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"Xu Yan, is this normal? The surface is so sunny, but the back is so sad?"

It was difficult for Xu Yan to answer this question, he didn't know what the normal standard should be...

So he asked Gu Manwen, "What do you think is normal?"

"I……"

Gu Manwen realized that she shouldn't discuss human nature with a philosophy teacher, Xu Yan's casual question made her unable to figure it out...

She replied according to her own thoughts, "If it is not extreme, it is normal. This person obviously occupies the two extremes of optimism and pessimism. I think he is a bit abnormal."

Xu Yan denied her answer, "No, according to your standards, the mentality of this victim is normal."

He bent down to observe the face and expression of the victim, his lowered head made it impossible for him to observe the complete emotions. From the current point of view, the victim seemed to have only unstoppable sorrow and annoyance...

But... Xu Yan's intuition didn't tell him so.

Song Ting came to rescue him in time, and gave Xu Yan a camera to take pictures by himself, just like the previous solution.

After choosing a few photos with good angles and carefully observing them, Xu Yan gradually got a better understanding of the psychological state of the victim, and he told Gu Manwen more confidently, "He is not extreme, but occasionally struggles between two emotions. Just like at this time, he is in an emotional dilemma, but in the end he will choose his true self."

Gu Manwen, who was searching the bed, asked again, "What is this person's real self like?"

Xu Yan replied, "I believe he is an optimistic person. Despite the tears, his inner determination has not changed."

Song Ting searched the clothes in the closet, but found nothing.He turned to the items on the desk. The stacked books and notebooks were not neatly arranged, and there were some messy things on the desk.Seeing him staring at the tabletop for a while, Xu Yan asked, "The tabletop seems to be the cluttered place in the whole room. Could it be the place he often occupies?"

"should be."

Song Ting flipped through the books held by the victim, and there were dense notes on almost every page.Based on the information in other books, Song Ting speculated, "The victim should have been preparing for the postgraduate entrance examination."

"Entrance examination!" Gu Manwen's heart trembled a few times when she heard these two words.The postgraduate entrance examination is a nightmare for her...

"No wonder he looks in pain... Maybe it's not the first time he took the exam..."

Xu Yan replied, "Hmm..."

Song Ting was flipping through other books. Hearing the continuous flipping of books, Xu Yan tried his best to piece together the complete character of the victim...

At this moment, Fu Ye said, "He wanted to take the exam for A University, but he failed the exam three times."

Xu Yan immediately added an unyielding personality to the victim, and said, "Finance at University A is difficult to pass, and I don't know what his original education is... The Fourth World War is not something ordinary people can bear."

Fu Ye released a chat record, "Let's take a look first, the conversation before time stopped gave a lot of information."

When the lengthy chat records were projected in the air, Song Ting also found the victim's ID card among the piles of books.

He read, "Name Li Mingyi, age 32, registered residence is Jianshan, District C."

32 years old, World War II, rented house... All these information are mixed together, and Li Mingyi can't get rid of the title of loser no matter what.

Fu Ye said, "If a poor person learns finance, either he is very talented and relies on his own strength and education to gain a foothold in this field, or he cannot make ends meet and is forced to turn to other fields."

His words may be a bit too absolute, but they also reflect reality.Xu Yan wondered if Li Mingyi also understood this reality...

Xu Yan tried to find the answer in the chat records.

【WeChat】

I am the strongest in moving bricks: Are you still planning to apply for A University?

Ming Yi: Yes, let’s try one last time.

I am the strongest in moving bricks: Ming Yi, you have been unemployed for two years, what are you thinking?Not ready for work?What if you pass the exam?

Ming Yi: I have a part-time job.

I am the strongest in moving bricks: How much do you earn as a part-time job?I just can't figure it out. It turns out that the work in the bank is a bit tiring. You need to attract customers every day, but the salary is not bad.

I am the strongest in moving bricks: Even if you graduate from graduate school, you may not necessarily have a higher salary.

