failure

The years go by like a song, ten years at the snap of your fingers.

--Inscription

1.

As the sun sets, the whole sky is hung with layers of fire clouds, the color gradually fades from west to east, and those fragmented clouds seem to be rolling and jumping like golden-red waves on the blue sea.

Refreshing.

A little boy who seems to be only ten years old is sitting on a swing in the park, with a head of half-length hair casually draped over his shoulders. The warm yellow color and the scenery at this time are like an amazing picture scroll.

The boy opened his tired eyelids, his big golden eyes looked at the sunset that was about to disappear in the sky, and snorted coldly.

"genius?"

What a great joke.

Genius mind, precocious temperament.

Let him become the object of boasting in the mouths of adults. Garderos is not uncommon for this. He was isolated by all children of the same age because of his own advantages since he was a child.

Because of his genius, he has a stronger personality, arrogant and arrogant. Even if he is isolated, he just takes it for granted, and they are not worthy of being in the same frame as his life.

"What's so good about a playmate!"

Garderos said, a force on the soles of the feet made the swing swing towards the highest point.

He doesn't want that kind of low stuff!

A few minutes later, perhaps tired from shaking, Gaderos sat on a freely swinging swing and looked up at the darkening sky, and a few stars came into view.

Flickering and flickering like a child's eyes, reflected in the pair of gilt golden pupils that are also shining.

"Gold! Beautiful!"

Suddenly, an innocent child's exclamation sounded in his ears, and Gaderos slowly lowered his head, looking at a little girl who was holding a plush rabbit half as big as her. Her little hands were tightly holding the rabbit's long ears. The eyes looked straight at him.

They are constantly moving towards him.

Gaderos glanced at her disdainfully, but remained silent.

But the bottom of his eyes secretly hoped for her to approach.

Every isolated child has that slight desire to find a playmate.

Garderos is no exception, but he won't say it outright, or even convince himself that he doesn't need that kind of thing.

The girl's long black and red hair was randomly tied into a pair of small ponytails. She seemed to be as old as him, but she was like an immature child, with slurred speech, as if she was acting on her own consciousness.

"Your... eyes, look good."

"I love so much."

Garderos heard the same words too much, and even got tired of hearing them.

Unexpectedly, what the child said made him hear the truth.

Different from the compliments spoken by adults, those words were just to cater to his father and his genius mind.

Gaderos jumped off the swing expressionlessly and walked towards the child, but was grabbed by the wrists with both hands.

"Hey—stop kidding!"

What stands in his way are the kids next door, who don't talk much, but at least aren't as distant as the rest of the kids.

He turned his head, "Relax."

"I'm not loose! Don't get close to her! She's a fool!!"

"Fool?"

"Hee hee idiot—is that me?" The little girl hugged the plush rabbit tightly, and showed a bright smile at the two little boys. She was not offended by the idiot's address, and moved closer, "Let's play together?"

The boy took a big step back by pulling Gardros' wrist, away from the child, "Gardros! Don't have anything to do with this person!"

"What's with me?"

Garderos asked back, looking at his behavior with some sarcasm.

"I kindly advise you, Garderos!" The boy was a little angry, and he let go of his wrist and ran away. "In this case! Then you can play with the fool!"

Garderos didn't care, and sat back on the swing again.

The little girl was holding something tightly in her hand. She swayed over and stretched out her little hand towards Garderos.

In the palm of that small hand was a small stone, a color that was duller than his eyes.

"deliver……"

Suddenly an older woman barged in at the gate of the park, walked directly in front of the two children, raised her hand and grabbed the girl's long hair, with an angry face on her wrinkled face, "Who told you to slip out! go home with me!"

"Hello!" Garderos subconsciously shouted, but was stared back by the woman's eyes.

"Ah--I want to give it to..." The soft rabbit in the girl's arms fell to the ground, but she tightly held the stone in her palm, "Here..."

"For what! It's just a broken rock!"

The woman turned her head and knocked off the stone in her palm while talking, and grabbed the little wrist without any time, pulling her out of the park and walking away.

The stone rolled down at Jaderos' feet, and his expression was still a little dull. The sudden intervention of the scene just now made it too late for him to make any movements.

Except for that subconscious shout, the other words have not yet been spoken, and there is no one in sight.

