Drug addiction

19-year-old Tong Yu... As a moderately depressed patient, he has been recuperating at home for more than a year...

This word is like a thick layer of fog, covering Tong Yu's life tightly, unable to find the direction, and also unable to find the exit.

But Tong Yu knew in his heart that even without this word, his life was still colorless, impenetrable, let alone intangible.

He doesn't have Yan Ziqian's sunny appearance, Yan Ziqian's unruly personality, and Yan Ziqian's popularity...Of course, in his heart, he doesn't need these either.

But the most important thing is that he doesn't have a father who cares about him like Yan Ziqian...

In Tong Yu's 19 years of life, Tong's mother filled all his memories...

He has never met his father, and has followed his mother Tong Yafang's surname since he was born. Tong's mother hoped that he would live a comfortable life and have more noble people to support him, so she chose such a name for him.

For a family, both parents are indeed indispensable, but if you think about it carefully, life without father's love is far more difficult than life without mother's love.

Mother Tong's first marriage was at the age of 22. In that era when she still followed her parents' order and matchmaker's advice, her marriage was like snacks displayed in a shop window. As long as she was able to pay the corresponding expenses, You can keep it for yourself.

Although Mama Tong's parents treated their daughter's marriage with caution, Mama Tong still didn't get rid of the four words 'meeting others is not kind'...

Her partner's family background is good, but it is precisely because of this that her husband's family is overbearing and unreasonable, her husband is addicted to alcoholism, has nothing to do, and whenever things go wrong, he will go to war against Tong Mama. With a basin of footwashing water, he slapped Mama Tong's blushing little face...

At that moment, Tong's mother's expectations for married life were almost shattered.

But the thing that broke Tong’s mother was still to come. Half a year later, the alcoholic husband was impulsive at the drinking table and killed someone by mistake. The in-law’s family operated in many ways, but the husband was still sentenced to 30 years in prison, leaving only his prime time. The child's mother stays alone in the vacant room.

In fact, Tong’s mother-in-law’s family has their own thoughts. Tong’s mother has been in the house for half a year without any movement in her stomach. Now the only son in the family has entered. Can you give birth?

Then, after this calculation, wouldn’t the husband’s family have to raise the child’s mother for 30 years... It’s not worth it...

So, under the persecution of her husband's family, Mama Tong divorced her husband in prison. Without the bondage of marriage, her husband's family thought that there was no reason to be merciful and helpful to this woman, so they kicked Mama Tong out that day. out of the house.

But we all know that God likes to make some fucking jokes...

After Mama Tong returned to her natal home, she developed symptoms of dizziness and vomiting. She went to the hospital for an examination, but it turned out that she had been pregnant for more than two months...

That is to say, even though Mother Tong has divorced her ex-husband now, the child in her womb is still the two of them, and even the two families will never be able to solve the entanglement.

Mother Tong didn't want to go back to that wolf's lair. Now that she had escaped, she didn't want to go back to the days of fear and lack of human rights;

But the path of a single mother will be even more difficult. Although she has been married once, she is only in her 20s. Could it be that she has given away most of her life because of this unexpected child?

Everyone in the family persuaded Mama Tong to get rid of this 'hot potato'. Suitable for their own people, so as to start a new life...

Listening to the quarrels in the family, Mama Tong reached out and touched her belly. This time she did make a mistake...

This is her first child...

That night, Mama Tong suffered from insomnia... On the one hand, it was the joy of being a new mother, but on the other hand, she was entangled... She suddenly had a feeling of being in a dilemma.

The doctor told Mama Tong that the baby in her womb has been growing for more than two months now. If she is determined not to give up, she must prepare as soon as possible. It will be difficult for Mama Tong to wait until the baby is more than four months old. life threatening.

Mother Tong looked at the calm expression on the doctor's face and wanted to cry. At this moment, her heart was ups and downs. She knew that this child might cost her her life, but let me ask, in this world, is there any mother Isn't it possible to give everything for your own children?Even at the expense of life...

Her child was still so young, sleeping in her body, quietly waiting for the moment when he broke through the ground, what did he do wrong?Even his right to open his eyes and see the world is deprived... Is it because of his father who is not as good as a beast?

Mama Tong thinks so...

It could also be her only child...

