fail love

Tao Zhi couldn't see his face, he was still gripping tightly on the person, his pointed chin was resting on Yan Shu's shoulder, which made Yan Shu's shoulder itchy, but Yan Shu didn't push his head off.

"Yan Shu, we had a very good relationship before." Tao Zhi lay on his shoulder and chattered endlessly, moving his hands restlessly to hug Yan Shu's waist, and hugged Yan Shu tightly into his arms, "Is this true?" Yes, I didn't lie to you, I regretted it after I went abroad, you said it would be great if we didn't create a estrangement."

Tao Zhi stretched his arms, tightened Yan Shu's waist, and expressed his wish to Yan Shu personally, "Just like this, we can hold hands or hug."

"I also don't want to listen to other people, they always want me to stay away from you, and keep a distance from you," Tao Zhi said softly, "...But in fact, it's okay, right?"

Yan Shu didn't know how these thoughts came into Tao Zhi's head, he turned his head to look at Tao Zhi, Tao Zhi didn't realize how strange what he said, but looked back at Yan Shu with bright eyes, expecting to hear from Yan Shu's mouth Heard an affirmative answer.

He seemed to have determined that Yan Shu would approve his theory, so that he didn't think about the consequences of saying these words, pure but distorted possessiveness, dark and rotten but innocent like childish words.

Yan Shu's fingers unconsciously rubbed the crevices of Tao Zhi's fingers, the slightly rough fingertips rubbed against the soft crevices, Tao Zhi didn't hide, and Yan Shu still played with his fingers quietly and obediently, like a clingy green Eyed raccoon.

Yan Shu has always wondered whether Tao Zhi can distinguish between multiple emotions by himself. He seems to confuse family affection, friendship and love. In his chaotic consciousness, whether he really loved Yan Shu.

Tao Zhi stared at him for a few seconds, then stopped, turned his head and was in a daze of boredom.

"Where's that man named Wang?" Yan Shu played with Tao Zhi's fingers until his fingertips were warm, and Tao Zhi said "ah" in doubt, "Wang Siyu?"

"What's wrong with him?" Tao Zhi was clearly talking about the two of them's problems with Yan, but Yan Shu talked about outsiders with him, and he didn't respond directly to himself, which made Tao Zhi a little unhappy.

Yan Shu grabbed Tao Zhi's arm, wanting to bring the person in front of him, Tao Zhi thought that Yan Shu was going to tear him apart, so he immediately refused, and tried his best to stick his hands and feet on Yan Shu's body, but his arms couldn't be twisted The thigh was easily torn off by Yan Shu directly, but instead was entangled with hands and feet.

When Tao Zhi hugged Yan Shu, he acted like a hooligan, not shy at all, but when he was locked in Yan Shu's arms, he gradually became shy, twisting his body restlessly, trying to break free from Yan Shu's embrace.

Yan Shu suppressed him, and asked in a somewhat fierce tone: "Can you and Wang Siyu also hold hands and hug?"

"How could it be!" Tao Zhi was shocked, and after being shocked, he became a little angry, he thought to himself why Yan Shu was so ignorant, he had been pushed down by Yan Shu, but Yan Shu had to doubt his own attitude.

"I'm crazy to do these things with him!" Tao Zhi said righteously, "He is a friend, you are different from him."

Tao Zhi stretched out two fingers to signal Yan Shu, the straight fingers looked at each other from a distance, and after a while, they bent down decadently, Tao Zhi withdrew his hand, and put his face in both hands Say with the tiniest breath, "You are different, special."

Yan Shu was caught off guard by Tao Zhi's straight ball, and the sound in his chest was like a drumming, similar to a sudden shower in the wilderness, soaking every inch of the ground in an instant.

"Then what am I?" Yan Shu chased after him and asked Tao Zhi, "You can't call him a friend. I'm not your friend. Friends can't do things like that."

Tao Zhi dodged left and right, evasive, he glanced carefully at Yan Shu, thought for a while, and found the most appropriate word, "You are my brother."

Yan Shu also forgot that Yu Yanlun was also allowed to hold hands and hug this stubble.

Tao Zhi was completely immersed in his emotions, clasped his hands in front of his chest, lowered his eyebrows, and said preciously: "You are my best brother."

Tao Zhi blushed a little shyly because he said something he was not usually good at saying, and his eyes were full of water.

Yan Shu let go of his hand silently, stood up and walked to the balcony without saying a word, Tao Zhi was still sitting there, his eyes followed Yan Shu, watching Yan Shu open the glass door of the balcony, the cold winter wind blowing from outside the door It's cold in the room and blowing on the face.

