Dead after eight years [rebirth]

Before returning to Yunan, Cheng Shuibei followed Zhang Ci'an back to the east of the city, because Shao He kept calling to ask Xiaonan brother why he didn't come back, Cheng Shuibei thought, he had to explain to Xiaotuo himself.

Shao He is already seven years old, about the same size as other people's four or five-year-old children, still so thin and small like a carrot head, timidly staying in He Mingsui's arms, but when Cheng Shuibei entered the door, he took the initiative to He said hello: "Xiaobei is good."

Cheng Shuibei took him from He Mingsui's arms and hugged him, held his little hand and asked, "Who taught you to say hello like this?"

"It's Xiao Nan. I think Xiao Nan is missing. Why didn't he come?" Shao He replied.

You can see how amazing Cheng Nan is. He brought an autistic younger brother here where he can take the initiative to say hello to others. If he was still there, Little Tudou might be able to go to school in good health.

Cheng Shuibei didn't want to tell Xiaotuo what happened, he just pressed his brother's face to his own, and lied with his eyes closed: "Brother Xiaonan is going to college, and college is a very big school, he is going to learn how to If you become a doctor, you will be able to grow as tall and tall as other children after you learn Little Tudou, does Little Tudou want to grow up?"

Shao He nodded, then shook his head: "Little Tudou wants to grow up and go to school with Xiao Nan's, but Xiao Tudou doesn't want to get an injection. Will Xiao Nan's give Xiao Tudou an injection if he becomes a doctor?"

"No," Cheng Shuibei continued to lie, "Brother Xiaonan will only love Little Tudou, and will not give Little Tudou an injection."

Shao He nodded, and began to count with his fingers: "Okay, but I can only accept ten or ten days at most. I haven't seen Xiao Nan for so long. You have to tell him to come back and see me soon."

The little idiot Shao He doesn't count the numbers above tens, ten is the biggest number in his mind, ten ten days, that's a very, very long time.

Cheng Shuibei hugged his younger brother tightly, and one day Little Tudou would understand that he could not see Brother Xiaonan for more than a hundred days.

When he left Shao's house, He Mingsui came out to see him off. Cheng Shuibei stood at the door in silence for a while before speaking: "Your eldest son is gone, so you can take care of your younger son wholeheartedly from now on."

Cheng Nan had only enjoyed the maternal love he had expected for a few years, but lost it forever.

These words made He Mingsui unable to hold back any longer.Only when she is not in front of Shao He can she be a normal mother who lost her child.

He Mingsui squatted at the door and cried, while Cheng Shuibei left without looking back.

He didn't have the energy to care about, nor did he have the energy to hate.

Knowing that Cheng Shuibei is coming back, the Zhang family is all there.When Zhang Ci'an led Cheng Shuibei in, even Niuniu sat up straight.

"Xiao Bei, welcome home." Dou Shuyi stretched out her arms to hug Cheng Shuibei, but Xiao Cheng hesitated, and finally accepted Mother Dou's embrace.

"Thank you and Uncle," he said.

When Zhang Ci'an talked to others, he would only say that Cheng Nan was a child raised by Cheng Shuibei. Others in this world didn't know the blood relationship between the North and South brothers. Even so, Dou Shuyi still felt the same way. sad.

She thought of the nightmare her son had told about, the nightmare of losing her mother, how sad Zhang Ci'an was without a mother, how sad Cheng Shuibei in front of her would be.

Dou Shuyi gave Cheng Shuibei a mother's hug.

Zhang Hongwen was not good at expressing his emotions, he just asked Comrade Xiao Cheng if he wanted to stay for a few days.

Cheng Shuibei shook his head and refused: "Uncle, I have to go back to work on the studio."

After Cheng Shuibei graduated, he turned down the job opportunity of Xingling Firm after all kinds of thinking. He established his own small studio on the basis of the legal aid organization. Xiaowen and Ruyi, who were already working, also jumped to help.The studio has just started, but Cheng Shuibei believes that with his ability, one day he will have his own big law firm.

And this simple sentence surprised Zhang Ci'an.Because since Cheng Nan left, Cheng Shuibei has been devastated and has never been to the studio again. Now Xiaowen and Ruyi are helping with everything in the studio, and even the bookstore is busy with Xiao Zhang.

When Cheng Shuibei said this, Zhang Ci'an was very pleasantly surprised.

Could this be the starting point for Cheng Shuibei to live a good life?

