Heartbeat misses Nick Charlie

Two weeks after my last quarrel was my penultimate exam - Friday's music exam.I haven't thought about anything else this week except preparing for my exams, and of course I can't remember the last time I haven't seen Nick for two days, let alone two weeks, oh my god.

Am I going to try and forget about this?I don't know how everyone does it.Nick is the nicest and most important person I have ever met.

Can anyone help me.

I went out with my friends on Friday night and had a big meal at SimplyItalian to celebrate the end of my exams (although I have a final exam next Thursday).I tried to look happy, respond to my friends' jokes, and complain about how bad the exam was, but it was all fake.I can't laugh at all, I want to go home, I want to sit on the bed and do nothing.

I sat next to Alied, who, as usual, didn't talk much all night.Finally, when we were about to check out, he stopped me suddenly, "Charlie," and I turned to look at him, and there was real concern in his eyes.

"Have you not spoken to Nick since?" he asked, as word of our fight had apparently spread.

"No," I said, trying not to let him hear my mood swings.

"So it's true?" His voice was almost a whisper. "Have you, uh, broken up?"

"Yes." This is the first time I said this sentence.I've been trying to distract myself from thinking about it, but no exams to distract me tonight.The truth is, we broke up. "Well, sort of." Aled stared at me. "I'm really sorry."

"Do not blame you."

"But..." he shook his head, "you're Nick and Charlie." I smiled. "what does it mean?"

"It's just..." He laughed too, and exhaled nervously. "It's a bit difficult to explain, but if it is to prove that soul mates do exist, everyone will choose you." I snorted contemptuously. "There are no soul mates in this world."

"Maybe, but you two are the closest thing to soulmates."

"If we were like this, he wouldn't have broken up with me."

"Is it really what you think it is?" I stared at Aled, he had never been so sure, I didn't know how to answer him.

"Did he ever say 'Charlie, let's break up'?" I frowned. "Actually, no, but he didn't say he didn't want to break up with me."

"He certainly wouldn't say that."

"what?"

"If he thinks you want to break up with him, he definitely won't protest. If he thinks you don't love him anymore, he won't embarrass you, he'll just hide his heartbroken by himself."

"That just means he's stupid!" Aled laughed. "Isn't it? Two fools fall in love with each other, it's not that a family doesn't enter a family."

"Who are you talking about?" Someone interrupted us, asking Aled if he had settled how much he had to pay.I really wanted to believe what he said, that Nick never wanted to break up with me.

As soon as I got home, I sat down at the breakfast counter.Victoria was there on the computer with a large glass of diet lemonade by her side.She turned to look at me.

"You look twice as happy as you have been for the past two weeks combined," she said.

"I need to talk to Nick, right now." She threw up her hands excitedly. "My God! Finally! The sun is out of the west!" I turned around in my chair. "But actually, I don't really want to do that."

"Okay, okay, you've had enough trouble, okay? You're already a 13th grader."

"It doesn't count until the start of school in September."

"I always count from the first day of the new year."

"I'm not." She took a swig of lemonade and pointed menacingly at the door. "Don't talk nonsense, go find him quickly, brat."

"God, I'll just go." I got up and headed for the door, but Victoria stopped me before I could go out.

"By the way, I found this in the middle of the couch cushions." She picked up something nearby, which was Nick's disposable camera.

"Is this yours?" I took it over. "It's Nick's."

"Oh, then he should want to take it back."

"Yeah." I walked out of the room slowly, and the small screen on the back of the camera showed the number 0-did Nick take so many photos?When did he take pictures?He could only have landed here two weeks ago when we were getting ready to go to a party, and I didn't see him photographed that day, so it must have been taken before that.

Now I know what to do.

Immediately after my shift change on Saturday morning, I ran to Boots to get my photos developed.

I have absolutely no idea what he took, but I figured there were some pictures that could be sent to Nick.I don't know if it helps, but sometimes a picture is worth a thousand words.Abba, why did I say such a cliché again.

I was told by the clerk that I would have to wait 1 hour to pick up the photo, so I just walked around town with an umbrella.I bought an Oreo milk chocolate at the newsstand, Nick's favorite.Then I put the umbrella on my shoulder, found a bench and sat down to check my phone.

