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Name: Zheng Zuo

Sex: Male

Age: 35 years old

Occupation: Literary worker

Hobbies: extensive

Income: 5000 yuan/month

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The above is the content of the pig’s foot of this article—an older unmarried young man, Comrade Zheng Zuo’s marriage registration information registered with a well-known matchmaking company.

Of course, the above registration content is mainly used to deceive the vast number of unmarried and ignorant young (big) girls.Except for the first three items that are basically consistent with the facts (cough cough, if this doesn’t match, haha, then something big will happen), the rest of the items are watery and watery. To put it nicely, they have been “artistically processed” Or "packaged".

As for the actual situation of Comrade Zheng Zuo, a professional "literary worker", this is a rather foolish and pleasant term, but in fact he is an Internet writer who is almost a bad street now, and his writing level is only average. Basically the kind that can't starve to death.The monthly income stated in the information is 5000 yuan, which is the highest monthly income he has earned in the years since he wrote the article.Other times, hehehe...

Regarding hobbies, the reason why I wrote "extensive" is because - he, just, no, yes, any, any, love, good!Apart from staying at home and surfing the Internet, he also doesn’t know how to play online games. He only codes danmei articles written by a small audience, and reads danmei articles written by others at other times.Except for eating and sleeping, this is his life all day.

So the current Zheng Zuo is a man who can't stay at home any longer—the middle-aged otaku is strange.

In fact, the "distortion" of the facts in the above content of marriage proposals, you can still understand a little, after all, the current social reality is like this, if you can't "package" yourself, how can you "sell" yourself out?The current customers (unmarried young women, big or small) have unusually high vision.Although they may already belong to the ranks of "leftover women", their vision will definitely not be lowered by this.

However, if you think that Zheng Zuo is a person who has to "fabricate" a lot of "information" in order to find a girl to marry and live in a hurry, then you all think wrong, wrong.

The truth of the matter is that this marriage seeking information was not released according to his own wishes at all.It was the information that his family's "Lafayette" went to the matchmaking company to register without telling him.

Therefore, when Zheng Zuo began to receive some inexplicable calls or text messages from women, he was really stunned for a long time.Until a few days later, when "Lafayette" personally called to ask if he was dating anyone, and found that he still hadn't figured out the situation, and didn't respond to any female calls, the old lady was furious!Amidst the old lady's roar, Zheng Zuocai learned that he was "married" by his family's Lafayette.

Regarding the "harassment" of phone calls and emails and Lafayette's "invincible and life-threatening chain", Zheng Zuo expressed his helplessness, helplessness.

Although helpless, he still didn't respond to any woman, let alone meet or anything.This is because,

He has a secret, a secret that no one but himself has ever known.

Ever since he was sensible (knowing about love affairs), he clearly felt that he didn't like girls, no matter how beautiful, ugly, fat or thin, he didn't have the kind of "impulse" that other boys had towards them, and he It will blush and heartbeat to those boys or men who are good looking.

At the very beginning, the [-]-year-old and [-]-year-old him didn't know what it meant to be "different".And after knowing some things about men and women, Zheng Zuo found out how could he be "different"? ? ?He began to panic, terrified.

Ever since I had this knowledge, I haven't dared to tell anyone.Because just when he was struggling with his "sexual orientation", an event happened around him that could almost change his life.

That's how it works.

One night, Zheng Zuo had dinner with his parents. At that time, he had not yet evolved into an "Lafayette". The still young and pretty mother was talking to her father about the gossip that day while eating. It was discovered that two young people in the factory had an "improper relationship"!And both of them are men! !This, this, this is really shameless! ! !

And Zheng Zuo's father also echoed, those two people have completely embarrassed their family, their morals are extremely corrupt!

My young mother nodded in agreement, and said that the two had been fired from the factory, and I heard that they were all kicked out by their families.Having said that, the two looked at each other and smiled tacitly.

