thousand cups

Jiang Mo originally wanted Shen Chaowen to listen to what he had to say before going on the road, but as he was talking, Shen Chaowen went on the road on his own.

The airtight interior space of the car was quiet, and Jiang Mo talked about what happened in those ten days last year with a nervous mood.When speaking, I ignored what happened in the detention center, and there was often a long silence in the middle.Shen Chaowen didn't urge him once, never interrupted him, and listened to the whole incident very calmly.

After speaking, the car is at high speed.Shen Chaowen speeded up a bit, opened the window on his side to the end, and the wind poured into the car with a little rain, and the sound of the wind buzzed in his ears.

Jiang Mo judged from Shen Chaowen's expression that this man was angry, and he was so angry that there was a slight chill in the corners of his brows and eyes.Because his state was too terrifying, Jiang Mo could only sit silently, not daring to speak.

He waited for the wind to blow enough before closing the window.It wasn't cold or noisy this time, but the airtight interior was packed with low air pressure.

Shen Chaowen asked him coldly, "What's that man's full name?"

Jiang Mo answered him: "I don't remember."

"Is it real estate?" Shen Chaowen tapped the steering wheel twice, "What's the name of the company?"

Jiang Mo was extremely helpless: "Why are you asking this? It's been a year since the incident, what else do you want? I also made mistakes at the time, let's just let it go."

"I can't make it through here." Shen Chaowen's voice was cold, "I don't want to quarrel with you Jiang Mo, will you tell me or not? It doesn't matter if you don't, I will check it myself."

"Can you stop doing this?" Jiang Mo was stunned, "I knew you would react like this, so I didn't want to say it. What else do you want, to stab someone? Kill him to relieve anger? Calm down, okay?"

Shen Chaowen said indifferently: "There are many ways to kill a person. It doesn't have to be with swords and fists. I can use my brain."

Jiang Mo held his forehead weakly: "Don't take your anger out on others, I hope you don't do anything, I told you that I don't want to make you feel uncomfortable."

The car entered a tunnel.

Shen Chaowen said: "I don't have any lumps in my heart."

"Don't deceive yourself. From this incident, I only feel that you have no confidence in me."

"Don't make assumptions about me."

"Aren't you presuming that you know it in your heart?" Jiang Mo said, "I can see from this incident that you are not confident."

The car drove out of the tunnel, and the field of vision widened.Jiang Mo looked at the distance, there were a few scattered stars, and the mountains were hidden in the night.

"It's not that I'm not confident, I just don't want to mention it." Shen Chaowen denied, "What's the point of talking about this kind of thing every day? As I said, I give you the right to stab me. I can accept that level, knowing that you didn't mean it." That's fine."

Jiang Mo nodded gratefully: "So can you promise me not to retaliate?"

This time Shen Chaowen didn't say a word, pretended not to hear, and drove without distraction.

Jiang Mo sighed a hundred times in his heart for the unlucky boss surnamed Sun.

After driving for a while, Shen Chaowen suddenly said to him: "Talk about something else. Do you mind if I tell you something about depression?"

Jiang Mo smiled: "I don't mind, please tell me."

They haven't had a good talk for a long time.A very long highway, a very quiet night, such an environment is more suitable for chatting than in bed.

Even better with wine.Jiang Mo thought, a little regretful, it seems that he should not be too sober at this moment.

Shen Chaowen began to speak after some words.

I don't know why, but I suddenly wanted to say something.

"Since I can remember, I seem to have an inexplicable dislike for this world. I actually dislike many things in life. I find it annoying to see many people and things. Conceited, and kind of bored."

Jiang Mo hummed in his heart, saying that sometimes I do the same.

"It is said that most of the causes of human personality can be traced back to childhood. I have also traced back to my childhood. Basically, they are relatively negative memories. When I was in kindergarten, my dad hit me with a wine bottle. At that time, I was not afraid at all. I was the only one The idea is, I want to kill him, I want to kill him. You may not believe it, I actually planned it once when I was in elementary school, and almost pushed him into the coal stove in the factory. But before pushing In a second, something in the dark pulled me back, and I suddenly remembered that my grandma was still waiting for me to eat at home."

"I didn't do it in the end. Occasionally, I would regret it when I dreamed back at midnight. It's a pity."

Jiang Mo hummed from time to time to show that he was listening.

"To be honest, most of my mental activities are scary. Telling them all will scare people. My world is very orderly and cold. Like you should be the warmest thing I have ever done. In a sense Honestly, you changed me."

Jiang Mur hummed, staring at the scenery passing by the window, he always felt that he was listening to someone else's dream.

"I tried to learn the so-called correct way of expressing love, care, support, and tolerance... I don't know if I have done it well. I can only see what others do and try to learn. But if it is my own way, you may I feel very uncomfortable. I will probably lock you at home and not let you go out. I will let you just look at me every day and not let you talk to others. Your self and freedom are all mine, like this. Because of these thoughts, I I often have nothing to do with myself, subconsciously I always feel that liking is possession.”

Jiang Mo smiled: "So you are showing mercy to my subordinates, right?"

"When we were in Lyon...do you remember? Before going to bed one night, you told me about the little prince. I remember a saying that love is to tame each other."

Jiang Mo nodded: "Well, I want to give you some inspiration."

Shen Chaowen said: "But I want to tell you that I have not been tamed. I occasionally give you the illusion of being tamed, but most of them are pretended by me. I just want to use the illusion of being tamed to tame you."

Be quiet for a while.

Shen Chaowen asked him: "I am like this, do you find it strange?"

