stars run to him

When Liao Yan was in high school, his family moved to F city because of his father's job.He entered a high school with a majority of Alphas, and suffered severe school violence here.

The person who took the lead in bullying him was Xu Feiqing, who had a bad character.

The reason why he was bullied was very simple. It was just that, as a transfer student with excellent appearance and grades, he was unwilling to accept the "olive branch" offered by Xu Feiqing and refused to join the small group headed by Xu Feiqing.

Liao Yan even stopped them from bullying classmate Beta once.

In this way, Liao Yan, a well-behaved boy who never knew how to fight, became the new bullying target in the school.Under Xu Feiqing's arrogance and unreasonableness, no one dared to stand by Liao Yan's side.

During this gray time, he was isolated, attacked, stripped naked and photographed, and forced to do many things he did not want to do.

He was even ridiculed: "Can someone like you be an Alpha? Or spread your legs and be an Omega."

Liao Yan had no choice but to ask the teacher for help, but what he got in exchange was more intense bullying after a short period of stability.Relying on his relatives' family's little power in F city, Xu Feiqing acted like a dominator.

At that time, Liao Yan's father encountered difficulties in his work and often worked overtime to the point of exhaustion.The mother also ran around because of the frequent hospitalization of the grandfather, worrying endlessly.

Liao Yan, who has always been sensible, wanted to speak several times, but swallowed the words abruptly.

Knowing the hard work of his parents, he hid his own suffering in his heart, and thus suffered from severe depression.

From then on, Liao Yan no longer shined brightly.He kept thick bangs, put on rustic glasses, hunched his back, and tried hard to reduce his sense of existence.

He became less confident and less cheerful.

Xu Feiqing's behavior did not restrain himself because of his weakness, and the bullying continued.

But excellent people are always excellent, even so, Liao Yan was admitted to C University successfully.

My father also solved the difficulties at work and was promoted smoothly.Grandpa's health has improved a lot, and mother no longer frowns.

It seems that everything is going in a good direction.

But one night, Liao Yan jumped from upstairs without warning.The awning saved his life, and he was rushed to the hospital in time to recover.

During that summer vacation, Liao Yan was so thin that it seemed that only a skeleton was left in his body.

He was lying on the hospital bed, looking at the sunny sky outside the window, his expression was in a trance.Liao's mother was heartbroken and sat by his bed crying, while Liao's father stood silent.

A month later, Liao's father resigned from his job.They moved out of that uncomfortable city and came to City C.

Father Liao found a new job where he didn't have to work overtime often, and his salary was much lower than before. Fortunately, he had some savings at home and was not short of money.Together with Liao's mother, he took care of his son wholeheartedly.

The hospital has become their most frequented place.

Slowly, Liao Yan began to eat normally and go to C University to attend classes normally.He has regained a little weight, but he doesn't like to talk.

Liao's mother often dreamed that her son left her again, so she began to take care of him every step of the way, even going to school with her.

Liao Yan had a lot of classes, so she hired someone to help Liao Yan relieve the pressure.Liao Yan has no friends, so she just wants to be that friend.

Her cautiousness, meticulousness, and sincerity became a wall for Liao Yanxin, making him breathless.It was as if there was a voice reminding Liao Yan all the time: You are not normal.

Liao Yan wanted to become "normal", but he couldn't.

His heart is like maggots after rot, and his person is like a walking corpse wandering in the world.

In the middle of the night, barefoot, he silently went to the living room to pour water.

In the dark environment, the mother's cry and the father's low-pitched sullen voice could be heard faintly from the parents' room.

There was a ray of light through the crack of the door, which was supposed to be the bright side, but Liao Yan didn't know why, he felt that he was very far away from this light, so far away that he could no longer get close to it.

At this moment, his heart was beating slowly. He moved his steps and pressed his body against the door of his parents' room.

Those harsh words drilled into his ears.

"It was you who insisted on going to work in City F, and insisted that we go there with you, so Xiaoyan became like this!"

