fail love

Faced with Yan Shu's firmness that came from nowhere, Tao Zhi flinched for no reason, and instead of replying immediately, he went to look through the documents again.

Yan Shu really worked hard to make use of the few remaining memories in his mind, he even made a special list of the memories between them that he could still remember, listing everything in detail.

Tao Zhi didn't understand why Yan Shu forgot their deadlocked breakup a few years ago, but remembered the details of their first meeting.

In the first eight years of his life, Tao Zhi was hidden in a rented house by his biological mother. He had little social interaction and didn't even go to school. As a result, the eight-year-old child still couldn't speak very much, and his eyes were dull and sluggish. of.

Just being taken to Tao's house, Tao Zhi was used to sitting on the carpet by himself and playing with a toy for a whole day.

Tao Zhi likes his new home very much. Although he still doesn't speak very fluently, the child still has a way in his heart. At least he knows that he will not be beaten. When he sleeps at night, he doesn't have to keep his eyes open all night. Eyes, beware of a blow that will fall at any time.

He also likes his new brother very much. When he was in the orphanage, he was very afraid of those children who were older than himself. My aunt said that they were not that scary, and those children were thin in the eyes of adults, but he still couldn't escape the fear in his heart.

Yu Yanlun was different. He was much taller than Tao Zhi, but he was so gentle. Even though Tao Zhi stumbled and couldn't express his words, he still joked with him patiently.

Yan Shu is different from Yu Yanlun, Yan Shu is scary to watch, especially for a timid kid like Tao Zhi.

After Tao Zhi became less afraid of people, he began to get in touch with the outside world with his mother. At that time, he had a task, which was to sit in the back seat and follow the driver to pick up Yu Yanlun from school.

When Tao Zhi went there, Yu Yanlun would take out a bottle of warm milk from his bag and give him to drink. Tao Zhi was a good feeder, and a bottle of milk was enough to keep him happy for a long time, and he also fell in love with this task.

Tao Zhi didn't dare to open the window for the first couple of trips, and after a few more trips, he couldn't bear his curiosity about the outside world, so he rolled down the car window, his eyes were not wrong, and he was coming and going outside after school carrying his schoolbag in twos and threes. Among the students together, he is curious about the school's buildings and the students' school uniforms. Even the red scarves around other people's necks are enough for him to reminisce for a day.

Friends around Yu Yanlun are also curious about his new brother. After all, his brother comes every day after school, sitting in the back seat like a beautiful snow-white porcelain doll, and his light green pupils are as clear and translucent as the eyes of civet cats. With his unique appearance, he stands out from the crowd at a young age.

Curiosity is curiosity, none of them can get close to Tao Zhi, Yu Yanlun is like a small animal protecting food, he doesn't allow his friends to get close to his younger brother, after all he firmly remembers his mother's words, his younger brother is very fragile and needs to be very careful protection of.

However, accidents also happened. One day Yu Yanlun came over, followed by someone behind him.

Tao Zhi was still concentrating on looking at the cartoon pattern on a student's schoolbag outside the car window. When he recovered, Yu Yanlun had already opened the car door and said to Tao Zhi apologetically: "Tao Tao, there is another brother who wants to go back with me today. , this elder brother's family forgot that he was out of school, if we leave him, he won't be able to go back."

Tao Zhi looked behind Yu Yanlun unresponsively. Yu Yanlun's facial features are very typical heroic and sunny type. This face is easy to make people like him, but Yan Shu's facial features are different from Yu Yanlun. His facial features look cold and alienated. It makes people feel bad to get along with.

Sensing Tao Zhi's gaze, Yan Shu looked down at him.

Yan Shu didn't have any expression on his face. He was superior in appearance since he was a child, but he was exceptionally young and mature, and he was not happy by nature. In Tao Zhi's eyes, this unsmiling young man was too scary.

When he glanced at Tao Zhi, Tao Zhi's calf was about to twitch.

Tao Zhi timidly glanced at Yan Shu, Yu Yanlun was standing at the door of the car, and hadn't gotten into the car, seeing Tao Zhi like this, he turned to look at Yan Shu, his heart swayed, and he began to think about righteousness and destroying friends.

At this moment, Tao Zhi moved his body inside, and whispered timidly: "Okay, okay, okay, let's go back together."