Only the dilapidated plush rabbit and the stone that was the same color as his eyes were left at his feet.

He jumped off the swing and picked up the insignificant rock, holding it tight.

He closed his eyes and exhaled.

2.

"Snapped!"

"It hurts..." The girl curled up in the small dark room, her clothes were disheveled and blood-red, she stared wide-eyed at the black whip that was hitting her again.

He held his head tightly, his eyes full of horror.

She trembled, but was powerless to resist.

Only the whip hit her small body one after another.

"Children will be punished if they are disobedient." The woman leaned on the door frame of the room, "You are quite courageous, even sneaking out by yourself."

"Hit me hard!"

There were a few more crisp whipping sounds, and the girl slowly closed her eyelids and passed out from pain.

"gold……"

"Wow—"

The man was ordered to pour a bucket of water on the fainted girl. The icy water that stimulated the nerves made the child's eyes widen suddenly. She sat there on her knees, but she couldn't make a sound when she opened her mouth.

She tried to move back, but to no avail.

There was only a scolding in exchange.

"Give me a good performance tomorrow! This is a great opportunity, don't let me waste it, hear me?"

The child raised his head and stared blankly at the woman who came over. The horror in his eyes didn't dissipate, but made her shiver even more.

"If you don't do well, you will still be punished, you know! Yinka!"

"Hmm..." Yinka lowered her head, embraced her slender, scarred legs, nodded lightly, and complied instinctively.

The woman bent down and stretched out her hand to pinch her chin, but at this moment she showed a reassuring smile, she lowered her head and approached the child, and whispered softly: "You are the child I carefully selected from the orphanage, a good child should be obedient Are you obedient?"

"I believe you can do it."

The woman left with another man, and closed the iron door of the room heavily, leaving only the girl kneeling and sitting there.

"To do..."

"Good boy."

In this small room with no lights, the girl raised her head and smiled towards the moonlight outside the window.

"Do it, good boy..."

3.

Gaderos clutched the stone tightly, looked up at the bright starry sky, closed his eyes and sat on the swing, wondering what to think.

Whispering softly: "Hey, hey... idiot, hurry up and get this stone back for me."

He used school time to come to this park for a week in a row, and stayed until late at night before going back.

No one knows who he is talking about, let alone understand his purpose of coming here every day.

He tilted his head and leaned on the iron chain of the swing, slightly opened his eyelids and glanced at the slowly opening palm. Gaderos smiled wryly, and put the stone into his pocket.

"This stone is really ugly."

4.

The girl was sold, but she didn't know it, she just remembered to be a good boy and be obedient.

With scars on her small body that made people feel cold, Yinka lowered her head and followed the team to a large room. As the door was closed tightly, the bright light instantly illuminated the whole room Dimly.

The room was filled with chairs, and the children sat down, waiting for instructions from their caregivers.

The bright light made Yinka almost unable to adapt, she raised her fried skin and rubbed her eyes, and looked at the sad and frightened expressions of the children around her who were about the same age as her.

She tilted her head suspiciously.

As if acting strangely to them.

"Play with?"

The girl's soft question made the children around her start to cry loudly. Yinka raised her hand to block the light, curled up her mouth, and salty tears rolled down from her eyes.

"whee……"

"Why are you still laughing!" A little boy rushed up crying, grabbed her by the collar and lifted her half up, "You are crying! Why are you still laughing!"

"Be a...good boy."

Seeing the shocking wounds all over the girl's body, the boy clenched his fists, and he pushed her and the chair to the ground with all his might. A loud noise echoed in the big room, and the boy yelled, "Cry for me! Cry for me!" !!!”

The children around cried louder because of this shock, but Yinka still smiled. She raised her hand and poked the boy's tear-filled cheek, "It hurts so much."

"..."

The boy let go of her collar, got down from her small body, and sat there on his knees with a plop, clutching his head in grief and crying heartbreakingly: "Why! Why are you laughing!"

"Bang!"

The boy was on the verge of collapse, he stood up abruptly, pushed Yinka who had just stood up, and flipped the chair next to him, he swayed and walked towards the window, put his hands on the window sill and stopped, the boy turned his head to look smiling child sitting on the floor.

