fail love

Tao Zhi likes being touched by Yan Shu on the head. He raised his head slightly and squinted his eyes slightly, and buried his head in Yan Shu's abdomen relyingly, his voice was muffled by the fabric of his clothes, and he sounded a little vague: "I know, but, Yan Shu, I also have selfish intentions, all I thought before was that no matter where I go, you will accompany me."

Tao Zhi's face was smothered in red by the cloth, only a pair of clear brown-green eyes were exposed, which were as moist as water, like a pool of amorous still water, silently rippling in circles, he felt that he was being sternly described. Those words touched him, and the strong beating of the heart in his chest drove the blood all over his body to pour into his head, making him a little dizzy, to the point where he was in a state similar to a little drunk.

During the years when he was abroad alone, Tao Zhi developed a bad habit of drinking. In fact, he didn't like drinking so much, but he liked the feeling of forgetting everything after being drunk. He could temporarily forget the loneliness of being alone in a foreign country. , can also briefly forget the carefree life I lived in the past ten years.

Tao Zhi is a dull child. One of his biological parents has run away, and the other has abused him for a long time. He has not even been educated about life, speech pronunciation and emotional expression. He is like a silent little beast, only occasionally uttering simple words The syllables express their most primitive pain.

When he arrived at the orphanage, he had already passed the best period of receiving early childhood education. I don't know if it was because of this reason that Tao Zhi was slow to do anything and reacted very slowly.

After he was adopted, he was well protected and grew up under the love of his parents and elder brother. He was like a person suffering from eye disease, groping his way in the colorful corridors, and everything was blurred in his eyes. , he struggled to learn how to be a normal person, how to accept and respond to feelings. Although it was a bit difficult, it didn't bother him much. It was only after going abroad that he was away from his parents, relatives and friends, and he found that he could not adapt to the new environment at all.

It became more difficult for him, and it became more difficult to communicate with people. Tao Zhi had a positive attitude at first, thinking that he would get better after a while. He couldn't live under the arms of his parents and brothers all his life. Yes, he needs to take care of himself from Yan Shu, so as to prove that he can be independent by himself.

Soon, Tao Zhi discovered that he was actually just a waste. He couldn't handle interpersonal relationships well, and he suffered a lot on the way to take care of himself. He broke down and cried all afternoon in the house he rented, crying until his eyes He was swollen and didn't think of a way to change his status quo. He began to be afraid of the outside world. Every time he went out, he had to prepare himself for a long time. In the end, he could only narrow the scope of his activities and try to keep himself in the rented house. This is where he feels safe for the time being.

If he was willing to call home, the family would definitely pick him up, but Tao Zhi didn't want his family to worry about him, and he didn't want to act so useless that he couldn't meet other people's expectations, so he gritted his teeth and held back.

Soon he found a way to relieve it, and that was drinking.

In fact, he does not have the ability to go so far, nor does he have such great ambitions. He has never been a smart child with outstanding abilities. It is just the love and tolerance from the people around him that made him grow up happily and happily. , On the day when he faced the wind and rain alone, he was kicked out of the house like a pampered puppy. He was drenched badly, crying and sick.

"I've been spoiled, Yan Shu." Tao Zhi blinked his eyes slowly. He has gradually recognized his own essence in the past few years, and he will no longer fight against himself like he did in foreign countries a few years ago. Knowing more about what he actually wants, he wants a lot of love, including love from Yan Shu.

Yan Shu touched his ears along the end of his hair. He didn't know if Tao Zhi knew the meaning of "broken." From Yan Shu's point of view, Tao Zhi had always lived insensitively, as sunny and cute as a little sun, without any What a bad behavior, but when Tao Zhi said this, he didn't sound very emotional and very sad.

Yan Shu thought, Xiao Taozi is probably competing with herself again.

"It hasn't been spoiled, our Tao Tao is the best Tao Tao." Yan Shu said in a gentle voice, as if coaxing a child, Tao Zhi exposed his face buried in Yan Shu's abdomen, and licked his lips with the tip of his tongue , said a little nervously: "But my wings are useless at all, I can't fly, if I leave you, I can't go anywhere."

