[Vampire Diaries] I can't give you happiness

Looking at David and Mary closely following beside me, I fell into a powerless sigh.No matter how I refused, my father insisted that I take the two of them with me. He said that I am still weak and may become the target of some people, so I need someone to protect me every step of the way.Then, because I have lost my memory, I am still very new to this world. If there is something difficult to decide, the two of them can help inform him, which makes me very unhappy. Are they actually here to spy on me?But my father quickly calmed down my unhappiness. He said that there are many dangers in the United States, and I know nothing about them, so I need two insiders to accompany me, in case someone who wants to get close to take advantage of it hurt me.Moreover, he hopes to see a healthy daughter when he and his mother are settled, and he doesn't want to worry about me all the time.Well, that being the case, what else can I say.

But I'm still not used to their service, it's too thoughtful and perfect, as if I'm a useless person, I can't even do small things like checkin.It seems that my father is useless to my noble training, I can only be an ordinary girl.

It was an apartment in Columbia that happened to have three bedrooms.As soon as the car stopped, David and Mary began to be busy, and I wanted to help clean up the house, but Mary sternly refused. She even suggested that I go to a cafe outside to take a break. About an hour later, they cleared the house Packed up.

I went out helplessly again, because I was unfamiliar with everything, so I didn't dare to go far, just looked around along the street.I don't like confined spaces, so I chose to rest on a chair under a tree by the street.I looked up and saw that most of the men and women in the conversation walking towards me were students, judging from their clothes and the books they held in their hands.Yes, my father applied for me to Columbia University in the United States, and our apartment is near the university.This community is very green, I think I should like it here.

When I entered the campus, I sternly refused to follow them. After all, their behavior of loyal servants is really not suitable for performing in front of a large audience, especially classmates. I don't want to attract too much attention.

Then when I actually entered the school, I found myself a little afraid, not entirely because my memory was blank, but because I found that I didn't know how to communicate with people and how to make friends.Therefore, since the first week of school, I have come and gone in a hurry. I saw that the students could get to know each other very quickly, and I saw them standing enthusiastically in a group. I really wanted to join in my heart, but I flinched. I worked hard After many times, the situation didn't improve, so I decided to give up. It's good to be alone, and I can go to the library to read books when I have nothing to do.When it comes to this university, what I am most satisfied with is the rich collection of books in the school library. When I grab a book, I can forget about eating and sleeping. I no longer care about this matter or because I am alone, I regard reading as sustenance.

It wasn't until the second week that I finally took the initiative to talk to Lily. The situation was like this. Living in the apartment made me feel more and more uncomfortable. David and Mary treated me like a noble lady, and Mary even restrained my words and deeds , This made me very uncomfortable. Finally, I heard Lily and her friends talking about changing dormitories during a class break. I suddenly felt that maybe I could also live in a dormitory. Get rid of the constant constraints of David and Mary.

I have been mentally building for a long time, so that I didn't listen carefully to the next class. When the bell rang for the end of class, my feet began to shake restlessly. I wanted to go forward to ask quickly, but hesitated.Finally, I saw her pack up her books and stand up to leave, so I mustered up the courage to stop her.

"Hello, Lily, I'm Tammy." I greeted shyly.

She tilted her head sideways for a moment, then greeted me with a smile.

"I heard you talking about the school dormitory just now. I would like to ask how should I go through the check-in procedures?"

I was so nervous that even she was nervous, and I was relieved after finally knowing my intentions. She enthusiastically told me to go to the school's Academic Affairs Office to get the application form and ask the teacher for approval, and then go to the dormitory to apply for the dormitory administrator's approval.

In the end, seeing that I didn't quite understand it, she was willing to lead me there to my surprise.I was so flattered that my body finally relaxed into a natural smile.

She talked with me enthusiastically along the way. She said she was from a middle school in Mystic Falls, USA, and asked me where I went to high school. Because I couldn’t remember anything, I accepted my father’s suggestion and told her that because of my body No, I have been studying at home since elementary school. Lily looked at my pale face with concern, and suddenly said, "No wonder you don't talk to everyone. It turned out to be the reason why you stayed at home for a long time." Communicate with everyone more.And her roommate is just about to move out. Originally, she was planning to apply for a dormitory with only one person. Since I also want to apply now, I simply live in her room.Naturally, I agreed happily. It seems that I have made a friend. She is really a kind girl.