He suddenly stopped crying, but also showed a smile and tears slid down his cheeks, saying: "If this is the case, you can live for me!"

At the end of the sentence, everyone's eyes were blank and they stopped crying. The boy jumped out of the window under the eyes of the children. This was the highest point of the ten-story building, and there was no way to survive.

When the caretaker came in, the panic had been wiped away by intimidation. No one knew how the boy's body would be disposed of. Except for the children present, no one knew what the boy's last words were.

Yinka finally stopped smiling, and a tear fell from the corner of her eye.

"Live... what exactly is it?"

"Inka, I don't understand."

5.

Yinka and a girl were assigned together, and because they were bruised and disheveled, her non-resistance and the girl's shrinking were treated leniently by the caretakers.

They eat together and work together.

Yinka's pure smile made the girl look away a lot. Like Yinka, the girl was abandoned by her biological parents as an abandoned child. The girl wandered around, and her body was even ruined by men. She was terrified of this world.

The vagabond was caught here, she had food to eat, and someone to accompany her, she already felt very happy.

The girl and Yinka talked a lot about the past.

Horrified, sad, and happy, although many of these children can't understand, Yinka likes to listen to girls tell stories.

"Do you have a... name?"

The girl froze, then shook her head.

"I have... I have."

Inka grinned brightly.

"That's great." The girl catered to her smiling face, pursing her lips and showing a forced smile: "The name is really good."

The child put his little hand wrapped in gauze on the girl's shoulder, with a serious face, and said after a while: "I like the color of your hair."

"Golden, very nice."

"But..." Yinka lowered her head, paused and did not continue speaking.

The girl tilted her head in doubt, "But?"

"Not my favorite kind of gold."

Favorite gold?

The girl wanted to know what the child liked even more, so she continued to ask, "What kind?"

Suddenly distressed, Yinka stretched her hand back and rubbed her rosy cheeks, her wine-red eyes suddenly lit up, she jumped off the dilapidated bed with her mouth wide open, and pointed at the dark night sky outside the window.

"This way! This way!"

The girl jumped out of bed when she heard the sound, and looked at the few stars in the night sky, "Is it a star?"

Turning her head, she looked blankly at what Yinka was gesticulating. It seemed to be a huge thing, taller than her and herself, but the girl couldn't guess it.

He even imitated his expression, like a majestic warrior with his arms akimbo, snorted coldly like a contempt, and even said: "Scum."

The girl burst out laughing at this imitation, "Inka, you are so funny, what is this hahahahahaha."

"Hee hee! My favorite!"

"That's great, Inka, you have something you like."

"It's not...the thing I like! It's the person I like!"

As if babbling, Yinka awkwardly finished a sentence, and seeing the girl's smile froze on her face, she grinned.

"I must... must find him!"

Someone this silly kid likes?

Girl: "You will find it!"

6.

Time flies, Garderos was admitted to a top university with excellent grades, and there are already two people who exist like friends behind him.

He comes from a good family background, with a genius mind and a handsome young face, he does well in school.

Strong force and supercilious personality make him a school bully, but he is also an indispensable person in the school.

"Boss! Boss! I heard that there is a new fast food restaurant not far from here! Do you want to go and have a look! There may be new products!!"

Gaderos packed his things and put his backpack casually on his shoulders. A man and a woman came to meet him, who looked like two of his subordinates to outsiders.

Reid smiled and embraced the woman next to him, but was torn away: "Zuma! You will die if you embrace it, really!"

Montezuma walked up to Garderos with a blank expression, "Master Garderos, us?"

"Ah—just go to the store that Red said."

Garderos was a little tired and yawned.

Montezuma happened to catch a glimpse of the dark golden stone hanging around his neck. It didn't look like a valuable thing, but it was strung with a good silver cord.

This is the first time she has seen all of this necklace. In the past, it was mysteriously hidden in the shirt and never exposed.

"Lord Garderos, what is this necklace?"

On the way, Montezuma couldn't hold back his curiosity, and some wanted to know the origin of this necklace.

Hearing this, Reid leaned over to take a closer look at the not-so-good-looking stone, touched his chin and hummed: "It's not so good-looking, boss."

"To shut up."

Garderos put the necklace back into his shirt. He didn't respond to Red who was pestering him, nor did he give an answer to Montezuma's words.