Picking the rice grains in the bowl with chopsticks, Zheng Zuo didn't dare to look up at his parents. He was terrified at this moment. He couldn't imagine that if his parents knew that their son might also be the kind of "stinky and shameless" son they said How will you treat him when you are a bad ruffian?He didn't dare to think about that horrible and bloody scene anymore...

Since then, Zheng Zuo has made a decision, the question about his special "likes" must be rotten in his heart, no one can tell!He doesn't want to be a "stinky and shameless" bad guy in the mouth of his parents.

So from that day on, Zheng Zuo became more and more taciturn, and had less and less contact with others.At the beginning, his parents thought that he was nervous about studying in high school, and his son's love for learning was a sign of his son's love of learning. It was much better than those who stayed away from home all day and went crazy and didn't study. So after a long time, they gradually got used to it and stopped paying attention up.

In fact, taciturnity and being alone are not Zheng Zuo's original temperament, but he is afraid, especially after a few days after that dinner, he learned from his mother that the couple was expelled from the factory. They were kicked out by the family again, and the two committed suicide by jumping into the river in their city together!

According to their mother, they may have died for love, or they may not be allowed to commit suicide in the world.The two originally fresh lives just disappeared!In exchange for only a few indifferent sighs from the world, Zheng Zuo felt chills all over his body, and that terrible chill could almost freeze his heart and soul.

From then on, Zheng Zuo became more and more afraid of others knowing his secret, so he became even less talkative and kept out of contact with others.Three years in high school and four years in college, in the eyes of his classmates and teachers, he is a "wooden man", and it is always easy for people to ignore his existence.After graduating, he didn't go back to his hometown, but chose a city far away from his hometown. No one knew him here, so he felt much safer.

At the beginning, he found a fairly good job with a good salary and not too tiring, but he resigned not long after.Because the colleagues in the unit, especially those married female colleagues, are so enthusiastic!They are particularly concerned about Zheng Zuo's relationship problems, in fact, it is the problem of whether he has found a partner, and they introduce him to a partner with great enthusiasm every day.Scared him a lot.In the end, in order to avoid these Zheng Zuo had no choice but to resign.

Living in a rented house every day is not an option, so Zheng Zuo started writing.In fact, when he was in college, he started to write a little on China.net.It’s just that it was purely for entertainment and comfort at that time, because I shouldn’t be able to obtain love and happiness in this life, so I used words to outline a beautiful fairy tale, so that people in the text can avoid being disturbed by the world, and can obtain what they desire but never be able to. Be happy.

This writing has been going on for many years, because the style of writing is cold and the readership is small, so Zheng Zuo's monthly income can only cover food and clothing.

Time passed day by day, Zheng Zuo was 35 years old, he was still alone, and the family members who were indifferent at the beginning also began to worry.After repeatedly urging him to solve his personal problems quickly but failed, because the menopause entered the Lafayette stage, the mother was really anxious (Lafayette mode = others must obey his words, otherwise, launch Meridian Gate to behead him).So there was the beginning of the matchmaking bridge.

Zheng Zuo has almost never resisted his parents in his life, except for finding a girlfriend.

Now facing his desperate mother, he is powerless to resist, but he doesn't want to give in either.So all kinds of avoidance of blind date.

The last time, in order to avoid his mother blocking the door, he planned to escape through the window. It is not like he has never done this before, but this time he was "destined" to make a mistake, fell to his death, and crossed over. reborn.

Falling from the seventh floor, can that person still watch?Zheng Zuo covered his face.And his heart is full of guilt, what a blow to his mother to die like that!This is almost forcing his own son to death.This should be a reality that any mother cannot bear.I hope my father can untie my mother in time.Afterwards, Zheng Zuo, who has traveled to another time and space (the time point here is the same as the original time and space, but the original self should not have appeared here before), can only comfort himself in this way.After all, there was nothing he could do at this time.