After submitting the application form, I suddenly started to worry about how to tell the two people in the family and how to tell my father.I was organizing speeches along the way. When I finally dialed the phone hesitantly and explained the situation falteringly, my father agreed easily.On the contrary, I was taken aback for a moment. How could the matter be so simple? I remember trying to evade David and Mary, but it was useless. Now it is like this, which is really puzzling.

But the ending was fine for me, and I put those doubts behind me.When the application form was approved, I happily went home and packed my luggage. During this period, Mary insisted on grabbing the job, but I firmly refused. I was going to school, but I couldn't let her go with her.But seeing her worried expression, I softened my attitude, "Mary, don't worry about me, I can take care of myself, if there is anything I will definitely call you. Besides, you are around the school. "

When I came to the dormitory, I was very excited, but I'm not the kind of person who looks happy, I won't throw myself on the bed like Lily, I just squint my eyes and smile in satisfaction.There are two beds in the bedroom, one of which is covered with pink sheets, and everything about the desk and wardrobe is dreamy.

Lily enthusiastically helped me tidy up, and we sat on our respective beds to rest after a while.

"By the way, there is a dance in Mystic Falls next month, do you want to go with me?"

"But I have never been to a dance before." I was a little timid.

Lily held my arm, "What does that matter, with me here, what are you afraid of, I promise to dress you up beautifully."

That being the case, I nodded and accepted her invitation.

Since then, my friends have gradually increased. Although Lily is still the only one I know well, every time they talk to each other, I will occasionally say a word, and I will say hello when I meet them on the road.

I'm very happy with it all and it's all thanks to Lily for her help.

Time flies, and this Friday we will leave for Lily's house to prepare for Saturday's dance.There is both a glimmer of expectation and a little apprehension in my heart. What will happen then?

☆, extra episode [-]: Damon ②

Three months later, Elena finally adapted to her new identity, and Stefan taught her to catch rabbits in the woods.But I can see that she is in pain. Every time I walk through the living room, I can feel the resentful eyes she casts on me, but I no longer have the energy and mood to comfort her. She also tried to take the initiative to talk to me , but I rejected it, we have nothing to say, what do we need to talk about?She and Stefan are fine together, why bother me.I hate the sympathetic worried look in Stefan's eyes, so I'm always bringing different women back to spend the night, proving to them that I'm Damon, and getting rid of their goddamned kindness.

I finally avoided the eyes of the two of them, but in the dead of night, I always have trouble falling asleep, even alcohol can't numb my nerves that have been awake all the time, my head is like a projector, playing the music of her death constantly Appearance, the way she falls is always replayed in slow motion, which makes me extremely annoyed, I hold my head and shake it fiercely, I want to yell loudly, what's wrong with me, what the hell is wrong with me?

So I prefer to hang out in bars, those women are always interested in me, I am like a horse in heat, as long as a woman is gently seduced, I will pounce on their body, I think this can divert my attention, But damn it, I shook my head, why did the woman under me turn into that oriental face, so I pushed away the woman who was about to reach the orgasm, which caused her to scream.I grabbed her by the neck, bared my fangs, and threatened to kill her if she screamed again, and she finally trembled and stopped that stupid dissatisfaction, and the world was clean.At that moment, I wanted to kill her so much, but it was that damned woman again, and I couldn't do it when I thought of her damned kindness.

Stefan pushed open the door vigorously, and he walked in front of me angrily and pulled my collar, "Damon, are you willing to expose us all? I really don't want to help you clean up the mess every time."

I replied indifferently, "Then kill her, but you won't", and then I laughed wantonly.

Stefan punched me, and I took it down abruptly, the corner of my mouth was bleeding soon, but not only did I feel no pain at all, but I also felt a kind of masochistic pleasure, as if my body hurts, so my soul will be less those tortures.

I looked at him disdainfully, "Hit again", I even moved my face closer to him.

Gritting his teeth, Stefan held my collar and swung his right hand. He really wanted to punch me again, but for some reason he restrained himself. Finally, he sighed heavily and said helplessly, "Damon, you want to get here like this. When did she die."

My heart ached, I held it down, and said, "Whoever you say is dead, what does it have to do with me, and what's wrong with me now, haven't I always been like this?"