Yu Yanlun heaved a sigh of relief, told Yan Shu to sit in the front passenger seat, sat in the back seat himself, took out a bottle of milk from his schoolbag as usual, inserted the straw and handed it to Tao Zhi.

Tao Zhi took it, and put his hands on his knees to drink. Yu Yanlun touched his head. Tao Zhi leaned on Yu Yanlun with a little fear, and his eyes were still looking at Yan Shu who was sitting in front.

"Are you tired of picking up my brother?" Yu Yanlun wiped his forehead, "Look at the sweat on this boring forehead."

Tao Zhi shook his head, worried that there was a stranger in front of him, so he leaned into Yu Yanlun's ear and whispered, "I'm not tired, I, I think, um, come to pick up my brother every day."

Tao Zhi's speech was still a little awkward, he had to think about words for a while, and the punctuation was also very strange, Yu Yanlun didn't bother him at all, instead, he listened happily, and then he whispered to Tao Zhi's ear: "Then do you want to talk to brother?" Go to school together?"

In Yu Yanlun's school, the elementary school and junior high school are together. Even if Yu Yanlun enters junior high school in a few years, he can still take care of his own brother.

Tao Zhi looked at Yu Yanlun with blinking eyes, and suddenly asked Yu Yanlun nervously in a weaker voice: "Then, that brother, is he also together?"

Yu Yanlun held back his laughter, Yan Shu seemed to be feeling something, he turned his head and pretended to glance at the back seat casually.

Tao Zhi's heart was beating very fast. He realized that he had been caught, and asked his brother for help anxiously. Yu Yanlun poked his little arm and signaled him to solve it by himself.

Tao Zhi had no choice but to call Yan Shu "Brother", Tao Zhi's pronunciation was not standard, it sounded more "Ge Ge", sticky, and a child's voice was thin, so soft that it made one's heart soften.

Yan Shu didn't respond, Tao Zhi squeezed the milk bottle tightly, shrunk his neck nervously, and leaned closer to his brother.

Yu Yanlun coughed dissatisfied, and Yan Shu slowly said "um".

Yan Shu turned around, Tao Zhi's body trembled a lot, and he looked at Yan Shu in a daze, Yan Shu didn't expect his little action to make the child so scared, he was silent for a while, and took out a piece of packaging from his schoolbag Good butter bread, pass it to Tao Zhi.

Tao Zhi didn't dare to pick it up, so Yu Yanlun took it for him, and opened it for Tao Zhi. The opening of the belt was facing Tao Zhi's face, and Tao Zhi's face could be buried in the paper bag.

Tao Zhi moved his little nose and smelled it. There was a sweet aroma of baking cream. He said pleasantly, "It smells so good!"

"It's delicious, thank you to that brother." Yu Yanlun took out the bread and stuffed it into Tao Zhi's mouth. Tao Zhi took a bite, and his mouth was filled with cream, which covered his upper lip. He stuck out his tongue to lick it , vaguely thanked Yan Shu.

Yan Shu was watching him all the time, Tao Zhi pursed his upper lip, a little distracted, the whole butter bread fell on the car accidentally.

Tao Zhi said "ah", subconsciously reached out to pick it up, picked it up and was about to put it in his mouth, but Yan Shu came to his senses first, interrupted his movement, and said in a stern tone: "Don't pick it up, you can't eat it gone."

The butter bread in Tao Zhi's hand was snatched by Yan Shu. Some butter was stained on his hand, and he was still a little dazed. Looking at it, he still wanted to lick the butter on his own hand. Yu Yanlun quickly pulled a piece of paper and gave it to him. After wiping it clean, Tao Zhi was a little confused and said, "Yes, you can eat it, brother."

Yan Shu frowned and said, "It's dirty, you can't eat it, you'll get sick if you eat it."

"I won't get sick." Tao Zhi said in a hurry, stuttering, "I've eaten it before."

Yu Yanlun's expression became a little ugly in an instant, and he silently wiped Tao Zhi's fingers carefully one by one. Yan Shu remained silent and didn't show any big reaction. I can’t even eat it, you know?”

Tao Zhi nodded, and Yu Yanlun touched the back of his neck and asked him, "Who told you that you can pick up things on the ground to eat?"

Tao Zhi looked up at Yu Yanlun innocently, his eyes were big and clear, he didn't understand why they were so nervous, and whispered: "If you don't eat, you won't have anything else to eat."

