grey alley

Pei Jiajun asked to see Pei Xiqing, but Pei Xiqing refused.

"It's been more than half a year since I left, and now I have my own life outside." Pei Xiqing said the most poignant words over the phone in the most flat tone, "If it's not because of something special, don't leave me anymore." Find me so often."

Pei Jiajun understood that in a situation like Pei Xiqing's, there was room for not saying that they would sever ties.

It seemed that his entanglement in the past few days was very annoying and vexatious, which only aroused the disgust of others.

His lips twitched for a moment, since he knew the truth, he had thought about the current situation more than once, but he had no choice but to put away all the anxiety and panic in front of Pei Xiqing, and endured the sadness and regret that almost suffocated, " Brother..." His voice was very hoarse, and he would pause for a while after he said a few words repeatedly: "I don't want to harass you like this, I will definitely pay attention to it in the future, but... don't break the connection with me, okay? ?”

Pei Jiajun was almost speaking in a pleading tone.

He didn't know where Pei Xiqing had gone, where he would be now, whether he was living alone, whether he would change all the contact methods with them in order to completely abandon the past, and leave alone...

Just thinking about it made him feel unacceptable.However, five years later, he still failed to catch this person.

"Jiajun—" Pei Xiqing paused and sighed, "Do you still remember our first meeting?"

There was no movement on the other end of the phone, and Pei Xiqing continued: "Five years ago, you were only about 12 years old, and you were not as tall as you are now. You are thin and small, and you have a stubborn personality."

Pei Jiajun recalled what he said, and then he seemed to have touched something, so he didn't speak.

"When I was brought back by my second uncle, I came in from the yard. I still remember you watching cartoons and playing with toys in the living room."

"Jiajun, you have always been a smart kid with good grades, but you are a bit more stubborn than other kids, and there is nothing wrong with that." Pei Xiqing's voice was always clear, and it was pleasant when he spoke slowly, " There is always something to hold on to in life, but sometimes you need to let go of something that is not suitable for you.”

"What you said has always been my warning," he smiled slightly, "We all have different lives, but you don't know that a person without roots is just a clump of duckweed, unable to settle down, and it's not its thing Will, but it can only be its only one.”

Duckweed has no home and can only rot in the water in the endless drift. The only chance for them to settle down is to sink to the bottom and become a handful of residue or nourishment in the river.

"We can be your home—" Pei Jiajun hastily argued.

"Jiajun," Pei Xiqing sighed lightly, causing Pei Jiajun's heart to tremble, "You don't understand."

Pei Jiajun on the other side of the phone grabbed his hair vigorously, and kept thinking about what he had said and done.When the memory was distorted, deformed, and stretched to a certain sultry afternoon, when he clutched the phone tightly and picked up the fragment that he had deliberately forgotten and stuffed into the corner of his memory, he almost froze.

In the dim afternoon, the drowsy chirping of cicadas, the messy and noisy cartoons on the TV, everything is boring.

Pei Jiajun murmured like a dream, and overlapped with his 12-year-old self who was full of hatred, but one was full of anger without hiding his malice, and the other was helpless: "This is not your home, get out... get out."

This is not your home.

You are not welcome here.

get out.

It is frank, clear, straightforward and undisguised, so it is so clear.

"Jiajun," Pei Xiqing said lightly, "Have you remembered?"

"Brother..." Pei Jiajun blinked, tears suddenly poured out, his mouth opened and closed, but he couldn't utter the sentence of sorry, as if he had lost his voice, "..."

"You won't understand..." This sentence was too light, so light that it was as weightless as air, but it made Pei Jiajun burst into tears, "The college entrance examination is still a few months away, you have to focus on yourself In terms of your studies, don't be stubborn about this kind of thing anymore, after all, you still have your own future." The future of the two of them has been clearly divided, and there will be no intersection in the future.

"That's it, Jiajun, goodbye."

beep--

Pei Xiqing covered his face with one hand and did not put it down for a long time.Lin Chunli asked what was going on, Pei Jiajun just shook his head, there were wet spots between his fingers.

Lin Chunli slapped her thigh, "It's a crime..."

Pei Sanliang was smoking outside the yard with a sullen face, without saying a word, Lin Chunli ran out to beat him, and shouted: "A black-hearted old man, you didn't even mention the 20 yuan, how could he save so much money as a child? , so that we are not human inside and out now!"

