Survival Paradox [Infinite]

Wei Chi and Wei Yuan took the subway to Sanqing University.

On the subway, Wei Yuan noticed that Wei Chi seemed to be looking back all the time, he was a little concerned, and looked back a few times: "Brother, what's the matter?"

Wei Chi said, "Someone is following us."

Wei Yuan turned his head to take a closer look, Wei Chi tugged at his wrist: "Don't move too much."

Wei Yuan found a boy.

In the blink of an eye, I didn't know why, and I noticed the boy.

With an idea, he held up his mobile phone as a mirror to fiddle with his bangs, and observed the boy through the reflection of the black screen—the screen was too small to see too much detail, and he could only vaguely see the boy's figure and clothes, thin and small, Standing in the crowd unremarkably, sneaking towards them from time to time.

Is he following?

Wei Yuan approached Wei Chi and asked in a low voice, "Is that person following?"

Wei Chi raised his eyebrows: "Did you see that?"

Wei Yuan said: "It should be..."

"I don't know. I just feel like someone is staring at me... I haven't seen who it is yet." Wei Chi said, "Since you have seen it, pay attention and keep an eye on him."

Wei Yuan said in his heart that the boy looked like I could hit ten with one, and he patted his chest and promised: "Don't worry bro."

Yuan Qi started to keep up with them from the Second City Hospital.

Since seeing them in the restaurant yesterday, he couldn't calm down in his heart. He always felt that he had met those two people before, and they were very important people.

His grandfather came to China by smuggling from Indonesia, and his parents passed away in an accident before they got Chinese nationality. He was too young at that time, and he couldn’t remember the sadness and despair. Everything was just like a nightmare, blurred and blurred. fracture.

Grandpa and grandson are living stumblingly with their pensions.Grandpa is a very optimistic person. He never let him be wronged, and he never taught him to feel sorry for himself. When he was old, he went to work on the construction site and offered him to the Academy of Fine Arts.

Grandpa didn't tell him anything, but he knew that he was different from others since he was sensible. In order not to worry his grandpa, he learned his grandpa's special skill of "not saying anything" at an early age.

Being ridiculed by others for broken shoes and old clothes.

Not to mention being ridiculed as a little dwarf and a little bitch.

Not to mention being bullied.

He didn't say "not Chinese" when he was called... because he wasn't either.

He grew up numb and gritted his teeth in those laughter.

When he was in high school, everyone around him was busy with his studies, and he gradually grew up, so he rarely encountered the things he encountered before.

He also met Dandan and got together with Dandan.

Dandan is their class flower, he doesn't know why Dandan is with him.

Dandan is beautiful, comes from a good family background, spends a lot of money, dresses stylishly, is very talkative in grades, and almost everyone knows her.

He followed her like a puppy and felt happy too.

Open an umbrella when going out, pick up water after class, carry bags on weekends, good morning and good night, and don’t dare to leave behind any holiday gifts.

On call, on the saddle and behind the horse.

In fact, he never knew why Dandan was with him, and he couldn't even think about it. From childhood to adulthood, there were too many things that he couldn't understand, so he simply stopped thinking about it.

Then one day, he thought he probably knew.

That day Dandan and her friends went to KTV to sing, and he took care of her back and forth as usual. When those people were drunk, he heard someone say: "Dan, you have a puppy Bar?"

He glanced at the man, who was sixteen or seventeen years old, with dazzling fluorescent green eyeshadow.He recognized that it was Dandan's best friend named Ye Zi.

He ignored it, turned his head and asked Dandan softly, do you want some hot water?

Another boy laughed and said, "Fuck, what a dog."

He remained unmoved.

For a long time, maybe because he has no parents, maybe because of poverty, maybe because of his nationality, he has always had a deep-seated shivering in front of these people. The only way he can resist this feeling is to numb his heart and make his heart become To be numb, to be humble, to be shameless, can reduce a lot of pain.

Looking at my grandfather, I know that life is very difficult, and self-esteem is worthless in front of life.

"Puppy." Dandan leaned on his shoulder suddenly, smiled softly, then stroked his chin with a finger, he felt the cold and frivolous finger, and heard her voice against his ear, "Call twice to listen."

He looked around and saw that everyone was looking at him.He barked twice, and everyone laughed.

But he feels fine.

Dandan is so beautiful, his family is so rich and powerful, and he is nothing, what can she fancy him?That's all there is to it.

He knew that Dandan's father was a great official, and he felt that this might be the only chance in his life for his grandfather to become a Chinese citizen.

These humiliating moments don't happen every day, and he doesn't care much about them.

In private, Dandan is still very cute, and the life of falling in love is still very sweet.