Mother Tong told her family about her decision the next day. Although the parents were opposed at first, they respected her choice when they saw the firmness in their daughter's eyes. In the belly, even if parents love their daughter, they can't force down that bowl of miscarriage medicine, isn't it...

What's more, they love their daughters, so don't daughters love their unborn children?

However, there is no impenetrable wall in this world. The ex-husband’s family heard about Mama Tong’s pregnancy from nowhere, and ran to Mama Tong’s house to make a fuss, saying that the child was the last of their family. Forced Tong's mother to sign an agreement, and after the child was born, she would take her back to them to raise her...

Of course, Tong's mother could not allow such a thing to happen...

So the people in the ex-husband's family turned their heads and accused Tong's mother of not abiding women, saying that Tong's family was suspected of cheating on the marriage, and even said that their son was framed by Tong's mother and the adulterer...

You really have two mouths, how can you say it makes sense...

Tong's mother was really forced to do nothing by them, so she had to flee the land where she was born and raised overnight, and went to Shanghai to join her uncle.

Although the uncle and aunt have no culture, they are all real people, and they were favored by Tong Mama's parents when they were still in their hometown. The old couple had no children and no daughters all their lives, so they were very kind to Tong Mama, a niece...

In this way, seven months later, the little Douding in Tong's mother's stomach broke out in this strange city...

Mother Tong looked at the sleeping child in her arms, her eyes filled with tears. The moment she decided to keep this child, she had nothing to do with anyone. This is the flesh and blood that she cannot part with in this life, and is her everything. , and her only...

Although Mama Tong's uncle and aunt took good care of her, Mama Tong still didn't want to be an idler in this family, so Mama Tong went to work in the garment factory where her uncle and aunt worked during the day when Xiao Tong Yu was not yet full moon. Put it in the guard room and be looked after by my uncle, take him home to take care of him at night, fortunately, Xiao Tong Yu is very sensible, after eating enough during the day, he will sleep in the small bed prepared by his uncle, even if he sleeps too much, he will not cry at night No fuss, always quietly looking at Tong Mama and smiling...

At this time, Mama Tong felt that although she did not meet a reliable man and did not have a reliable marriage, but Xiao Douding by her side could always look at her with a smile like this, no matter how hard the life was, she would be so kind to her. It is also a joy to say.

However, the sky is unpredictable...

When Tong Yu was four years old, a fire broke out in the garment factory because of lax management. The fire started in the workshop where her aunt worked. Her uncle tried to rush in to save people, but he was also buried in the sea of ​​flames...

The kind-hearted uncle and aunt left just like that, and the garment factory that they depended on for survival also closed down. Mother Tong had no choice but to start a business, but when she looked at the numbers printed on the passbook, she still shook her head. This amount of money is a lot less, but it is not enough to do something, it is really embarrassing.

Mama Tong is a woman. Although she barely went to school for a few years, she didn't even graduate from high school. Of course, she can't get a high-end job, but she should be able to barely make ends meet by doing odd jobs...

But soon, she also gave up the idea of ​​doing part-time jobs, because the place of work of part-time jobs is not fixed, he needs to go to several places every day, and she can only leave Xiao Tong Yu alone at home...

Finally, on that autumn evening, Mama Tong, who was exhausted and returned to the Tongzilou, saw Xiao Tong Yu standing in front of her with blood all over her face. She asked in a trembling voice what happened to Xiao Tong Yu, Xiao Tong Yu just blinked her beautiful eyes, then pointed to the back of her head.

It was already past ten o'clock in the evening when I took Xiao Tong Yu from the clinic to bandage the wound and returned home. Tong's mother looked at the patch on Xiao Tong's feathery head, and her nose felt sore. She reached out and touched it. With little Tong Yu's smooth face, Tong's mother frowned, and at this moment she had no choice but to think of a decent way out...

A week later, Tong's mother returned the tube building that had been rented for five years. She took the mother and son's luggage and held a hard seat ticket in her hand, and took the train with Xiao Tong Yu in her arms. 'life.

After arriving in Beijing, after many twists and turns, Mama Tong found her aunt's cousin from afar, and finally agreed to let Mama Tong take care of Tong Yu and act as a nanny at her cousin's house.

Cousin is a man of culture, although he only works as a teacher in a third-rate university, but after spending these years in Beijing, he naturally has a condescending attitude towards Tong Mama, who came to join him on purpose. The mother and son were only entrusted by his mother, and he couldn't refuse.

