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There was arguing and the crackling of things being thrown in the room.

Pei Xiqing plugged the earphones into her ears.Because of Lu Guanqing's incident, he jumped from the second floor, resulting in a fractured calf and recuperating at home.In fact, he doesn't really want to be at home if he can.

Something slammed on the door with a loud bang, and fell to the ground with a bang. The low voice of the man's suppressed anger mixed with the slightly sharper cry of the woman, and Pei Xiqing didn't even lift his eyelids. After a while, he put the textbook on his knees and studied it by himself with a little knowledge.

After a while of silence, there was a heavy applause and the sound of something falling from the master bedroom. Pei Xiqing couldn't bear it anymore, stood up and went to the other side and pulled open the door of the master bedroom. Pei Xingu lifted a sheet beside the bed. With an angry face, he rushed to Pei Xiqing who was outside the door and shouted loudly: "Get out!"

Pei Xiqing's gaze moved down and landed on Jiang Qianxue who fell to the ground.The woman lay curled up in the mess all over the floor, and the white skirt under her body began to slowly splatter with blood.

Pei Xingu followed his gaze down, the anger on his face seemed to freeze for a moment, and after a while, he hurriedly picked him up from the ground, and shouted helplessly: "Qianxue? Qianxue?!"

The reason for the quarrel that day was unclear, but it was always trivial. Pei Xingu was depressed because his career was not going well, and he sought help everywhere but was shunned by others. Also big.

It happened that Jiang Qianxue had an argument with Pei Xiqing that day because of Pei Xiqing's injury at school. Jiang Qianxue's accusations were hysterically sharp. Spikes repeatedly pierce the deepest soft flesh of all the dearest and most loved ones around her, just to win a quarrel, because this can satisfy her instinctive desire for strength and control.

So under the fierce quarrel, Pei Xingu slapped her furiously.

After he slapped him, he regretted it. He knew that Jiang Qianxue was a patient. Even if she refused treatment and was unwilling to admit that she was sick, he couldn't do this to her because of a few angry words in the quarrel.

Then he saw Pei Xiqing standing behind the opened door, and then he saw Jiang Qianxue's blood-stained skirt.

Their second child was lost, without either of them knowing, because of that slap.

Jiang Qianxue's personality was irritable and irritable due to hormone changes in the early pregnancy, and her mood fluctuated greatly. In addition, she was already a little frail, so even if she was sent to the hospital soon, she still couldn't make it in time.

The miscarriage caused her to become weaker, and she is no longer suitable for another pregnancy. Although Pei Xingu has a bit of machismo in his temper, he has always been very kind to Jiang Qianxue. For the first time, he couldn't help but touch Jiang Qianxue. For causing such a big tragedy, I feel extremely guilty towards Jiang Qianxue for this incident.

During Jiang Qianxue's hospitalization, he went to the hospital every day and didn't come back until midnight. He made several meals for Pei Xiqing, who couldn't cook, and put them in the refrigerator. Leaving, talking about clients to attract investors, hoping to find other companies willing to inject capital into the company, maintain and stabilize the capital chain that is about to break, and overcome this difficulty.

Pei Xiqing went to see Jiang Qianxue once that day, the woman on the bed was sitting in a pile of white sheets and combing her hair quietly, her normally pretty face was now covered with sickly white, which made me feel pity.

Pei Xiqing asked her, "Did you do it on purpose?"

Jiang Qianxue smiled and said nothing.

Pei Xiqing sat with her for a while, feeling bored, stood up and wanted to leave, but Jiang Qianxue's hand was still holding a comb around her neck.Her fingers are slender, and the skin on the back of her fingers turns white when she uses force, giving off a skinny and thin feeling. The fingertips are decorated with red gilt nails, which look both beautiful and sick: "Let's go so soon." , won't you stay with me more?"

Pei Xiqing sat back, and after a while, she pinched a red spot on her shoulder, which was hidden under her clothes.

"Just stay here with me tonight, I'm always here alone, so lonely." Jiang Qianxue said to him.

"Daddy comes to see you every night."

Jiang Qianxue still had that gentle and soft smile on her face, "I don't care whether he lives or dies, as long as you don't leave without saying a word."

Pei Xiqing said calmly, "But he is my father."

