Drug addiction

Mama Tong is a perfect mother, there is no doubt about it, but there is a scar in her heart that will never heal, that is, the four years of humiliation and torture her most precious son suffered...

So in the following years, she has always been cautious like a bird frightened by a bow. Even if it is a little thing, she will pay attention to it silently, and any disturbance will make her confused and frightened...

In fact, to be honest, it's not that Tong's mother has never doubted the relationship between the two children. Their attitude towards each other also made Tong's mother see some clues, but after thinking about it, she felt that she was too sensitive. After all, the two children live in In the same room, people who get along day and night can't be like enemies...

In addition, she had a very good impression of Yan Ziqian, handsome, talkative, and upright. Although Yan's father had told her that Yan Ziqian had a trick of 'hot temper' that she had never seen before, but No one is perfect, Mama Tong understands this very well, so Mama Tong is very satisfied with this new son...

What's more, Tong Yu has told Tong's mother countless times that he and Yan Ziqian help each other in study and life, and Tong Yu's condition has stabilized and gradually improved. Let Tong's mother dispel all the previous worries, and she is more at ease about Tong Yu and Yan Ziqian's relationship...

But today, when Tong's mother accidentally pierced the window paper, she slumped on the bed as if she had been sealed when she learned the truth, and her mood could no longer be calm...

Mother Tong has always deliberately avoided the private space of the two children. Even if she accidentally broke the hidden secret of the two children at this moment, she can still tell you frankly that she did not mean it...

Tomorrow is the Labor Day holiday. There is a project in Yan's father's office that needs to be completed tonight. Although Tong's mother is not yet "heavy", as an older pregnant woman, Yan's father is holding her in the palm of her hand, so Yan's father was firmly opposed to Tong's mother taking a taxi home alone, and was extremely stubborn to call Yan Ziqian to explain...

But Naihe Tong's mother has an idea. She just sent a WeChat message to Yan's father saying "wait for him to get off work", and then took the ingredients prepared in the store and took a taxi home. ..

Everything Mama Tong did was for the sake of the two children. There was no late study tonight, and the two children arrived home at about six o'clock in the evening. Father Yan didn't know when it would end, so the two children could not be allowed to go home. Still hungry at home?Or do you secretly cook instant noodles to satisfy your hunger like that night?

'No, absolutely not...'

So Mama Tong went home full of anticipation and wanted to surprise the two children, and told them that they would be able to eat steaming meals soon. The evening menu was sweet and sour pork ribs, shredded pork with Beijing sauce, shredded skin and minced garlic. Lan Hua, she also bought two boxes of strawberries, four dragon fruits, and opened a durian at the fruit stall downstairs...

After returning home, Mother Tong also acted lightly. The doors of the two children's rooms were ajar. After she put the things in the kitchen, she instinctively knocked on the door, but unexpectedly, no one responded in the room...

Mama Tong pushed open the door with doubts on her face, but saw Simba sitting at the door of the bathroom, as if guarding something, the voice from the bathroom told Mama Tong the answer when she knocked on the door but no one answered. ..

But despite this, Tong's mother still didn't think too much about it. What could the problem be explained by two children going to the toilet together?It can only mean that one of them can't hold back...

She reached out and touched Simba's chin twice. Mother Tong was just about to quietly exit the room of the two children, but who knew that the unsuspecting words that broke into her ears gave her a blow, making her instantly paralyzed before stepping forward again. don't move...

Yes, she heard it, the kind with all the pinna...

She heard Yan Ziqian call Tong Yu 'daughter-in-law', and said that if he left Tong Yu one day, he would definitely die...

She also heard Tong Yu call Yan Ziqian 'Brother Qian', and promised him that only death can separate them in this life...

Tong's mother understood in an instant, all kinds of unscrupulousness in the past were tumbling before her eyes, and the panic in her eyes dominated her eyes. She really couldn't accept the cruel truth that the two children accidentally told her...

The four eyes met, Yan Ziqian's body temperature seemed to be taken away in an instant. He watched the crystal tears fall from Tong's mother's eyes, and took a deep breath. This time, he would never be able to remain calm again. ...

The moment Tong Yu saw Tong's mother, he was at a loss for what to do. With a pale face, he grabbed the hem of Yan Ziqian's coat. To be honest, the scene at this time was something he had never imagined, there was not a single frame... So he was forced to accept the situation in front of him without any psychological preparation...