Pei Sanliang exhaled a puff of smoke ring, like a hard rock that oil and salt can't get into, and he didn't express it at all.

He won't spit out that 20.

In his opinion, this was the reward he deserved for keeping Pei Xiqing for five full years, and it was the money he got for Jiajun, and they couldn't blame him for this.

He did think that Pei Jiajun might make a fuss before, but he didn't expect the family to make such a big fuss because of this incident.

It was all because I slipped my tongue at the dinner table when I was drunk, and Pei Jiajun noticed something wrong and kept asking him, and finally broke into the empty room that Pei Xiqing had cleaned up a long time ago, and asked him angrily with red eyes, "Why did you do this?! "

Why?Not for you.

Everything I do is because of you!

However, Pei Jiajun didn't appreciate it, and even dropped things at home to force him to return the money.

But how could he go back?Pei Sanliang thought while smoking a cigarette.

He treated Pei Xiqing like this, of course, it was all intentional. Whenever he saw his cousin's only child making compromises and being cautious at home, he would feel extremely refreshed.

How about getting better grades than him since childhood?

How about being smarter than him?

So what if he is more capable than him?

Even if he soars into the sky, leaves the village and cuts off all contact with relatives, and becomes a big entrepreneur who often appears on TV, so what?

In the end, couldn't bear the blow of bankruptcy and debts, and jumped upstairs and fell into a pile of mud?

In the end, didn't his son still have to depend on poor relatives like them in order to survive?

In the end, didn't Pei Xiqing still have to work hard at their house and swallow his anger?

Pei Sanliang really enjoys the strange pleasure of "paying the debt of the father and the son". This cousin has been someone else's child in his parents' mouth since he was a child. He has excellent grades and is handsome. He is born with self-confidence. The king of children that children admire.

And when he was a child, he was at the other extreme. He was dark, fat, short, inferior and cowardly. He was always called various nicknames in school. Whenever he was compared by adults, the other one was singled out as a positive teaching material. Always confident and dazzling Pei Xingu, his cousin.

The long-term differential treatment made him jealous, and he himself knew how much Pei Xingu despised him behind his back whenever he obediently agreed to take him more in front of adults.

He used to pay too much attention to this example in other people's mouths. By chance, he broke through the essence of this person, peeped into his inside, and knew that this person was selfish, hypocritical, and duplicity, but he always liked to pretend to be generous and extroverted. Good at please others.

He knew that they hated each other, but they had to be tied together because of the adults' orders, until both of them grew up, and the gap between them became wider and wider.

Pei Xingu has excellent grades and a flexible mind. After the college entrance examination, he was admitted to a 985 university. He walked farther and farther on that dazzling road, so far that he could no longer reach the point where he lived in a small mountain village. After graduation, he entered a well-known family After accumulating experience and contacts in high-tech enterprises, he stayed in the management for a few years, then resigned and started his own business, completely embarking on a completely different path from his.

When he saw Pei Xingu for the last time at that time, this person was wearing a well-tailored suit and an expensive watch. He appeared in a small mountain village in a bright and beautiful manner for the last time, just like a social elite.

He knew the gap between them would never be bridged, but his jealousy still couldn't cut it.

He still remembers that when Pei Xingu carried the gift to his dusty clay tile house, the cramped feeling of having nowhere to hide shrouded him like the shadow of being firmly suppressed in previous years.

Pei Xingu smiled and was polite, but his smile didn't reach his eyes, his politeness was superficial.

Pei Sanliang could only see his usual arrogance and hypocrisy, like the mimicry of some kind of bug in nature, who is used to deceiving others' eyes.

On that day, Pei Xingu came to say goodbye to all of them. He wanted to start a family in a big city, and he wanted to move his household registration out. the village.

The half of the ash that fell from the cigarette butt scalded the back of his hand, and Pei Sanliang came back to his senses. Lin Chunli was already tired, and she was sitting in the hall fanning the wind with a cattail fan, listless.

Pei Jiajun packed his schoolbag and came out of the room, with his head bowed and walked out.

Pei Sanliang frowned and stood up, "Where are you going?"

"Back to school."

"Today is Saturday." Pei Sanliang frowned.

"Isn't it possible?" Pei Jiajun didn't raise his head: "Don't you always think that I don't do this or that at home? So I won't be in your eyes at home."

Pei Sanliang pinched out his cigarette and stood in front of him, "Are you kidding me?"

"I raised you so much, everything I do is for you, now you want to play with me because of an outsider?"