When Tao Zhi was renting a house, he was so hungry that he even turned over the trash can. He had no idea, and he didn't know that food should be eaten on the table until he arrived at the orphanage.

At this time, Yan Shu interjected: "There will be other clean food to eat, and I will not be able to eat unclean food in the future."

The first time Tao Zhi met Yan Shu, he learned a new knowledge from Yan Shu, and then Yan Shu got off the bus halfway, and bought him a big bag of bread and cakes when he got up again.

Tao Zhi completely changed his view of Yan Shu. He felt that this brother was very powerful, and everything he said was very reasonable.

Tao Zhi touched the words on the document, it was just the ordinary paper texture, no difference, but the bits and pieces recorded on it were all things that Yan Shu and Tao Zhi had experienced together in the past ten years.

When time has an object that can be measured and compared, every second becomes sad. It is undeniable that Yan Shu occupies too much of most of his life. A full list of fifteen pages.

Tao Zhi didn't want to read it carefully, and facing this kind of memory again, only made him feel that the world was impermanent, and the words full of love didn't make him feel a little relaxed and happy, but Tao Zhi couldn't look away, and didn't look up for a long time.

He thinks Yan Shu is really cruel, why can he show that he likes him so much, loves him so much, but before, he alienated him, neglected him, and let him wander abroad alone, Tao Zhi was so heartless.

Tao Zhi used to have fantasies in his heart, he was raised by Yan Shu's side, he was full of plans, at least for more than ten years, ten years, even if Tao Zhi was a puppy, he was reluctant to lose it after ten years of raising him, but It just happened to be a real person, who was left behind by Yan Shushuo.

Tao Zhi's mistake was that he overestimated his position in Yan Shu's heart and overestimated his strength. He was determined to get rid of it, but his life was so easily disrupted by Yan Shu.

Yan Shu was still waiting for him to speak, Tao Zhi was at a loss and didn't dare to look at him, he just muttered softly: "I don't understand anything..."

Yan Shu seemed to show a 20-point serious attitude, as if he was really in a business negotiation with Tao Zhi, and said solemnly, "I can start from the first page."

Tao Zhi found it unbelievable, Yan Shu seemed to have really prepared for this, and he was about to speak. Tao Zhi suspected that if he still didn't understand, Yan Shu would come up with a ppt full of pictures and texts.

"You are so annoying." Tao Zhi couldn't help but said, Yan Shu was obviously stunned for a moment, but recovered after a few seconds, "I can say briefly, if you still don't understand, I can explain it in conjunction with the ppt."

Tao Zhi was dumbfounded, staring at Yan Shu for a long time, thinking that this man's courtship tricks are really different.

"I'm sorry." Tao Zhi wiped his eyes with the back of his hand, only then did Tao Zhi realize that his face was icy.

Tao Zhi opened his eyes, and there was a puddle of water in his eyes, which made his eyes brighter. He said seriously to Yan Shu: "Even if you are single now, I don't want to develop other relationships with you."

"I know that you are like this because you are sick, but Yan Shu, this is too unfair to me. I am not something that comes and goes. There are many reasons why I cannot accept you." Tao Zhi He said weakly, he looked extremely tired, "You didn't love me to treat me like this, you were sick, you made me feel more uncomfortable, you fell in love with someone like this, I never... Never knew you would be like this."

Yan Shu was stunned for a long time this time, and turned into a beautiful piece of wood. He seemed to be digesting Tao Zhi's words, motionless, only the protruding Adam's apple on his neck was shaking up and down. Hugged tightly, with a look of impenetrable iron walls.

"But," Yan Shu said in a daze, "I've never liked anyone else..."

The implication is that he only likes Tao Zhi.

Tao Zhi was immediately pissed off, he subconsciously wanted to find a few examples, but after thinking about it carefully, he realized that apart from Jian Weisu, Yan Shu seemed to have no ambiguous partner when he was so old.

As for Jian Weisu's rumored object, according to Yan Shu's explanation, it was just a speculation imposed on the two of them by the outside world because of pheromones.

"Well," Tao Zhi choked his neck, blinked his eyes vigorously, and struggled to think of one, "When you were in junior high school, someone told me that you and your deskmate secretly held hands when no one had time. "

Yan Shu looked very well-behaved, which surprised Tao Zhi a little. A big man with a height of nearly 1.9 meters, sitting in front of him was not threatening at all, with his head hanging down, and he looked pitiful, "You slandered me."