The reaction of the two children seemed to confirm the answer in Tong's mother's heart again. She lowered her head and forced herself to calm down, then raised her trembling hand and pointed in the direction of the two children, and said softly, "Tong Yu, you Come out with me..."

Tong Yu's eyes were filled with tears, he turned his head slightly to look at Yan Ziqian, his eyes were full of panic and helplessness...

Yan Ziqian took a panoramic view of Tong Yu's face full of fear and helplessness, he retracted his gaze and cast his slightly guilty eyes on Tong's mother, raised his hand and swept back Tong Yu to protect him behind him , and then said with a nervous mood, "Aunt Fang, we..."

"Ziqian, don't talk..." Tong's mother's tone was very firm. The hand that had just fallen back to her side was tightly grasping the bed sheet, and she let out a ruthless breath. Sternly urged, "Tong Yu, didn't you hear what I said?"

Tong Yu's whole body trembled violently, Mama Tong's tone made him feel both familiar and strange, he was flustered and thought about it carefully, it has been five full years since he heard this tone last time...

A bright red beating heart was throbbing in his chest, Tong Yu understood the sharpness in Tong's mother's eyes, he slowly lowered his head, and the hand that was holding tightly to the hem of Yan Ziqian's coat quietly climbed onto his wrist , with a little force and a gentle pinch, it was an confession, and when I raised my head again, the tears that filled my eyes had long since disappeared...

He didn't cry, the tears didn't fall down the corners of his eyes, he was sure; this time, he let the tears flow to his heart, as a witness of his struggle to build a future with Yan Ziqian...

In fact, he has never really worked hard for anything in his life, and even the achievements that everyone admires are just taken for granted. He has lived for 20 years, and all the crazy things he has done are related to Yan Ziqian, so this time he I still have to pour out all the courage I have accumulated over the years for Yan Ziqian...

Once, Liu Guohui and Ma Chao had Yan Ziqian stand in his way; later, Li Huizi broke Xiang Rongxin's game for him; today, facing Tong's mother who is full of surprise and disappointment, Tong Yu can no longer rely on anyone... .

Success or failure depends on one action, therefore, he must go all out...

Bypassing Yan Ziqian, Tong Yu and Tong's mother exchanged glances, then followed her staggering steps out of the room...

Yan Ziqian followed behind Tong Yu, but when he was about to step out of the room, Tong Yu turned around and gave him a restraining look...

"Stay by yourself for a while..." He only said so calmly, and then closed the door of the room...

Yan Ziqian heard Tong Yu's words clearly, and saw the courage and determination conveyed by his eyes. It seemed to be a declaration, a signal to inform Yan Ziqian of victory in advance...

But where did Tong Yu's self-confidence come from?This is a type of question that Yan Ziqian has never encountered before, and Tong Yu has never taught him how to solve it...

Quietly retreating to the bed, the room was eerily quiet at this time, Yan Ziqian sat paralyzed on the ground, hesitating for a moment before daring to release the stale air suppressed in his chest...

To a certain extent, Yan Ziqian is much more magnanimous than Tong Yu. At least he has imagined the scene that happened today, but he guessed the beginning but not the end, because he never dared to imagine that Tong's mother was in the world. He didn't dare to take the risk of Tong's mother being disappointed in him to deal with this matter. Even thinking about it in his heart, he felt that he couldn't accept it...

Tong's mother is his Yan Ziqian's mother, he has already recognized this in his heart, and it has nothing to do with Tong Yu...

Therefore, compared to Yan's father, Yan Ziqian is more afraid that there will be a gap between him and Tong's mother...

Holding the two long bent legs with both hands, Yan Ziqian's big enviable eyes stared at the door. He is a man, and he is a pure man who can't hide his affairs and suppress his anger. , but today he didn't even have the courage to open the door in front of him...

If there is a multiple-choice question between Tong Mama and Tong Yu, it is like a trade-off between family affection and love, so how will Yan Ziqian choose?

He didn't know, and he never thought about it...

And in the room separated by a wall, Tong Yu, who was standing in front of Tong's mother, seemed to have finalized the answer in his heart early in the morning. He never liked single-choice questions, and the problem in front of him at this time did not have only one answer...

The panic in Tong Mama's smiling eyes had long since disappeared, she cast her eyes on Tong Yu's calm face, she pursed her lips, and then asked hesitantly, "When did it start?"

By now, Tong Yu knew that there was no possibility of hiding it anymore, and of course, he didn't want to hide it either.

