Dead after eight years [rebirth]

"Well, I can only drink this today." Zhang Ci'an made a regretful expression, but the corners of his mouth were still raised.

He pretended not to see the various coffees, fruit juices and carbonated drinks behind Cheng Shuibei, and obediently took the white and green bottle of milk drink handed over by Cheng Shuibei to the second floor.

As soon as Zhang Ci'an left, a few student-like girls who were pretending to be picking up books behind the shelves immediately surrounded them, pulling Cheng Shuibei to ask questions.

"Boss, boss, do you know Zhang Dashen?"

Cheng Shuibei thought to himself, not only did he know each other, he even slept with him.But facing this group of children who are actually several years younger than himself, he still just nodded and didn't say much.

A bold girl with short hair asked, "Then do you know where Zhang Dashen plans to take the exam?"

Cheng Shuibei was puzzled: "Why are you asking this?"

As soon as Xiao Cheng's words came out of his mouth, the group of chattering girls suddenly fell silent.Looking at the red clouds gradually smearing on their faces, Cheng Shuibei seemed to understand something.

"Oh~ you want to ask him where he is going to take the exam, and then..."

Before Boss Xiao Cheng finished speaking, the bold girl rushed forward to answer: "We just... just look at the goal of the Great God and motivate ourselves."

"Yes, learn from Zhang Ci'an."

"To be a good young man in the 21st century with all-round development of morality, intelligence, physique, art and labor!"

Seeing how everyone was anxious to find love and cover up, Cheng Shuibei secretly sighed that youth is beautiful.

"Okay, okay, I'll ask him for you when I have a chance, but as a reward, you can come and take care of my business more." Cheng Shuibei made an agreement with several students and coaxed them into elation.

"Thank you boss, I will come every day from now on, read more books and read newspapers—by the way, I am going to fill out my application form soon, boss, hurry up!"

Cheng Shuibei agreed to come down and sent away a group of chattering girls when he saw Zhang Ci'an coming down from the second floor.

Professor Zhang was still holding the book he hadn't finished reading, as if he came down here specially.

Zhang Ci'an: "What were you guys talking about just now, joking and laughing, so happy."

Cheng Shuibei suddenly thought of teasing others, wanting to see how the popular Master Zhang would react if he was confessed.

"They asked me to help and confess to you." Cheng Shuibei bent down, resting his elbows on the counter, and asked with his chin on his face, with an intriguing teasing smile on his face.

He thought he could see Zhang Dashen's bewildered or panicked expression, but Zhang Ci'an just raised his eyelids and said, "Then I'm here, please confess."

?

It doesn't seem to mean that, is there something wrong?

Only then did Zhang Ci'an turn his eyes away from the book, and raised his eyebrows to look at Cheng Shuibei, with a preaching look: "Boss Xiaocheng must distinguish between the enemy and the enemy next time, and don't help others to harm your own people."

Cheng Shuibei hurriedly protested: "Why did I entrap you, I just asked them about your college entrance examination volunteers."

Zhang Ci'an finally put down the book, took out a piece of paper and spread it in front of Cheng Shuibei.

"This is my application form for the college entrance examination. Now that you have asked, is there any point in telling them?"

In 2006, college entrance examination volunteering was conducted offline, and students had to choose their future destiny on a thin volunteer filling list according to their own feelings.

Before the college entrance examination and formal application, the school will organize a series of mock application.

Professor Zhang only wrote four words on this piece of paper, Yunan University.

Getting into Yunan University based on scores is as difficult as Cheng Shuibei's bookstore earning 500 million this year.

Zhang Ci'an is afraid that the female students who are dazzled by youthful reverie will follow him and make the same choice. He has such courage and ability, but he can't ruin the fate of others.

Cheng Shuibei lowered his head and admitted his mistake in a low voice: "Understood, I won't pry into your privacy in the future."

Zhang Ci'an: "If it's you, you can snoop as much as you want, I don't care."

When Cheng Shuibei raised his head to say a few more words, Zhang Ci'an had already left, and only put the unfinished book on the counter.

On the opened page of the book, there is a sentence lightly pinched with finger prints: "Loving you is like eating bread dipped in salt."

Outside Cheng Shuibei's gate, the warm sunshine shines on the streets and alleys. Zhang Ci'an is in the center of the light, but he wants to walk towards the future established on that piece of paper.

That future is dark and damp, and there is a white butterfly falling from a tall building.

