Drug addiction

If Tong Yu said that he remembered everything last night clearly, would you believe it?

He admitted that the five cans of beer made him dizzy for a moment even to the point of being drunk, but to be honest, when Yan Ziqian asked him to take off his clothes and go back to sleep, he had already regained consciousness up.

That's right, last night he was indeed suspected of being insane while taking advantage of the alcohol, but he can swear that every word he said was a well-thought-out and affectionate confession...

The first second he opened his eyes, Tong Yu's hand on Yan Ziqian's strong chest tightened, and the side face that was pillowed on his shoulder turned red in an instant, and he rubbed against Yan Ziqian's arms greedily, feeling shy It made him tighten his mouth, and it took a lot of courage for him to raise his head slightly to look at Yan Ziqian's handsome face.

Yan Ziqian actually woke up a long time ago, but he kept staring at the ceiling of the hotel. He knew that Tong Yu was still asleep, and the sound of his deep breathing made him feel at ease. Lie down on the bed like this, let Tong Yu rub against his arms until he completely pressed half of his shoulder, Yan Ziqian sighed slightly in the dark night, and then, the people around his shoulders Hands loosen slowly...

Yes, a secret love is a failure...

Spotting Tong Yu's gaze, Yan Ziqian glanced at him, then got up and sat by the bed, "You're awake..."

Tong Yu frowned slightly, at that moment he had seen all the sadness and indifference in Yan Ziqian's eyes.

"Well..." He nodded, looked at the blanket covering his body, shrunk his bare shoulders shyly, "Last night, we..."

"Nothing happened last night..." Yan Ziqian said in a decisive tone while clutching the bed sheet with his big hands.

"Ah?" A question mark suddenly rose in Tong Yu's mind, and the eyes looking at his back were full of doubts.

'Is this handsome guy... shy? '

"Don't worry, even though you drank too much, I didn't touch you..." Yan Ziqian pursed his lips and frowned uncomfortably, "This way you don't need to feel sorry for the person in your heart. When you are really together, when you plan to open your heart to him, you can tell him without burden that your body and your heart belong to him alone..."

Tong Yu really didn't understand what he meant. After thinking about it seriously, he decided to ask, "The person in my heart...is..."

"You don't have to hide it from me..." Yan Ziqian pretended to be relaxed and chuckled, "You drank too much last night and thought I was him..."

'As him? 'Tong Yu wanted to laugh a little...

Seeing that he didn't speak, Yan Ziqian nodded knowingly, "Is he in America? Or somewhere far away?"

"America?" Tong Yu frowned, "Why America?"

Yan Ziqian pursed his lips, "Yesterday Leizi heard you call, and you said it was ten o'clock in the evening, so I figured it out..." After finishing speaking, he lowered his head and muttered, "I What the hell, I'm just idle, why do I have to figure this out..."

"Yan Ziqian, he...he's not..." Tong Yu explained with a bit of stammer.

"You don't need to deny it, I know it all..." He said this lightly, his tone was full of sadness "He should be very important to you, to make you so unwilling to say a word It's not easy for a person to say so many love words..."

Tong Yu's heart sank. Everything that happened last night flashed through his mind. He racked his brains and couldn't figure out what went wrong. God knows how much courage he mustered to say those words, but today As soon as he opened his eyes, he played such a "face changing" with himself. Tong Yu didn't know how many faces Yan Ziqian had, but the one who treated him in the past was definitely not the one he is now...

'Could it be that he thought he wasn't active enough last night?Didn't let him enjoy himself? '

"What do you mean Yan Ziqian?" Yan Ziqian's attitude made Tong Yu feel a little unhappy. It is true that they didn't make it to the end last night, but in the final analysis, this matter was not his fault. He wanted to do something more later. Breakthrough, but the person who stopped him was Yan Ziqian himself?

"I don't mean anything, I just want to tell you something..." Yan Ziqian stood up, but still turned his back to him, "Tong Yu, I like you, I should have said it when I was in the basement that day, but instead It has been delayed until today, I am not trying to embarrass you at this juncture, and I am also reluctant to embarrass you, in the final analysis, I like you, this is my own business, and it has nothing to do with you. "

Tong Yu couldn't listen to anything now, the moment Yan Ziqian's "I like you" entered his ears, his ears rang with excitement...

Seeing that Tong Yu didn't speak, he smiled bitterly, "You don't need to have any burdens, I know you don't like me, and I won't force you to like me, we will be the same as before... like before It's good to get along the same..." After finishing speaking, the light in his eyes completely disappeared, and his two big eyes suddenly became gray "I say Ziqian can afford to let it go, since he dares to fall in love secretly, he dares to accept the reality , even if it hurts my heart, I can afford to lose."

Tong Yu was puzzled, who was the 'that person' Yan Ziqian was talking about?Now even his own heart began to beat. Isn't the person in his heart the same as the sad and nonsense person in front of him?

Besides Yan Ziqian, who else?

