowered his head, and kissed the flushed mark, the emotions in his eyes shook, and finally melted into guilt-like tenderness, "It won't happen in the future."

Lin Wu looked at his drooping eyelashes, and thought of some kind of butterfly by accident. After a moment of silence, she answered inconsequentially and asked, "Brother, I won't leave you."

It was quiet outside the parking lot, the sky was clear, and the rain had stopped.