depicting time

At night, neither Zhang Junning nor Xu Hengyuan came home.

Xu Yan's dinner was delivered again, but the house was no longer deserted.There is an extra dog, and Song Ting who follows him everywhere.

Their presence can instantly fill an empty space.

Xu Yan has no intention of studying, and just wants to take care of the dog he just brought home.The dirty puppy has changed its appearance after being cleaned up, wagging its tail on the sofa rug and wandering around curiously, smelling everywhere.Xu Yan couldn't take his eyes off it, afraid that if he didn't stare at it, it would bump into it in the next second.

Seeing it scurrying around energetically, Xu Yan was very satisfied, "Unexpectedly, after it was cleaned, it was a pure white dog, and it no longer looks like a stray dog."

The dog food and pet supplies they bought from the pet store had long been piled up in the living room, but Xu Yan remembered that there was one very important thing they hadn't done yet.

Finally he was willing to look away, looked at Song Ting behind him and asked, "Do you want to give it a name?"

Song Ting, who was sitting on the sofa drawing quietly, stopped his pen. He looked down at the time on his watch. It was now 19:10.

Twenty-two hours have passed since he entered this virtual time and space.

Time can no longer be extended.

To Xu Yan's question, Song Ting could only politely give a negative answer, "Don't worry about the name."

"Let's see if it can adapt here."

Xu Yan felt that his consideration was quite reasonable. If the dog didn't adapt to this place, then he should not be the one to choose its name, but the real owner.

So he replied, "Okay." He didn't think about it any more.

He turned his eyes back and continued to look at the young dog. From the perspective behind him that he could not detect, Song Ting, who had been silent for a long time, had been looking at him, and explained to him in his heart, "If you give it a name , I am afraid that it will remain in your heart for a lifetime if it disappears. '

Song Ting knew Xu Yan too well, knowing that he could predict his reaction to everything.Without a name, at least the puppy's existence would be less meaningful in Xu Yan's heart.

So that he readily accepted the parting.

Song Ting finished drawing the painting in his hand, and the first step of the silent spreading plan had been completed.

When he was about to call Xu Yan's name, Xu Yan, who had been staring at the dog for a long time, suddenly had a very novel discovery. He turned around and shared with Song Ting, "It seems to like to smell the carpet. Could it be that there is something on the carpet?" The taste of food?"

Song Ting's thoughts were interrupted by his nonsensical sentence, and he replied with a smile, "Maybe there is."

At this time, Xu Yan's heart was completely tied to the dog, and he didn't notice that the smile on Song Ting's face slowly dissipated, and a faint entanglement and hesitation appeared in his eyes.

Song Ting's choice was very firm. Before Xu Hengyuan and the others came back, he took Xu Yan away as soon as possible.

He had spent a day with Xu Yan when he was 15 years old, making up for many regrets between the two of them... It was time to leave.

But Xu Yan's innocence made Song Ting feel a little bit reluctant.

He closed the drawing book, hid the familiar figure in the painting, looked at the person sitting on the carpet smiling freely, and said in his heart, 'This is what you look like when you are 15 years old. '

Xu Yan, who is 15 years old, has never experienced real pain.

This was the state that Song Ting tried every means to bring Xu Yan back to.However, in reality, he is destined to break away from his 15-year-old innocence, and use his beloved stars, oceans, and philosophical world to tolerate all the pain this world has brought him.

In reality, he is destined to learn to bear parting and sadness.

In a short moment, Song Ting thought a lot.In the end it was the same decision.

'Although I really like you who haven't experienced big storms, this is not your home, let alone our home. '

He said aloud, "Xu Yan, it's time for us to go home."

As soon as his words fell, the person sitting on the carpet turned around with a dull expression, "Aren't we at home?"

Song Ting stopped deceiving him according to his wishes, and said, "You should have had enough fun here, it's time to take you back."

Xu Yan frowned, half understanding, "Go back?"