That girl hasn't been seen since that day.

Jaderos vaguely remembered her appearance, the flamboyant red hair mixed with black hair, and those wine-red eyes that were innocent enough to have no distracting thoughts, he remembered most deeply.

and that sentence.

'Your eyes...beautiful.I love so much. '

……

The streets were bustling, and Gaderos picked out his ears a little annoyed. Apart from the clerks who were looking for customers, there were many homeless people who came to beg secretly.

His eyes inadvertently glanced at the innermost corner, where sat two girls, who seemed to be the same age as him, and a feeling suddenly made Garderos stop in his tracks.

Reid turned his head: "Boss, why don't you leave?"

Garderos turned around and shook his head, "Nothing."

a strange feeling...

What is this?

7.

Yinka is still small, and she looks like a little girl next door next to the girl. They are dirty, and their main job every day is to sneak to the bustling market to beg.

But they never get any benefits, and all the money they ask for is handed over, but they can survive with food, so that the two children give up struggling.

They sat down at the corner of the street as usual that day. The girl attracted many onlookers with her sweet voice, and Yinka drew many vivid pictures with a brush, so that the onlookers could have a sense of body while listening to the music. The feeling of being there.

Next to Yinka was a picture book that had never been opened in front of the onlookers. Some of the onlookers were curious and wanted to read it.

But every time it was stopped in advance, like a precious thing that never let anyone touch it.

"It's going to be dark soon, let's pack up and go back."

The girl looked at Yinka who was drawing seriously, and she didn't want to disturb her, but it was really getting late.

Yinka is holding the drawing book that no one can touch, and she is drawing from it. The colors of the brushes she uses are only a few warm tones.

"Wait a minute, I'm almost done."

The girl sat next to her, and could only nod her head and watch her paint quietly.

Looking at the lifelike little boy in the drawing book, the girl asked, "Why does this book only draw pictures about this man?"

"This way I won't forget!"

"Huh? Won't you forget?"

"Yeah, I'm afraid that after a long time, I will forget the appearance of the person I like."

The girl forced a smile on her face. She had already discovered what the child hadn't noticed. Over time, although she has drawn more than this one in the picture book, but...

Every subsequent picture will lose so many important details, first hair, then cheeks, lips...

In the end, only those golden eyes remained.

But only these eyes, Inka can never draw wrong.

"But what you draw is what this person looked like when he was a child. If he grows up now, it must be different, right?"

Yinka didn't stop her movements, she looked up at the girl: "That golden color! I will never forget it!"

"Um……"

Yinka suddenly stopped the paintbrush in her hand, she stood up and looked in one direction, the girl almost leaned back in fright, she was surprised: "What's wrong?"

The child lowered his head and showed distress: "Hee hee, did you read it wrong?"

"We really should go back."

"Well! Go back!"

8.

"Snapped!"

"Woooo..." The girl huddled in the corner of the room, and the crying sound surrounded the whole small room. She bit her lower lip and let out a small voice from the gap between her lips: "Don't...don't..."

"Tear--"

The sound of paper being torn was heard one after another.

The child was lying on the ground, covered in blood. She looked up weakly and looked at the person in front of her who was tearing apart one picture album after another.

She didn't cry, but kept using her bruised arms to prop herself up, wanting to roar, to stop the person in front of her, to...

kill him! !

"what!!!"

"Crack!"

The sound of a broken arm couldn't stop Yinka from wanting to jump over, she finally stood up with the remaining strength, her teeth creaking.

"Oh? Not bad, you can still stand up?" The caretaker laughed, and then kicked the child's abdomen, staggering back a few steps with the already shaking little body, but did not fall down again He tore up the picture book in his hand even more, "You actually came to do these meaningless things during work! Next time, I won't hit you so easily!"

The girl shrank and choked up: "Stop beating..."

Relying on the remaining consciousness, Yinka rushed over with her precarious little body, bit the caregiver's arm fiercely, tore off a piece of flesh, and immediately blood spattered.

"Uh!!! Killed you!!!"

The caregiver who was bitten and hurt threw the album out of the window, and he roared angrily: "Madman!!"

Yinka looked at the hand that was about to hit him, she giggled, and she had the speed to dodge, dodging and jumping up, as if she suddenly lost gravity and her already weak body directly fell down the window.