After Zhang Ci'an heard it, he immediately agreed that he also had something to do in Yunan, and wanted to ask his parents not to keep him.

Dou Shuyi and Zhang Hongwen knew that the children wanted to solve their own affairs, so they didn't worry too much. Before they left, they gave a few instructions and let Zhang Ci'an and Cheng Shuibei go back to Yunan together.

After returning to Yunan, Cheng Shuibei seemed to have really returned to normal. He went to bed early and got up early, went to work in the store and studio on time, and solved all the things that he should solve as a boss, but he no longer laughed like before. When he saw someone skateboarding on the side of the road, he would stop, and then lock himself in Cheng Nan's room at night to read his brother's inscrutable physics masterpieces that he had never read before, and he would spend the whole night watching them.

Then wake up on the floor during the day, get dressed and it's another day.

He still refused to accept Dong Sining's consultation and help, insisting that he was not sick, but that he was in a period of depression recently, and he would get better one day.

If it wasn't for being pestered for kisses at night, Zhang Ci'an almost thought that he had returned to the previous eight years.

For eight years, for many, many eight years from now, only Zhang Ci'an is left in Cheng Shuibei.

In the past, Zhang Ci'an imagined that when they grow old, they will leave everything to Cheng Nan, and then take Cheng Shuibei to wander the world.

Unfortunately, no one can fulfill their dream.

Two months after Cheng Nan left, all the new college students had finished their military training and started classes. Yunan University could no longer wait for the report of the provincial champion who wanted to double major in psychology and medicine.

Cheng Shuibei, as usual, went to the studio and shop, and sat on the bench where Cheng Nan used to read books and do maths, and sat for the whole morning.

At lunch time, Cheng Shuibei went home. Before he left, he looked back at the bookstore he had run alone. His brother named it "Ruoshui". In the end, the small bookstore returned to "North and South".

Zhang Ci'an came home from get off work to eat as usual, but when he got home, he saw only the nanny aunt who had come back from walking the dog, and the other male owner of the house, Cheng Shuibei.

Zhang Ci'an looked down at his phone, it was September [-]th.

September [-]th is the memorial day of Xiaowen in the past.

A thought grew wildly in Zhang Cian's mind.

On December 12, Cheng Wenqiu left in place of Dou Shuyi.

On July 7, Cheng Nan also fell from the eighth floor.

On September 9, does Cheng Shuibei think that there are still people who will have Xiaowen's fate on this day?

His Xiaobei has always been compassionate, and it is absolutely impossible to allow others to take responsibility for his own fate and die, so there is only one possibility, Cheng Shuibei has been waiting for this day, abnormally as usual, for more than a month.

On this day, he left instead of Xiaowen.

Zhang Ci'an frantically called Cheng Shuibei, the phone rang repeatedly, but no one answered.

He didn't intend to sit still, he first called the police, and then drove around the city to search for possible places in Shuibei.

He asked about the store, studio, Xingling Office, Guyun Temple, the basketball court where Cheng Nan often went, and even the hotel where Xiaowen was killed in the bombing in his previous life, but there was no news about Cheng Shuibei.

Cheng Shuibei is obsessed with the number "eight", so there is only one possible place left. The place where they lived, Cheng Shuibei chose to end his life on the eighth floor in his last life.

He drove to the community as quickly as possible, before Zhang Ci'an could tell Cheng Shuibei that he had actually bought the house they lived in in the previous life.

The view of the top floor could not be seen from the downstairs, so Zhang Ci'an took the elevator to the door of the house, opened the door without hope, then walked out in frustration, and walked one step at a time towards the even more terrifying guessed roof.

He pushed open the rusty iron door on the top floor, only to see a coat, a coat that Cheng Shuibei wore out in the morning.

Zhang Cian rushed to where his clothes were, and looked down in despair. Cheng Shuibei was sitting against the wall on the narrow platform on the eighth floor, two meters away from the roof.

Cheng Shuibei curled up, as if holding something in his arms.

Zhang Ci'an almost collapsed and asked: "Xiao Bei, do you want to abandon me again?!"

Cheng Shuibei raised his head when he heard the sound, saw Zhang Cian lying on the side of the building above his head, and hurriedly showed Zhang Cian the things in his arms.

It was a little cow cat with a black head and white paws, and a color similar to Cheng Zhacha.

"Brother Ci, there is a kitten here."