Tao Zhi tightly grasped the clothes around Yan Shu's waist, rubbed his face against Yan Shu's waist and abdomen, like a coquettish cat, hoping to get more sense of security from Yan Shu, he put all his timidity, Worry and weakness spread out, admitting his uselessness and worrying that Yan Shu really thinks he is useless.

It is a shame that he has lived so many years as a normal adult and cannot walk without crutches.

But Yan Shu gently stroked his back, comforted him, and made him less tense, then said softly and gently: "My wings are your wings, I promise you, I will accompany you wherever you want .”

"Really?" Tao Zhi opened his eyes wide, a little disbelieving, and asked repeatedly: "Aren't you lying to me? Don't you think I'm troublesome?"

Yan Shu assured him over and over again: "No, I won't lie to you." Holding Tao Zhi's face again, he comforted him with kisses, "Our Tao Tao is so good, optimistic and cute, and so good, our Tao Tao How come there are no wings?"

Tao Zhi frowned, "Don't coax me like a child."

Although he said this on his mouth, his lips responded positively to Yan Shu, kissing and kissing on his chin, touching Yan Shu's lips sticky lightly, his face was flushed, and he was still muttering: "You can't lie to me, I will take everything seriously, don't leave me."

Tao Zhi is a bit regretful, he doesn't have a pheromone that matches Yan Shu highly, he can't use his glands to tie Yan Shu, probably because of this, Tao Zhi is very insecure, always afraid that Yan Shu will abandon him go by yourself.

He also thought of the day when Yan Shu came to look for him on a rainy night, Yan Shu stood in front of him with slightly wet hair, because the cold rain made his face look very wet, Tao Zhi's gaze was always on Yan Shu's lips Look, it looks moist there too, and the lips are sexy and nice, and they look so kissable.

Now Yan Shu's body was still warm from the hot spring water, and his hair was not completely dried, and was still slightly wet. Tao Zhi closed his eyes and kissed him for a while, thinking, Yan Shu's mouth is really easy to kiss.

Why did he restrain himself before, and didn't do some impolite things to Yan Shu?

Tao Zhi was so satisfied with his kiss, he buried himself in Yan Shu's arms and inhaled a few mouthfuls of the pheromone aroma of the white camellia tea, and he felt blissful from body to heart.

"I hope you don't recover so quickly." Tao Zhi acted coquettishly, lingering on others, Yan Shu slightly raised his eyelids, and didn't intend to reveal the fact that he had actually recovered his memory seven or eight times, he Want to slow down, Tao Zhi seems to be rejected because of the first confession, leaving a big shadow in his heart, Tao Zhi is a person who is easy to feel insecure, he doesn't want to scare Tao Zhi, so he controls their relationship All the power was handed over to Tao Zhi.

Yan Shu scratched Tao Zhi's chin, Tao Zhi felt itchy, shrunk his neck, and pressed his face closer, wanting Yan Shu to touch his own face, Yan Shu responded by stroking his cheek, Tao Zhi was now on his body There is a nice, light peach fragrance, which means that he is in a relaxed mood now.

"The promise I made will never change." Yan Shu said seriously, "You can trust me even more."

It's not that Tao Zhi doesn't believe in Yan Shu, it's just that when he was abroad, his delusional symptoms of stress worsened, and he was in a daze that year, as if living in a chaotic world. He fantasized to accompany his "Yan Shu", sometimes Talking softly to him, sometimes indifferent and cruel, he also became emotionally unstable, frightened, afraid that the warmth and sweetness of "Strict Statement" would turn cold in the next second.

Until now, although Tao Zhi has been able to distinguish between reality and fantasy, he will still be shocked at a certain moment, doubting whether the Yan statement standing in front of him is true or false.

However, Tao Zhi used to find a way to make himself comfortable. His determination was not as firm as Yan Shu's, so he quickly threw away his armor and fell into the vortex called "Yan Shu" again.

"I believe in you." Tao Zhi grinned sweetly, "You can't renege on your debt in the future!"