Cen don't care

"What is this for? It's raining so much, why are you sick?" A big umbrella covered his head, and then a large coat was put on to dispel some of the chill in his heart.

"Old Sun, why are you here?"

"I'm here to do something." Sun Zhe's eyes flickered slightly, and he was relieved when he saw that Liu Yicen didn't ask more questions about it.

"Oh." Liu Yicen nodded numbly, and then turned his gaze to the distant sky where the outline could not be seen clearly, feeling a little absent-minded.

"Don't stand stupidly on the road, let's find a hotel."

Sun Zhe dragged him to find a clean shop, paid the money, and urged him to take a bath.Seeing that there were two beds in the room, he suddenly breathed a sigh of relief.

When he went back to school, Sun Zhe saw that something was wrong with him.So he followed out secretly, but unexpectedly this guy bought a train ticket.Sun Zhe glanced at the red mark on the ticket gate, and found that it was a city that they couldn't care about at all.This guy is really worrying, there will be rain tomorrow, his stomach problem...

Thinking of this, Sun Zhe couldn't sit still anymore, gritted his teeth and asked for leave from the school, and followed him into the reclining car.

"Old Liu, what's the matter with you?" Sun Zhe looked at Liu Yicen who came out wrapped in a bath towel, looked away unnaturally, and asked.

Liu Yicen glanced at him indifferently, but that glance made Sun Zhe feel an inexplicable pain in his heart.In his impression, the young man who was gentle and calm about everything and always had a slight smile on his lips, why did he become so indifferent now?

"I went to his company today..." Liu Yicen suddenly smiled slightly, but the smile was clearly bitter.Sun Zhe's interfering seemed to make him find an outlet to vent, and he vented it all at once.

"Old Liu, I have nothing to do with this matter, but you are not that hypocritical, so I will say a few more words. You have to take a path that is difficult for so many people to accept. Even if your family agrees, you How do you live? You can face the eyes of others calmly, can your parents?"

"But..." Liu Yicen opened his mouth, but he didn't know how to refute forcefully.

In the past, you were proud and self-improving.Never change your mind for anything, and never bow down for anyone.And now?You are like a puppet, always led by him, Gu Xize.He told you to go east, do you dare to go west?

My own sister once questioned me like this.At that time, she made him speechless with just these few words.

"You don't know." Liu Yicen wrapped the towel tightly around his body, hugged his knees with both hands, and lowered his head slowly, his voice was very soft, "He is the most special person I have ever seen."

He didn't say a single thing he did for me, but I knew it all.I knew from the first time I saw him that he was destined to be a lonely person.Such a person must find someone who knows how to warm others by his side.Every time he abuses, there is a reason.It could be considered abusive because no one had ever treated me like that before him.He is my nightmare.But I fell in love with him shamelessly, yes, it was love.Maybe everyone thinks I'm crazy, but it doesn't matter, I just like being tortured by him, I don't feel ashamed, because he is unique in my heart.

I often tell myself that once I leave him, this unique person will never be found again.

It must never be found again.

Also, I have always thought that he is a clean man, no matter how dirty and corrupt his friends live, he is spotless, he is my pride.

And now, this pride is the first to abandon me.In other words, he never made room for me in his heart.

I'm afraid this time, I really fell into it.

Gu Xize, what an amazing man.Sun Zhe shook his head at the side, but he couldn't say anything. Seeing Liu Yicen's appearance obviously made him feel unbelievable.The words I had prepared could only stop on my lips.

Liu Yicen didn't say anything, but Sun Zhe knew that he was saving face for himself.Be it.If he said one more sentence, it was equivalent to adding a handful of salt to himself.Uncertain when, the wound that he had been carefully guarding could no longer hold back and burst open, and what awaited him would be excruciating pain.

He is despicably in love with Gu Xize, that lucky man.And why not treat him?

Sun Zhe looked at Liu Yicen silently for a while, then suddenly opened the window in the room.It was still raining heavily outside, and mischievous humid air came in, and I walked around the house a few times curiously.Sun Zhe felt his swollen mind clear up a lot.