He jumped, putting himself on the line to save a kitten who had stumbled and fallen onto an uninhabited platform.

Seeing Zhang Ci'an coming, Cheng Shuibei, who seemed to have been waiting for a long time, stood up against the wall and raised the kitten over his head: "Brother Ci, it's a little scared, you pick it up first."

No matter what time it is, Cheng Shuibei still only has cats in his heart.

The moment before he was about to touch the kitten, Zhang Ci'an flinched.

He is afraid.

Afraid of saving the cat, Cheng Shuibei jumped down without any worries.

"Give me your hand." Zhang Ci'an refused to touch the kitten, and stubbornly stretched out his arms to confront Cheng Shuibei.

Cheng Shuibei squatted back to the corner of the platform with the kitten in his arms, he could not go up or down, jumping down was death, climbing up was life.

"Since you don't want to come up, I'll jump down to accompany you."

The rescuers came behind him, Zhang Ci'an didn't have time to think, and jumped to the platform where Cheng Shuibei was located along the windows of the residents on the top floor.

He protected Cheng Shuibei to the side by the window, keeping his lover in an absolutely safe corner, his heart beating violently uncontrollably.

Zhang Ci'an said, "Cheng Shuibei, I knew you were going to leave me."

"You are a bad guy who broke your promise. We agreed to bury them in the soil together. It was together, not one after the other."

"So if you jump from here, I will definitely follow."

Zhang Ci'an held Cheng Shuibei in his arms, saying that we live together and die together, but he didn't give Cheng Shuibei any room to rush out of his embrace.

If Cheng Shuibei wanted to jump, all he had to do was push Zhang Cian off, and they could sleep together.

The platform was narrow and the distance was too close, only Zhang Ci'an's breathing became tighter and tighter in Cheng Shuibei's ears, just like what he heard in the pine forest that day, despair and hope.

Zhang Ci'an lowered his head, looked at Cheng Shuibei's deer-like dark eyes, and suddenly calmed down.

Cheng Shuibei didn't speak, but Zhang Ci'an had a lot to say.

He said, "Xiaobei, I've been here before."

Cheng Shuibei raised his head in astonishment, but Zhang Ci'an showed "just as you think" in his predictive eyes.

After Cheng Shuibei's death, Zhang Ci'an climbed to the top of the eighth floor countless times.

"I was sitting on it at the time, imagining how you would fall from a height, and I wanted to jump from here a billion times."

As Zhang Ci'an spoke, the collar of his shirt was opened due to force, revealing the marks left by Cheng Shuibei on his neck last night.

His body and soul were branded by Cheng Shuibei, and he belonged to Xiaobei forever and ever.

Zhang Ci'an couldn't bear it, and kissed Cheng Shuibei's eyebrows.He asked softly, "Do you know where I went on the last day?"

Cheng Shuibei didn't answer, and remained silent, as if he had lost the ability to speak forever.

Zhang Ci'an asked and answered: "Guyun Temple."

"I am a firm materialist, but at that time I was kneeling in the Buddhist hall, no matter what god or Buddha, as long as it allows me to see you again, as long as it can make up for the eight years you minded, I will accept any way .”

"Fortunately, fortunately, I see you again," Zhang Ci'an murmured softly, "Cheng Shuibei, don't leave Zhang Ci'an behind."

He no longer wants to live alone, and he doesn't want to go against everything he believes in to seek the full temple of gods and Buddhas.

Zhang Ci'an closed his eyes in silence and wept, tears flowing from the corners of his eyes to his cheeks.

Suddenly, Zhang Ci'an felt his eyes soften, as if something soft was pressing against him.

He opened his eyes again and saw Cheng Shuibei holding up the kitten's paw to help him wipe away the tears.

Cheng Shuibei tilted his head as if smiling, shook the kitten's paw and asked cautiously, "Brother Ci, can we keep it?"

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The rescuers finally sawed open the anti-theft windows of the residents on the eighth floor, and rescued the two people and the cat indoors.

As soon as the two of them stood still in shock, they were told that they were going to the police station to cooperate with the investigation because Zhang Ci'an had reported the crime before.

Zhang Ci'an embraced Cheng Shuibei all the way, protecting Cheng Shuibei with utmost care.

When we arrived at the place, the police asked: "We received a report that someone wanted to commit suicide. Who is it?"

Zhang Ci'an smiled and shook his head, Cheng Shuibei also shook his head.

