After the salted fish excavator became popular

Fu Manhua's Diary

March 4, sunny

Today is Ching Ming Festival, the sun is out but it is not warm at all. In order to prevent me from seeing Li Rui, this year will probably be the only year when my family does not see my ancestors.

But my mother lit incense and burned paper money at home. I heard her chanting in the yard, begging my ancestors to bless me to get rid of this disease.

I kind of want to laugh, begging my ancestors to bless my son and stop being gay?It might as well be reliable to send me to have an electric shock.

Today is the No. 20 day of separation, and I suddenly regretted being too sensible. Does Li Rui feel that I don't miss him at all?

Sure enough, when falling in love, the older party is still too disadvantaged, and the expression of love is usually too reserved.

If I knew it earlier, I wouldn't be so shameless. I miss him so much, maybe he misses me too, but I don't know.

May 4, rain

I felt that I was about to be locked up and lost my mind. The hunger strike didn't work. They would infuse me with nutrient solution and glucose, and tried every means to make me survive without food.

Before I met Li Rui, I thought my life was nothing more than two things: family and students. I would find a wife who could take care of each other, give birth to a lovely daughter, and raise her together.

After meeting Li Rui, I seem to be lazy, I don’t want to take care of each other, I just want him to take care of me, um... well, although I have been cooking for a while... But he does the laundry, the floor It was also he who dragged it. He also carried me into the room after I took a shower. Is it considered mutual care in a sense?

My originally stable balance began to tilt towards him. Sometimes I even thought that if someone thinks that gays are not worthy of being a teacher, then I can resign as long as I can be with him.

October 9, overcast

I don't know what they did to hide Leary, I can't find him.

May 10, heavy rain

There is still no news from Li Rui, I hope he will not be in danger.

October 12, overcast

It's ridiculous, they force me to go on a blind date, I won't go!

Not to mention that I have someone in my heart, why should I harm other girls?It's not fair.

Christmas, January 12

I still agreed to go on a blind date, but I want to see which girl can like me, a dead gay.

The most important thing is that as long as I agree to a blind date, I can go out.

As long as I can go out and surf the Internet, I can definitely find Li Rui.

He must have called me a lot, he must have been in a hurry.

April 12

I couldn't find him, I tried all his contact methods.

August 8th, autumn

Two years have passed, Zhang Lirui, are you really planning to abandon me?

April 11

Hahahaha, it's ridiculous, do you know, Leary?They actually came to lie to me with a letter from your notes!

How could I not recognize your handwriting?

They imitate so much, but I still see through.

It's interesting, though, and I've saved that letter.

Li Rui, we haven't seen each other for a long time, and I haven't seen your writing for a long time, so I miss you very much.

Zhang Lirui, did you hear that?I miss you.

April 6

Leary, I don't seem to have told you that I love you.

It's a pity that you never heard me say these three words to you in person.

April 12

Zhang Lirui, I love you.

April 1

Zhang Lirui, I think you are going crazy.

April 2

Remember the first time you proposed to me?

I said at the time that I would get married on February 2.

If I knew it earlier, I would stop talking.

April 5

Zhang Lirui, I'm getting married.

April 7

Leary, I'm sorry, I'm sorry.

……

As soon as Zhang Lirui had an accident, the filming of "Not Bitter" was unfinished. Guan Jinxi died before Virgo came out. She was dragged back by her brother crying, saying that his father was already looking for someone to write a second script for her. The child immediately expressed happily that she would like to invite Zhou Runqing to act together in the next play. Guan Yang pinched her nose and said: "When your second script is written, maybe Zhou Runqing's role is not the only one we want to invite." Please move."

Fu Shuchun was also taken back by the family, and under strict supervision, he was never allowed to enter the show business circle.

However, before being locked up, he and his family bought a bunch of things, contacted Shen Yu in advance, and came to the house to express their gratitude to Zhou Runqing and Shen Yu.

After seeing off the guests, Zhou Runqing began to urge Shen Yu to change clothes.

"Where are you going?" Shen Yu asked while changing clothes.

"Go see a psychiatrist." Zhou Runqing raised her head and bit his chin, smiling with a pair of peach blossom eyes, "I'll let you live after the disease is cured~"

Shen Yu didn't answer, but rubbed his thumb on the bridge of his perfectly shaped nose, touched the small mole at the root of his mountain with his fingertips, and said in a calm and unstoppable manner: "I can make you feel good even if it can't be cured."

Zhou Runqing immediately predicted what he was going to say next, and quickly reached out to cover his mouth, but she was still a step too late.

"As long as you let me do it."

Fortunately, his words are not too vulgar.

We are all men, so it's okay to use a little vulgar words. When I was studying, Zhou Runqing didn't think there was anything wrong with people in the same dormitory talking all over their mouths.

Moreover, he thought about the tone and picture of Shen Yu saying this word in his mind, and felt a little irritating.

It was hopeless.

When she arrived at the psychiatrist, Zhou Runqing was taken to a room alone to communicate.

The doctor asked him several questions, which he answered truthfully.

"Then what is your obstacle now?"

Zhou Runqing thought for a while, blinked and said, "I can't be hard."

Hearing what he said, the doctor also laughed, "Okay, then I'll change the question."

