Slag Sufferer's Handbook

It was almost 11 o'clock at night, and the campus of X University gradually returned to tranquility, and there was almost no one around this remote woods except for a few couples who had not yet returned home.

Jiang Ning walked in front and Qin Fei was behind.

He saw the moonlight shining on Jiang Ning's body sparsely and brightly through the branches and leaves, covering that slender figure with a light silver layer.This kind of scene is very quiet, like those sleepless late nights many years ago, when the two of them sat on the flower bed of the apartment and smoked silently.

Walking deep into the woods, Jiang Ning stopped. He turned around and leaned casually in front of a tree.

Qin Fei found a tree opposite him and leaned against the trunk. The two were relatively speechless, and neither of them took the initiative to speak.

After a while, Jiang Ning reached out his hand to feel in his jacket pocket, and found out a pack of cigarettes. Just as he was about to take out one, Qin Fei suddenly said, "Smoking is not allowed here."

Jiang Ning's hand stopped, Qin Fei leaned over and snatched the cigarette case from his hand, "Did you forget? You said it before."

Jiang Ning thought bitterly, how could he forget?When they were together in the past, the two often came to this "special significance" grove. Qin Fei wanted to smoke a few times, but he stopped him. Unexpectedly, as time passed, he became Qin Fei today. Not to stop him.

Qin Fei rubbed the cigarette case with his fingers, looked up at Jiang Ning, "Your addiction to cigarettes is much greater than before."

"Smoking can make people temporarily forget many things." Jiang Ning put his hands in his trouser pockets and said lightly.

Qin Fei said "Yes" and did not deny it. He agreed with this point. In the past three years, his addiction to cigarettes has also doubled.

There was another silence. After a long time, Jiang Ning said softly, "Don't you want to ask me how I got into the mental hospital?"

Qin Fei was taken aback, and looked at Jiang Ning in surprise. He didn't expect Jiang Ning to want to talk about this topic with him. He always thought that this should be Jiang Ning's most taboo topic.Between lovers, when they meet again after separation, they always hope to live better than each other, and no one will take the initiative to expose their own scars.

Qin Fei felt an indescribable feeling in his heart at this time. He had a premonition that if Jiang Ning really told the story of the past three years, then the relationship between him and Jiang Ning might return to the original point. The origin may be the moment when they were most intimate three years ago, and it is more likely to be the moment before the two had nothing to do with each other.

Qin Fei was still struggling. At this time, Jiang Ning slightly turned his face and glanced at Qin Fei. Qin Fei was stunned by this look, because there was no coldness in this look, and it was full of sadness.

Qin Fei's heart softened in an instant. The person in front of him was Jiang Ning, the Jiang Ning he once loved the most, and the Jiang Ning who once made him want to spend the rest of his life with him.

Jiang Ning just looked at Qin Fei like that, and said in a bleak voice, "After you left, I couldn't find you, and then... committed suicide."

"Suicide?!!!" Qin Fei's eyes widened in disbelief, "What did you say?"

"Yes, you heard me right, suicide." Jiang Ning showed a pale smile helplessly, "I was very disappointed when I found out that you had cut off contact with everyone. I don't know why, but I just couldn't get out, slowly , Disappointment turned into despair, I felt that there was nothing to love in life, I might as well just go like this, so one night, after drinking too much, I lay in the bathtub and cut an artery on my wrist with a razor.”

Jiang Ning looked at Qin Fei, who was completely stunned, with surprisingly calm eyes: "Qin Fei, have you ever tasted the feeling of being only one step away from death?"

Qin Fei shook his head.

Jiang Ning closed his eyes, and said very slowly: "Blood flows out of my body bit by bit, just like you flow out of my body bit by bit, I think, when the blood dries up, I will completely kill you forget."

"Xiao Ning..." Qin Fei couldn't help calling out, he stretched out his hand to pull Jiang Ning's arm, but found that his hand was shaking so much that he couldn't control it.

Jiang Ning just closed his eyes like that, a drop of clear water rolled down from the corner of his eyes, he said with difficulty: "However, when the blood flowed more and more in the bathtub, I found that even if the blood flowed away, I still...forgot Not you."

Qin Fei couldn't control it anymore, his legs became weak, and he leaned back against the tree trunk.

He saw Jiang Ning crying.

cry sadly.

Jiang Ning closed his eyes, tears flowed from the corners of his eyes, and the tears wrapped in the moonlight radiated silver light.

For a long, long time, neither of them spoke.

At this moment, none of them pretended or concealed, allowing their true emotions to pour out.

How did you come to this point?Qin Fei thought about a hundred scenarios after he left, but he would never have imagined that Jiang Ning would be so desperate that he would give up. A person who was willing to wait for revenge for more than ten years would only lie down when he had nowhere to go. Bathtub cuts?