The caretaker couldn't help being speechless, shook the blood off his arm, walked up to the girl and kicked it, since the child had already jumped out of the window, it was considered suicide, and it would do him no harm to just wipe it away.

The sound of the door closing made the girl finally open her closed eyes. She cried softly and lay down by the window. This is a room on the fifth floor!

"Inka...Inka..."

She whispered, her consciousness was on the verge of collapse, and she even felt a sense of relief. The girl gently closed her eyes and opened her arms and smiled.

"Hey, wait for me—"

"I'll be right there."

This world is really annoying.

Perhaps death is the real relief.

The girl rolled down the window.

everything is over.

……

The child opened her eyes in a daze, and the pain in her body was no longer important. She saw the dead girl beside her, and the girl was smiling.

She cried.

Crying incessantly.

If it wasn't for being blocked by a thick tree trunk in the middle of the fall, maybe she died too, and would leave this world like the girl.

Yinka put her hand on the girl's chest and shook it vigorously, salty tears fell down and fell on the girl's blood-stained face.

"Don't sleep, okay..."

"Get up..."

"Give me again... Uh, tell me about your past..."

The boy who kept her alive died.

The girl who had been with her all this time also died.

What is death and what is life?

The tattered picture album was blown through several pages by the wind, and the blond boy on each page was already soaked in blood. Inka's broken arm was drooping, and she limped to pick up the picture album, holding tightly with one hand. arms.

There was no expression on her face, but she tried to pull the corners of her mouth to make herself laugh.

— to live.

9.

Garderos woke up in a dream for three consecutive days, and every time he had a dream, it was the same scene and the same feeling.

In a small room full of blood, a little girl was sitting on a bed stained with blood, dangling her calves, staring straight at him with bright red eyes.

The little girl smiled at him and asked where he was.

Tell him she will live.

He couldn't see the little girl's face clearly, but he had a strong feeling that the little girl was someone living in the world, and this person had been looking for him.

At [-]:[-] in the morning, Garderos accidentally came to the park that he used to go to when he was a child, but there were no previous facilities, and he basically traded the old for the new.

But he relied on memory to walk to the swing, took out the dark yellow stone from his shirt, leaned on the iron pillar and looked up.

Just like the night sky after the girl who was called a fool by all the children left that day.

Only a few small stars were dotted, and the grass suddenly rustled, making Garderos turn his gaze there.

who is here?he thought.

It was not a person who came, but a little wild cat.

An inexplicable sense of loss welled up in his heart, and Gaderos sighed.

"gold?"

"??!!"

Turning around suddenly, a girl was standing behind her at some point. She was covered in blood and bruises, holding a dilapidated notebook in her arms, and crimson blood scabs had already formed on her body.

Tears welled up in her eye sockets, but the corner of her mouth was slightly cracked, revealing a small canine tooth, and forced a smile.

Gaderos had never felt her heart beating so violently, the girl back then had changed.

But those wine-red eyes are still pure, and although the hair is messed up, it can be seen that the black hair is mixed with flamboyant red hair.

is her.

"Hey - it's really slow."

"Found you hehe—"

The memory fragments seemed to have been opened, and the curtains of the dark room were drawn.

The girl laughed and fell down.

After she woke up, she was already in a snow-white room, and there was a strange person beside the bed who made her feel at ease.

She blinked, trying to sit up but was exhausted.

Although Gaderos showed disgust on his face, he still helped her up, let her lean on the pillow, and scolded angrily: "Scumbag, can't you even protect your own body?"

"I'm very happy."

"Shut up, scumbag! Why are you happy!" Garderos was inexplicably annoyed, and wanted to pull the child out of bed and beat him up.

"I found you!"

"I survived!"

The gilt eyes suddenly narrowed, and the figure of the girl in the dream seemed to overlap with the child in front of him at this moment, and Garderos pressed his temple in distress.

"Hey! Listen carefully, you will be more honest with me in the future and live with me!"

"Remember, my name is..."

Yinka took the lead: "My God!"

Gaderos hooked his lips, with an arrogant expression, but said on his mouth: "Did I allow you to interrupt me? It's just a fool in my mouth."

"But you should be glad that you have been appreciated by me, Garderos."

