[Vampire Diaries] I can't give you happiness

I am a devil. I knew from the day I was born that my gentle and strong mother chose to give up her life in order to keep me. Then I was exiled by my father who loved my mother without any suspense.

My grandma doesn't like me, I know, because I took the life of Ruhua, her favorite little daughter, and because I'm unbelievably incomplete.My life is lonely, but I am lucky to have my grandma by my side.My father ignored me for ten years and didn't abandon me. I think it was because of my mother's last request, begging my father to love me well.

None of these things were told to me, because no one but my kind grandmother would say a word to me, because I would bring misfortune.No one knows that I have all the perceptions from the moment I left the mother's body and felt the light, so I know everything that happened, but I don't resent, because I heard the doctor say to my father: "Your wife decided to keep the baby." And then The sound of my father breaking down.I also heard my mother say to me tenderly: "Baby, mother can't grow up with you, but mother will always love you."

So even if all the people in this world hate me and all the people leave me, I will not resent, because I was born to love and was preserved by the mother's love at the cost of my life, and my appearance is so exactly like me beautiful mother.

My world has no friends, my world has no freedom, I sit high on the attic like an ancient woman and cannot move, I look from a height, the town is quiet and simple, I smile and look up at the sky, fortunately I am still alive Alive, thank God for giving me another day.

It's just that my laughter didn't end yet, the door was opened rudely with a slam, and a man stared at me with painful and angry eyes, but turned his head stiffly after seeing my face clearly.I kept my composure, no extra expressions, because I couldn't.

"Please don't use my surname and your first name in the future. It has nothing to do with me."

It turns out that 18 years have passed, my grandma is old, she went away, she was worried about me, and prayed to my father to treat me well, maybe because of the relationship between father and daughter, maybe because of my mother, he got the mother's request to him, He didn't disappear directly from my world, even though I knew he had the right to do so, because I was an adult, and neither emotionally nor legally bound him.He gave me the choice to choose the place for the rest of my life. I took everything left by my mother and grandma and chose the United States, because my mother was very happy there, and I wanted to be closer to her.

On the eve of my departure, a strange but memorable old man called me. She said: "Your father doesn't want you anymore, so you can use your mother's surname. Take care of yourself." After receiving the call, I I was surprised, but more nervous, and finally I let out a sigh of relief, and I was moved, grandma, thank you.

I have no extra luggage, nothing else but a case of books and enough money to live simply for a lifetime.

Welcoming and sending off at the airport, how much laughter and how much sorrow, I hid in the sea of ​​people and dared not look forward to it, because apart from my grandma, I was left alone.

The plane passed through the clouds and headed towards the sun. The golden light made me unable to open my eyes. I held my chest and slowly recovered my breathing.