"But I'm your mother too." Jiang Qianxue replied in the same tone.

The two looked at each other for a moment, the expressions on their faces were exactly the same, Jiang Qianxue touched his face, "Xiqing, anyone can abandon mother, but you can't," she climbed to the edge of the bed, her eyes were surprisingly bright, looking at Pei Xi Qing's eyes seemed to be looking at a beloved item that belonged entirely to her, "I am the person who loves you the most in this world, and I will never abandon you. In the same way, you can't abandon me either, you know? "

"You're not the only one," Pei Xiqing turned his head away, "You could have had a second child, so there's no need to hold on to me, Mom."

Jiang Qianxue's soft expression changed, "Do you think I'm bored, Xiqing, do you hate me?" She stared at Pei Xiqing, her expression was no longer as gentle as it was at the beginning, but stern: " Do you think that I am in charge of you every day, and it is starting to annoy you, do you want to get rid of me?!"

"I didn't mean that." Pei Xiqing said weakly.

"Mom always thinks that only you are enough. You can't let her down, let alone think about getting rid of her." Jiang Qianxue gripped his wrist with great strength, saying every word: "You know, huh?"

Pei Xiqing couldn't break away from her hand, so he could only say: "Okay, I know."

Jiang Qianxue calmed down the ferocious look on her face again, and opened her arms to hug his upper body, "Xiqing, mom loves you the most, so I won't let other people share your love. Your body Unlike others, I have brought you by my side since I was a child, and I will never leave you in everything, and I will only have you as a child."

Her embrace was like a heavy and suffocating shackle, imprisoning him in place and unable to move.

But he wanted to escape, to break through the cage, so he faintly showed signs of resistance.

Not long after Jiang Qianxue was discharged from the hospital, she saw that he was eating leftovers from the refrigerator, so she got very angry. When Pei Xingu came back, she slapped him hard on the face. The slap came back, and he said sharply, "Is this how you took care of my son during my absence?"

Pei Xingu was concerned about her unhealed body, so he didn't dare to quarrel with her anymore, so he touched his tired face and forced a smile, "Don't quarrel this time, okay? I will definitely pay attention next time Yes, it's all my fault because I have a bad stomach and can't eat leftovers."

At a certain moment, Pei Xiqing actually felt that he was a little pitiful.

A few days later, Jiang Qianxue had been discharged from the hospital for a long time that day, but her body was not fully recovered, probably because of the fall that broke her foundation, and she always looked sick.

So Pei Xiqing began to try to learn how to cook and do housework by himself, but when she saw him choosing vegetables, she snatched the knife from his hand and ordered him to leave the kitchen with a gloomy face, and he was not allowed to enter the kitchen to touch him again. water.

Jiang Qianxue didn't allow him to touch anything, and let him go to the living room to watch TV. She put on an apron and took out a piece of pork chop from the refrigerator to defrost.

"I can do it, Mom." He didn't leave, and stood at the kitchen door and said to her: "I'm already 16 years old. When I grow up, I have to live on my own. It's impossible to know nothing."

Jiang Qianxue turned around and stared at him with terrifying eyes: "Who said you have grown up? Who said you are going to live alone? Mom is here, where else can you go?"

Pei Xiqing was silent for a while, "But I will always leave in the future."

After Jiang Qianxue heard that sentence, she didn't speak for a long time. After a long, long silence, she seemed to remember something. She chopped the ribs with the kitchen knife in her hand, making creepy bangs.

He sat back on the sofa, thinking that he wanted to escape quickly in his heart all the time.

Then, his father came back.He heard a feeble knock on the door, Jiang Qianxue walked over to open the door, and saw a drunk Pei Xingu standing at the door.

He went out to socialize and drank completely drunk, leaning against the door frame without standing, he couldn't see anything from Pei Xiqing's angle, only half of Jiang Qianxue's back could be seen, Pei Xingu seemed to step in His chin rested on her shoulder, and he murmured something to her.

Jiang Qianxue's back looked indifferent.

She backed away, Pei Xingu fell directly to the ground, Jiang Qianxue looked down at him for a while, then turned and went back to the kitchen to continue cooking.