"Jaderos, Jaderos!" Yinka repeated his name twice, but cried aloud at the second time, "I found you, Yinka found you, woooooooo... found... "

Gaderos sat on the edge of the bed and clenched his fists, got up and walked out of the ward with a blank expression.

"It's been ten years since then."

10.

"Hey! Remember me?" Red approached the child with a smile, but was pulled away by Montezuma. He complained, "Zuma, let me talk to her!"

Montezuma: "Be quiet, this is the ward."

The child was stalked by the red-haired man who broke in suddenly, but she didn't know who he was. In her memory, the boy who kept her alive and the girl who accompanied her for ten years were the most impressive.

And the gold that wiped her faith.

Looking at Yinka's puzzled face, Reid was extremely frustrated, "Hey, you really can't remember me? At least I hit you before!"

Gaderos happened to walk in and raised his eyebrows: "Oh? Reid, have you ever hit her?"

"I was ignorant when I was a child! I was scared like that, and I was so impulsive that I was scared away by the difference between men and women. It's understandable!" Reid scratched his head and stuck out his tongue with a laugh.

"Are you that... boy?" Yinka was holding a peeled apple, staring at him blankly, opening and closing her small mouth: "Aren't you dead?"

"Yeah! I'm fine! Thanks to the old sycamore tree downstairs! I woke up and hung on the tree. It was a bit of a serious injury. After that, my eyes were close to useless, but fortunately, I'm not blind." Red talked on and on, and was very excited when he talked about the past. Seeing that Yinka liked to listen, he became even more excited, and even gestured. He adjusted the special blindfold and continued: "After that, I was The boss was saved, I wanted to find that building when I grew up, but because my eyes were injured at the time, I couldn’t remember the way, and I couldn’t see the building clearly, so I didn’t remember it at all, so I dragged it until now.”

"I really didn't expect it! You also escaped, and you really survived!"

Yinka bit the apple with her mouth wide open, and took a bite. She cried out while chewing, "What is the meaning of living...?"

"Live and explore for yourself." Garderos folded his arms around his chest.

"Explore it yourself?"

"Yes! Boss is super powerful. During the time you were sleeping, we have already searched the residence of the trafficker with the police, and even arrested the vicious woman who adopted you from the orphanage before. That scene was really too much." Relief!" Reid said a lot more, and finally his eyes were dark, "It's a pity that the girl, her body has been buried, if she hadn't stayed with me back then, she might not have been arrested with me Bar."

"I still don't know the girl's name."

Yinka nodded and agreed: "I like her very much."

For a moment, a childlike voice hummed an innocent nursery rhyme, and Reid also hummed happily. Together with this child, this nursery rhyme was taught by that girl, and they will engrave it in their hearts.

Gaderos stepped forward, took off the necklace from his neck, and hung it around the child's neck. The corners of his mouth curled up: "It should be returned to its original owner."

Yinka took off the dark yellow stone necklace with her hand wrapped in gauze, handed it over and shook her head: "I gave it to you."

"You look great in it!"

Garderos was stunned, turned his head and couldn't help laughing out loud, "As expected of a fool, it's a good-looking fart hahahaha."

The child suddenly put on a serious face and puffed up his cheeks: "It's just beautiful! But it's not as good-looking as Rose's eyes!"

"Oh? Are all little fools' mouths this sweet?"

Inka didn't answer, she opened her arms to Gaderos.

Seeing her intention, Montezuma wanted to stop it in advance, but unexpectedly, the blond boy bent down and hugged the child in his arms without any hesitation.

However, it seemed that the movement was very light, and he paid special attention to the child's injury.

She smiled faintly.

Red laughed too.

-

Ten years ago, your favorite sentence made me very happy.

Ten years later, your past is like this, which makes me want to protect you to the end.

--postscript

The author has something to say: The stalk of this episode comes from Luo Miyang's old and cute stalk, which is nearly ten thousand characters long.

This is a special episode where the main drama is turned into a special episode, which is full of sadness and joy.

This episode has been planned for a long time, I think a lot, what kind of writing style should I use to treat this episode, joy and escape is definitely not good, and the tragic style is too rigorous for me to write, so I still set it in the normal drama style.

Take this episode as a stand-alone story.