In the end, both of them refused to admit that they wanted to die, and the case was settled. Due to the waste of police force and considering the minor circumstances, Cheng Shuibei and Zhang Ci'an were left to criticize and educate for an hour, and then paid a fine of 200 yuan. .

After paying the fine, Cheng Shuibei was finally able to go out with the kitten in his arms.

As the sun went down, the afterglow shone on the half of the commendation red cloth hanging on the ground at the entrance of the police station.

Cheng Shuibei turned his head and saw the words "Brave Boy" written on the red cloth.

"Brother Ci, do you have any money in your pocket?" Cheng Shuibei asked.

Zhang Ci'an rummaged through his body, and finally found the five-yuan banknotes left over after paying the fine in the invisible underarm bag.

Cheng Shuibei took it, and dug out from his pocket the four steel coins that he bought in the morning for change, and put nine yuan including banknotes and steel coins on the corner of the red cloth.

"The cost of the marriage certificate." Cheng Shuibei explained with a smile, then took the kitten from Zhang Ci'an's arms again, and walked towards Yu Hui.

"Come on, let's go home."

In 2013, the beginning of Cheng Shuibei and Zhang Ci'an's bad relationship in the previous life, the beautiful life of Cheng Shuibei and Zhang Ci'an in this life has just begun.

Finish.

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As soon as the little cow cat got home, he stumbled into the little pink den and refused to come out. The puppy was not annoyed when the den was robbed, and quietly guarded the door, as if he knew that this little guy was a new member of the family .

"Give him a name." Zhang Ci'an asked while brewing goat milk powder.

Cheng Shuibei and Chacha squatted in front of Wowo and waited, tilting their heads in thought.

"Call it Guan Yu, nicknamed Second Lord!"

Cheng Shuibei said.

The little guy is the second child, with a red nose, and he is also a little boy. It seems that this name is also very good.

Second Master Cheng didn't know that he had a name, so he rolled around in Sister Chacha's nest, and was taken out by Zhang Ci'an to nurse him.

Professor Zhang nursed the kitten as if he was taking care of a child, and the two of them knew that there would never be a child in this life, and there would be no one like Cheng Nan growing up by their side.

Cheng Shuibei was dazed in a daze, suddenly something soft was stuffed into his arms, he looked down and saw that Cheng Chacha had brought the dog's head over to invite pets, and said "woooooooooooooooooo" as if protesting that he was neglected.

This is the case with two-child families, and competition for favor is inevitable.Cheng Shuibei gave Sister Gou a kiss, looked at the snow-white paws, and suddenly remembered the skateboard.

"I miss my brother." Cheng Shuibei said.

There wasn't a single day when he didn't miss Cheng Nan.

"Xiaobei," Zhang Ci'an stuffed the little cow to Cheng Shuibei, and then sat on the ground hugging a person, a cat, and a dog, "Life and death are impermanent."

Yes, life and death are impermanent, and there is no accident that sends you an email in advance to tell you that he is coming.

Zhang Ci'an continued: "I am as sad as you are, besides being sad, there is also fear and panic."

Under Cheng Shuibei's puzzled eyes, Zhang Ci'an twitched his lips and uttered the simplest word in the world - "Mom".

In a sense, Dou Shuyi is the same as Cheng Nan.

"Including Chacha, she is already seven years old, and seven years old is very old for a puppy. Including me, Xiaobei, I will pass away one day."

"Death is not enough to make people feel scared. We are afraid and sad to lose ourselves who will live alone in the future. But Xiaobei, you are never alone."

As Zhang Ci'an said, he took out a box from somewhere, opened it and handed it to Cheng Shuibei.

"When designing, my brother used it as a reference."

Zhang Ci'an put the blue diamond ring on Cheng Shuibei's left ring finger.

The small stone shone with blue light, Cheng Shuibei lowered his head, tears ran down his face.

He seems to have learned to cry again.

"Little Bei, live well."

Zhang Ci'an kissed away the tears from the corners of his eyes.

At this time, Second Master Cheng was full of milk and let out a meow.

Cheng Shuibei whispered, "Brother, I will."

Cheng Shuibei's law firm was successfully established two years later, under the name of "North and South Law Firm". At the same time, Zhang Ci'an officially took over the important responsibility of the company from his father and became the veritable President Zhang.