At this moment, I received a message from Tao, and I immediately clicked on it.

Xu Tao (15:34) Hey Charlie, it's been so long since we talked about Nick, I'm really sorry I didn't tell you personally about my breakup with Ellie.To be honest, I've been through a tough time myself, and I didn't think our breakup would cause you and Nick so much trouble. I'm really sorry.Hope you guys get back together soon, if you care, I saw Nick when he left Harry's house the other day, he looked very sad, I can assure you he didn't really want to break up with you.

I read this message over and over again.

Charlie Spring (15:52) Hi!Sorry, it's definitely not your fault.I'll let you know if things get better with Nick, I actually don't want to break up with him lol it makes me feel better to speak out.

I don't want to break up with Nick.

After that, I walked back to Boots to take photos.

It wasn't until I got on the bus home that I took out the photo to look at it.The first one he took of me the other day I went to find him in the cardboard fortress, I look a bit overwhelmed, eyes wide open and mouth half open.But this picture is honestly okay, maybe because it looks so natural.

The second one was Harry's candid shot of us, and it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be.We stood on the grass hand in hand, looking at each other, as if we were talking about something, the grass under our feet and the trees above our heads looked so vibrant in the sun.There was even an artistic quality to the picture, which Harry must have been proud of.

The third is my shot of Nick, it's so ugly I laughed out loud, I caught him halfway through his blink.He will definitely throw it in the trash can as soon as he sees this photo.

The fourth photo is of us together, with Nick putting his arm around my shoulders, our heads together, smiling for the camera.The sun was shining on Nick's chest, and the photo was slightly reflective.I stared at it for a while, I had a great day on Thursday, if only I had been as happy as I was in the past two weeks.

There are some pictures taken at the school, a few pictures with classmates, and a few pictures of the buildings in the school. It seems that Nick wants to remember the school as it is now.

There’s also a picture of me in Nick’s car, wearing sunglasses, curled up in the seat, checking my phone.The photos are pretty good, I rarely see myself like this, because usually it's just a selfie or a group photo with friends.

The car suddenly jolted and the photo slid from my lap onto the seat next to me.I quickly reached out to hold them down so they wouldn't fall to the ground, but they were still scattered like playing cards. At this moment, a photo caught my eye.

That's a picture of me sleeping on Nick's bed.The street lamps outside cast a soft orange glow through the thin curtains, and my hands were crouched in front of my face, my hair was tangled on one side.Considering the way I wake up every day, I should fall asleep in this position a lot.I don't know when he took it, I should have fallen asleep before him, but I can't remember exactly.

Maybe the photo is a bit odd, but I totally understand why Nick took it.If he was lying on my bed like this, I'd take it too.God, does that sound eerie?I don't care either.

Flipping through the remaining photos, I see that they all have one thing in common.They're all a bit fuzzy, but filled with muted tones like purples, blues, and oranges, like Polaroids in an art school exhibit.

I lie on his bed and play with his computer.I lay on the living room floor cuddling his dog Henry.I try to put Henry on my back.I took Henry for a walk in the lawn behind his house.I'm standing on a hill with my arms outstretched - I remember when this picture was taken.I caught him on the spot and wanted to take a sneak shot, so I gave him a sideways glance, with the sun shining fields and rivers behind me.A photo of the two of us.A photo of us hugging Henry.A group photo of the two of us making funny faces together.When he was at his house, he took advantage of my smile and put the camera on my face to take a photo.It was getting late, and I curled up on the sofa, the blue light of the TV screen illuminating the pictures of my hair.I was wearing short-sleeved shorts, sitting cross-legged on his bed, pointing at the camera and laughing.And this picture of me sleeping just now.

There are many pictures of me here.Only my picture.

Nick took a lot of pictures of me.

Nick is not a very creative person, he was never interested in photography or art.

I think he just took these photos to remember me. He wants to remember our life now, remember going to each other's house to play, walking together, eating together, and sleeping together every day.

Sound boring right?But I'm loving these days.

real.Just looking at these photos and remembering the past brings tears to my eyes.I love these pictures, I love Charlie and Nick, I love our weird and boring life.

I pulled my phone out of my pocket and took this selfie of the two of us making faces.I sent it to Nick.