What do you want to do

Looking at the envelope in his hand, Zeno couldn't hide his excitement.

This was his dream college admission letter. It was delivered to his home, and his father who took the newspaper in the morning took it into the house, opened it, and put it on the dining table after only looking at it.

Did not inform him, did not congratulate him.

Zeno is used to this kind of indifference, he is always the extra one in this family.

His brother Qi Bin, who is four years older than him, has graduated from university and has a good job.

He was just admitted to a university that was ordinary in the eyes of his parents, and he was from this city, so he was naturally forgotten.

The summer vacation passed quickly, and when others were either depressed or excited about enjoying college life, Zeno carried a hiking bag by himself, put some daily necessities in it, and started his own country life.

He went to the countryside to visit his elderly grandma and grandpa.

In fact, sometimes when I think about it, I should not be close to my parents. When he was born, his parents happened to be transferred by work, so they fostered him with his grandparents in the countryside, and then left for the city with his four-year-old eldest son. It's been seven years since I left.

When he was seven years old, he took him back to be with him. Zeno was not used to life in the city, let alone in the second grade of primary school. He was out of place in school and was bullied and excluded.

When I went home and cried to my parents who were busy with work, my parents would comfort and comfort him once or twice, but after too many times, it turned into boredom, I was too lazy to answer, and finally turned into reprimand.

It was also from then on that Zeno became the extra person in the family.

Brother Qi Bin has been the captain of the three good students since he was a child, and his younger sister can sing and dance, but he participated in many performances at a young age and won applause from the family. Only him, his grades are always mediocre and average.

From elementary school to junior high school to high school, the teacher Zino's evaluation is always only one sentence.An honest and steady child, he has no talent for learning.

He's used to this.

So when he told his parents that he was going to go back to the countryside to see his grandparents, his parents just told him not to make the old man angry, gave him the travel expenses, and then didn't say a word.

Sitting on the bus heading to the countryside, Zi Nuo took out his mobile phone and looked through it. There were several text messages, except for the one sent by the mobile service desk, only one was sent to him by Wu Tian.

Wu Tian should be regarded as his childhood friend. The two of them were destined. From the fifth grade of elementary school, Wu Tian transferred to the elementary school where Qi Nuo was.

After dialing Wu Tian's number, there was a slight smile on the corner of his mouth.

"Hello? Wu Tian?"

"Hmm... Zeno?... What's the matter?" Wu Tian's voice sounded as if he hadn't woken up, but that's right, it's only seven o'clock in the morning.

"I went back to the countryside to visit my grandparents, oh yes, I was admitted to Jiaotong University, one copy." Zeno's voice was soft, without much fluctuation.

But Wu Tian understood Zeno, or he clearly knew what Jiaotong University represented to Zeno.

That was Zeno's dream all along, so he said happily: "Congratulations, Qinuo, but I am not as lucky as you. I didn't pass the exam. My mother asked me to repeat the exam for a year and take the exam again next year."

Zeno didn't know how to comfort him, he just oh to show that he heard it.

The two were silent for a while, and Zeno said again: "Go on and sleep for a while, if you repeat your studies, it seems that you should go to school soon."

"Well, you pay attention to safety." Wu Tian hung up the phone.

Zeno was stunned for a moment when he heard the beeping in his ear, and then put the phone in his pocket.

Was it his illusion that Wu Tian seemed to hang up the phone impatiently?

Zeno didn't think too much, hugged his backpack in his arms, the swaying bus made him drowsy, shrunk his body, paralyzed his legs, and then fell asleep with his eyes closed.

During the eight-hour bus ride, Zeno had a pain in his butt and back, and his head was dizzy.Although he took motion sickness medicine before getting in the car, unfortunately he vomited twice when he got out of the car before he felt much better.

Fortunately, his motion sickness is not very serious, and the ventilation of the passenger car is also good, otherwise, I don't know what kind of ghost it is to see my grandparents.

He wiped his mouth with a wry smile, put his backpack on his back, and walked along the dirt path to the distant village.

"Grandpa, grandma!" Standing in front of the wooden fence, Zi Nuo raised his voice and called into the house.

The old man who was feeding the ducks turned to look at him, came out in surprise and opened the door for him, pulling him to look up and down.

Although Zeno came back once a year, the old man still missed him dearly.

"Old woman, come out quickly, Nuonuo is back!" Although the old man was 80 years old, his voice was very loud.

The old lady is preparing dinner in the house. In rural areas, dinner is early in the evening. Usually, it is eaten around four o'clock in the afternoon. The old man and the old lady live by themselves, and the slower the hands and feet, the earlier the preparation.

"Grandma, I'm back." Zeno let go of his grandfather's hand and greeted the old lady who came out of the door.

The old lady held onto Zeno's hand, with tears in her eyes.

When eating at night, Zi Nuo sat cross-legged on the kang, eating cornmeal and steamed buns. One bite of steamed stuffed bun, one bite of salted fish, and another mouthful of millet porridge made his stomach bulge.