Song Ting sat down in front of the sofa with him, and after the two got close, he smiled and said bluntly, "I don't think I have ever carefully crafted a deception, I think you have already seen that I am not another you. "

The reason why he told such a lie according to Xu Yan's will was, firstly, to stay in a logical way, and secondly, he found Xu Yan's reaction very interesting. He was extremely curious, and wanted to see how Xu Yan would deal with the two After getting along.

Compared with Song Ting's frank confession, Xu Yan showed resistance, he denied, "No, you are another me, there is no other answer."

After Song Ting had a momentary accident, he quickly understood Xu Yan's mood.

He is afraid of losing.

After understanding everything, Song Ting took his hand, stared at his dodging eyes and said, "Xu Yan, have you ever thought that maybe other answers are better than you imagined."

Xu Yan lowered his gaze, staring at the still carpet reassured him, and asked, "If you're not me, why are you so familiar with me?"

Song Ting replied, "I'm not you, but I can understand yourself better than you."

"Because I love everything about you."

The answer of 'love' is what Song Ting said is a better answer.

Xu Yan was so startled that he stood still in place.

Song Ting took him to recall, "Do you still remember the classmate who was rejected in the second semester of high school?"

"He folded a big jar full of little stars and wanted to give it to the girl he likes. Before that, he had experienced many failed confessions, and he was able to face it calmly. Only the final confession failed, let He cried a lot."

"Because this time, he sent all his heart out, but was ruthlessly returned by the person he liked."

"Looking at his painful appearance, you finally understand what liking is."

The memories of the past were clearly described by Song Ting, Xu Yan was too surprised to speak.

He was silent for a long time, finally found his voice, and asked, "Why do you know?"

Song Ting replied, "Because you told me."

After a memory shock, Song Ting tried to wake him up and said, "Xu Yan, come home with me."

"The place you are in is not reality, everything around you is deceiving your eyes, only I will not deceive you."

Xu Yan couldn't understand, his eyes couldn't see what Song Ting said was false, everything around him was so real.

He asked, "This is not reality, where else could it be?"

Song Ting opened the picture book, "I'll show you some pictures, I hope you can remember them."

In the first few hours, Song Ting tried his best to find memories that could make Xu Yan feel something, so he drew them.

The first one is their safe house, Xu Yan only said it was a little familiar after reading it.

The second picture is their first meeting, and Xu Yan looked at them standing in the heavy snow, without much reaction, saying that he only had a vague feeling.

Only then did Song Ting realize that their first meeting had different weights in their hearts.

The third picture is their studio. Song Ting's painting is relatively simple, but Xu Yan still says it is somewhat familiar.

Song Ting said unexpectedly, "You seem to be more responsive to the memories of our time together."

It shows that Xu Yan prefers to get along with each other more realistically than romantic encounters.

However, these memories are not the pictures that Xu Yan engraved in his heart. Song Ting was more sure about the previous pictures, but in the end he wanted to put all his bets on the last painting.

The last painting depicts the scene where they formally meet.

Song Ting said as a narrator, "Our official meeting is in a sea of ​​stars."

"The calm and composed team leader Song met a very smart team member. After only two weeks of separation, the team leader Song missed him very much and couldn't wait to meet him again. So on the eve of the mission, Team leader Song came to the team member's home by helicopter."

Reminiscing back to the day of the reunion, Song Ting recalled, "On the day of the reunion, the galaxy was brilliant, and the meteors fell, but the splendor of the night sky was far less than your expectant eyes."

When Song Ting mentioned meteors, Xu Yan immediately had the image of meteors streaking across the night sky.

He remembered that he was also at that time, staring into a pair of deep eyes for a long time.

The splendor of the night sky is far inferior to the light of faith shining brightly in his eyes.

On that day, Xu Yan made a decision that he must follow Song Ting's footsteps and take a look at the world he believed in.

And Song Ting also uttered his inner monologue, "On that day, I made a decision. I must keep all the expectations in these eyes, so that the owner of these eyes——Xu Yan can live a life full of hope." in the world."

It turned out that at the same moment of reunion, the moment their eyes made contact, their inner worlds were always silently echoing each other.

Seeing the tears in Xu Yan's eyes, Song Ting knew he had remembered.