"Last year..." He responded very calmly, with a very calm expression on his face, this time he unexpectedly did not look at Mama Tong, he was afraid that he would soften his heart...

Hearing Tong Yu's answer, Tong's mother instinctively thought for a moment, and then asked again, "Did you know each other before?"

"Not really..." Tong Yu gritted her molars, swallowed her saliva to support her determination again, and then hesitated to give Tong's mother a slightly contradictory answer, "We met once before, but he didn't remember me..."

After listening to his answer, Tong's mother frowned severely, closed her eyes and forced herself to suppress the anger that had already risen to her throat, and then said to Tong Yu in an almost warning tone, "I don't care what you have before. Yuan Yuan, Tong Yu, I just hope you can understand that you are all boys..."

"What's wrong with the boy?" Tong Yu raised his eyebrows and looked at the tears reappearing in Tong's mother's eyes, her eyes were full of determination, "Mom, I'm not gay, but I like Yan Ziqian, and I like him. It doesn't matter if it's male or female..."

Tong's mother's cheeks were instantly covered with hot tears, and her tightly clasped hands had already turned white. She bit her lips hard to prevent the anger from breaking through the shackles of reason, and then choked up and reminded, "But Ziqian is yours. younger brother..."

"He's not my brother..." Tong Yu's tone was so resolute that even he was afraid, he looked straight at Mama Tong's eyes full of despair, and then added very frankly, "He is my boyfriend. ..”

"What did you say?" Mother Tong actually heard it clearly, but from the bottom of her heart she never believed that such firm and decisive words came from Tong Yu's mouth.

"I said he was my boyfriend..." Tong Yu's attitude was also very clear, he would never give in when it came to dealing with him and Yan Ziqian...

"Tong Yu, Tong Yu, Tong Yu..."

Mother Tong's cry was filled with the taste of death, and the sobs filled the whole room. When she heard her son's words that shocked her again, the strongest part of her willpower was instantly crushed, and her heart The sense of powerlessness came without warning, and this wave of pain caused her heart to suffer a terrible defeat. She dared not touch any extreme ways of venting lightly, and could only call this name that made her most proud over and over again in an attempt to numb herself, but In the end, the pain in my heart could not be relieved a little bit...

Tong Yu, who was tormented by the heartbreaking crying, couldn't open his eyes. He frowned fiercely, and before the overwhelming self-blame swept his heart, he looked at Tong's mother with already mottled tearful eyes, and then fell down hard. Big determination usually kneels in front of Tong's mother...

Still staring at Tong's mother's eyes that kept weeping, and covering her slightly trembling hands with her fists clenched until the knuckles turned white, Tong Yu sobbed hard twice, and said in a voice full of longing, "Mom, I know You are for my own good, everything you do since childhood is for my good, you gave birth to me, brought me to Beijing, worked hard to make a living, including helping me fill the vacancy of father’s love, all these are for my good ;But everything Yan Ziqian did was for me, he helped me get ahead, brought me into his circle, made me friends, took care of my mood..." After Tong Yu finished speaking, her eyes flashed. The bright phoenix eyes finally burst, he pursed his lips to suppress his crying, and then asked tremblingly, "Mom, wouldn't it be nice for one more person to love me with you?"

"Mom is doing this to let you live a normal life, not like this..."

"Am I not living a normal life now?" Tong Yu's face turned pale for an instant, he slightly raised his head and looked at Tong's mother, and after swallowing his saliva, he still let the tears on his face flow freely. But the words in the room are no longer gentle, "Is it the life of a normal person like before? I dare not say anything, I dare not see people, I dare not resist when I am bullied; I am bored in the room, thinking wildly, talking There is no one who is in the heart, watching the sun rise and set with wide eyes every day, and then shed tears alone at night... Is this the life you said a normal person should live?"

Seeing Tong Yu struggling to hold back tears, Mama Tong felt a surge of pain in her heart. All of Tong Yu's sad experiences from childhood to adulthood were flipping through her mind like comic strips. Mama Tong let out a hard breath and clenched her fists Finally, he relaxed his hand, gently stroking his trembling hair, the child in front of him who was suffering from coercion and pain before he was born has already cried into tears, the tears covered his face, but there was no sound. ..

Seeing that Mama Tong didn't give him any response, Tong Yu bit his lips, as if his emotions were instantly ignited, he held Mama Tong's hand tightly, and the sharp light in his eyes hit Mama Tong's eyelids unscrupulously." Mom, I know you like Yan Ziqian very much, and Yan Ziqian really treats you like a mother, otherwise he wouldn't treat me so well, I really like Yan Ziqian, I want to be with Yan Ziqian... .”

