grey alley

Madam Jiang is sick.

Melanoma, which was detected by skin pathology during the physical examination.

Fortunately, this disease is detected early, and it can be checked and treated as soon as possible.She is a few years older than Jiang Wei, and is now 67 or [-] years old, but because of the maintenance, she looks much younger than her actual age.

But this still cannot hide the fact that she is very old.

Once people are old, they are always very emotional, especially Mrs. Jiang.Pei Xiqing went to the hospital to accompany her a few times. At that time, she had just finished the operation to remove the lesion on her forearm. When she was alone in bed, she always felt a little bit absent-minded. Only someone opened the door and came in. It was only after the movement that she cheered up and greeted them with a forced smile.

When she saw him coming, she always seemed to want to touch his head, but once he showed signs of raising his head before touching her, she would shrink back a little bit like being pricked by a needle, which seemed to be a bit of a cover-up.

Pei Xiqing told Jiang Wei that Mrs. Jiang seemed to be in a bad mood, and Jiang Wei took time to go to the hospital to accompany her several times, but when they were talking, he stood outside the door, separated by a wall, and there was no one inside. noticed.

"Why are you always absent-minded recently?" This is Jiang Wei's voice, rustling, and he seems to be sitting on the hospital bed, "What are you thinking, always in a trance?"

Mrs. Jiang paused, and said in a low voice, "It's nothing, it's just... well, forget it."

"Huh?" Jiang Wei spoke softly, holding her hand, "Little Orange Blossom, what did you want to say just now?"

"... How long ago did this happen, don't call me by my nickname anymore." Mrs. Jiang touched her face, feeling a little shy.

The two of them stayed together for a while, and it could be seen that their relationship over the years was really good. Pei Xiqing leaned against the door, listening to the conversation inside with no expression.

Mrs. Jiang sighed and said, "Maybe I'm really too emotional, but I always feel depressed recently, as if something is blocked in my heart."

"Because of what?"

Mrs. Jiang looked at her bandaged forearm after the operation, and said with a smile: "I am born with such a personality, and you don't know that I am scruples about this and that. I also knew about Xiqing at the time..."

"You said you can't force things like feelings, Xiqing's temperament...it's true that we are not very close..."

Jiang Wei said: "He is a smart boy, he can learn everything very quickly."

"I know, I know," Mrs. Jiang murmured, "But I always feel that sometimes...he looks like Qianxue..."

She spoke paragraph by paragraph, as if hesitant and distressed, and rarely took the initiative to bring up the past: "I found out later that Qianxue committed suicide at home. He was only 16 years old."

"I heard that the blood flowed all over the place, and he stayed alone with Qianxue's body for a whole day and night. To be honest, I was really scared..." Speaking of the former child, she wiped her eyes, "I don't I know how he will be affected, but when I think about his own child being there, and finally being reduced to an orphanage, I... I feel very sad..." She looked really sad, and she said while hiding Weeping softly, "I really want to ask him about these things, but I still dare not after hesitating for so long."

She cares a lot about Pei Xiqing, so after getting along for a long time, she can always find some abnormalities in the details of his life.She didn't dare to ask the client directly about these abnormalities, so she could only ask other doctors in private. However, based on her previous experience, she couldn't evaluate the client, so she could only draw a vague general result.

PTSD and mild or moderate depression, no small problem.

But Pei Xiqing's disguise was so good that they couldn't see it.

Jiang Wei could only pat her on the back after hearing this, and comforted her: "He is doing well now."

"No, I'm not sure if he's really doing well now, what he wants, or what he wants to do...Jiang Wei, we're all getting old," Mrs. Jiang looked at her forearm again, unable to bear it. Zhu stroked the surface of the bandage lightly: "We won't be able to help him in a few years, and when we leave, he will be left alone."

Jiang Wei sighed softly, "There's no way, it's already too late when we meet."

"This is our only family member, Jiang Wei," Mrs. Jiang's eyes were reddened, "We brought him back in the hope that he will have a good life and have enough capital and confidence to stop living that kind of life under the fence. But I don't think he's really happy.

"Tell me, is it because we tied the Jiang family to him, or because of Shu Wang? After all, we used to be so good to Shu Wang. During that time, he could only suffer outside. There is a model left by Shu Wang, do you think he will be sad when he sees it... I feel that our feelings are all transferred to him because Shu Wang is gone."

Jiang Wei put his arms around her upper body, not knowing how to persuade her not to think wildly during her illness.

Madam Jiang suddenly said at this moment: "Let's leave here, Jiang Wei."