"Damon, admit that you love her, admit that she's dead, and stop kidding yourself." Stefan began to growl.

I stood up unsteadily, and waved my hands with my back to him, "I really don't know what you're talking about."

It's just that my heart hurts, the flustered hollow feeling is getting bigger and bigger, his inexplicable words make me so uncomfortable, I suddenly feel resentful, so I turned around sharply and pushed Stefan against the wall, gritted my teeth and said in warning , "Stop talking nonsense and meddling, my dear brother."

As soon as I walked downstairs, I saw Elena standing by the sofa. She was obviously waiting for me, but I walked straight to the door without looking.She quickly stopped in front of me, I glanced at her, and said impatiently, "Get out of the way."

Elena looked at me with rolling eyes and remained motionless, "Damon, you're in love with Tammy, right?"

I finally looked her in the face, but her words made me angry, "Ha, you are just like my ridiculous brother, always thinking about things." Then I avoided her and didn't want to have any more entanglements with her.

But she didn't let me go, took my arm, and said inexplicably and sadly, "Damon, you fell in love with her, you finally fell in love with someone else."

"Finished? Can I go?"

She finally let go of my hand, but the moment I pressed the doorknob to open the door, Elena shouted loudly, "Damon, choose to save me, do you regret it?"

I turned around and saw her bursting into tears, but I didn't want to comfort her at all, because I knew Stefan was enough, but I didn't want to add to her pain after all, and I didn't want to do what she said. I did, so I confessed, "I haven't regretted it. But I ask you and your boyfriend to leave my business alone."

Finally the world is quiet, no one is talking nonsense in my ears anymore, I can drink wantonly and do A wantonly.When I don’t want to go home, I will go to that room. Anyway, there is no owner now. Many times when I enter through the window, I feel someone lying on the bed. I have always wondered why she was never afraid of me, and I also wonder why she never So calm, and finally learned from Elena that she has a serious congenital heart disease, she would not live to be 20 years old, and the doctor told her not to have too much emotional ups and downs, no wonder she is so strange.I lay on the bed with the pillow over my nose, trying to find something, only her smell could help me fall asleep.

When I woke up at dawn, many times I wished I would go to the kitchen, but it was still empty. No matter how many times I came, the room hadn't changed at all, and I left disappointed.

One day I saw Darcy, I rushed forward immediately, I was going to kill him, how could he betray.

He let me beat him and didn't fight back at all, but when I showed my fangs and tried to bite his neck off, he finally fought back, and he ran away into the woods.

When I arrived, he was standing in the woods waiting for me.

He sternly reprimanded, "Damon, I know you hate me, but you do this kind of thing in public, are you trying to expose everyone's existence? If it wasn't because it was getting late now, I'm afraid everyone in this town would have known Vampires exist."

After I finished listening to his nonsense, I quickly jumped on him again, but this time he didn't let me succeed again, because he uttered a damn spell, which made me unable to move.

My eyes stared at him angrily like wanting to eat people, Darcy walked up to me, "Do you love her?"

I really have the urge to roll my eyes, why is everyone asking me such stupid questions.

"Damon, do you know she loves you?" he asked again.

Only this time, my expression settled down, do I know she loves me, do I know, my heart is anxiously asking myself.

"Damon, she loves you, she loves you very much, she knows she is going to die, but the last promise she made to me was to protect you."

I looked into the eyes of the person in front of me in disbelief, how could it be, how could it be?

Why not, she loves me, I knew it early on, it's just, just...

"Damon, stop being like this, she wants you to live, wants you to live well."

There was a sadness that made me want to cry, and suddenly I asked hopefully, "Darcy, is she really dead?"

He just looked at me for a long time without answering, and I finally lowered my head in despair.

"I'm not sure. My perception is that she is really dead, but maybe there will be a miracle." Darcy said.

I repeat him like an idiot, "Miracle?"

"Damon, you can look for Katherine for more than 100 years, maybe after more than 100 years, she will appear again, will you wait?" Darcy left quickly after saying this, I watched his back disappear quickly , The woods returned to tranquility, except for me, it seems that no one else has ever been here.

For more than 100 years, the seeds of hope were sprinkled in my heart, and the ripples became bigger and bigger.