Finally found this most precious memory for Xu Yan, in order to wake him up thoroughly, Song Ting repeated exactly what he said that day.

Let time go back to the past in his voice.

"Member 236 Xu Yan, you will officially become a space-time restorer starting today. As the team leader of Group 023, I will lead you to perform the task of space-time restoration and find the static time. Are you ready to take on this task?" An honorable mission."

After waiting for a while, he waited for Xu Yan's reply.

He looked at Xu Yan and returned to the familiar calm and gentle eyes, and heard him reply, "Yes, Team Leader Song."

At the moment when the memory was fully awakened, all the scenes in the virtual space and time disappeared instantly.

They broke all the illusions and returned to the original white world.

Gao Shengcheng waited in this empty world, and when the virtual time and space he built with his own hands was completely shattered, he let out a desperate cry.

"No...Xu Yan, you can't come out!"

When Song Ting returned to him with Xu Yan intact, Gao Shengcheng immediately understood the reason for the failure of the plan.

He angrily accused, "You have cut off my last hope, this is my last hope..."

For Gao Shengcheng's persecution again and again, Xu Yan didn't have much blame in his heart.

He looked at Gao Shengcheng with a little pity in his eyes.

"Gao Shengcheng, I have always sympathized with you and what happened to you. But I sympathize with those victims who lost their lives because of you."

Gao Shengcheng's words of justice were ridiculous to Gao Shengcheng's ears.

Gao Shengcheng laughed loudly, laughing more and more maniacally.No one can really understand what he is laughing at...

When the laughter stopped, he suddenly became quiet.After a long silence, he said, "Who lives and who dies, what does it matter to me? Yang Tian is too concerned about the life and death of others, that's why he ended up disappearing!"

"Why did you sacrifice him alone to save you? Why?"

After asking so many why, what Gao Shengcheng wanted to ask the most was, "Why is he the one who left!"

When Song Ting wanted to speak, Xu Yan stopped him and said softly, "Let him finish talking alone."

Xu Yan still couldn't let go of his pity for Gao Shengcheng, in fact, his inner world was more lonely than anyone else's.

Seeing Gao Shengcheng's despair, Xu Yan would think of himself who said 'I don't want to live' on the hospital bed...

And Gao Shengcheng is not as lucky as Xu Yan...he can't wait for Yang Tian.

Gao Sheng said desperately, "I worked hard to create this parallel time and space, but I never thought of killing people? I just want to create a parallel world, so that Yang Tian in this world can fall in love with me..."

"When did I ever think about killing someone?"

People who seem cruel are actually fragile inside.He asked, "You all say that I am guilty... Is it possible that I am the only one who wants this parallel time and space? Do you really think that our small team of twenty people can create parallel time and space?"

"Xu Yan, you think you can read people's hearts! Haven't you seen their hypocrisy?"

Xu Yan didn't respond to him, because the answer was not important to Gao Shengcheng at all.

In fact, he has long known that his crimes are serious, and no matter how many criminals are caught, they will not be able to offset his crimes.

The judgment of the outside world is insignificant to him, and the interrogation of himself in his heart is the burden that he will never let go of.

"I have committed all the sins on my back. If you feel that ten years in prison is not enough for me to atone, you can directly kill me!"

"Why did you take Yang Tian's life? I was the one who was wrong! It's all my fault! Why wasn't I the one punished by God?"

If you want to ask Gao Shengcheng who he hates the most, it is actually himself.

Xu Yan persuaded, "Yang Tian died of righteousness, not punishment."

And Gao Shengcheng sneered when he heard it, "What righteousness? It is said that he died a great death, but he can't even leave a tombstone with his name!"

Xu Yan sighed deeply in his heart, and he finally persuaded, "Gao Shengcheng, let yourself go."

"Yang Tian never blamed you."

And Gao Shengcheng strongly denied it, "No, how could he not blame me!"

He finally took off his arrogant and domineering coat, revealing his truly broken side.With tears in his eyes, he said, "I let him down, how could he not blame me..."

"It was the parallel time and space created by me... that killed him!"

"I killed him!"