My cousin goes out early and returns late to work every day, and I only see him once at night, but the cousin who is looking for trouble at home is not easy to deal with. Mother Tong knows that the cousin has no intention of taking them in from the beginning, just to watch It's just for the sake of her mother-in-law, not to mention that she has Tong Yu by her side. Sometimes, her cousin will even call Tong Yu "little oil bottle" together with her son. Tong's mother feels very uncomfortable, but at that time In such a situation, she has no way to stand up for the child.

They have lived this kind of life for more than two years. The requirements of the cousin and sister-in-law are getting more and more demanding, but the salary of Tong's mother is getting lower and lower, and the mother and son have to endure all kinds of unfair treatment. She could bear anything, but she couldn't bear it for a moment when it was placed on her son.

When Tong Yu was almost seven years old, he didn't even go to kindergarten, but Tong's mother bought him children's books at the bookstore, so that he could pass the boring time.

Until one day, Tong Yu discovered that the children's books his mother had bought for him were thrown into the spinning washing machine by his cousin. He cried and hugged the washing machine and begged it to stop. After half an hour, the washing machine stopped, and the books It also turned into shredded paper and covered the liner of the washing machine.

Just like that, the cousin still cried and wronged Tong Yu, saying that he threw the children's books into the washing machine, and he didn't know anything...

Tong Yu retorted, and Tong's mother also explained, but her cousin sister-in-law, with a glib face, abruptly described her son as a victim, and asked her husband to judge, Tong's mother's Cousin naturally spoke to his wife and children, not only reprimanded Tong Yu for those who went online, but also deducted half a month's salary from Tong's mother.

That sentence is really good, it's not that the family does not enter the house...

Tong Yu's cousin is three years older than him, and he is already a child who can understand adults' words. At the age when teenage dogs would hate him, his cousin's yawn is even more unscrupulous. The children share about those things about Tong Yu's family...

One evening, the children in the compound were playing at the door, and after Tong Yu ate two mouthfuls of leftovers, he also came over...

Children, who wants to be alone?

But after seeing Tong Yu walking over, the cousin who was a head taller than him pointed his nostril at him, "Do you want to play with us?"

Tong Yu tugged at the leg of his trousers nervously, then nodded, "I want to..."

"Okay..." Cousin nodded with a smile on his face, then stared at Tong Yu with rounded eyes and a condescending attitude, "Then you can be our watchdog, hahaha..."

"why?"

"Because your dad is a murderer..." my cousin blurted out, "My dad said, your dad is still in prison, don't even think about it in this life, you don't deserve to play with us at all, you just Be worthy of being a watchdog..." After finishing speaking, he pushed Tong Yu's shoulder, and Tong Yu staggered and fell into the mud puddle next to him.

In fact, at that time, Tong Yu had no concept of the word 'murderer' at all, he only knew that it must not be a good word...

Whether it was out of temper or anger, that day Tong Yu retaliated to his cousin with an even bigger mud pit...

Although he was very relieved at the time, he was reprimanded by the unreasonable couple after returning home. Tong Yu did not show weakness and told what his cousin had done.

But Mama Tong's unreasonable cousin still has the face to cry. He cried while hugging his son, "Where did we say something wrong? If we can do it, we won't allow others to say it..." just like a victim attitude.

Tong's mother didn't want to make things big, and she knew that Tong Yu couldn't hide it for too long, but now that this matter was brought to the table, she still didn't know how to explain it to her child.

"I'm sorry, cousin, this is something Tong Yu did wrong, I will discipline him when I go back..." As she spoke, Tong's mother's nose sore, although she held back her tears, her voice still changed, and she wrinkled He frowned and said, "Don't be angry."

Tong Yu looked at his mother who was silently wiping away tears in doubt, he did nothing wrong, why should he be disciplined?Mom didn't do anything wrong, so why put up with them everywhere?

Tong Yu felt that the adults' world was really strange, he didn't understand, really didn't understand.

The children in the compound didn't look up to Tong Yu at first, and the rumors about Tong Yu's father spread from one to another. Even the popsicle seller at the entrance of the alley knew the "glorious deeds" of Tong Yu's father.

Finally, when the mean-mouthed cousin imitated the grown-up again and said 'your father is a murderer' to Tong Yu, Tong Yu grabbed his cousin by the collar and pinned him to the ground , and knocked out one of his teeth.

