stars run to him

Suddenly, Liao Yan got up and shouted: "That's because I want to atone for my sin!"

The teacup on the table was knocked down by his hand, and the cool tea spread on the table, Liao Yan's light-colored eyes were filled with sadness.

"The doctor said that if Xing Xing's glands cannot be treated in time, they will die later, but how can I have so much money to treat Xing Xing? So I have nightmares every day...I keep, keep dreaming about the pain of that day. Scene. I blame myself, and I hate him for arbitrarily advocating to protect me!"

He laughed miserably: "It's clear, it's clear that I was protecting him before. He's just a coward, a crying bag, and a useless fool. Why should he..."

He covered his face with his hands, his voice stopped abruptly, and his body continued to tremble.

That memory is always a pain that he can't erase.

They are identical twins, they should be the closest people in this world.But because of a Quling year, an accident that should have been avoided, he became a stranger.

"I can't...I can't face the injured star, and my self-blame is about to swallow me! Just, at this moment...Father suddenly chose me! I was suffering in my heart, and I didn't want to leave him, so My father 'did' me a favor."

"He said that he was willing to bear the cost of Xing Xing's treatment of the glands. In exchange, I would go with him immediately. He also promised me that he would ask the dean to help keep this condition a secret, so that I would leave... Xing Xing would not Guilty."

When it came to the word "guilt", he twitched his lips unresponsively, thinking that it was not appropriate.

What a natural condition, it seemed that deep in his heart, he instantly changed himself from a sinner to a victim.

Qu Lingnian cleverly gave him a chance to redeem himself.

This made him quickly convince himself that he left for Lin Yuxing, not for himself.

"I can't forget the way Xing Xing cried. He took my hand and begged me not to go... I told him, I will convince my father, and I will definitely come back to pick him up."

His tears did not fall for a long time, hovering in his eyes: "But I couldn't do it at all!"

How difficult it is to persuade a family to accept a disabled child.

From the very beginning, Qu Lingnian only wanted one child.

Gu Zhongyi can understand this, but the truth is not as simple as he thought.

Gu Zhongyi saw the emotional collapse of the person in front of him, and he heard the other person ask him: "Do you know why father wants to adopt Xingxing so much?"

Lin Yuheng, that is, Qu Xing, or rather, the current Liao Yan.He raised his eyes, tears streaming down his face uncontrollably.

But he didn't even blink his eyes, like an exquisite doll: "Because he and his wife had a child who died at the age of 7. That child looked very similar to our brothers. Especially the pair of eyes, Almost exactly like the stars."

Qu Lingnian's wife was so sad that she lost her mind because of the child's death.

It was only after he followed Qu Lingnian back to his home abroad that he discovered this little-known secret.

From a certain point of view, Qu Lingnian is indeed a "good father" and even a good husband.In the villa full of roses, he constructed a beautiful dream for his wife.

In the dream, their children did not die, and their wives did not go crazy.

Their family is still living happily.

"Father didn't want a child at all, he just wanted to find a substitute for his wife, the more similar the better. So Xingxing is the first choice. Without Xingxing, he chose me."

He said: "Qu Xing is not the name they specially chose for me at all. It is the name of their deceased child. What a coincidence, it is also called Xing Xing."

In his own life, he only worked as Lin Yuheng for 8 years before he became Qu Xing.

"After I went abroad, my father was very kind to me, and he almost responded to every request. I wanted to learn the piano, and he personally tutored me, even if I didn't have the talent. But he never scolded me for no reason, on the contrary... he actually favored me."

Except for his younger brother Lin Yuxing, he has never been favored or trusted by anyone.

He smiled wryly and said, "He treats me like his own child. My adoptive mother is even more so. After seeing me, her symptoms began to improve, or maybe they didn't improve at all."

How can a mother not recognize her child?

His adoptive mother gave him a maternal love beyond everything, which was the warmth he had never felt since he was born.

In this family, he has a father and a mother, and he often feels happy in a trance.

There is only one word that is forbidden in this family.

Qu Lingnian was very jealous of him mentioning Xiao Xingxing: "You are my child now, Qu Xing. You don't have a younger brother, and there is no way there will be a second child in this family. Your mother must not hear these words!"

Qu Lingnian called his new name very naturally and gently: "Qu Xing, I can't accept someone destroying my family, especially my wife. As our child, you should do your best to love your mother , can’t let her be stimulated any more.”

At that time, Qu Lingnian just bought him a brand new piano.

This is a gift and a warning.

"I will give you all the love I can, but if you don't obey, I will abandon you."

Then find another replacement.

Qu Lingnian has money and time.If this adopted son goes against his wishes, he will not hesitate to throw him in a foreign orphanage, and let Lin Yuheng live a helpless life in an unfamiliar place.

Qu Lingnian will take back all the love she gave him, and will make him pay the price for letting him down.

To Qu Lingnian, Lin Yuheng was nothing more than a tool to appease his wife, or a pet.