People in the north are straightforward, and Sun Zhe is a person who can't hide his words.The expression on his not-so-beautiful but attractive face changed for a moment, and finally he spoke.

"I want to smoke."

"What?" It took Liu Yicen a while to realize Sun Zhe's words. He hadn't seen Sun Zhe smoke a cigarette in more than three years.

"Do you want to go out and get it?"

The latter shook his head, took out a cigarette from his pocket and lit it.Then fell silent again.

For a long time, until the last butt of the cigarette in Sun Zhe's hand fell, and his face was hidden in the lingering smoke, at that moment, he seemed like a man who had seen through many things, so mature but melancholy.

"Old Liu, do you remember that on the first day you came to S University, I saw you in the dormitory, and I was stupid at that time." A quiet smile appeared on the corner of Sun Zhe's mouth, and his voice sounded calm, "I have never seen such a good-looking boy. He is as beautiful as a flower, has temperament, has watery eyes, always smiles at people, does not argue with anyone, is easy to talk and get along with. He is also willing to help others... …Hey, my grandson doesn’t know how to praise people, but you can apply all the compliments I can think of. At that time, I thought, is it that someone who looks so delicate and coquettish like a woman can be contemptuous and contemptuous of others? But you didn't. Because Xiao Zhao's home was stolen that time, you took out all the money. Later, I saw that you didn't go to the cafeteria to eat for several days..."

"I started to pay attention to you slowly, and I didn't dare to talk to you, hehe. Later, I realized that the perfect boy in my eyes also had weaknesses, and he was not small. It was that school The Internet was disconnected, and I was reading ghost stories under the quilt. It was so late, and I heard someone crying. This scared me, and I thought the ghost had come out. After covering the quilt for a long time, I heard that the sound came from you. The crying one is depressed and worried. Tsk, I just wanted to tell you that you are not a ghost, but I heard you calling someone to apologize. What are you talking about? Xi Ze, I was wrong, don’t be angry, okay? ... Anyway, that's all, I can't remember."

How could he not remember?When Sun Zhe said this, tears glistened in his eyes, with a trace of helplessness and jealousy on his expression.Liu Yicen felt strangely uncomfortable in his heart, a big man cried while talking.But he doesn't think it's hypocritical, he doesn't think so.

"Old Liu, let's be honest, I like you, really, I can't hold back anymore, that's really bad." Sun Zhe rubbed his nose hard with his index finger, "I know I'm not as good as Gu Xize, I can't keep up with that kind of man in my life, it's not that I'm finished, it's that I know you too well, you put your heart on him, and you can't get it in exchange for a golden mountain."

"Old grandson, I..."

"You don't need to say it," Sun Zhe waved his hand, "No need, I feel much more comfortable when I say it. Just say it if you like it. Who cares about who you have in mind. That's your business, and you don't need to feel guilty. I should go." Sun Zhe got up and tidied his clothes and said, "Lao Liu, since you are so proud of Gu Xize, you should be good, don't think about it for a day, it's useless. In this life, you should hurry up and say whatever you want, or you may not be able to say it next time." There is no more chance. God is the best at teasing people. What a misunderstanding, don’t you understand it by yourself, and point to the time to fade it? Well, I’ve talked too much today. I should go home. It’s good to see that you are fine. .”

"Shall we leave now?" Liu Yicen looked out of the window with a haggard expression, as the night fell.If he leaves at this time, where can he go?

"En. It's really uncomfortable to be alone with you. I want to commit a crime haha!" Sun Zhe made a joke that he thought was funny, and wanted to pat Liu Yicen on the shoulder, but froze halfway, and retreated calmly. "Come back in a few days. You haven't graduated yet, haven't you. Don't talk nonsense. I'm still waiting for your graduation drink."

"En." Liu Yicen nodded vigorously, "Old Sun, you will be happy."

"You can tell me, of course I will be happy." Sun Zhe glared at him with feigned anger, "After I graduate, I will get married, marry a wife and have children, I have found a job, and my childhood is beautiful, then you will be envious Bar!"

Liu Yicen wanted to say something, but Sun Zhe had already walked out the door.Liu Yicen hurriedly got up to see him off.