Since New Year's Eve, Zhang Ci'an has become more and more presumptuous in the past six months.

He began to lay down in Cheng Shuibei's room to take a nap at noon, and called Cheng Shuibei to the study to help him check the information when he was studying, and said with a harmless face that he wanted to eat sweet and sour ribs for dinner. .

The inarticulate "old professor" who was described by Cheng Shuibei as "three kicks without making a loud fart" began to become "hypocritical" and difficult to serve.

He is always talking about what he wants, and the sentences he uses are "before xx, would you like xxxx".

Whenever Cheng Shuibei wanted to reject him, Zhang Ci'an would look at him with innocent eyes, as if saying: You told me to express myself.

And Zhang Ci'an became like this, Cheng Shuibei actually felt that he could accept it.In the past, he tried hard to guess what Zhang Cian wanted, and took the trouble to probe and try, but now Zhang Cian has made a change, and he no longer needs to do useless and consuming repeated guesses and pondering.

Cheng Shuibei had to admit that he liked this feeling, the feeling of being needed.

Even if it was just helping Zhang Ci'an with a book and cooking two eggs for Cheng Nan, when faced with sincere thanks from two geniuses, one big and one small, he felt that these trivial things seemed to have meaning.

So even if he is busy sometimes, Cheng Shuibei will give priority to taking care of Zhang Ci'an.

After all, in the year of his college entrance examination, even He Mingsui would ask about his basic necessities of life from time to time, and Zhang Dashen was about to take the college entrance examination for the second time, so he couldn't make any mistakes.

In June, the college entrance examination was approaching, and even Cheng Nan was taught not to speak loudly at home so as not to disturb Zhang Ci'an's study.

Cheng Shuibei himself was more cautious, and even cleaned up when the two geniuses were not at home in class.

He ignored the sign that read "No entry for idlers (Cheng Shuibei)" and pushed open Cheng Nan's door with a rag.

When summer came, there were actually two ice creams that had melted into water in front of the celadon jar. Cheng Shuibei smiled helplessly, threw these things that his father should have enjoyed into the trash can, and began to wipe Cheng Nan's little one next to the bed. altar.

When removing the celadon jar, Cheng Shuibei found many small notes underneath.

Neat and elegant, it doesn't look like Cheng Nan's dog reptile at all.

"Brave, brave... dead lover... I will accompany you, you are always alone... would you like to help me cook a runny egg..."

Cheng Shuibei knew whose handwriting it was.

These written papers are of various kinds. Maybe they were torn from the notebook when Professor Zhang was doing scientific research at his desk, or they were torn from the homework when he and Cheng Nan were studying together.

This is instigation and conspiracy.

At this moment, Cheng Shuibei suddenly realized that perhaps Zhang Ci'an was approaching him through Cheng Nan earlier.

Cheng Shuibei thought he would be angry because Zhang Ci'an had instigated his elder brother, but the two geniuses conspired for a long time, and in the end they just asked him to cook an extra Liuxin egg.

Just like Zhang Ci'an would be responsible in the previous life, in this life he may just be making up for it.

Cheng Shuibei stuffed the note back under the small jar for his father to keep: "Father, I never blamed him."

Zhang Ci'an lost his mother in his teens, such a person is more pitiful than him.Zhang Ci'an is not wrong, he just doesn't like others.

Cheng Shuibei can only blame himself for ruining Zhang Ci'an's life.

He sympathizes with all living beings, but forgets himself alone.

After Cheng Shuibei finished cleaning, he straightened the "no entry for idlers", pretended not to know anything, and locked Cheng Nan's little secret into the room again.

Cheng Shuibei didn't pay attention when cleaning the study, and accidentally knocked over the folder containing the calculation paper by the table.

He hurriedly squatted down and put the calculation paper back into the folder with the year, but stopped picking it up.

In the thick pile of calculation papers filled with calculation process, among the dense mathematical and physical formulas, Cheng Shuibei saw a small paragraph of text written with a pen in the gap that seemed to be a scripture.

"...The sinful obstacles you have committed may be covered or not hidden. You should fall into hell, hungry ghosts and animals, all other evil destinies, border lands, lowly lands, and contemptuous chariots, and so on. All the sinful obstacles you have committed are now repented. Today All Buddhas, World Honored Ones, you should realize me and remember me."

In neat and elegant small characters, there are scriptures that Cheng Shuibei has never seen before.