Pei Jiajun looked up at him coldly, the redness in his eyes still remained, and there was a thorn in his words, "Don't use me as an excuse, and don't say it's for me, I don't want the 20 at all, you are just looking for it for your own selfish desire. Excuse."

"Snapped--"

Pei Jiajun's face was slapped aside, Pei Sanliang glared at him, and he held the half-cigarette in his mouth and shook slightly, "You fucking say it again?!"

"What are you doing!" Lin Chunli ran out of the room when she heard the movement, and stopped his hand that was about to slap again, "Why are you hitting the child all of a sudden?!"

"He can't figure it out, he should be hit!"

Lin Chunli said sharply: "I think you are the one who can't figure it out!"

The three of them entangled in a mess, Pei Sanliang wanted to fight, Lin Chunli stopped him, and took advantage of the gap to pinch him, Pei Jiajun stood there and watched coldly, and finally made Pei Sanliang gasp for breath, Lin Chunli went into the back room to get medicine for him, Pei Jiajun He turned his head and walked away.

After taking the medicine, Pei Sanliang regained his composure, pressed down the corners of his lips, and threw the remaining half of the cigarette in his mouth on the ground, "Leave as soon as you like, I don't care if he comes back!"

The family quarreled and broke up, ending embarrassingly.

Pei Xiqingwo flipped through picture books in Lu Mingzhou's arms.

The light from the bedside lamp is not glaring, and with the warm picture in the picture book, it is like a child reading a warm bedtime story with the company of his mother.

The picture book was bought for him by Lu Mingzhou yesterday.

Pei Xiqing hadn't had much exposure to this kind of thing when he was a child, so he found it very novel, and had been watching it for almost a day.

He likes that those warm and bright colors are included in the book, and are painted to heal small animals.

wonderful.

Lu Mingzhou half closed his eyes, but the eyeballs under his eyelids trembled slightly, he frowned slightly, and endured it.

"Sleep, okay? I have to go to class tomorrow." Lu Mingzhou pressed one hand on the picture book, his palm was dripping with sweat, and he twitched nervously from time to time.

"I'll read it for a while," Pei Xiqing stroked the picture book, "I like this very much."

He obviously leaned back and pressed onto Lu Mingzhou's body. Lu Mingzhou tried his best to regulate his breathing without making any movement. Then he saw the other party slide down and directly rested his head on his lower abdomen.

"Hiss..." Lu Mingzhou frowned, his voice very soft.

Pei Xiqing heard it, looked up, and stared at him for a while, then suddenly turned his head back and forth, his head like a bowling ball deliberately rolling over his stomach.

Lu Mingzhou shook the bed sheet for a while, got out of bed and went into the bathroom.

The sound of pattering water came, Lu Mingzhou was taking a bath inside, Pei Xiqing was reading a picture book outside, and the little lion inside was watering the flowers with the head of the sun that he drew with stick figures.

Pei Xiqing has two things in mind.

what.

like a housekeeper.

More and more like.

After a while, Lu Mingzhou came out covered in moisture, and Pei Xiqing could clearly see his deflated belly.

"Where's the stuff?" He looked into the bathroom.

Of course it was taken.

Lu Mingzhou returned to the bed and hugged him, avoiding talking, "Keep watching, and sleep after finishing."

All right.Pei Xiqing had no choice but to withdraw his thoughts, and he felt sleepy after a while, closing his eyes as if he was about to fall asleep.

In a daze, someone was touching his face, and Pei Xiqing heard Lu Mingzhou's voice: "The Xue family will host a banquet in half a month, and someone sent me an invitation."

"Nun?" Pei Xiqing replied vaguely.

Lu Mingzhou caressed his face calmly, lowered his head and asked, "I want to take you there that day, okay?"

"Hmm..." The sound was too vague, and he didn't know whether he answered or not, so Lu Mingzhou took it as his answer, "Then I'll prepare clothes for you." But such casual dinners are informal.

There was a little smile in his eyes, and he plucked Pei Xiqing's eyelashes, "Take you out, let them see my boyfriend."

And Pei Xiqing gradually breathed evenly, as if he had fallen asleep.

作者有话要说：晚安，来晚了。感谢在2022-03-1422:38:37~2022-03-1523:28:50期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angels of the irrigation nutrient solution: 10 bottles of Baizhi Qingshan; 2 bottles of Ricold and Moonwarm; 1 bottle of Harbin Beer;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!