"What about you!" Liao's father did not show any weakness, and asked sharply, "What were you doing during that time? I have already said that you refused to bring your father to City F, saying that the old man has a stubborn temper and is not used to living there. .Well, he is used to living here, and you have done your filial piety! The one who sacrificed was Xiao Yan—”

"Are you blaming me now? Liao Fangguo, isn't that what you mean? You've been blaming me all this time!"

"Do I dare to complain?"

"Why don't you dare? I think you are very brave! After so many years, you know the work, how many times have you taken care of Xiao Yan?"

"I don't work, do I have to drink northwest wind at home? You take good care of that child, why is your character so cowardly under your care, and he doesn't even dare to talk about being bullied!"

"Xiaoyan is not cowardly! He is just too good, he just shouldn't go to that kind of high school in the city!" She mocked angrily, "Yes, if you want to work, you can only work."

"..."

"I will take care of the child, and I will also take care of the elderly on both sides of the family. Now that the child has a problem, it is my crime? You have no responsibility at all!"

"You don't even know that your child is being forced to smoke!"

…………

They complained to each other and scolded each other.

When self-blame can no longer smooth out the pain in their hearts, they start to vent their anger.In fact, everyone in their hearts knows that the most outrageous mistakes are themselves.

It was they who ignored the child, and they missed the moment when Liao Yan needed help the most.

Liao Yan listened for a long time, but he stood there motionless.

During the endless quarrels between his parents, a voice kept appearing in his mind: The most to blame is yourself.

Liao Yan took a step back feebly.

He hid in the room, squatted on the ground, and covered his ears weakly with his hands.

He curled up into a ball, fear crawling over every part of his body.

But this voice reminded him all the time that the situation today is all your fault.Like a mist, it trapped Liao Yan in the center, ruthlessly destroying his sick spirit.

The quarrel between his parents remained in his mind, repeated over and over again, breaking into Liao Yan's heart clearly, biting his reason.

"Don't, don't say..."

Liao Yan knocked his head against the wall, his voice sounded like a mosquito: "It's my fault... It's my fault... I'm sorry..."

It was his cowardice that led to today's situation.

It would be nice if he wasn't an Alpha, so that he wouldn't be conspicuous, and he wouldn't be targeted.

It would be great if his character was stronger, so that he would have the courage to fight back, and he would not have fallen to this point.

It would be great if his parents had a strong child, so that the family would not be broken, and he would not be the source of evil.

in case……

It would be nice to have someone who is completely opposite to his personality replace him.

Liao Yan muttered, and lay back on the bed, his empty eyes were looking at nowhere.

He is very tired.

He wants to be free.

On a certain day in October, Liao Yan cut his wrist and was soaked in the bathtub, staining a pool of blood.

He was almost out of breath when he was found.

In the corridor of the hospital, there was a layer of white light.

Mother Liao sat haggardly on the chair, and Father Liao thumped the wall heavily.

After a while, Father Liao asked hoarsely, "Is it right for us to do this?"

"..."

"If there is another time, let him go."

Liao's mother stared at Liao's father with gritted teeth, trembling, unable to pronounce a normal syllable.She groaned, her throat seemed to have been poured with cement, and it was so heavy that she kept sinking.

Liao's father knelt down with tears streaming down his face, before his wife: "Let's stop arguing, stop arguing. Let him go... The child is in so much pain, time and time again, how painful he is!"

Old age covered their brows.

Mother Liao turned her head and pinched her own arm silently and desperately, her expression was full of determination that if the child left, she would follow.

Their home was destroyed.

Without Liao Yan, their home would not be a home anymore.

Liao Yan was in a coma for several days, and he woke up on a rainy morning.

Liao's mother and Liao's father never left the hospital for a moment, they guarded the child like this until Liao Yan's eyes gradually cleared up.

"Xiaoyan! Xiaoyan, it's mother, and mother is here!" Mother Liao said hoarsely, her face was nearly ten years old.

Father Liao hurried to call the doctor.

Liao Yan breathed slightly, his eyes fell on Liao's mother's face, and then drifted to the white ceiling.He kept looking at the surrounding environment, which was both unfamiliar and extremely familiar.