He went to the toilet on the way, and Ye Zi stood beside him when he came out to wash his hands, and looked at him with her eyelids painted fluorescent green. That look made him feel uncomfortable, but he still smiled subconsciously and asked: " What's wrong? Is there something on my face?"

Ye Zi said: "One day Dandan doesn't want to play with you anymore, you can find me."

He didn't quite understand: "What are you looking for?"

Ye Zi said, "Be a dog."

For a long time, he felt the shame in the staring eyes of this precocious girl. He clenched his fists tightly, smiled again, and replied, "Hahaha."

"What are you talking about?" Dandan came out of the women's toilet suddenly, "What are you doing?"

He felt his whole body go numb.

Ye Zi said: "Dan, can you borrow your puppy to play for two days?"

"Get out." Dandan gave him a hard look, then turned to Ye Zi, "Don't even think about it."

After that, Dandan let him hang out for half a month.

He begged for forgiveness for half a month, rain or shine.

He couldn't help it, it had become a habit.

But even so, he feels that life is good. Compared with his parents who died early, compared with many other people, he is very satisfied with being able to eat and clothe warmly in his life, and to get Chinese nationality for his grandfather.

But then... He seemed to have encountered something, met someone.

At that time, Dandan had acne on his forehead, was in a bad mood, and had a big temper. He didn't say a word, so Dandan broke up.

"Let's divide it." He had this thought countless times, and it happened this time too, but every time he bowed his head and apologized.

Still this time.

He inquired about the number of the best Chinese medicine expert in the city, prescribed a conditioning prescription for Dandan, sent it to Dandan, and learned that Dandan already had a new boyfriend.

But he didn't seem very sad.

He felt strange.

He has obviously been with Dandan for five or six years, and he has already expected their future life. He feels that he has seen the future of 50 years after marrying her...

But after the sudden loss, he didn't seem very sad.

He really loved Dandan, she was so bright and proud, she stretched out her snow-white, delicate and well-maintained hands to him like a drowned puppy, and gave him the care and love that are rare in his youth, Although that kind of love is not pure, even poisonous, but he still enjoys it.

But why... doesn't he seem very sad?

It seems that...he met something, something more important than these love affairs...it made him feel that compared with that thing, love seemed completely worthless.

But he actually forgot about that.

He seemed to have been admitted to the hospital due to some sudden illness, and when he woke up, he only saw his grandfather's old face.He found that his grandfather had more white hair than black hair, and he was really very old.

For a long time, he thought that his grandfather's obsession was to obtain Chinese nationality, but that day his grandfather held his hand, sobbed, and said over and over again: You are good.

For some reason, he suddenly felt a burst of relief.

Without Dandan, it seemed that he would never be able to get that nationality, but he seemed very fortunate that there was a kind of... the heartfelt joy of the rest of his life after the catastrophe, and the pain caused by the breakup disappeared illusoryly.

Obviously so.

He remembered that this was clearly the case.

But for some reason, after he became a volunteer in the Science and Technology Museum and taught the children a day, he suddenly received a call from Dandan.

The content of the call made him very confused - Dandan told him to go to a certain KTV to pick her up, his tone and attitude were as natural as when the two were still together.

He never knew how to reject others, especially Dandan, so he went again in a daze.

On the way, he looked through the chat records between himself and Dandan, and the more he read, the more confused he became.

He found that he didn't seem to break up with Dandan—it should be said that he still broke up. Looking at the timeline, it seemed that after that breakup, he begged her to get back together again.After begging many times, buying many gifts, and transferring accounts to her many times, she finally "reluctantly" agreed to get back together.

But... he doesn't remember doing this?

He also...doesn't have that much money at all?

What is the situation?

Is it a dream?

Is it a dream or a nightmare?

Or is it just a dream?

He is just like this, timid and weak, he has no courage to fight against life, nor the courage to fight against Dandan. she.

He faintly felt that his life was not like this, but he only dared to keep it in his heart.

Until he saw those two men.

All the confusion, hesitation and depression before turned into boiling blood, pounding his heart and sending out shocking echoes in his body.

He realized that what he had felt before was real, that he had really, had been through something majestic and brave, had been truly at peace.

Once this feeling is confirmed, it will never be forgotten.

He began to recall frantically, searching for evidence and traces of what happened in his memory.

He didn't think of anything, and wandered in the street in a daze. When he looked up, he found himself at the gate of the Second City Hospital.

Then, turning around like fate, he saw those two people.

He followed them all the way to Sanqing University.

He struggled and hesitated all the way, how to talk to them, how to tell his illusory feelings...

When he entered the gate of the school, he finally finished his manuscript, gritted his teeth and clenched his fist, and ran up.

As soon as he took a step, someone grabbed his shoulder.

He turned around and saw Dandan's face.

He felt the hairs all over his body explode.