Every year, Zhang's Industry and Nanbei Office spend a large sum of money on the research of child psychology, in order to help more people who may become Cheng Shuibei or Zhang Ci'an.

Shao He finally understood that Brother Xiaonan would not come back after he started elementary school, and He Mingsui took him to the tombs of Cheng Nan and Cheng Wenqiu.

He pointed to the little soil bag and said to his mother: "Xiao Nan said goodbye to us, he is going to a place with many flowers."

Cheng Chacha now looks like an older sister, no longer obsessed with the pink rice bowl, and likes to sleep late under the vines in the yard when he has nothing to do.The skateboard left by my brother eventually became a toy for the puppy to show off his tricks.

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Second Master Cheng worked hard to eat himself into a fat man for two years, and learned to jump up and down and howl when his master was dying without a teacher.

For eight years, nothing happened.

As for how Zhang Cian was hired back to teach by the school when he was in his 40s, and how Cheng Shuibei decided to return to school to study psychology after retirement, those are all later.

The author has something to say:

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What follows:

This time, when I typed the words "End of the text", I was drinking ice-cola, and Xiao Yu was frightened outside, and a tortoiseshell kitten that could be my senior uncle barked in the corridor.

The source of this story is the idiom "Shan Nan Shui Bei", and then it grew and grew in my mind little by little. After almost half a year of conception, I started writing in October last year, and it took half a year to finish writing.

The first thing to explain is the controversy about the death of my brother. From the beginning, this is the plot setting, and there is no such thing as a "disgusting person".When his father passed away, the foreshadowing had already been laid. Xiao Cheng could not save others, but only himself.Including Grandma Hou, there is also a dark line, and those who leave will leave again.Cheng Shuibei is just an ordinary person, an ordinary person without golden fingers, all he can do is decide whether he wants to live or not.

Let's talk about character setting.

The name Zhang Ci'an actually has some Buddhist compassion in it. In the earliest setting, Dou Shuyi went to the Ancient Cloud Temple to pray for peace when she was pregnant with him. After meeting the ancient monk for the last time, she took the name Ci'an. He was designated as his living Buddha successor.It's a pity that after communicating with the editor, this part of the content is not very suitable for a novel with the theme of pure urban love, so I can only discard it.

Cheng Shuibei is the younger brother of the North and South brothers. He lived his life with guilt, and all the tragedies came from his parents' not loving each other.So I set up a nearly perfect family of Zhang's family in the article, which is completely opposite to their family, to give Xiaobei's belated family care.

As for Cheng Nan, my brother has too much selfishness in him.When making a character design, Cheng Shuibei's self-blame almost morbid desire for perfection is gathered in him - not hating his mother, knowing his father's illness and desire to die, and a pleasing personality that is easily liked by everyone.But elder brother is elder brother, elder brother is a tragic person from birth, how can anyone grow up to be a perfect person safely in such a tortured environment.When I decided to continue this ending according to the outline, I actually struggled for many, many days.More than anyone else, I miss the departure of this character who accompanied and healed me so many times.I will write a side story of the if line, Xiaobei can be reborn, and my brother is living well in another world.

Then there are Brother Zhou and Sister Tong. Their part talks about two words, original intention.

Some people may find that I like to write some stories that happened near the vegetable market, because when I was very young, I lived in a utility room next to the vegetable market with a monthly rent of 100 yuan, and I always had a lot of love for this place. A lot of stories to write.

In fact, apart from reluctance at this moment, there is still some relief.

The style and story of this book are not easy, and it means too much to me.

It's a pity that due to my lack of ability, I couldn't bring you a perfect story, but I have gained something through the past six months.

I often see Xiaocuti and Xiaobei's sick empathy in the comment area, telling their own stories, and I often see comforting words from more people under these comments. I feel the tenderness and mutual help. strength. (In the process of writing, I sought the help of some sick friends and professionals. I may not have written deeply about the pain of this group, but I apologize.)

I can often see the little cute saying, because I shed a lot of tears after reading this story.I'm sorry to make everyone cry, but sometimes I think shamelessly that tears are a catharsis of emotions. If everyone has cried in my story, there will be fewer tears in life.

I'm going to take a break next time, and I'm going to start The Broken Apple, which tells the story of a fool and a fool.

In any case, it is time to say goodbye. After this story is finished, we will see you in the next book.

(There will be a side story later, if you have anything else you want to say, you can tell me in the comment area, or send me a private message on Weibo @深圳寒SSH)