I am the strongest in moving bricks: Some of our peers have bought cars and houses, and you still live in the basement of Jianshan... Don’t you feel a gap in your heart?

Ming Yi: How could there be no gap?But I failed three times, why can't I try the last time?

I am the strongest in moving bricks: Those who fought three times and four times were all rich in their families. Is your family rich?

Ming Yi: At least I didn't let my parents feel wronged, at most I lived a little bit more wronged.

I am the strongest in moving bricks: Then your parents will be happy to see you like this?

Ming Yi: I don't want to discuss this issue anymore, it's my own decision.

I am the strongest in moving bricks: I am afraid that you are too stubborn, and it is not a good thing to regard education as an obsession.

I am the strongest mover: Based on your last score, it is more than enough to apply for C University, so do you have to go to Area A?

Ming Yi: I don't want to go to District A, I just want to go to University A.I will not leave my hometown.

I am the strongest in moving bricks: Then it is even more meaningless for you to go to graduate school there.

Ming Yi: Why do you have to tell me the meaning of graduate school?I just want to fulfill my dream of going to graduate school and prove to others that a person like me who is not smart can be admitted to the best school.

Ming Yi: I just want to prove that I am not stupid.

I am the strongest at moving bricks: But your current behavior is very stupid in the eyes of others.

I am the strongest in moving bricks: Ming Yi, we have known each other for so many years, and I regard you as my best friend.I really can't bear to see you live like this.

Ming Yi: I have my persistence, I don't want to regret it when I am 40 years old.

I am the strongest at moving bricks: hey.

I am the strongest in moving bricks: How can there be no regrets in life?Now you have lost so much time for the postgraduate entrance examination, don't you feel regretful?

……

After that, Li Mingyi stopped replying, and Xu Yan thought that he didn't know how to reply...

His friends are trying to persuade the 'hard-nosed' him to turn around and hope he can have a better life.

However, the future and distance that Li Mingyi wants are beyond the comprehension of this friend...

Xu Yan said the answer he found, "Li Mingyi understands the cruelty of reality, but he is still an idealist... What he pursues is not wealth, but his own glory."

own glory.

This answer touched everyone present.

What Li Mingyi wanted was so illusory, yet so real.

Xu Yan said, "He doesn't want to be so ordinary in his life, and wants to achieve a goal that an ordinary person can't achieve... But as long as he has this achievement, he will be willing to be ordinary."

Gu Manwen gradually understood what Xu Yan meant, and said, "It's a bit like a rebellion against reality."

Xu Yan affirmed, "Yes."

Gu Manwen rummaged through the entire bed, but found a forgotten draft under the bed.

She held a dirty draft book and looked through it with little interest. "It gives me a headache when I see mathematical formulas... There should be no information in it."

Gu Manwen wanted to answer Xu Yan's doubts more, "Why does he live in a rented house? Isn't his home building a mountain?"

"I suspect that he has concealed from his parents that he has resigned. In order to pretend that he is still working in the bank, he is working part-time to save money. No matter how wronged he is, he will not let his elderly parents be wronged."

"It turned out to be like this..." Gu Manwen could only sigh with emotion, "It's not easy."

Xu Yan picked up the draft book that Gu Manwen left on the ground, and seeing the mathematical formulas, he also had a headache, so he handed the draft book to the group leader next to him.

"Leader, let's take a look."

Song Ting took it directly, and quickly flipped through the scrawled draft.He had roughly finished flipping through the books on the table, and there was nothing extra to gain. Instead, the dirty draft book that Xu Yan stuffed gave him some information.

"Li Mingyi's mathematics is very average, and his thinking in solving problems is too rigid." Finance majors have high requirements for mathematics... Song Ting actually wanted to say that Li Mingyi is not suitable for this major.

math...

Xu Yan felt the same way as Li Mingyi again. He was once deeply troubled by mathematics... What Song Ting said about Li Mingyi now was what Xu Yan's math teacher had said about him.

