[Vampire Diaries] I can't give you happiness

Tina helped me up, she wiped away my tears with her hands, and repeated, "Son, you really suffered."

"No, Tina, I know that my mother loves me very much, so I am not bitter at all." She is loving me with her life, so how can I feel bitter?It's just that I didn't say this sentence, for fear of making Tina even more sad.

"What about your father?" Tina asked with doubts.

"He, my father, he..." I stared blankly at Tina, trembling a little, looking at her hopeful eyes, "He hates me, he abandoned me", then I lowered my head, trying to hide myself to heal my wounds.

"Okay, let's eat." Tina held back her sadness, stood up with a smile, and wanted to get out of the haze, and at the same time, she wanted to give me strength.

The meal Tina cooks is a typical American dinner, not as complicated as Chinese ones, but a few simple dishes mixed together, ordered with salad dressing, and then covered with fried noodles. Tina's taste is a bit sweet, and I'm not used to it, so I just picked and ate the vegetables on top, "Is it not to your taste?" Seeing that I didn't eat much, she asked.

"No, I can't eat much."

After all, I just finished crying, and my mood fluctuated too much, and she didn't seem to have much appetite, and she only took a small bite of the food on the plate occasionally, so Tina didn't doubt my words, "Don't be too sad, you have to be strong, this world There are still many beautiful things that you haven’t seen”, I am a child in front of her, so when both of us are sad, she has to control herself and enlighten me, and Tina’s original intention is to comfort me at this moment Sad mood, but she may have realized that I don't have much time, so her voice gradually lowered, "You have to make your life more meaningful." After finishing speaking, she forced her lips to say yes I smiled.

"By the way, Tammy, I have a medical exchange event recently, and I need to go to many countries. Are you interested in visiting various places with me?"

To go around the world, Tina's proposal made me feel a little bit excited for a moment. I was about to ask questions about where and when to go, but before my expression became excited, a troubled elf in my mind used A pot of cold water was poured over my heart, letting me know that these are just delusions.

Even though I didn't show great interest, I didn't refuse directly, so Tina felt that I still need to think about it, "Well, you don't need to rush this matter, it will take half a month at the earliest, and this trip The time for the two months, you think about it, if you want, don't worry about the school. "

To break through the overwhelming sadness, Tina told me many anecdotes about my mother when she was young.For example, my mother cherishes her soft long hair the most, and it always takes a long time and a lot of energy to style it every day.When they came to the United States, they all suggested that she try short hair, because everyone had short hair at that time, but my mother was determined and refused to give in.

"So look, the short-haired girl in this photo is different from Shinely." After Tina's explanation, my mother became more and more clear in my heart. She has a bright smile, just like her English name , she has a unique little temper and persistence that belongs to the youngest daughter, "And what impresses us the most is your mother playing the pipa." Tina pointed to a photo of her mother playing the pipa and showed me, " Only then did I know that Chinese folk musical instruments are so wonderful, and your mother’s appearance combined with the sound of the pipa is just like the live-action version of the classical Chinese beauties I saw, which is really moving.” Looking at the photo, I imagined the scene at that time in my mind. The multi-talented mother sat in front of everyone holding a pipa with a gentle face. She immersed herself in the world of music and was intoxicated, and she herself became a beautiful picture. Landscape painting attracts the love of young men and women.

"At that time, there were still some boys who pursued Shinely", what does this mean? According to Tina's high evaluation of my mother, shouldn't it be said that there were a lot of boys who pursued her?Xu saw my doubts, and she continued, "This is already very good, after all, the United States was still very xenophobic at that time." See, not to mention America 20 years ago.But precisely because of this, one can imagine how excellent my mother must be. No wonder my father hated her choice of me, and felt completely desperate when he heard about my incompleteness.

"That……"

"However, until he appeared, Shinely politely rejected other people's pursuit." Tina did not say that I almost forgot, "Is that the man you mentioned that day?" I asked a little cautiously, because I remember that Tina also likes that man, and Tina is still single now, there is no guarantee that there will be no such man s reason.

Seeing my weird expression, Tina understood it, and looked at me a little funny, "That was all a few years ago, you don't have to worry about me."

"Then my mother is with him?"

"No, Shinely said that there is a brother in her hometown who is still waiting for her. Everyone opposed her coming to the United States, and that brother was no exception, but he couldn't persuade her, so he didn't ask for the unwilling consent. So that man has been Shinely's side, but only in the name of a friend."

"In the name of a friend?" I murmured and repeated, did my mother have any love for that man?

"What's his name?" I finally remembered the question I've always wanted to ask.

"Clause".

"Clause?" My eyes widened in surprise, and my voice suddenly amplified.

"What's wrong? Is there any problem?" Tina asked puzzled.

"Is there a photo of him?" I was suspicious. There are so many people with the same name, but this one Clause is more vivid in my memory. They are not alone at all, and in terms of time, they are also It can't be a person.

After figuring out this section, I laughed at myself again, I really thought too much, so my heart settled down, "It's nothing, recently I met a person, also named Clause, just the same name, I made a big fuss .”