Mother Liao called his name, but he didn't respond.

Soon, doctors and nurses came, they did a simple examination for Liao Yan, and asked if Liao Yan could respond.

But for some reason, Liao Yan was very unfamiliar with his own name.The doctor called him many times before he responded, his eyes were full of confusion.

Time passed by, Liao Yan seemed to be tired, and closed his eyes again.

He seemed to have had a very long dream. In the dream, he dreamed that he transferred to another school, was bullied, committed suicide, was rescued, moved, his parents quarreled, committed suicide again, and smelled the smell of disinfectant...

This dream was chaotic, he was like a bystander, and he was tired of watching.

When he woke up again, Mother Liao and Father Liao were still by his side.

"Xiaoyan, are you thirsty? Drink some water." Father Liao took the thermos over, his steps unsteady.The beard on his face hadn't been shaved for several days, and his rough hands tremblingly handed it to Liao's mother.

Mother Liao carefully put the water glass to Liao Yan's mouth.

Liao Yan took a sip, and his dry throat improved a lot.

Mother Liao saw that his expression was slightly relaxed, and asked gently: "Xiaoyan, do you want to eat? Mommy will go home and make it."

"..."

Liao Yan didn't speak, he looked at the two people in front of him suspiciously, no matter how much they cared, his eyes were full of distance.

"Xiao Yan, it's okay, Mom and Dad are by your side, it's okay." Liao's mother stroked his forehead, tears welling in her eyes, "It's mom who is sorry for you..."

Liao Yan just looked at her like this.

After a while, Liao Yan spoke hoarsely: "Who are you...?"

As soon as the words came out of his mouth, before his parents could react, he was frightened by his unfamiliar voice.

It's not his voice.

His body seemed to weigh a thousand catties, he ignored the panic of Liao's parents, and he struggled to get up even though he was still in the bottle.He pushed away Liao's mother who wanted to help him, and walked to the bathroom barefoot.

Father Liao stepped forward to catch him, but he yelled with all his strength, "Don't touch me!!" His eyes were full of anger, as if he had completely changed.

The well-behaved Liao Yan has never treated anyone like this since childhood.

Father Liao was in a trance, and the "son" in front of him stumbled into the bathroom of the ward and locked the door.

Liao's parents kept knocking on the door and shouting.

Inside the door was "Liao Yan" who opened his eyes wide in horror, facing the mirror.

"W-how... who is this? Who is it?!" He touched the mirror, desperately trying to get an answer, "I don't look like this, this is not me, this is not me... who are you?"

The "he" in the mirror only made the same movements and expressions as him, and couldn't answer him at all.

"I...how am I here?" His lips were pale, and what flashed in his mind was the car accident and the scene of the icy river submerging him.

It was the second time he had experienced death, and he thought he had finally atoned and it was over.

No, he opened his eyes again and turned into an Alpha who had no connection with him at all.

Is it a dream?

Without hesitation, he bit the back of his hand.The pain caused by the deep tooth marks was clear, clearly telling him that this was not a dream.He is in reality, but he can't see who he really is.

He asked the person in the mirror confusedly: "How could this happen...what the hell is going on here?"

He fell into a momentary confusion.

Outside the door, Liao's parents shouted "his" name.

"Xiaoyan, are you okay? Xiaoyan! Don't scare mom!"

Some nurses also called him: "Liao Yan, Liao Yan, calm down, don't be impulsive!"

The noisy voices made a mess, rushing into his consciousness like a flood.In my memory, it seems that two people live in at the same time.

One was him who sank into the river, and the other was Liao Yan who cut his wrist and lay in the bathtub.

He muttered to himself, clutching his head in pain.

"Liao Yan... Liao Yan?" He said, "I'm Liao Yan..."

wrong!

"I'm not Liao Yan!"

Suddenly, the door was opened by the nurse who brought the key, and the light from the outside shone into the windowless bathroom, making his eyes cry.

He is Qu Xing.

It was also Lin Yuheng who personally destroyed his younger brother's future in the orphanage, and then cruelly abandoned him.