Jiang Mo shook his head: "I'm no stranger, I already know a thing or two from your strange sexual fetish."

Shen Chaowen smiled: "Is that annoying?"

Jiang Mo glanced at him, reached out and touched his ear: "What do you think?"

Shen Chaowen was still driving, so he could only put half of his face in his palm and rub it.Jiang Mo asked him: "Is this also an illusion of being tamed?"

Shen Chaowen said, "You judge for yourself."

The conversation fell apart, leaving only some residual warmth.They each felt the delicate atmosphere, one was driving, the other was sitting quietly, silent and silent.

That night, Jiang Mo clearly noticed that there was a lonely and closed romance in Shen Chaowen who could not be tamed.The feeling of holding the post with the tail, and resting until death, probably can no longer be found in other people.

It was early morning when I got home.Tired from driving, so are the people who ride in the car. After they entered the house, they played with the kitten for a while and then washed and slept.

When Jiang Mo woke up the next day, Shen Chaowen had already gone to work.

Jiang Mo slept until noon before getting up to eat something, went out to reissue his documents and various cards, and bought a new mobile phone.When everything was almost done, I went home, stayed in my room and wrote the script for a while, and only went out to buy groceries when I felt that it was almost time.

Jiang Mo basically lives in this state when he is not working.It's not too boring. He is a person who is full of curiosity about many things. He can observe life in the vegetable market for half a day, and every day is still very fulfilling.

When I came back with the dishes, I met Aunt Liu in the community.The other party is a famous matchmaker in the blind date corner. She loves to introduce partners to the single, old, middle-aged and young people. She is also very enthusiastic and talkative.

Same today.Jiang Mo accompanied her from the price increase of tomatoes to a little girl who was engaged in live broadcasting in the fourth building and cried most of the night at the man-made lake last night after losing her love.While talking, Aunt Liu turned around and started to question his soul: "Xiao Jiang, what do you do? Reporter or something...screenwriter?"

Jiang Mo smiled and replied: "Auntie, just treat me as unemployed, I don't work, I play every day."

Aren't famous art workers just vagrants?

Aunt Liu was heartbroken: "Why is the great youth wasted like this?"

Jiang Mo smiled: "I'm not young anymore, Auntie, I'm already thirty."

Aunt Liu encouraged him: "Thirty-one flowers for a man. You are still young, so hurry up and find a job, and just get busy. Don't stay idle at home every day."

Being idle is the hardest job.Jiang Mo sighed: "Auntie, actually it's not easy to lie down and sleep at home."

Aunt Liu raised her brows: "Don't be greedy for pleasure now, work hard! When you reach my age, you won't be able to lie down even if you want to!"

Jiang Mo nodded in agreement with her: "Yes, yes, yes."

Aunt Liu said again: "I remember that your brother is... a lawyer, right? Well, a lawyer! Just look at your brother's work, he is very good, decent, and looking for a partner in the future..."

Jiang Mo smiled: "Yes, yes."

After finishing his aunt's chicken soup, Jiang Mo walked home with a smile, opened a bottle of white wine for himself, and celebrated this sunny day.

While cooking, Jiang Mo suddenly remembered what the aunt said.

By worldly standards, he's probably a loser.There is no so-called decent and stable job, and the future is bleak. Others are working hard for reality, and I am still worrying about my dreams.

It's not that I haven't wavered before, I changed careers, and forget about doing something else, but after much deliberation, I'm still not reconciled and unconvinced.Jiang Mo is the kind of character who can do whatever he wants materially, but is difficult to compromise mentally. If he is asked to give up something he believes in, it is better to let him kill him head-on.Want to make a movie is a dream?Be realistic?Looking for a job to do something serious?Shit, don't listen.

It doesn't matter what others say, for Jiang Mo, the support of those who care is enough.Anyway, Shen Chaowen completely let him be free in this matter, saying that no matter what job he does, as long as he is happy, they have no conflict on this point, Shen Chaowen never interferes with his work, and never judges anything.

When Shen Chaowen came back from get off work, Jiang Mo had just drank his last sip of wine, and the dishes were about to be cooked.Shen Chaowen changed his shoes, walked over to look at him, and asked, "Shall I do it?"

Jiang Mo shook his head quickly: "No, the fish you cook is a bit unpalatable."

All right.Shen Chaowen washed his hands and went into the kitchen to help with other things, and went to wash a handful of green vegetables in the sink.

While washing, Shen Chaowen suddenly found something in the vegetable leaves. After seeing it clearly, he called Jiang Mo. Jiang Mo turned his head and looked at it with a spatula—a small snail.

Shen Chaowen said: "It was found on the leaves."

Jiang Mo took out the fish and turned to the pool to observe the snail with Shen Chaowen.The two of them stared at the little snail intently for a while, and Shen Chaowen asked, "How to deal with it?"

Jiang Mo thought for a while: "Send it downstairs?"

Looking at each other for two seconds, they nodded in unison. They didn't even care about the meal. They put on their shoes together and the little snail went downstairs to the destination garden. They put the snail in a hidden flower bush and let it return to nature. .

The two of them just squatted down and watched the little snail for a long time, very focused.

It doesn't matter if you climb slowly, there will always be a bright day.

Jiang Mo looked at it for a while, and suddenly became enlightened. He gently hugged Shen Chaowen who was still watching the snail: "I'm in a good mood today, I can let you tie it up tonight!"

Shen Chaowen was silent for a while, feeling that he couldn't give this person a chance to repent, so he took off the tie around his neck and tied Jiang Mo tightly in the garden, and happily dragged him home to do serious business.