Heartbeat misses Nick Charlie

It's Wednesday and I still haven't done anything, and neither has Nick.I figured if I was patient enough, he wouldn't be tempted to text me or call me first, but he didn't.

To be honest, I really don't know what he is thinking.Maybe he really wants to break up, otherwise he wouldn't ignore me like this, but he has never been so angry with me before.God, if he really wants to break up with me, I will never complain.I'm so pathetic.

I tried to get myself to stop thinking about it by reviewing it, but it didn't help.I did well on Thursday's Latin test, and I managed to get the words memorized in the end (nothing was stopping me from doing well).But I'm not happy about passing the test, I just check my phone over and over again, and of course, there's nothing on it, and there won't be.

I know it's best to message him, but what if I ask him if he really wants to break up and he says yes?Does life have any meaning without Nick?Wow, look what I said, I'm ashamed of myself.

If he wanted to talk to me, he would have come to me long ago.Since he didn't do that, it should stop here.