"Let's take Xiqing to go abroad, stay away from here, and our family will go abroad to start again. It's best to make Xiqing forget everything here."

No matter how dead people are, they are always inferior to those who are still alive. She knew that if she left, it would be cruel to her pair of children who had already passed away, but if she continued to stay here, it would be even more cruel to Pei Xiqing.

Pei Xiqing doesn't talk much, he always stays alone, he usually doesn't check his phone, when he has nothing to do, he can play with a small object for a long time, when he is silent, it's like a thick layer separates him from the world Barrier, free from all of them.

But in normal life, when people call him or talk to him, he will smile again, which is introverted, plain, mixed with a gentle and warm meaning, with low eyebrows and a slight smile, which makes people feel very comfortable, like a burst of laughter. The gentle wind blows just right.

Presumably, his ease in handling interpersonal relationships in the company is also based on this attitude.

But after living together for so long, she clearly and secretly saw that when the corners of his eyes were bent, there was a mist in the depths of his pupils, and there was nothing inside, like a hole that could never be filled. All the care and concern fell into that big hole, and there was nothing left.She finally realized his abnormality, because he had such an attitude towards everyone around him.

Xiqing...is he also like Qianxue...

Mrs. Jiang didn't dare to think about it, so she could only think of an idea to take him out of here and start again.

This place will always be a sad place for them, full of sad memories that people don't want to think about.

"But doesn't Xiqing have a suitor?" Jiang Wei suddenly said, "If that Lu Zong can impress him—"

"It's useless," Mrs. Jiang interrupted him, "It's been more than two months, have you seen Xiqing's attitude clearly?"

Jiang Wei sighed again: "Xiao Tan also..."

The two people in the ward were silent for a moment, "That's fine," Jiang Wei held Mrs. Jiang's hand and comforted her: "Then listen to you, I also had the idea of ​​shifting the company's focus before, but now it just happened to happen. Already," he said softly, "then we-"

Pei Xiqing didn't continue listening outside the door, turned around and left.

He was very calm, he didn't go anywhere, and he didn't look for Lu Mingzhou. After weighing all the pros and cons, he made a decision that day.

Jiang Wei tentatively mentioned this matter to Mrs. Jiang after several days after she was discharged from the hospital. Mrs. Jiang was going abroad for follow-up treatment. Two old people sat on the sofa and waited for him to come back. his opinion.

They originally thought he would ask why, but they didn't expect that Pei Xiqing didn't seem to think too much, took off his coat, and nodded very plainly: "Yes."

Both Jiang Wei were stunned.

"you--"

"What's the matter?" Pei Xiqing smiled, "Suddenly there was such a big fight, I thought something terrible happened."

Mrs. Jiang said awkwardly: "Not at all, but we originally thought that you would ask why..."

"Grandma, you can decide, I will follow your arrangement."

Jiang Wei coughed, "Xiqing, this time we move abroad, the company's focus and market will be shifted, many things will be transformed and re-integrated, many things and policies in the company will definitely be affected, and this time If we leave, we may not come back here again, do you really think about it?"

Pei Xiqing still said the same thing, with a smile on his lips, he repeated to them: "I will follow your arrangements."

Jiang Wei nodded, "That's good." Mrs. Jiang looked at him, not knowing what to say.

"Grandma, how is your recovery now?"

Mrs. Jiang was startled, watching him subconsciously touch her earlobe, and said with a smile: "It's pretty good, I don't feel any discomfort, I think I'm recovering pretty well."

"That's fine, but you look worried?"

"Is there?" Mrs. Jiang touched her face, a little moved, and sighed: "Maybe it's because I've been a little tired recently."

"Grandma, you have just been discharged from the hospital," Pei Xiqing said softly to her, "have a good rest."

Mrs. Jiang gently wiped the corners of her eyes with a handkerchief, and nodded: "Okay."

Jiang Wei had already found a mid-mountain villa with mountains and lakes in a foreign country. Mrs. Jiang will be taken there to recuperate first. Pei Xiqing and Jiang Wei still have to deal with many matters here.

Regarding this news, Lu Mingzhou was the last to know about it.

Pei Xiqing was still working overtime when he came to him.

There are not many people in the company, and the lights in Pei Xiqing's office are especially bright. Lu Mingzhou just sat on the sofa next to him and waited without disturbing him. He waited until one or two o'clock in the middle of the night. Woke up, "Mr. Lu, Mr. Lu?"

Lu Mingzhou woke up in the dim light, and grabbed Pei Xiqing's hand.