"Don't send me off."

"Old grandson..."

"Don't send me off." Sun Zhe frowned, with a strange expression for some reason, as if he was angry.

"..." Liu Yicen looked at him deeply, looking at that reliable but unfavorable face, he owed it to Sun Zhe.

This mature boy not only helped himself to keep the secret that he liked Gu Xize, but also accompanied him through the uncomfortable years when he was in the hospital.How could Liu Yicen not know what he was thinking?It's just like he said, it's impossible to face it.

"Old Sun." Liu Yicen stopped him, stepped forward and gave him a buddy hug.The latter's body froze, and a smile that he didn't know whether it was bitter or relieved, he patted Liu Yicen's back, and then left without turning his head in a cool manner.

Liu Yicen looked at his lonely back, and the corners of his eyes were red.In fact, Sun Zhe is pretty good, at least he is good to himself, and what's different between him and Gu Xize is that he and himself are really people from the same world.

But there is really no fate.Liu Yicen will never belong to Sun Zhe.

He didn't know that there was another sentence after the "Don't send me off" that Sun Zhe repeated twice just now.

Don't send me off, Yi Cen, let me fade out of your world, and never worry about you day and night again.

It's still raining.They seem to want to shatter the chaos and glitz of this world, they are wrapped in a sky full of sadness factors, falling to people's tired faces, thin bodies, as if a solemn and vicious ceremony is being carried out.

But Liu Yicen would never have imagined that this time would be the last meeting between him and Sun Zhe in this life.

Sun Zhe must still remember that the air that day was very fresh, as if water was about to drip.

The streets of the foreign city are desolate and cold.He chased the night along the street corner alone, but he didn't feel cold in his heart.Because he just heard Liu Yicen say, "Old Sun, you will be happy." He gave himself a hug.He didn't ask for any results from his love, he didn't ask for it.

Sun Zhe walked into a bar alone.

Fruit wine and cocktails are mixed, and beer and red wine are constantly refilled.Sun Zhe frowned, he didn't know what kind of bird liquid that colorful cocktail was, he had only drank Erguotou before.

He's a good boy who never goes to a bar or a nightclub.But now, he suddenly wanted to try it.

"This handsome guy, is he alone?"

What caught my eye was a woman with heavy make-up, speaking suggestive words.

Sun Zhe glanced at her, smiled slightly, and said lightly, "Get lost."

Liu Yicen always thinks that the dark night is dirty and embarrassing, it always hides too much filth, and when night falls, it's like opening Pandora's box, revealing a side that is completely opposite to the day.But he said that Xi Ze doesn't like the daytime, he just thinks that the daytime is like exposing a person naked|naked to the sun and the crowd, but on the contrary, only the night can give people peace of mind and peace of mind.

Two completely opposite people, one black and one white, came together by such a coincidence.

"Damn it." Sun Zhe cursed a little bit bitterly, got up and staggered away.

Under the night, he lost his soul like a reincarnated person who just drank Mengpo soup.He drank too much, walked crookedly, people passing by looked at him curiously, it's really rare for a person to drink like this.Must be someone with a story.

He ignored it and went straight to the middle of the road to stop the car to go home.

The driver kept honking the horn, and the car lights were as bright as the dazzling sun in the sky during daytime.Sun Zhe rubbed his eyes, as if seeing the god of death waving and smiling at him.

Must be fucking blind.He cursed, thinking about going home quickly.It would cost a lot of money to take a taxi back, and just now I paid that idiot Liu Yicen the accommodation fee for several days.

The car came, but he didn't intend to stop. It was also because he was standing in the wrong place. He didn't dodge it, his feet seemed to be frozen.

It began to rain again, patter, patter, patter.Little by little, the water and blood in the middle of the road washed away.Trumpets, screams and abuse became a noisy scene.But the person lying in the middle of the road couldn't hear it.

The red liquid still has temperature, they are intertwined with the dirty rainwater, and they converge into a stream, where there is unwillingness, loneliness, and the last helpless sorrow of life, and such a trace of reluctance.

The strong smell of blood in the air is so beautiful and so desolate.