prisoner of love

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I love you walking alone in the dark alley

love you confronted with despair

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The rain of flower petals flying all over the sky, the white petals swirl nonstop for a moment, as if to drown everything in the world, Li Yanqi stepped on these soft petals, looked at the two blurred figures in the front, tall The one in a long gown seemed to be smiling at himself, and the shorter one was in a cheongsam, raising his hand to beckon to him.

He still couldn't see the faces of the two people clearly, so he kept walking forward, trying to get closer to them. He walked a little anxiously, and started running slowly, but the two people were getting farther and farther away, no matter how he tried Approaching, always separated by that distance, I don't know why, he suddenly became sad, and accidentally fell into the petals under his feet, he sat up and looked forward dejectedly, and then shouted loudly: Dad, mom——!

The two figures finally stopped moving away from him, but got closer and closer. Li Yanqi smiled happily because he could see clearly that they were his parents. His father was handsome and elegant, and his mother was gentle and quiet, "Dad , mother! are you back?"

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In the operating room, the rhythm is tense and orderly.

"Oxygen on."

"Excessive blood loss, transfusion of epinephrine first aid."

"The length of the wound is about 5 cm, the depth is 2 cm, the bleeding volume is at least 650 ml, and it is still bleeding."

"The patient's blood pressure is low, body temperature is low, blood cells are severely hypoxic, and he is in shock!"

"Wrist radial artery, radial vein, ulnar nerve, median nerve, and wrist flexor tendon were severely damaged."

"anaesthetization!"

In this operating room, leaders from the anesthesiology department, the laboratory department, and the blood transfusion department gathered tonight. They were highly concentrated and tried their best to rescue the young patient who was sent during the Chinese New Year.

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"Wenji, look, our little Yanqi has grown so big!" the woman said with a smile to the man beside her.

"Well, you are as handsome as your father!"

"I look like me. Look at his eyes."

"Yes, yes, just like you. When you were pregnant with him, you kept saying that you wanted to have a baby girl, but it didn't work out."

"As long as it's our children, I love both men and women."

The two of them looked at each other and smiled, their eyes full of affection.Li Yanqi couldn't get in the way at all, no, it couldn't be said that he couldn't get in the way, but the two of them didn't talk to him at all.

"Father? Where have you been? Why did you come back so long?" Li Yanqi moved forward to help the other party, but the other party had already stepped back to prevent him from touching him.

"Mom?" Li Yanqi reached out to the woman again, but the woman just smiled and shook her head, and she retreated to the man's side.

"Look, it's still the same as when you just learned to walk. We always help you up when you fall down." The woman looked at her husband with a smile, her eyes full of smiles.

"He will always stand up on his own. My Li Wenji's child must be a man of integrity. Let's go at ease and don't delay him."

"Well, now that he is an adult, he can barely cope with all kinds of things in the world, so I feel at ease."

"In this life, I am the one who is sorry for you two, Wen Wan, hold my hand tightly, and I will make it up to you in the next life."

"What to say, I am willing. Now there is a mark on Yan Qi's wrist, so we can find him in the next life."

"Then let's go."

The two talked as if no one was around, and they didn't even look at Li Yanqi during the conversation. After they finished speaking, they held hands and turned to leave. Li Yanqi stood up and chased after him, "Where are you going?! I want to go together too!"

But he couldn't chase those two people at all, but in an instant, their figures were already hundreds of thousands of miles away, leaving only a blurred back for him, Li Yanqi shouted heartbreakingly: "Dad—— Mom! Wait for me! Don't go..."

Li Yanqi was tired of chasing and screaming, he knelt down on the ground, sad and desperate, and muttered to himself: "You...why don't you even say a word to me...I miss you so much. "

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"The bleeding has stopped."

"Start suturing, make sure oxygen saturation."

"Heartbeat is normal, blood return has been normal."

"Blood pressure is starting to go up."

"Yizhu, Pliers, why are you in a daze?"

"Doctor, is the anesthesia not in place?"

"Ok??"

"He was in tears, it must have hurt too much."

The person in the anesthesiology department rolled his eyes, "I'll give you an injection to see the effect later?"

"I was wrong."

"You are young, what can't you figure out, you have to torment yourself like this, look at this wound, if it is one centimeter deeper, even the gods will not be able to save it."

"Maybe, he doesn't want to die himself. We're not him, so how do we know what he went through?"

"As long as people who want to commit suicide, they don't know how good it is to live. If they really die like this, and thousands of possibilities in the future are gone, then there is no point in suffering in this world. .”