To be honest, Tong Yu's words, "Yan Ziqian really treats you as his mother" made Tong Yu's heart soften instantly. She closed her eyes and tried to digest the words, then raised her eyebrows and looked at Tong Yu's expectant response. "Mom really likes Ziqian very much. Mom also knows that Ziqian treats you very well. These mothers can see it in her eyes, but you two..."

"Why can a girl marry a boy and have children, but it is so difficult for two boys to be together?"

Tong Yu finally smelled a hint of concession in Mama Tong's words, he knew very well what Mama Tong cared about most, and this was the reason why he was able to challenge Mama Tong so confidently without probing.. .

Having said that, Tong Yu finally dared to sob slightly presumptuously, and then added in an almost pleading tone, "Mom, I don't want to meet people like those two brothers and sisters again, and I don't want to commit suicide because of them again. I went through so much torture to meet Yan Ziqian, I don't want to give up on him, and I don't know if he will save me again after I give up on him..."

'Save again? '

Mother Tong's heart trembled suddenly after hearing this sentence, she widened her tear-stained smiling eyes to the maximum, her face was full of inconceivable...

Tong Yu had a panoramic view of Tong's mother's state, and this reaction was completely expected by him. The turbulent heart in his chest finally fell to the ground, and he sighed and told the truth calmly." Mom, I committed suicide once, it was Yan Ziqian who saved me..."

Tong Yu's words contained two truths, but for Tong's mother, she only knew one of them.

Surprised, he frowned and thought quietly, then looked at Tong Yu tentatively and asked, "Tong Yu, did he tell you that he saved you?"

Tong Yu frowned suddenly after hearing Tong's mother's question. He felt that Tong's mother had grasped the wrong point, because he never knew that Tong's mother knew about his suicide, let alone that Tong's mother had told Yan Ziqian Mentioned about his suicide...

Prompted by the suspicion in Tong's mother's eyes, Tong Yu pursed her lips, and responded as a matter of course, "No, he doesn't remember saving me at all, he has no impression of me at all, I always remember him in my heart ..."

After hearing Tong Yu's answer, Tong's mother hesitated and pursed her lips, but after thinking for a moment, she still asked, "Tong Yu, what did those brothers and sisters do to force you to commit suicide? Can you tell mom?"

Tong Yu instinctively dodged Mama Tong's eyes, and unconsciously bit his teeth hard on his lips. He reached out to wipe the teardrops from the corner of his mouth and seemed at a loss. , he didn't want to recall, even though Yan Ziqian appeared that night, even though what pleased him the most was the moment when he fell in love with Yan Ziqian...

But until now, he had to let the memory buried deep in his mind play back, because Tong Mama's question was something he expected, and he was waiting for this question, wasn't he?

Regarding this game between mother and child, Tong's mother's attitude will undoubtedly become the unspoken motivation between Tong Yu and Yan Ziqian...or resistance...

Tong Yu knew that he only had this one chance, and the so-called strike while the iron is hot meant just that, he wanted Mama Tong to recognize the relationship between the two, and he wanted to do it willingly, as a blessing to make this relationship more stable...

But how exactly?

That's right, just two words, 'weakness'...

Just like how he dealt with Pei Yumeng that time, Tong Yu grasped Mama Tong's weakness without any hesitation this time, and this weakness did not require any probing. Tong Yu already knew what this weakness was...

That's why there is this slightly lonely duel in front of me, because Tong Yu has a clear goal, but Tong's mother is kept in the dark...

She might never have imagined that the son of a school bully, who was always harmless to humans and animals, dug a bottomless pit for her at her feet...

And at the moment when the first pit of soil was dug up, Mama Tong was doomed to enter the pit without hesitation, Tong Yu understood what position his 'weakness' occupied in Mama Tong's heart, this was his confidence, It was also the reason why he announced the victory of the game to Yan Ziqian in advance...

Trying to clear up his emotions, Tong Yu looked at Tong's mother with extreme aggrievedness, but unexpectedly cried out. After sucking his nose hard, he choked up and said, "Mom, don't you hope that I can be better? But there is no word for Ziqian. No, I can't eat without him, I can't sleep, I don't want to live the old life anymore, the life without Yan Ziqian is meaningless, it's no different from death to me..."