Of course, after returning home, it was inevitable to be scolded, but this time Tong Yu felt that he had made a profit...

But when he saw his mother was covered by the scolding, and when she hugged him and bowed her head sobbing, he immediately regretted it. He knelt down without hesitation and asked for their forgiveness. He said it was all his fault, he was willing to suffer any punishment, he just begged them not to hurt his mother...

If he knew that his mother would be wronged because of his impulsiveness, then he might not have punched him at all...

Isn't that just being reprimanded?Isn't it just being pointed at?Isn't it just being wronged?He won't die, and the most important thing is that his mother won't shed tears for him...

Tong Yu thought so of course.

Later, Tong Yu went to school, and he and Tong's mother also left the place that made him depress. Mom used the savings she had saved to open a snack bar, leaving early and returning late, but life finally got better.

Tong's mother is very busy, and there is only one person in and out of the store. She doesn't have much time to pay attention to Tong Yu's state, because in her heart, Tong Yu has always been well-behaved, very sensible, and her academic performance has always been among the best. She doesn't need to worry about anything at all...

But this negligence prevented her from noticing Tong Yu's change at all...

She only knew that when she came home every night, there would be Tong Yu's freshly washed clothes hanging on the balcony, even in winter. She felt that Tong Yu liked to be clean. It was still hard to say, so she naturally didn't think much about it.

Since then, the mother and son have fallen into a vicious circle of you don't tell me and I don't ask.

But Tong's mother didn't know that the son she had always been proud of, that well-behaved and sensible boy with excellent character and learning, was being pushed into the abyss step by step...

The revelation of this matter was the moment when the school teacher invited Mama Tong into the principal's office. Looking at Tong Yu's already red and swollen face, Mama Tong knew at that time that her precious son had been in the school since he was 11 years old. Enduring campus violence, until the second before she stepped into the principal's office, for four full years, she didn't notice anything.

At that time, Tong's mother suddenly realized that what she missed was not only the four years of Tong Yu's life, but the seven years from the day Tong Yu entered school at the age of eight. She didn't know how much Tong Yu had. At the moment of pain, she only knew that Tong Yu hadn't mentioned a single word related to this matter...

She claims to be a qualified mother, but in the end she let this thin-shouldered child bear all the burden alone...

At that moment, Mama Tong collapsed...

She attributed all the problems to Tong Yu's lack of fatherly love, so she decided to find a qualified stepfather for Tong Yu in the shortest possible time...

Mother Tong's state at this time is similar to going to the doctor in a hurry...

Not long after, Tong's mother brought an uncle to Tong Yu and told him that this uncle would live with them.

Tong Yu actually has no objection, he has always felt that this chubby uncle is actually quite perfect in disguise, at least in front of his mother...Tong Yu doesn't even mind playing this scene with him forever. ..

Uh...if the two children he brought over treat him kindly...

The result was backfired. The arrival of the uncle's family not only did not have any effect on Tong Yu, but became a "negative teaching material". Tong's mother looked at the evaluation report given by the psychologist in her hand. The four words "depressed" instantly sentenced the family to death in her heart...

After returning home that day, Mama Tong kicked out the three people who lived at home without showing any sympathy, and immediately returned to the ranks of single nobles the next day...

In fact, for Tong Yu, when people come and go, there is no turbulence in his heart. Anyway, in the end, he is still the only one left in his world. He left at an unexpected time, whether he retreated or escaped, in short, he would cease to exist...

Therefore, this time when Mama Tong told him that she wanted to remarry again, he was neither surprised nor felt awkward. The shoe cabinet asked him which pair he was wearing, and he replied 'anything is fine'...

There is essentially no difference between the two...

He has no other requirements, only praying that the other party is a man who can protect his mother from wind and rain, and he needs enough time to build a protective layer in his heart, and then hide himself in it without a trace, in other words In other words, his own feelings are actually not important.

However, this state didn't last long. The moment Tong Yu heard Yan Ziqian's name, he seemed to hear all the alarms that the protective layer he had worked so hard to build was about to collapse.

But under the trend of curiosity, Tong Yu still raised his head to meet Yan Ziqian's shining pupils...

---boom---

Without a second of hesitation, Tong Yu finally heard the terrifying sounds of the protective layer collapsing and cracking...

Although Yan Ziqian knew nothing about all of this...