Zaizafang

When the two finished dealing with some follow-up, cleaned themselves up, changed into pajamas, and fell on the dry and warm sofa in the temporary residence, they both breathed a sigh of relief.

For a while, none of them moved, they just wanted to enjoy this moment of tranquility.

quite a while.

"Is the matter of Oda-saku arranged?"

"Of course, let them avoid the limelight for a while."

"The mimic thing..." This is at least the tenth time Dazai Osamu asked this question to confirm.

The person who asked the question took the trouble, what else could the person answering do, he could only answer him tirelessly: "I have already contacted the government through Ango. Under the supervision of the government, it is very difficult for Mori Ogai to do anything. But , I guess he is still having a headache because of your defection."

He pointed to the notebook on the table: "Here, turn on the computer by yourself, if you are worried, get it yourself."

"I don't want it." Dazai said weakly, "I'm off work, don't let me touch the notebook."

"Then I'm off work too."

"Well, you are allowed to take a vacation."

"Tsk, make it sound like I need your permission."

Then there was another moment of peace.

"Ah, it's finally a holiday." The young Dazai started first, "I don't know what to do for a while."

"You're still young." The elder Dazai sighed, "Take a few more days of fishing, and you will never go back to the days of hard work."

"To be honest, I thought at first that you would want to kill Mr. Sen, and then take over the entire Mafia yourself, expand your power, rule with iron and blood, control everything in your own hands, and strictly control all the details of the development of the incident." He said casually A few words of another way of thinking, "Although that is a bit tiring, it is always better than asking Oda Tsukuru three times a day. Let the situation develop on its own, can you really rest assured?"

After thinking about it, he added another sentence and stabbed it with a knife: "Don't forget those tragedies in other worlds."

"But I didn't take that path."

"why?"

"Yeah, why? Sometimes I wonder if it's better to be a good person, why is that?" Dazai sat up from the sofa and stared at the person who asked the question.

"Hey, I'm obviously the one asking you." A certain adult was still paralyzed on the sofa and didn't even respond to his gaze.

So Dazai also lay down.

why?

He thought silently in his heart.

Not all for...

......

"Odasaku." Dazai stood outside the door, poking his head out cautiously.

Oda Sakunosuke first pulled the half-wet person in.

"Dazai, why are you here?"

Dazai shook his umbrella on the side of the door: "I just wanted to come and have a look, but I didn't expect the rain to suddenly become heavier halfway. There have been so many rainy days recently, and I'm going to get moldy at home, so I wanted to take advantage of the rain today It's not too big, come out and walk."

Sometimes he couldn't understand how the grown-up in the family stayed in the house for two years.

"Don't come out anytime soon."

Mori Ogai issued a notice to the effect that this guy Dazai had conspired against him, and he wanted to arrest him and execute him.The limelight outside has eased up a bit recently, but there are still some people who are persistently looking for Dazai.

Like some little guy whose car got blown up.

"But it's so boring at home."

While talking, Odasaku handed Dazai a clean towel to wipe his hair.

He pointed upstairs: "The children are already asleep, we'd better keep our movements quiet."

Dazai ruffled his hair and nodded.

Odasaku asked Dazai to sit on the tatami in the living room, because Dazai's face was too pale, so he poured him a cup of hot water to warm up first, then went to the kitchen to bring some food, leaving some unspiced The curry rice was just right to take out.After thinking about it, he opened the cabinet again and took a bottle of sake.

This is a remote place far away from a small town in Yokohama, very far away from where Dazai is currently hiding, and it is impossible to come here by random wandering.

Dazai's current state is not quite right.It is said that the spirit is better, but it seems very depressed.It might be said that he was in a bad state of mind, but there was light in his eyes, and it was no longer completely dark.And Oda Saku noticed that when Dazai spoke just now, he used the word "home".

He put the heated curry rice on the small table.

"Eat a little, no spicy."

Dazai didn't eat dinner when he looked at it like that.

"Did Odasaku make it himself?" Dazai took a sip, his expression became sparkling, "It's amazing, you can open a curry shop."

"Really? Maybe it's because I often make it for myself." Odasaku was a little embarrassed by the compliment, but he still didn't forget to ask Dazai a question, "Have you encountered any difficulties recently?"

Dazai wanted to say no against his will, but this was a question asked by Oda Saku, so he could only answer slowly, chewing the curry rice, while whispering: "Yes."

"is it hard?"

"It's hard."

Something that can make Dazai say it is difficult must be very difficult.

"Odasaku..." Dazai took a sip of Odasaku's hot wine, his expression suddenly became aggrieved, "I met someone."

Oda Sakunosuke listened quietly: "Yes."