Under Qu Lingnian's intimidation and "love", 8-year-old Lin Yuheng gradually fell into this family warmth that he had never experienced before, and lost himself.

The superior living conditions turned him into the real young master of the Qu family.

He didn't let Qu Lingnian down, he was able to do everything well, and he became something that Qu's parents were proud of.

Once a person climbs out of the mud and feels the beauty of the sun, he can never go back.

Seeing that the time was almost up, Qu Lingnian began to brainwash him constantly: "You and your younger brother have different lives. This is your own destiny. No one has to be tied together. Without you, he can live a life like this." Very well."

But sometimes, Lin Yuheng would still think of Lin Yuxing, this poor brother.

For this reason, Qu Lingnian thoughtfully gave him a diary to solve his problems: "If you still miss him, write these down as a diary. It is not a bad thing to record your life and thoughts, but I really don't want to Heard anything from you about your brother."

So, when he was young, he hid his thoughts about his younger brother in his diary.As time passed, he began to forget about Lin Yuxing, and even put the only photo of the two of them together at the bottom of the drawer.

Writing a diary has also become a common habit for him.

Within a few years, however, that dream began to crumble.

Everything is an illusion, and "love" has become a shackle.

As he grew up, he became less and less like "Qu Xing".

His adoptive mother's impression of the child will always stop at the age of 7.Facing him who is growing up, the adoptive mother's mood is extremely unstable.

She has occasional seizures and returns to reality.

She would question him, where did her child go, and why was everything in the family replaced by him?She was hoarse, thinking that it was because of his appearance that the real Qu Xing would disappear.

When she is not sick, she will be like an ordinary mother, caring for her son in every possible way.She will prepare a sumptuous dinner at home for him after school, and she will knit a scarf for him who is afraid of the cold in winter.

But everything she did was for her real child, not Lin Yuheng who "occupied the magpie's nest".

In this oppressive environment, Lin Yuheng did not dare to do anything wrong, let alone behave like "Qu Xing".Because as long as there is a slight mistake, the adoptive mother will get sick.

Qu Lingnian often travels on business, but there is no nanny at home.

The reason is that the child who died young lost his life precisely because of a negligence of the nanny.Because of this, Lin Yuheng had to take care of his adoptive mother alone, bear her love and hate, and lived with her for nine years.

When he was 17 years old, Qu Lingnian, who was also tortured to the point of emaciation by his wife, brought in a new child.

This is the second little Omega boy to appear in this villa, and he has a somewhat similar face to the 7-year-old "Qu Xing".

Just like he came here back then, this kid will follow the same path as him.

And at noon one day after that, Lin Yuheng had inexplicable angina, and his whole body felt as if it was about to be torn apart. This feeling, it is not an exaggeration to say that he was hit by a car and flew away.He was covered in cold sweat, his lips were pale, and he passed out on the side of the road after a while, and was taken to the hospital by passers-by.

The doctor did not detect any discomfort in his body, and only told him not to put too much pressure on himself in the near future.

Qu Lingnian felt that this was an illness he had feigned in order to gain their attention.He was alone in the empty ward with no one to visit him, so lonely and frightening.

At this time, for some reason, he suddenly thought of his younger brother.

It occurred to him that Lin Yuxing might have been in this kind of loneliness all the time.

His heart began to ache, like thousands of needles falling, piercing his tears to soak the pillow.

He began to dream frequently about Lin Yuxing, about the accident that should have been avoided in the kitchen of the orphanage.

In the dream, Lin Yuxing looked in pain, with white smoke from hot water rising from his back, and a weak crying sound tortured people's hearts: "Brother, don't leave me... don't leave me... I will be good, and I won't mess with you in the future." Angry, really..."

As soon as the screen changed, the lights in the emergency room went out.

Lin Yuxing was covered in blood, stood in front of him, and asked him viciously: "You abandoned me, right?"

Lin Yuxing approached step by step, his eyes had no pupils.

"You ruined me, didn't you?!"

"what--"

Lin Yuheng struggled to wake up from the nightmare, sweat slipped from the corner of his forehead.

He was trembling, and under the moonlight in the middle of the night, he kept confessing.He prayed to God to make Lin Yuxing's life better, and even better, it doesn't matter even if he gives Lin Yuxing all his luck.

He is sorry for his brother.

It's just that he has no luck at all.

After having a new child in the family, the adoptive mother seems to have returned to the state of a few years ago.She regarded Lin Yuheng who lived at home as a guest, and introduced her son to him with a smile: "This is my little star, does he look very similar to me? He is very obedient, and he is a good boy who is considerate of me."

She smiled softly and stroked the head of "Qu Xing".

The new little "Qu Xing" smiled sweetly, and hugged her adoptive mother affectionately.This is a clever kid who knows how to please his adoptive mother better than him.

It's just that his presence often makes the adoptive mother in a trance, unable to tell who is her child.