"Xu Yan, tell me, how can he not blame me! How can I not blame myself!"

"That's right, the most damned person is me! It's me!"

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After being quiet for a long time, his eyes lost all brilliance, and he asked Xu Yan for help, "Why don't I have the ability to change all of this..."

The flattery he received when he was young made Gao Shengcheng think he was omnipotent.As for Yang Tian, ​​he was powerless from beginning to end.

Xu Yan replied, "No matter how powerful you are, no matter how much you do, you can't get Yang Tian's rebirth, because his departure is already a fact."

Xu Yan woke him up with a few words, but it made him completely hopeless, "Yeah, no matter what I do, it's impossible for him to come back to life..."

He let go of his last obsession, but in fact, he had long since lost hope of life.

Seeing his body slowly falling and dissipating, Xu Yan had a premonition that he would let his life disappear in this false time and space, Xu Yan shouted, "Gao Shengcheng! Come back with us!"

And Xu Yan couldn't keep anything, he could only hear his desperate voice echoing in this time and space,

"Going back is also death. As far as I am concerned, death is the same anywhere."

His body has long since rotted away, and his soul has long since disappeared...

"Xu Yan, cherish everything you have, don't be like me, it will be a lifetime of regrets."

This persuasion is the last tenderness Gao Shengcheng left to this world.

The virtual time and space gradually disintegrated as his consciousness dissipated.

At the last moment of his life, Gao Shengcheng only had the voice of Yang Tian in his mind.

"Ah Cheng, you shouldn't be like this..."

"Ah Cheng, forgive me. In order to be worthy of those who lost their lives, I can only make such a decision. In ten years, I hope you can reflect on your mistakes. When we meet again, everything will return to the beginning."

At that time, he was silent, hiding his inner greed.

At this time, he expressed his heart, "You said that everything can go back to the beginning..."

"Yang Tian, ​​a place without you, how could it be what I wanted at first..."

At the last moment, he heard Yang Tian ask him, "A Cheng, do you think you are wrong?"

He used to be obsessed with obsession, and ten years of imprisonment could not make him admit his mistakes.

And at the moment of losing Yang Tian, ​​he cried bitterly, confessing his mistakes over and over again, "I was wrong, I was really wrong..."

However, no matter how many times he repents, those who leave will never come back.

'My mistake should be repaid with my life.Instead of you who I love the most...'

'I would like to watch you run towards your own happiness and not keep you anymore.I just want to see you, living brightly in this world. '

In the end, Gao Shengcheng left this world with his despair.

University A seems to be located in a static time. No matter how the students coming and going change, it maintains its original appearance, repeating a monotonous and quiet life.

Marx College is located in the quietest corner of the campus, enjoying a piece of tranquility to itself.

Teacher Ma was still sitting in the original office, and two years passed by in a hurry. On an afternoon very similar to usual, he suddenly waited for a student he hadn't seen in two years.

Xu Yan found the final answer and finally had the courage to meet him.

The other teachers in the office were all paying attention to their conversation, but Xu Yan loudly submitted his real graduation project without hesitation, "Teacher, I understand your question."

To find the answer, we must first understand the nature of the problem.

Xu Yan finally understood what his mentor really wanted him to understand.

Said, "To become a philosopher, one must at least love the world from the heart, not be disturbed by any external force, and always strengthen one's beliefs."

"If we want to find eternal things in a changing world, we must at least have the courage to persist."

His answer was appreciated by Teacher Ma, "Xu Yan, you have already transformed. As long as you have the courage, you can call yourself a 'philosopher' at this moment."

In fact, the answer that Teacher Ma wanted to tell Xu Yan was only one sentence, 'The identity of a philosopher does not come from the affirmation of the outside world, but from his own identification. '

After completing this graduation project, Xu Yan has completely transformed.He happily bid farewell to Teacher Ma and walked out of the building of the Marx Institute.

Meet Marx again as he stands in front of the statue.

Song Ting looked at him tenderly as usual, and said, "Go home."

Time slowed down under his gaze. In this changing world, Xu Yan had already found his eternity.

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It's over, I wish everyone can find their own eternity