Mother Tong didn't dare to take a breath after hearing this. The child crying in front of her eyes had already become a poor person who was humbled to the extreme because of sincere feelings, and Tong Yu's slightly aggressive threat had also become A confession of true feelings.

Mother Tong couldn't see Tong Yu being wronged, just like Tong Yu couldn't see Yan Ziqian being wronged.

Tong Yu can go crazy for Yan Ziqian without any scruples; similarly, Tong's mother can also take a step back for Tong Yu...or more than one step...

It was from Mama Tong's eyes that he could read some distress, Tong Yu licked his lips, trying to get angry, but still let the hot tears cover his whole face, he raised his eyebrows and eyes to let Mama Tong see clearly, Then he continued to beg bitterly, but this time his tone was full of humbleness...

"Mom, I have been tortured for more than ten years, whether it is my cousin's family, school violence, or depression. In short, I have never really lived these years; I didn't really live until the moment I met Yan Ziqian. Come alive, I have tasted what it is like to be alive, I want to live now, I want to live well, Mom, please let me live, I beg you..."

Seeing the child lying on her lap crying and trembling, Mother Tong felt that tens of thousands of arrows were flying back and forth in her heart. Unable to bear the pain, she lowered her head and caressed Tong Yu, and the moment she burst into tears, she was defenseless. Falling, those broken beads were all hidden between Tong Yu's trembling hair, none of them could be spared...

There is no mother in this world who doesn't want her child to be good, but compared to that, she hopes her child can live safely and smoothly...

In fact, in these years, she has fantasized countless times about Tong Yu having a successful career, getting married and having children. Thinking about it seriously, this should be the scene that every mother dreams of, but when Tong Yu cried and begged to let his feelings go, At that time, the fantasy in her mind was completely shattered, and the heart that kept throbbing in her chest also fell to the bottom...

Her child said he wanted to live and begged himself to let him live...

'But wasn't he the one who gave him life?Has this kindness turned into a sin? '

No, it's actually not the case. Before the anger and grievance dissipated completely, Tong's mother understood her son's intentions. All of this was just a trick played by Tong Yu for the hope in his heart. Yan Ziqian's feelings are injected with the final strength, that's all...

She wants her child to live the life she expects. There is no doubt that this needs to be fulfilled by her, but this kind of fulfillment is not the same as the creator of the world. Being condescending never belongs to Tong Yu, but she does not want her child either. Lower your posture, let alone her child humbled into the mud...

Tong Yu's words were like a warning, and they also sounded the alarm bell in Tong's mother's ears. The bell made Tong's mother instantly understand that the concept of the so-called "normal life" is not the only way of life; The settings can only be described as 'universal'...

The city of Beijing is so big, and she has never seen any messy people in the shop for so many years. She has already seen it, not to mention that the person who is kneeling in front of her and crying until she can't cry is her own son. Kneeling before, and now kneeling herself again, this state can't help but make Tong's mother reflect on how incompetent she is as a mother to make a thin child so humble...

She really wants her child to be good, but this kind of "goodness" should not be deprived of feelings as a medium, let alone at the cost of losing feelings. Flattery, that kind of 'nice' she doesn't want...

She hopes that her son's smile is radiant and from the heart. Compared with these, it doesn't matter whether her son's other half is male or female...

Tong's mother pursed her lips, gently held Tong Yu's tear-filled little face, then raised her eyebrows and said in a commanding tone, "You must not let Uncle Yan know about this matter..."

After Tong Yu heard Tong's mother's words, the cloud of worry between his brows finally dissipated a little, and the heart that had been hanging in the air in his chest finally fell to the ground. This confrontation was too risky, and every word he said was crazy.

Mother Tong's words are like a tacit consent, this is the only way she can preserve all the intricate relationships in this family...

Tong Yu won, and from a certain point of view, Tong's mother also won...

But this victory also belongs to a third person...

In fact, Yan Ziqian won because of his "kindness" to Tong Yu. As Tong Yu himself said, Tong's mother's way of protecting Tong Yu was "one size fits all". Yu is kept in a greenhouse, and being untouchable will only make Tong Yu more sensitive;

But Yan Ziqian brought Tong Yu into his circle, let him make like-minded friends, let him learn to smile brightly, let him experience wanton crying, and let him understand the meaning of choice and resistance...

Yan Ziqian found the direction of life for Tong Yu, and Tong Yu also warmed Yan Ziqian's almost broken heart, allowing him to finally see the ray of light in his life where he could see the end at a glance...