"I see." Seeing that I was fine, Tina also relaxed, "Oh, by the way, Tammy, look, this person is Clause. When I saw him back then, I was fascinated by his aristocratic temperament."

I followed her fingers and saw the silhouette of that man among a group of people, and then my heart lifted up again, how could this be possible, how could they be so alike.

"He, how old was he then?" I asked Clause tremblingly.

"What's wrong with you, Tammy?" Tina felt very worried when she saw my strangeness.

"Tina, answer me quickly." If that person is really the Clause I met not long ago, then what happened to my mother at that time. What is the purpose of Clause approaching my mother? My heart is full of doubts, and I am also worried about the people and things that have passed.

"Looks like he's in his twenties."

"Do you know any other information about him?" My tone seemed urgent.

"Tammy, what's wrong with you? Don't scare me. Baby, don't get excited, calm down, hurry up." Thinking about my physical condition, Tina became more and more worried.

After listening to her words, I came back to my senses, and then I tried my best to calm down the excitement just now. Yes, as Tina said, my body itself can't bear the emotional fluctuations at all.

In the end I didn't get any more information from Tina, except that Clause was from the UK.And I desperately need to know more, more, and yes, Damon, he must know something.

Damon should be waiting for me at my house now. With this in mind, I quickly said goodbye to Tina, and also rejected her proposal to take me home by car, and rushed home. So repulsion had to deal with Damon's mood.

However, I was disappointed, the house was pitch black, and I shouted, "Damon." No one answered, I went to the living room again, and checked every corner of the house, after all, Damon has a long time It is a precedent for sculpture, so it is normal for me not to agree.But after rummaging through every possible place he might be, I'm finally sure that Damon didn't come today.

I took out my phone and checked the time. It was already nine o'clock. Is he still coming to "take medicine" tonight?I don't have the energy to laugh at myself for thinking I'm a drug, I just want to ask something from Damon soon.As for Stefan, subconsciously I don't want him to know too much about me.

I walked up and down the room, waiting anxiously, but only a few minutes passed, and I couldn't wait any longer.So the original thought was released by me, I took out my mobile phone, and after a pause, I dialed the number, "Elena, do you know the exact address of Damon's house?" I didn't even care that Elena didn't know my boyfriend's home address I had some ideas about the situation, but in the end Elena reported the address, although she had some obvious hesitation.

Damon and Stefan's family lived behind a forest, and because of the urgency in my heart, I didn't have any extra thoughts to be afraid of the seclusion and darkness of this section of the road.

Passing through the woods, a large house stood in front of me. It looked very old. There were many windows in the house, but only two were lit. I took a deep breath, walked to the door, raised my hand and knocked on the door. Knocked.

I waited for a long time but no one answered, so I knocked three times again, and after waiting for a while, there was still no one.So I knocked on the door louder and louder.

Are you not at home?

Disappointed, I struggled to my death, and tried to knock again. When I reached the second knock, I was in vain. I saw Damon standing impatiently at the door, seeing clearly that it was me, and then gave me a contemptuous look. With his back against the door, he didn't intend to invite me in, "What's the matter?"

I just saw Damon's whole body was wet, his hair was dripping with water, his upper body was naked, and his strong muscles were so straightforwardly displayed in front of my eyes. He was only surrounded by a towel, obviously just after taking a shower look.

"I, can I go in and talk about it?" I saw Damon obviously didn't want to talk and wanted me to leave quickly, so I could only make a clear request.

"Damon", before he could refuse, there was a sexy shout, and a blond beauty wearing only a white towel came from the corridor. Shoulder, combined with Damon's appearance, I know what happened to them even if I don't know much about it.So my face burned and hurt immediately, "You see, I'm very busy now, I don't have time to talk to you." Damon said and was about to close the door.

I hurriedly stepped forward to push against the door that was about to be closed, "You haven't 'taken your medicine' today, have you? So you still have to come to me, why bother."

After examining me for more than ten seconds, Damon made a decision.

"Well, come in and talk quickly. Jessi, you go back today."In the second half of the sentence, he said to the beautiful woman.The beauty said ok obediently, despite the reluctance on her face.

I stepped into Damon's house. The living room is very large, the decoration is also very retro, and the fire in the fireplace is burning vigorously. Damon didn't intend to change clothes, he led me to the sofa, and he sat down comfortably by himself, "Tell me, what's the matter?"

"You know about Clause, right?" I just said the name, Damon's eyes narrowed sensitively, and even his muscles stiffened.

"Damon, I'll go first, remember I'll be waiting for you at any time." At this time, the beauty had already changed her clothes and came down. She was wearing a suit. Round and straight buttocks, slender calves exposed under the skirt, except for the superfluous scarf around her neck, I think everything about her is perfect, she is simply a stunner in the world.

She walked up to Damon and leaned down to kiss him goodbye. When she raised her head, she gave me a strange look, and then walked away coquettishly on her high heels.

"Don't look at it, you will never be like this in your life."

I don't know why there is an irritable mood in my heart, and I feel more and more sad after hearing Damon's contemptuous words.

"Clause, what does it have to do with you?" He replied with a serious look, as if I didn't understand why he wanted to give me a good look.

"I wonder, will Clause live forever?"