"Later, I was lying in the bathtub, and my dad found me and sent me to the hospital." Jiang Ning said again, "Later, he began to take me to see various psychiatrists, but none of them worked. The more serious the treatment, the sooner I was diagnosed with severe depression. In order not to see my dad sad about me, I decided to go to a mental hospital for treatment. During those days in the mental hospital, I watched all kinds of-color- Color-Crazy person, I suddenly realized that if I become like that, how can I wait for you to come back? You don’t want me when I’m not crazy, and even less if I’m crazy. "

"I, I..." Qin Fei opened his mouth, but he couldn't continue. He wanted to tell Jiang Ning that he wanted him, and always wanted him, but he couldn't say it, because Jiang Ning was right, and he was willing to give up in Jiang Ning When trying to keep him in the most primitive way, he ran away in a hurry, left him, and left him to suffer alone.

Qin Fei, how cruel you are.

Jiang Ning slowly raised his head, looked at the sparse moonlight through the leaves, and did not speak for a long time.

Qin Fei took a few deep breaths to calm himself down a bit.

After a long time, Jiang Ning turned his face away and stared at Qin Fei: "The teacher said when I was a child, it doesn't matter if you do something wrong, as long as you correct it carefully, you are still a good boy. I know I was wrong, and I want to correct it, but why don't you agree? Give me this chance? Qin Fei, do you know, I saw you smiling at the bartender in the bar, and seeing that woman surnamed Zeng rubbing against your body, do you know how uncomfortable I feel? , you can even smile at a stranger, but why are you so indifferent and unfeeling to me? I don't want much, I just want you to give me a chance, and I will show you!"

Qin Fei frowned tightly, his lips were trembling, but he couldn't speak.

Jiang Ning sighed heavily: "In those days in the mental hospital, maybe I saw a lot of people who were really crazy, but I became more sober and really thought about it. When I think of suicide in the bathtub, I gradually feel I'm afraid, I'm thinking, if I really die, the biggest regret may be that I didn't say sorry to you in person."

Having said that, Jiang Ning stood up straight, tidied up the hem of his clothes, and said with a serious expression, "I'm sorry."

After Jiang Ning said these three words, he looked at Qin Fei expectantly.

Qin Fei understood that Jiang Ning was waiting for him to express his opinion.

If he nodded and accepted, then the two of them could return to the original point when they fell in love three years ago.

If he doesn't accept Jiang Ning's apology, then the two of them will return to the original point where they didn't know each other.

Whether to take a step closer, or to give up completely, just waited for Qin Fei's decision.

Jiang Ning waited quietly for a long time, only to see Qin Fei standing there without saying a word.

Disappointment slowly welled up in his eyes, and after a long time, Qin Fei still didn't speak.

Jiang Ning couldn't help but snorted self-deprecatingly: "I understand." He turned around and walked out of the grove.

In the end, it is still irreversible...

Jiang Ning's heart has never been so uncomfortable. The air pressure in this woods seems to drop suddenly, so low that he can't breathe, so low that he wants to escape as soon as possible!

Jiang Ning walked faster and faster, and an uncontrollable emotion began to rage in his mind. He began to fear that if he didn't leave here quickly, he might go back and strangle Qin Fei by the neck, and strangle him to death. Anyway, he won't get it , It would be better to die together like this!

Jiang Ning felt that he seemed to be at a critical point, like a person riding a horse standing on the edge of a cliff, one step forward is an abyss, one step back... Unfortunately, he has no chance to go back, Qin Fei no longer Give him a chance!

Just when Jiang Ning was about to run out of the suffocating woods, he heard Qin Fei's footsteps!

Jiang Ning stopped subconsciously, turned his head and looked behind him.

With a sound of "Boom!", a fist hit him heavily in the face, and he fell backwards in a flash, sitting crookedly in front of the tree trunk.

He saw Qin Fei jumping up, almost riding on his body, punching him in the face, punch after punch, until his nose bleed profusely.

Jiang Ning didn't fight back, and spread his hands to let Qin Fei hit him. He only grunted twice and gritted his teeth to bear it.

Qin Fei punched more than a dozen times, and felt that the punching was enjoyable, so he stopped.

Qin Fei stopped his fists and took a closer look. Jiang Ning's delicate and handsome face had already been beaten into a pig's head by him.

The eyelids of this Jiang Dazhu head were swollen high, but those bright eyes were shining under the eyelids, which was full of joy.

"Qin Fei..." Jiang Ning yelled inarticulately, and suddenly hugged Qin Fei's waist tightly, and kissed Qin Fei's lips!

Qin Fei's eyes were moist, he cupped Jiang Ning's face, and bit Jiang Ning's lips hard.