"I really don't understand why we ended up like this when we hugged each other and slept all night?" Tong Yu was a little aggrieved. When he fell asleep last night, he imagined many scenes after waking up this morning. They hugged, kissed, and kissed each other. Weeping and crying, I can even finish what I didn't finish last night to make up for my regret... But there is absolutely no 'denial of account' like now.

Besides, why didn't he admit it?Yan Ziqian was not the one who made a fool of himself, what loss did he have?Could it be because his own stuff sprayed his palm?But his hand was covering that place at that time, he wanted to spray on other places, but he couldn't control himself...

Hearing him say this, the fire in Yan Ziqian's heart ignited instantly, and the grievance of being a "tool man" all night was instantly released, he bit his lip, and raised his voice, "Aren't you talking to me?" Sleeping all night, you fucking slept with the grandson of America, Tong Yu, listen to me clearly, I like you, I treat you well, that's my willingness, you don't like me, it's okay, what time is it now, Freedom in love, but don’t fucking put your fantasies about him on me, I can’t fucking accept it, I know you drank too much last night, so I don’t blame you, and I’m sorry I told you You got angry, but I really can't do it with a smile and tell you about it."

"I don't think of you as anyone..." Tong Yu was most afraid of Yan Ziqian's anger, but at this moment, facing Yan Ziqian with leopard head and eyes around him, he felt powerless, and he didn't know what to do. How to explain this matter clearly, so I had to respond a little palely, "I like you too..."

Yan Ziqian chuckled, "You don't have to feel guilty, and you don't have to worry that I'll hurt you because of this. You're the one I like, and I'm not such a jerk; so you don't have to say such things to lie to me..." After finishing speaking, he pulled the short sleeve on the sofa and put it on his body, "I don't care how the grandson of America treats you, but as long as I am in my sight, I will not let others bully you again. Even if you frown, I will Fucking so bad I want to die..."

"I didn't lie to you, I was sober when I said those words last night..." Hot tears covered his cheeks, he had never felt that it was so easy to say the word 'like', so he said it over and over again Repeating "I like you, I like your Yan Ziqian..."

"Like me?" Yan Ziqian squinted his eyes and looked at him, "How dare you say that you were sober last night? You, Tong Yu, told me that you liked me for a year, it was a year...you give me this explain explain..."

'like me?Fart, I have only known you for more than a month...'

"I..." Tong Yu pursed his lips uncomfortably, and he swallowed back the words that had already reached his lips...

"No more to say?" Yan Ziqian twitched a mocking smile, "Is it so fun to lie to me? Or are you afraid that I will tell others about you and threaten you with this matter like Ma Chao and the others? In my heart, it's really no different from them..."

"Yan Ziqian..." Tong Yu knelt on the bed and couldn't stop crying. Last night, he said "knowing him for a year" on the spur of the moment, but he didn't thought about how to explain...

Do you really want to tell him what happened a year ago?Tong Yu kept struggling in her heart, saying that matter might resolve the misunderstanding between the two, and keep Yan Ziqian by her side; but let me ask, who would be willing to be with a depressed patient Woolen cloth?And this guy has suicidal tendencies...

If he really told Yan Ziqian about this, he would probably be scared away...

So the final result is still the same. It is natural to seek advantages and avoid disadvantages. Yan Ziqian will still stay away from him, just like all the people who appear in his life and turn away without leaving a trace, without any hesitation or nostalgia. Even a little bit of warmth in the past is no longer willing to give alms...

Yan Ziqian looked at his troubled face, pretended to be relieved and smiled and said, "Forget it, I'll go to Leizi's room..." After speaking, he opened the door and walked out...

Tong Yu had just recovered when he heard the sound of the door slamming, his whole body was shaken, he was the only one left in Nuo Da's room, he curled up quietly on the cold bed, even though he was curled up into a ball, he still Can't feel any temperature...

Yan Ziqian knew about Tong Yu's depression; Yan Ziqian also knew about Tong Yu's suicide; but for this suicide, Yan Ziqian's appearance was an accident, an accident that even he himself had forgotten... .

Of course, there was one more thing that Yan Ziqian didn't know at all, and that was who was the grandson of America?

He is a very important person to Tong Yu, no less important than Yan Ziqian, Tong Yu can say so frankly...

He did not witness Tong Yu's worst four years, but bravely put an end to those humiliating four years.Tong Yu still remembers that when he went to complain to the principal about the bullying on his behalf, he had just transferred to Tong Yu's class for less than a week.

People who don't understand, are not familiar with, and haven't even said a word, are brave enough to get into trouble for themselves...

Because the end of one bullying is the best announcement of the beginning of the next bullying...

But those people didn't expect that he was completely different from Tong Yu...

One day later, when Tong Yu was stopped by him at the school gate, his nose was bruised and his face was swollen. He looked very embarrassed, but there was still a smile on the corner of his mouth.

"They bullied you too?" Tong Yu said to him apologetically.