A person from the anesthesiology department suddenly interrupted: "Zi is not a pig, how do you know what a pig thinks?"

"..." The rest.

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Zhou Song was sitting outside the operating room, the injury on his knee was still oozing blood, he had no time to take care of it, but sat on the chair with a stern face, motionless like an ice sculpture.

The thought of losing Li Yanqi forever made him numb all over. He couldn't accept even thinking about it. He thought that he would never see this person again, touch this person, see his voice, smile, or hear him. What he said, Zhou Song felt that his heart was blocked, his body seemed to be hollowed out, and his internal organs were wringing and hurting!

At this moment, he finally understood that he had fallen in love with Li Yanqi a long time ago. He didn't know when, and he couldn't trace it back. He only knew that he couldn't live without Li Yanqi now, that he couldn't live without his company, that he couldn't sleep without him. He is pillowed by his side, he can't go home without seeing his figure, and he can't buy anything without buying double copies. In short, he must have this person all the time.

It's ridiculous that he didn't realize this fact until he faced life and death, and he was willing to face his feelings for Li Yanqi.

Li Yanqi soaked in the pool of blood, Li Yanqi who was dying, Li Yanqi who was talking intermittently, and Li Yanqi who was twitching and getting cold in his arms, hit him so painfully that he felt like he was torn apart.

In the past, he had secretly noticed that something was wrong with him, but he didn't bother to think about it, and he didn't bother to admit it. That kind of strange feeling was like a poison that passed through his intestines. He didn't want to touch it. He thought that as long as he didn't touch that poison, He will never be injured, and he will never lose anything. He is still the one who controls everything and is aloof. He is omnipotent and never misses what he wants!

And now that he has suffered a complete defeat, Li Yanqi asked himself over and over again, are you in love with me?It turned out that he had been waiting for this day, he held back, he was meek and pliable, waiting for himself to surrender to him, and now he had to kneel down and beg for mercy.

Li Yanqi, you have won.

You must survive, you can't bet against me but lose your own life, I haven't... had time to treat you well.

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In the operating room, the life detector suddenly screamed.

The people in the white coats were all shocked, what's going on? !

"The patient's heartbeat is slowing down!"

"Blood pressure is dropping, body temperature is dropping!"

"Oxygen saturation is normal, blood type does not exclude, the wound is sutured normally, and there is no extravasation of blood."

"That is how the matter?!"

"Patients are giving up their lives voluntarily..."

"heart stop!"

At the same time, the life detector issued a long beep.

"Get on the CPR machine! Quick!"

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Li Yanqi could no longer see his parents. He slowly fell down and lay down among the petals little by little. He sniffed the fragrance of the flowers, then raised his hands to cover his eyes, and said with a choked voice, "I'm so tired too." ...Why don't you take me with you? I have never enjoyed the love of a father and mother, and now...it really hurts."

He suddenly felt that his eyes were wet, and when he opened his eyes, he saw blood winding down, dripping from his wrists. He simply spread his arms and lay flat in the sea of ​​flowers all over the sky. At this moment, he really wanted to give up something, he didn't understand What was that, but he felt really tired and hurt, physically and mentally exhausted, and wanted to just sleep like this, and when he fell asleep, he wouldn't feel tired and hurt anymore.

The white petals are gradually dyed through, dyed red, and then turn into a sea of ​​red flowers in pieces.

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When Zhou Heguo rushed to the hospital with his wife, seeing his son's distraught appearance, he felt a pain in his heart. No matter how noisy he was usually, how distressed he should be now.

Mrs. Zhou hurried over, "Oh, why are you still sitting like this?! Where's the driver? Why didn't you know to ask the doctor to check your injury? Look...you're still bleeding!"

Zhou Song still sat still.

Zhou Heguo raised his hand to call the driver to ask about the situation, and the driver reported to him in a low voice: "The man has been rescued in the operating room. I called the doctor to help Mr. Zhou see his feet, but he sent the doctor away, and I suffered too... Kick. And then he sits there without moving, and doesn't allow anyone to disturb him. I'm sorry, sir..."

Zhou Heguo nodded, "It's okay, let him be confused, anyway, it's him who hurts."

The driver bowed and backed away.

Zhou Heguo turned around and went to the doctor's duty room. After a while, two doctors followed Zhou Heguo with a medical kit. The two doctors in white coats saw this evil god again, and their footsteps couldn't help but pause. !

Zhou Heguo turned around and said, "Don't be afraid, that's my son, if he dares to mess up again, I'll punish him."