The door was closed quickly, and Yan Shu left Tao Zhi leaning on the balcony, tall and straight, he seemed not afraid of the cold at all, only wearing a single shirt in the cold wind.

Tao Zhi followed and opened the glass door and walked to the balcony, Yan Shu turned his head, his face was still his usual expression, deserted and alienated, he refused people thousands of miles away, he didn't seem to be easy to get along with.

Such a scene brought back bad memories of Tao Zhi, he was shrunk into a ball by the cold wind, shrugged his shoulders and walked in front of Yan Shu, one hand naturally took Yan Shu's arm, "It's so cold here, Why did you come out all of a sudden?"

The wind blew Tao Zhi's hair, revealing a smooth forehead, Yan Shu stood here looking at Tao Zhi, feeling a strange feeling in his heart.

As if it had been like this a long time ago, Yan Shu thought that he might have been helpless against Tao Zhi before.

Many people feel helpless against Tao Zhi. Sometimes they want to hide and don't care about Tao Zhi's abnormality, and sometimes they are caught out so hard that they have to see the reality thoroughly.

At a certain moment when they held hands and hugged each other, did Tao Zhi have any doubts similar to love for the opposite person?

It should have happened, after all, Tao Zhi said that he had confessed to himself, but at the moment when the words representing love came out, what role did Tao Zhi want him to play?

Is it the brother who may leave at any time without blood ties or the lover who will never leave until death?

Or, Tao Zhi just wants someone who will not leave him and treat him well, and he doesn't even need the role of lover.

In fact, there is nothing wrong with Tao Zhi's wish. It's just that he lost his parents when he was young, and because of illness, he didn't have many friends. There are many unstable factors in the realization of this wish.

It is easy to find the reason for his excessive reliance on Yan Shu, but for the current Yan Shu, all of this has trapped him like a cage.

He really couldn't understand why he just went up the mountain and woke up again. All the evidence of their love was destroyed, and even the parties didn't admit it. They had been in love for many years. Not long ago, he proposed to Tao Zhi. On a mountain, under the Yuelao Temple where they pray for marriage, the marriage proposal was very successful, and they will be able to hold a wedding soon.

However, he escaped back to the world after a narrow escape, and what he faced was the resistance and indifference of his lover and the negation of the people around him.

"...Brother..." Not long after Tao Zhi came out, his nose turned red, he called out in a low voice, and then called Yan Shu in a softer voice, "Brother Yan Shu..."

Shouting makes people feel soft, Yan Shu doesn't want to scare him, no matter how much he struggles in his heart, it's his own business, Yan Shu stroked his hair, Tao Zhi got some kind of encouragement, hugged Yan Shu's arm, " It's okay if you don't want to, as long as you don't leave again."

Tao Zhi stuck to Yan Shu's side, as if he was afraid that he would leave, with a tense expression on his face, Yan Shu said he would not leave, Tao Zhi exaggeratedly said "ah", and said cheerfully without any intention: "I knew it, you will promise me. "

"Then can we reconcile?" Yan Shu smiled, Tao Zhi was almost fascinated by his smiling face, and said in a daze, "Of course."

Tao Zhi repeated "We're reconciled", feeling sweet in his heart, "We can be the same as before."

Yan Shu didn't know what he was thinking, he turned his head to look at the balcony to hide it, then turned back, lowered his head and kissed Tao Zhi's forehead lightly, "Yeah."

Yan Shu's lips were soft, and Tao Zhi didn't make any big movements after being kissed by him, but just touched his forehead, feeling his head was numb and comfortable.

Yu Yanlun only told Tao Zhi not to kiss, and didn't say anything else. If Yu Yanlun didn't say anything, Tao Zhi even thought there was nothing wrong with kissing. Kiss, it shows that Yan Shu expresses his affection for him.

Tao Zhi's hands and feet went limp, and he felt that he was very happy.

The author says:

Silly boy silly fun~

Suddenly feel it.

In the first half of this year, due to various reasons, my state became very poor, my anxiety increased a lot, I often suffered from insomnia, stayed up for a long time at night, my skin condition and physical condition became very poor, and once I looked in the mirror His face was terrified, and he realized that this could not go on like this.Since the signing of the contract, the anxiety caused by writing data is particularly serious. I planned to stop writing for a long time, but I feel that I don’t have a few years of free time to do the things I like, so I still use all my brain holes , I picked a relaxing, cute and healing story to write.

One of the main reasons for updating the special Buddhist system is also that I am adjusting my state. Without much pressure, I feel that I am much better. I also thank you for leaving a message under each chapter. I read every message, and you are also very cute. ~

Thank you for your willingness to wait for this article to be updated slowly, and I will try my best to complete this story.