"It's okay..." He shook his head, then turned around and waved at the car that just got off, "They were hurt more than me..." He said, rubbing his slightly swollen face "It's a pity that the face-lift injection two days ago was for nothing..."

Tong Yu was surprised, and still asked him, "Your family sent you here? They are worried about you..."

"No, my dad doesn't bother to care about me. He only thinks about how to make money and how to pick up girls..." After finishing speaking, he turned to the confused Tong Yu, "That's the bodyguard my dad found for me, my little one protect me when..."

"What about your mother?" Tong Yu asked.

"In the United States..." He smiled at Tong Yu, as if the bruise on the corner of his mouth was pulled, and he frowned tightly, "She is not in good health, and she is recuperating in the United States. We only see each other once in a few years."

Maybe Tong Yu felt sorry, it took a long time before he raised his head and said "I'm sorry..."

"Why?" he asked, frowning.

Tong Yu hesitated and pointed at his bruised face, without saying a word...

"It was just an accident..." He fixedly looked at Tong Yu's face, and then stretched out his hand, "Let's get to know each other again, my name is Li Hui, but you are not allowed to call me that, you have to call me Li Huizi..."

"Why?" Tong Yu didn't understand, didn't understand what he meant.

"Because you are my friend..." Li Huizi said frankly, "Only my friends can call me that..."

"Friend?" Tong Yu frowned and muttered, in his memory, this word had never appeared before, "Why do you want to be my friend?"

"Because I don't have any friends either, I'm a bosom friend..." The corners of Li Huizi's mouth rose, as if he was saying something sad. "They said I was an illegitimate child, and I don't bother to talk to them..."

Tong Yu was surprised, because in his mind the word 'illegitimate child' was far more depressing than 'your father is a murderer'.

But for all of this, Li Huizi behaved calmly...

After that day, Tong Yu and Li Huizi became friends who talked about everything, and they were also the only close friends of each other.

It was only later that Tong Yu learned that Li Huizi's father was a businessman, and his mother was a third-rate starlet when she was young. After the two of them got drunk one night, Li Huizi's mother had a secret knot in her fetus, and she was raped by him when she was about to give birth. The father found out about this, but Zheng Fang was a powerful and ruthless character, and pushed Li Huizi's mother down the stairs. Li Huizi was born before August, and his mother was in a very worrying mental state, so she was sent to the hospital. Went to America for recuperation...

From then on, Li Huizi became a child whose father didn't love his mother or his mother. His father believed in Buddhism and was afraid that this incident would bring retribution to him. In addition, Li Huizi's grandfather was patriarchal, so he didn't dare to ignore their mother and son. ...

Li Huizi's mother was placed in the best nursing home in Los Angeles, and a real estate under his name was transferred to Li Huizi, and a nanny and a bodyguard were found to take care of him. Transferring money from the account, it can be said that Li Huizi has everything except that there is no one around who knows the cold and the hot...

After graduating from junior high school, Tong Yu was admitted to Kai Tak Middle School, and Li Huizi was also sent abroad because of his father and wife's entanglement, but even though they were separated, they were still each other's only close friends, and they were the best sharing of each other's secrets. By...

Li Huizi has a fetish for women, loves micro-plastic surgery, even when he was in school, he wears light makeup. He told Tong Yu that when he grows up, he will have sex reassignment surgery, and then become a female star like his mother...

Tong Yu wasn't surprised either, but just smiled and said to him, "I'll accompany you when the time comes..."

Of course, Li Huizi knew Tong Yu's secrets clearly, even surpassing Tong's mother's knowledge.

This includes liking Yan Ziqian...

So, on the day when Tong Yu and Yan Ziqian came to Qinglong Lake for a trip, Li Huizi called Tong Yu overseas for a few hours and told him that this was a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity and that he must seize it, like it After so long, no matter whether we can be together or not, there must be a result, and we must not wait until things are different and people are different, leaving regrets in vain...

Tong Yu listened to the words, and when he hung up the phone, he was thinking about how to muster up the courage to confess his love to Yan Ziqian, when a heavy rain poured down, he lied to Ziqian that he did not bring his ID card, But in fact, he made up his mind to create this warmth with Yan Ziqian, and Xie Lei's persuasion made him even more powerful. This should have been a good thing...

But in the end it was destroyed in his own hands...

Tong Yu can explain to Yan Ziqian about Li Huizi who is far away in the United States, and he can also tell him the meaning of those love words last night, and even say "I like you" to Yan Ziqian a thousand times and ten thousand times. over and over again...but he never had the courage to explain to Yan Ziqian the accidental encounter a year ago.

After returning home that night, Tong Yu turned his back to the frustrated Yan Ziqian and quietly opened a brand new diary, which he just bought a few days ago, and the previous one was already filled by him. A whole year of trifles...

After thinking for a moment, he raised his pen to leave marks on the white paper:

'Yan Ziqian, hello, today is the 366th day I like you...'

'Bada', a drop of tear fell from Tong Yu's eye socket, just hitting the word 'like'...

It turns out that secret love is really a failure...