"Come here without eating in the city?" Although the road from the countryside to the city has been repaired a long time ago, it is still a bit far away, and it takes an hour to get there on foot.

"I ate steamed stuffed buns at the station in the morning. I want to catch the earliest train. I want to see my grandparents sooner." Zi Nuo wiped his mouth and smiled at the two old people.

Only when he was around his grandparents would he be so cheerful, acting like a normal child to them, but at home he was always indifferent, listening to his parents when they spoke, and answering questions when they asked him.

Maybe it's not just his parents who don't accept him, but he also rejects that family in his heart.

The old man was smoking a pipe next to him, and his old face had never stopped smiling since he saw Zeno, and his smile blossomed.

"Our family Nuonuo is really good. He has been admitted to university."

Zeno was taken aback, shook his head and turned to look at the old man, and said with a smile: "It's just an ordinary university, far worse than my brother."

He is not being modest when he says this, there are quite a few universities, and although the one that Zeno was admitted to was what he had always dreamed of, it was really not a prestigious university.

The old lady gave him a dissatisfied look, and raised her hand to touch his cheek, "Nuo Nuo has always been very smart, grandma knows."

Zeno smiled slightly and said nothing, got off the kang and cleaned up the table.

Because he hadn't seen the old man for a year, so Zi Nuo acted like a baby and wanted to sleep on the kang with his grandparents at night. Although it was tough, he didn't want to live in the hut by himself.

"Grandpa and grandma, I'll accompany you to have a physical examination tomorrow. It's been a year since I had a physical examination." Lying on the kang, Zeno wrapped himself in a thin blanket.Although it is summer, the nights in the countryside are still a bit cold.

"Why didn't you check it? A few days ago, the village chief took us old men and women to the city for an examination, a big hospital." The old lady lying next to Zeno smiled and patted him on the shoulder, signaling him not to worry. .

Zeno nodded, closed his eyes and let out a breath. For him, the health of his grandparents is the most important thing.

After staying in the countryside for a month, I got a lot of tan, and I helped the old man clean up the house every day. After all, he is a young man, and he can get everything done in a matter of seconds.

On the day before returning home, the two old men took Zeno and stuffed him with a red paper packet.

Zeno knew what was inside without looking at it. It was the money saved by the old people over the years, it was pension money.

"Grandpa, I don't want it." Putting the red paper bag on the kang, Zeno shook his head with a serious expression.

After he goes to college, he can work and study part-time, which can reduce the burden of his parents on his tuition fees.

The old lady stuffed the red envelope into Zeno's coat pocket again, staring, "Grandpa and grandma gave it to you, why not, it was originally for you to save for college." The two old men knew what Zeno was thinking , although they are rural old men and old ladies, they also know a lot.

"..." Zi Nuo pursed his lips and looked down at the red paper bag in his hand. Although it was not thick, it made him feel very heavy.

He couldn't refuse the old man's wishes, so he could only nod his head with red eyes, and tightly held the red paper bag in his hand, "Grandpa and grandma, I will study hard, find a good job after graduation, and provide for you in the old age."

He knew that it was useless to say these words, but Zeno also knew that the old man just wanted him to study hard and have a good development.

The old man raised his hand and patted him on the shoulder, slipped down, and shook his arm, "Go, our Nuonuo has always been the best."

Zeno bid farewell to the two old men with tears, and walked towards the road with his backpack on his back.

Looking at the dirt road under his feet, Zeno was thinking, what would he be like without the upbringing of his grandparents?

They may also be raised by their parents, but they still don't get love.

With both hands in his pockets, one hand clutching the phone, the other clutching a paper red envelope, he gritted his teeth and choked up.

I swear, I will definitely stand out and let the old man spend his old age peacefully.

Even if they don't have much time left, I still want to be filial.

Sitting on the bus back to the city, Zi Nuo looked at the rice fields outside, tears streaming down the corners of his eyes silently.

Although he only lived for seven years, it was the happiest seven years for him.

He remembered how his grandfather was walking on the ridge with him on his back, how his grandma called him to go home for dinner, and how his grandpa took him fishing, grandpa took him to catch frogs, and grandma told him stories.

I was always sick when I was a child, my grandma took care of me non-stop, sang to coax me, and my grandpa made funny faces by myself...

He still remembers that his happiest and happy times were all here.

He doesn't blame his parents for not accepting him, but he knows that he has no way to forgive.

When he was a child, every time he saw other people's children with their parents playing with him, he would be envious. Even though he felt strange after meeting his parents, he instinctively acted like a baby to get close.

But he was repeatedly pushed away by his parents with various excuses, and then seeing his elder brother receiving praise in front of their parents, and his younger sister receiving praise in front of their parents, Zi Nuo knew that he might not be accepted by this family.

The car is driving on the road, where he is going to start a new life.