Pei Xiqing went to help Pei Xingu back, his father was leaning on the chair and snoring softly, reeking of alcohol, although I don't know if the matter with him was settled, but it will not go well anyway, because Pei Xingu is full of alcohol. Qi has said it all.

After they finished eating, Jiang Qianxue didn't prepare Pei Xingu's bowls and chopsticks. When they were clearing the table after eating, Pei Xingu leaned on the chair and cried.

It was the kind of feminine sobbing softly, as if he had been greatly wronged, he sat up slowly with red eyes, glanced at the faces of Pei Xiqing and Jiang Qianxue, and said: "I'm useless , I will not be able to support you.”

Jiang Qianxue picked up the leftovers and took them to the trash bin in the kitchen to throw them out. Seeing that he was still crying when she came back, she crossed her arms and said, "Why are you crying?"

Pei Xingu wiped away his tears, his face was flushed red by the smell of alcohol, at this moment he was like all frustrated middle-aged men, without the decency and vigor of the past, "I can't be saved, and I will announce it after a while." bankrupted……"

Jiang Qianxue sneered lightly: "So?"

In fact, Pei Xiqing doesn't really remember how they quarreled later, he only remembers that his father, who has a strong personality and always pays attention to cleanliness and decency, retreated steadily under Jiang Qianxue's sneer and blows. The quarrel between the two people was more like one side crushing the other side, how they got to the balcony, and how Pei Xingu climbed the railing, Pei Xiqing didn't know.

He only saw that his father was like a bereaved dog who had lost his prestige and support, shivering and curled up on the railing in a trance, being suppressed and questioned step by step by Jiang Qianxue about their second child, almost to a dead end inside.

In the end, he really had no way out, and asked Jiang Qianxue in confusion, "Then what do you want me to do? Do you want me to die? Qianxue, I know you never loved me, but we did this Couples who have been married for many years, even a heart made of a stone should be warmed by now, right?"

There was a faint cry of being driven to a desperate situation in that voice. He suffered all kinds of insults and cynicism outside, and when he returned home, he faced his wife's relentless pressure every step of the way. He seemed to have collapsed now.

After all, it turns out that he may have really failed to warm up his heart.

What impressed Pei Xiqing most at that time was the sentence that Pei Xingu said to Jiang Qianxue, "If you really hate me so much and want me to die, you can push me down now", and the next moment when he really When Jiang Qianxue withdrew, the blankness and astonishment on his face the moment his body vacated.

Pei Xiqing was sitting at the table, facing the balcony, he could see clearly, and he didn't miss the flash of boredom and indifference in Jiang Qianxue's eyes.

Murderer.He chewed the word slowly in his heart, and looked away from Jiang Qianxue's face.

I don't have a father anymore, he thought.

Suspected that he fell to his death because he couldn't bear the pressure of bankruptcy, the media gave Pei Xingu's death an unfounded reason that he had analyzed himself.In addition, Pei Xingu smelt of alcohol, of course, the reason for getting drunk and falling down the building in frustration cannot be ruled out.

Jiang Qianxue was in tears during the interview, and she looked very sad, "I always told him not to drink so much, but he refused to listen, saying it was because of the company's last resort, we had a fight, and he said he was very angry with me I was also very disappointed, and then locked myself on the balcony and said that I wanted to sober up by myself, and didn't want to see us..."

"I really... I really didn't expect him to..." She covered her mouth with a handkerchief, and tears rolled down her cheeks, "How can a person who is usually so strong, lose his mind because of this matter, I really don't understand , he left us orphans and widowed mothers, what should we do in the future..."

The media comforted her with a few words of sympathy, and Pei Xiqing, who wanted to turn the conversation aside, was stopped by her intentionally or unintentionally, "Sorry, Xingu's death has hit my son too hard, he hasn't reacted yet, can he Can't…don't—"

The media withdrew the microphone regretfully, "That's it, I'm really sorry, I really hope that you and your son's situation will get better as soon as possible."

Downstairs, there were policemen and doctors evacuating the crowd and disposing of the dead bodies. That whole day was like a dream to Pei Xiqing, and he still feels like a dream.

Lu Mingzhou didn't say a word for a long time after listening, he hugged him slowly, patted his back, and said softly: "It's okay..."

"Uncle is here now."

The author has something to say: Good night.