Cheng Shuibei ruthlessly called to subscribe to the damn expensive 2G package that year, and touched the small keyboard on the phone to type scriptures word by word in the search bar.

The circle on the loading interface turned and turned, and Cheng Shuibei finally saw the search result in a nervous mood, which was "88 Buddhas' Great Confession".

What is Zhang Ci'an repenting for, or for whom is he repenting?

"—Brother Ci said that he copied scriptures for his dead lover."

dead lover...

Cheng Shuibei's legs were weak and he fell to the ground completely limp.

He leaned against the bookshelf, his mind full of "dead lover" and "hell, hungry ghost".

The ghost who committed suicide will owe a debt to the mortal world and enter the hell of death in vain.

Cheng Shuibei doesn't believe in gods and Buddhas, but he heard old man Zhang nagging that people who commit suicide in this life will go to hell and never reincarnate.

Zhang Ci'an is a loyal supporter of materialism and modern science, and he certainly wouldn't believe this.

And even if Zhang Ci'an believed in this way, he would definitely not repent for his misfortune of copying scriptures.

Lover, Cheng Shuibei felt that he was not worthy of this title.

"No, no..."

But Cheng Shuibei can't lie to himself, this scripture of confession is reminding him that he needs others to help him repent for the mistakes he has committed.

Cheng Shuibei was knocked back to reality from his fantasy about bread dipped in salt.

It was the long-term peace that paralyzed him, making Cheng Shuibei go back to the past in a daze, and Zhang Ci'an's changes made him think that he still had the capital to be presumptuous.He even felt for a moment that he felt what could be called love hidden in Zhang Ci'an's poems and scriptures.

But his father's death reminded him all the time that some things cannot be changed, and he would still walk on the same path as before if he made a slight mistake.Just like saving Dou Shuyi that winter night, Cheng Wenqiu would also leave.

It's okay, Cheng Shuibei comforted himself, as long as Zhang Ci'an is admitted to the university smoothly, even if he gets a doctorate in the future, the time will be postponed for one year.Now is the critical moment for Zhang Cian to study, and when everything is on the right track, as long as he takes his brother away in due time, everything will be in time.

Cheng Shuibei put his energy back and put the calculation paper back in its original place, tidied up the study hastily and went out.

Two hours later, Zhang Ci'an met Cheng Nan downstairs after school. The two entered the door together, and saw Cheng Shuibei lying on the sofa with blank eyes.

"Xiaobei?" Zhang Ci'an called out tentatively, "What's wrong with you, are you sick?"

Cheng Shuibei suddenly came back to his senses, as if he had just experienced a big dream.

Cheng Shuibei rubbed his head: "It's okay, I'm cleaning up in the afternoon, I'm exhausted - why did you come back so early today, I'll make whatever you want to eat, do you still want to eat ribs?"

He hurried to the kitchen, but was stopped by Zhang Ci'an and Cheng Nan.

"Are you sure you're okay?"

Cheng Shuibei squeezed out a smile, and clapped his hands as if nothing happened: "It's nothing, I just cleaned up. If you two really care about me, please help me next time!"

Zhang Ci'an felt relieved, and he and Cheng Nan each took a step back to make way.

"The exam is coming soon. The school has cleaned up the exam room, so the holiday will be early, and so is Cheng Nan." Zhang Ci'an followed up Cheng Shuibei's questioning and explained.

The college entrance examination is coming soon, there are still five days, only five days.

Cheng Shuibei quickly changed the subject: "Alright then, I'll make what you want for dinner!"

Cheng Nan quickly answered: "Can I eat dumplings? Brother Ci just taught me the theory of rolling dumpling wrappers. By using the centripetal force properly, I think I can roll out very round dumpling wrappers!"

"Okay, then let's eat dumplings today, everyone has to do it!"

The author has something to say:

Loving you is like eating bread with salt

scurrying wildly in the night

Then put your lips close to the faucet,

like opening a heavy package without a label

Anxious, happy, careful.

love you like the first time

fly over the sea like dusk

Lightly falls on Istanbul.

Loving you is like saying "I'm alive". ——[Türkiye｜Nazim Hikmet] "Love You"

The sentence pattern before xx, the first half is saying that I respect your decision, and the second half is saying that I want to join your life.Xiaobei needs such affirmation and discussion.

The scriptures in the article are only for creation needs, we must believe in science and reject feudal superstition.