The two doctors followed.

Surrounded by four people, Zhou Song moved his face, saw his parents came, and called out "Mom and Dad" in a hoarse voice.

"You still know your parents are here? Do you still remember your last name?" Zhou Heguo also had a bad face.

Zhou Song was unwilling to speak again.

Zhou Heguo knelt down and rolled up his son's trouser legs himself, but he found that it was not possible, the wound was already glued to the trousers, the doctor hurriedly said, "Sir, let me do it."

Mrs. Zhou sat next to Zhou Song, gently pulling Zhou Song's arm, for fear that he would make a move.However, the son seemed to be in a trance, crushing the glass, cleaning the wound, and dressing the wound with medicine. He didn't even frown, just staring at the closed door of the operating room.

After a few words of explanation, the doctor left quickly, for fear that this person would go crazy again.

Zhou Heguo also sat down on the chair and tossed and tossed until midnight. It was almost three o'clock in the morning. After all, he was almost 60 years old, and he still couldn't do many things after all.

The driver who followed Zhou Heguo and his wife appeared at this moment. He walked over with three thick coats and two thermos cups, put a coat on each of the three, and handed the thermos cups to the two old people. He said, "Master, madam, take care of your body, don't turn around and fall ill."

Zhou Heguo gathered his coat, turned to his wife and said, "Go back and rest first, I'll stay here with him."

Mrs. Zhou looked at her son, then at the lights in the operating room, she patted Zhou Song's arm, and said, "He will be fine, so many storms and waves are coming, so don't worry too much. "

Zhou Song raised his head and leaned back against the cold wall, "Mom, he's cooling down bit by bit in my arms... It turns out that that's the speed at which life is lost, that kind of... the general situation is gone and you have nothing to do Feeling, I have never cared so much about a person's life and death."

Mrs. Zhou couldn't bear seeing her son's desolation in love, and she didn't care whether his son liked a man or a woman. She just hoped that the person in the operating room was fine, otherwise her son would suffer a lot , she directly ignored Zhou Heguo's words to let him go home to rest, and she was determined to stay here with her.

Zhou Heguo still couldn't accept the fact that his son fell in love with a man. Hearing this, although he felt sorry for his son, he couldn't help but said, "Haven't you ever wondered why he did this suddenly? Or choose to stay in your old house, It's still the second day of the Lunar New Year. Hmph, I don't think that person is a fuel-efficient lamp, and you are still rushing to find abuse."

Mrs. Zhou abducted Zhou Heguo, "You can't say a few words, can't you? Is it the time to talk about this? Can you talk about it after the person is out of danger? Do you think your son is suffering so much?"

Zhou Heguo was stunned by his wife, and curled his lips, "It's just you who love your son, and I don't."

Zhou Song didn't have the energy to talk to his father anymore, so he just said at this time: "Both of you go back and rest, don't bother with me."

Zhou Heguo snorted softly, and said in his throat, "I've been tossing and turning for half a night, you know..."

Mrs. Zhou slapped the old man's thigh, and stared at him fiercely: Can you still do it? ?

Zhou Heguo turned around, turned his back on the mother and son, and sulked himself.

Alright, this time, my son really likes this man, and now he is so pitiful because of him that he is so majestic on weekdays, and he has to have his old father and mother who are over half a century old to accompany him in the middle of the night to coax him!My wife only loves my son, look, this is full of slaps, slaps, and stares!We are all alone, but in the end I still don't know how to be a father!

After a long night of suffering, Zhou Song finally regained a little bit of his former calmness after experiencing a series of breakdowns, self-doubt, self-loathing, anger, remorse, fear, and loss of reason. He asked the driver to send his parents home to rest. At the end, in order to reassure his parents, he returned to the old President Zhou, cold and wise, although his voice was still hoarse, but he could hear it calmly: "I'm sorry, Mom and Dad, I let you bother, I was the bastard in the past, and I went through a lot of trouble." This time, I suddenly understood a lot. You can go back and rest at ease, no matter what the result is, I can bear and deal with it. Taking care of your body is the greatest love and help for me."

Mrs. Zhou's eyes were red, "It's only natural for parents to worry about their children. Don't say sorry, just be good."

Zhou Heguo also sighed, "As long as you know how to do it. Remember to see a doctor for the wound, huh?"

Zhou Song nodded.

Then the driver turned around and left with the two of them. Zhou Song looked at the back of his parents going away. For some reason, he felt an unspeakable discomfort in his heart.