"Boss Lu," Pei Xiqing said softly, "You have been waiting here for so long, what do you need to see me today?"

Lu Mingzhou was panting, as if he had just had a nightmare, and the horror from the dream still remained. He grabbed Pei Xiqing's hand with great strength, and went straight to the point: "I heard you are leaving?"

Pei Xiqing smiled slightly: "Who did you listen to?"

Lu Mingzhou stared at him with wolf-like eyes, "Many people, but you haven't told me, is this true?"

Pei Xiqing nodded slowly under his gaze, "It's true."

He said: "After a while, I will leave here and go abroad. My grandfather said that he wants to expand the market and develop outside." He smiled, "But this time I will probably not come back."

Lu Mingzhou fixed his eyes on him, trying to find some trace of lying on that face.Then he didn't find it.

"Why?" He squeezed the words through his teeth, "Why didn't you say anything, and you left without saying hello like before? Pei Xiqing," he leaned very close, "you said Give me a chance."

"Uncle, I've thought about it. It's good for you and me." Pei Xiqing touched his face with his fingertips, and accidentally touched a wet spot at the end of his eyes. He looked in disbelief, As expected, there were no tears on Lu Mingzhou's face, so he breathed a sigh of relief, and continued: "If this long-term training continues, it will actually be meaningless to both of us. Short-term pain is worse than long-term pain, uncle."

Lu Mingzhou didn't miss the slightest bit of expression on his face, and was stunned by the relieved look, so he turned over and pressed him on the sofa, "But it's not good for me, I don't think it's good," he lowered his head, "You I always want to leave without a word like this, have you really thought about and considered my feelings seriously, Xiqing," he swallowed, and gritted his teeth: "Or do you really think I'm bored so you want to You have to be eager to get rid of me, but if this is the case, why don't you just let me give up, you need to use this method to push me on the wire and take every step tremblingly, you really..." He bit hard The tip of my tongue: "Are you really that cold-blooded?!"

Cold blooded?

Is he cold blooded?

He is alienated, indifferent, and treats everything as if he stays out of it. He is never willing to include another person who is praying with all his heart and soul into his future, and he looks coldly at the various unclear entanglements between himself and the other party.He put his own heart on the shelf, but allowed other people's feelings to flood, and did not stop and persuade him. Instead, he examined and analyzed other people's hearts from the perspective of a bystander and the perspective of God.This is... This seems to be very cold-blooded, and mixed with a little bit of evil.

It turned out to be him.I have always attached a certain "special" label to Lu Mingzhou, but in fact, what is this special to me?Lu Mingzhou did his best to him, but he just used the word "special" to gently expose Lu Mingzhou's devotion to him, and if he couldn't give any response, he still had to break with the other party. Is this really fair to Lu Mingzhou? ?

After all, long-term pain is not as good as short-term pain.

Pei Xiqing didn't look at him any more, but stared at the ceiling, his throat moved slightly, his brows furrowed a little, and finally he said: "Just take it as it is."

This is a gesture of giving up the argument, he admits that he has no feelings for him, he is cold-blooded.

Lu Mingzhou squeezed his wrist tightly, and his voice suddenly became fierce: "Aren't you going to refute? Why do you admit it?! If that's the case, what have I worked hard for all these years?" He pinched his chin , fingers trembling: "Could it be that in your eyes, my hard work these years is a joke?!"

Maybe he had done too much, Pei Xiqing looked at Lu Mingzhou's red eyes, and looked at the look in his eyes begging him to deny, he opened his mouth, and finally whispered three words: "I'm sorry."

This sentence of apology is equivalent to obliterating all the past between the two of them. It is like pouring a touch of concentrated sulfuric acid into the memory, and all the beautiful and lingering things are turned into carbonization in the burning carbonization. fly ash.

Lu Mingzhou's expression froze for a moment, he let go of his collar and pushed it away. He had never scanned his face so carefully inch by inch, seeing through every expression on his face, and then pushed open the office door without turning his head. back to leave.

It is indeed too much.

Pei Xiqing straightened his collar in the empty office, then sat on the sofa in a daze, thinking a little dullly.

too much.

I am sorry.

作者有话要说：本章所有的病理描述和隔空就进行评定这种操作纯纯是我胡诌的哈，大嘎不要当真嘿嘿，下章可能有狗血老梗，也差不多到结局了感谢在2022-04-1422:33:27~2022-04-1522:19:45期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the mine: Gongbao is one of my favorites;

Thanks to the little angel of irrigation nutrient solution: 10 bottles of muddleheaded;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!