During that time, Xu Yan really thought he was stupid.

Doing the questions day and night, but getting a few questions wrong... That kind of frustration is very torturous.

Xu Yan walked up to Fu Ye's side and asked, "Can you see Li Mingyi's preliminary test scores? He has been failing the exam. Could it be that mathematics is stumping him?"

"Let me look for it."

The search here is still fruitless, and Song Ting urged him on the other side, "Fu Ye, call up the missing report first."

"it is good."

Searching for people in the database based on their ID numbers was very quick. After Fu Ye retrieved the missing report belonging to Li Mingyi, he looked through Li Mingyi's phone album again.

Dazzling pictures flashed before his eyes, and the virtual computer made his search time-consuming and laborious.

Xu Yan suggested, "Just skip to the date in February."

"Row."

Xu Yan's suggestion was very useful, and Fu Ye finally found a screenshot of his grades on February 2th.

Xu Yan glanced at the math score, 102 points... He asked Fu Ye, "What level does this score belong to?"

Fu Ye answered very directly, "Generally, among those who apply for the A major finance exam, it is considered poor."

As someone who is also poor in mathematics, Xu Yan always felt that Fu Ye was blaming him.

He whispered, "But Li Mingyi has worked very hard."

"Mathematics needs talent even more." Fu Ye's words were purely unintentional, and he didn't expect such a simple sentence to make Xu Yan fall into silence.

Fu Ye ignored the silence of the people around him. He released the missing report and hurriedly reported to the team leader.

"Team leader, look at Li Mingyi's missing report. The person who made the report is Li Mingyi's friend Wang Yuanhang."

Song Ting turned around and browsed through it, and replied, "Well, it means that Li Mingyi's parents didn't notice his disappearance in a short time."

Gu Manwen said, "He doesn't live with his parents, and he probably doesn't have much contact with him, so he won't be found after he's been missing for a while."

After speaking with certainty, she hesitated again, "It's his friend...it should be the same person as the 'I'm the best at moving bricks' in WeChat..."

Fu Ye affirmed, "Yes, I just checked the information."

Xu Yan didn't listen to the conversation of the three of them.

He was immersed in his own world, constantly thinking of Li Mingyi saying that he was stupid, and thinking of Li Mingyi's friends saying that his actions were stupid...

Gradually, Xu Yan felt that the one who was not understood and cared for was himself.

A feeling of loneliness surrounded him.

Over there, Song Ting found out the draft book that Li Mingyi had piled up in the desk drawer, "These are the latest questions he has done, and his thinking has not improved much."

He put the draft back to its original place, and continued to search the other drawers in the desk. He heard Xu Yan ask him, "So Li Mingyi took the test again, did he still get the same score?"

Xu Yan's voice trembled slightly, and he tried to calm himself down, but he couldn't control the unwillingness in his heart no matter what.

Gu Manwen's rummaging and Fu Ye's typing on the keyboard overwhelmed the strangeness in his voice, but Song Ting didn't notice it. He replied, "Xu Yan, he hasn't had time to take the test again."

"What if he can?"

Xu Yan's second questioning made Song Ting aware of his strangeness.Song Ting looked up at the person in the corner... When did he keep his head down?

Song Ting blamed himself for not discovering it earlier, and walked to the corner, stood in front of Xu Yan and told him, "Xu Yan, we are not denying his efforts, nor do we think he is stupid. It's just that he chose something he is not good at. In this case, he will have a hard time."

"Yes."

Xu Yan responded, but the feeling of unwillingness was still stuck in his heart.

Song Ting said, "He has better choices, and other majors in University A are also very good."

"Yes."

However, Xu Yan still wanted to ask for Li Mingyi, "Why do you have to change your choice? Who is going to judge whether it is good or not?"

Even he himself couldn't tell whether he was unwilling for Li Mingyi or for his past self.