Seeing this, Qu Lingnian mercilessly asked him to move out of the villa and live in a private apartment.

A year later, on his 18th birthday.Qu Ling approached him in the apartment in the past year, and gave him a card, which contained enough money for him to finish his college studies, as well as a sum of living expenses.

Qu Lingnian said: "You have grown up."

The meaning in the words is that the Qu family no longer needs to be responsible for him, nor need to take care of his life.

A card, a sum of money, Qu Lingnian thought he was benevolent and cut off the connection between them.

"If you stay here, your mother still bumps into you occasionally. It's not good. She can't stand the stimulation even more now. You are excellent, and you will be fine no matter where you go. It's just that you are wronged... to continue to use the name 'Qu Xing'. Of course, if you don’t mind the trouble, you can change it back.”

"..."

Lin Yuheng was speechless, he became a homeless orphan again.

It is rare for Qu Lingnian to show a trace of guilt, no matter what, they are all "family members" who have been together for many years.

"Didn't you always want to go back to China to find your brother? Go find him, maybe...he is still waiting for you?"

Hearing Qu Lingnian's words, he raised his head in surprise, with a self-deprecating smile in his eyes.

How can it be?

He also sneered silently inwardly.

It's been ten years, no matter how stupid Lin Yuxing is, it's impossible for him to still wait for a bad brother like him.

But he really wanted to know what Lin Yuxing was doing now and how he was doing?Is it still the same as in the dream, a little crying bag who often feels wronged?

After losing everything, he began to miss Lin Yuxing shamelessly.

Miss that little star who will never give up on him no matter what others say or do.

Lin Yuheng returned to China and entered C University to study.With the help of Xu Xiangchi, he has been looking for his younger brother, and he almost spent all the living expenses given by his adoptive father for this.But his younger brother, as if the world had evaporated, disappeared no matter what.

Until one day, when he and Xu Xiangchi went out to sketch, they ran into his aunt Lin Xiufeng.

Lin Xiufeng recognized him immediately.

He was overjoyed, and just when he thought he could finally reunite with his brother, reality gave him a blow to the head.

Lin Yuxing died.

Died in a car accident, at the short and hasty age of 17.

It is said that Lin Yuxing was on the way to work delivering food, had an accident on the sidewalk, died on the spot, and didn't even have the chance to be sent to the hospital for emergency treatment.

The date of the car accident and the time of Lin Yuxing's death were exactly at noon on the day when he had angina and was sent to the hospital.

It is said that twins have telepathy.

Maybe the moment he passed out was the moment when Lin Yuxing's heart stopped beating.

No wonder that kind of pain is so unforgettable, because it was the only feeling Lin Yuxing felt before he died, and it was like a cry for help, reaching his twin brother.

He was depressed, it turned out that he had lost his younger brother forever, the only relative.

He even couldn't find a single photo of Lin Yuxing's life in Lin Xiufeng's home.

Their uncle Cheng Rong was drinking heavily and cursing at the same time, ruthlessly satirizing Lin Yuxing as a loser, a bastard who died early.

"We spent so much money to support him, and in the end, he died before he returned the money to me! What an unlucky, unlucky thing, trading at a loss! Lin Xiufeng, look at these things in your house! I won't I should listen to you, I should have sold him earlier, and at least I can get back some money! Look now, look?"

Cheng Rong persevered and seized the opportunity, and insulted Lin Xiufeng.

Lin Xiufeng was busy with the work in hand without saying a word, her cheeks were wet with tears, she dared not speak out, or maybe she had no anger at all.

With this attitude, it was as if she also acquiesced to Cheng Rong's words.

It's not that she doesn't feel sorry for the dead Lin Yuxing, but she loves her son Cheng Shaohua even more.

After all, all her years of painstaking efforts were wiped out at the moment of Lin Yuxing's death.She couldn't think of anyone else who could help her take care of Cheng Shaohua in the future.

"..."

Only then did Lin Yuheng realize how miserable, how bad, and how helpless his younger brother had been in these years.Although he has lost everything now, he has also enjoyed the short-lived beauty in this world.

What about Lin Yuxing?

Lin Yuxing had nothing but suffering in the world, and finally died tragically in an unprovoked accident.

It's all because of him being an older brother.

He almost stumbled and ran out of Lin Xiufeng's house, and ran to a tight corner, retching constantly.

too disgusting……

Everything here disgusts him, including himself.

He choked his own throat, knelt on the ground, and pressed his head against the dirty wall, tears were the most useless thing at the moment.It's just that he has nothing but tears.

He hoarse throat, whimpering.

"It's my fault... I shouldn't have left, I shouldn't have listened to him and forgotten you... I'm sorry Xingxing, I'm sorry..."

He was atoned, and he must atone.

After that, all the suffering he experienced because of Xu Xiangchi was regarded by him as his own retribution, and he could not get rid of it.

He thought that if there was an afterlife, even if he risked his life, he would have to exchange for his younger brother's life.