"You couldn't get hard before. Why didn't you ever think about seeing a doctor? What happened recently that made you decide to see a psychiatrist?"

Zhou Runqing was stunned for a moment, then smoothed out the fragmented plot in her mind, and told the doctor logically.

"Doctor, do you think it's because I'm hallucinating because I was locked in a small dark room or something else?"

"Are these pictures that flashed through your mind in your previous life experience?" the doctor asked.

"No." Zhou Runqing shook her head, "If there was, I wouldn't see a psychiatrist."

He came to see the doctor because he couldn't tell whether those fragmentary memories were facts that had happened before or imaginations that he made up because he was locked up stupidly.

"Usually, people do have some compensatory hallucinations during times of extreme fear, but most people think of good memories at those times to distract and get through the tough time."

But what Zhou Runqing thought of was not a good thing.

The strangest thing is that at the end of the memory he thought of, he was also locked in a small black room.

This also explains why Zhou Runqing has never had the experience of being locked up in a small dark room before, but is terrified of the material instinct without any light.

"Doctor, I think the fragments that appear in my mind are real memories." Zhou Runqing said.

As a professional psychologist, it is impossible for a man to answer his questions with certainty.

He asked, "Have you heard Freud's theory of repression?"

Of course I have heard it, every student who has gone to college or passed the teacher certification test has heard it.

The theory of repression is a theory of psychoanalysis, which believes that forgetting is caused by the repression of people's emotions or motivations.

And it is supported by a large number of experimental results.

"You mean, I may also have depressive amnesia?"

"If you want to remember everything, I can hypnotize you. According to other experiments, most people can recall under hypnosis." The doctor said frankly, "But it will do some damage to your spirit. Yes, I'm not sure you can accept it."

This is the same as going to the dental hospital to see a tooth. If you find a broken tooth, the most sensible decision to make immediately should be to extract that tooth immediately.

But Zhou Runqing refused.

Not even he himself understood his decision.

Didn't you say it was done to cure the disease?

But he escaped.

Shen Yu just asked him how he was feeling, and didn't care if he remembered the past memories.

He always seems to be so flexible, as if everything can develop naturally, but everything is under his control.

Of course, it's something other than the progress of the two people's communication.

They have now reached the second stage, and Shen Yu has been allowed to touch Zhou Runqing's body skin-to-skin.

This means that his previous wish can come true.

During the transition between the second stage and the third stage, the two spots on Zhou Runqing's chest were swollen every day, and the weather started to get warmer. Sometimes when he only wore a thin T-shirt, the spot would bulge up, which was very obvious.

Every time he pretended to lose his temper because of this, Shen Yu would coax him with nice words, reasoning with him while sticking a Band-Aid on his chest.

At work, the filming of "Not Bitter" died prematurely. Shen Yu wanted him to relax for a while, so she specifically explained to the company that Zhou Runqing had no other work for the time being.

"Why don't you let me go out and shoot an advertisement?" Zhou Runqing said with a smile, "You don't go out to work, and I don't go out to work, who will earn money to support the family?"

Shen Yu thought for a while, and said, "The company just sent a notebook, I think the chance of winning is very high, do you want to try?"

"What subject matter?" Zhou Runqing was sitting face to face on his lap. It was useless to struggle anyway, so he simply put his chin on his neck, and his whole body was paralyzed on him.

"The title of the film is "Bandit Police". I watched it. The main character is a drug police officer. He is very positive, and there is no heroine. It fits the main theme of sex in today's country. It should be no problem to win an award." Shen Yu hugged His waist, the other hand lingered on him along the waistline.

"Just listening to the title of the film is very interesting." Zhou Runqing was sensitive and felt a little itchy when he touched him, but he didn't resist. He tilted his head in retaliation and gently kissed and bit Shen Yu's neck, vaguely Dearly asked: "If there is only a plot, will this kind of film be boring? Will it affect the attendance rate?"

"No." Shen Yu's breathing was a little heavy when he was teased by him, and his hands were stretched in from the hem of his T-shirt, "It's not a gangster movie in the general sense, as you can tell from the title, the word "gangster" is placed in the In front of the police, I'm not praising some unhealthy tendencies, this word is mainly used to describe the hero."

Zhou Runqing thought for a while, and probably understood what he meant.

"The hero is a gangster policeman?"

"You can say that." Shen Yu lowered her head, pressed her tongue against his ear, and lowered her voice, "It's a good movie, baby , take it."

Zhou Runqing's whole body was numb like an electric shock.

I don't know why, but every time Shen Yu called him baby, he felt a little erotic, which was completely different from when he usually called his wife.

Coupled with the advantage of natural voice conditions, it is difficult for anyone not to be weak in front of such Shen Yu.

Including Zhou Runqing, who had always claimed to be a straight man before.

The delicate kiss fell from the ear to the cheek, followed by the chin and Adam's apple.

"Thirsty." Shen Yu buried her head into Zhou Runqing's T-shirt and said in a buzzing voice.

Zhou Runqing relaxed all the strength in his body, looked at the ceiling, touched Shen Yu's moving head through the thin cloth, and thought to himself:

Fortunately, wholesale Band-Aids are quite cheap.

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