"I didn't like him very much at first, but later, we became partners." Dazai whispered, if it wasn't for Odasaku's excellent hearing, he would have been drowned by the sound of rain outside the window, "I don't know when From now on, I already regard him as someone I can trust."

"Even... Even I consider him a close family member..."

Odasaku's expression became more serious.Dazai was cutting open his heart to show him. This was something the Dazai who worked in Mafia would never do, but this Dazai who was out of the darkness did it.

Dazai drank a little wine, felt the bitter taste of alcohol diffused, and his voice became bitter.

"The sky used to be full of stars, and I couldn't see any of them. But that person told me that whether I could see it or not, those stars were there. Because that person said it, I barely remembered it."

"What about now?" Oda Saku couldn't help asking, "What do you think the night sky looks like now?"

"There are many stars, although their light is not facing me, but they do exist." Dazai smiled at Odasaku, his eyes were dim and tired, "But Odasaku, do you know? The man who said that to me, I thought he was one of the stars that illuminates others."

"I was immersed in the darkness, and I didn't even dare to approach him."

"Good and evil are not so clear to me. Maybe being a good person can make that person happy, so I didn't choose the worst path. I also tried my best to do something good."

In fact, a public welfare organization in the slums was secretly set up to save some orphans and so on.This includes Akutagawa Ryunosuke and Akutagawa Silver.

He sent the two children to study.There is no cruel way to teach them to grow up like countless worlds.

As for the power to confront other organizations in the future, there is always a way, isn't it?No one is necessary in this world.

He has really worked hard to bring some light to others, even though he has not yet been saved.

"As a result," Dazai laughed again, "he couldn't see any light in his own eyes."

Odasaku hesitated to speak.

"It's all just my self-indulgence."

"No, Dazai." This time Odasaku retorted bluntly, "Since he is willing to guide you, things must not be so bad. You don't necessarily know everything about him, do you?"

Dazai almost smiled bitterly: "I know him, I know everything about him, just like knowing myself."

That wasn't a dimly glowing candle, it was clearly a bottomless black hole.

"He pretended so well that he even deceived the old me."

Sake was drunk glass by glass without interruption, and Odasaku didn't pay attention for a while, so Dazai asked Dazai to down most of the bottle.

This is far from reaching the limit of Dazai's drinking capacity.

But Dazai's condition is not good today, and he is already a little dizzy.

"Stop drinking, Dazai." Odasaku confiscated his glass.

Then Dazai started making a fuss, lay down on the tatami, and rolled over and over again.

"Drink a little, just a little."

Odasaku looked at someone who was having a temper tantrum, and sternly refused: "No, you drank too much."

"Odasaku..." Dazai's aggrieved voice came over.

"Ok?"

"What should I do... I seem to have fallen on him..."

It's actually not a bad thing.Odasaku thought about it.

For a person like Dazai, being able to love another person is something he can hardly imagine.

It's not like Dazai has never messed around before, even when he was very young, he would provoke young ladies.

But Dazai was willing to change his standpoint of good and evil for that person, trying to be a good person.Changed too much.Odasaku already completely believed that Dazai was not fooling around this time.

That person must have held a heavy weight in Dazai's heart.

Although Dazai didn't describe that person very well, but...Odasaku thinks that person is not bad.

At least a qualified elder.Even though he was desperate in his heart, he didn't drag Dazai who was already on the verge of despair to hell, but pushed him up instead.

Perhaps the only good that the desperate man can contribute.

"Dazai..." Odasaku called out, but found that Dazai was about to fall asleep on the tatami.

Curled up into a ball, looking a little cold.

Odasaku had no choice but to get a blanket out to cover it up.

When wrapping him in a blanket, Odasaku originally wanted to carry him into the guest room to sleep, but when he met resistance, Dazai seemed to have made up his mind to stay here.

He had no choice but to cover the blanket.

When Odasaku put his hand on the switch to turn off the light, he heard Dazai's faint voice.

"Odasaku... I don't think that person will love me at all, he doesn't even love himself."

Odasaku paused, walked over, and put his hand on Dazai's forehead.

"Dazai, it's better to get a good sleep now."

"If you can't change him, then change yourself. If Dazai, you can definitely do it. You have always done very well."

"Good night, sweet dreams."

Odasaku turned off the lights.

In a dark room, he suddenly thought of something.

A person like Dazai is bound to be impossible to become an existence like the sun, and he is not suitable for being as cold as Moonlight.

In the end, the most suitable thing is to be a star, which emits a shimmer, not too bright, but can always bring a little light to those who need it.

Of course, if you are not careful, it will turn into a meteor and fall to the earth.

In the past, Odasaku would occasionally worry that Dazai would really fall into an irreparable situation.

But now, he was very fortunate that someone else had already held him back.

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