winter suicide plan

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[Chen Shuning's perspective]

Tang Fengxing held my waist, and I felt the calluses on his fingertips caressing the skin, rubbing it, going up, getting into my turtleneck sweater, stroking my nipples with his fingers, rubbing his thumb and index finger Knead, pulling up slightly occasionally.My waist unconsciously followed his pull, and I let out a comfortable moan from my mouth.Itching, slight pain satisfies me, I like sex with pain a little bit, pain can soothe my emotions, but Tang Fengxing is not willing to give up heavy hands, which means he is not willing to let me hurt.

I sucked his lips, licked his upper lip, bit my lower lip, and stuck out my tongue. In the dizzying heat, my ass slit rubbed against his cock, which was thicker than air Hot, we tangled our tongues in the hot air.

I straddled him, took the initiative to help the genitals into my body, and opened up my private place little by little. I felt the sticky feeling in my hand, which was the liquid that Tang Fengxing couldn't bear to flow out.

The back of the head was too tight, the position was too narrow, I wet my fingers, I supported his shoulder with only one hand, my eyes were slightly hurt because of the moment, half-closed, speechless, I looked at him speechlessly, he felt his heart Then, he immediately kissed my lips, kissed my eyes, moved his hands, panting and said: "A Ning, you can take your time, don't worry, I will tie you up first."

I was worried about staining my black pants when I came, so he tied the front of my balls with a short length of red silk rope and put the condom on.The red rope was hanging on my lower body, and I was gently stroked from time to time, and I felt a little bit of liquid dripping out of the horse's eyes in the sleeve.I couldn't help laughing: "When did you prepare the rope? I've thought about it for a long time, huh?"

Under the dim light, Tang Fengxing couldn't see whether his face was red, but it was very hot. He touched my buttocks and said, "Occasionally, I would think, because Shu Ning is very good-looking."

"Where do I look good, brother?"

"Everywhere is beautiful..."

"It turns out that senior brother is so perverted... On the surface, he is well-dressed, but he has a wild relationship with me behind his back... Why, um! Ah!"

While I was talking, he pushed my fingers and his fingers deep, and there was a sudden pain in the vagina, and the back acupuncture points were suddenly clamped.He deliberately teased my front to make it more enjoyable.He took my fingers to expand, and pressed my fingers a little bit deeper, as if he was following him to simulate the action of intercourse. The blood all over his body was like boiling water in a boiler, bubbling to the brain, and he couldn't tell the difference between shame and heat.

He whispered to me: "Because I am willing to have a wild relationship with this little wild cat. I am willing to do anything, don't be afraid."

The fingers were dragged out by him, a sense of emptiness hit me, I collapsed, my ears were so hot with embarrassment, the feeling of orgasm climbed more and more along the spinal cord, and it was filled in an instant.At the moment of entering, there was a spasm in the waist, I clung to his shoulders tightly, the front part was raised high, and was lifted up and down by his hands, the pain instantly turned into warm currents, flowing in all directions in the corridor, and the eyes were full of pain. It was like fog, but actually my tears were full of tears unconsciously. I blinked, trying to make Tang Fengxing in front of me clearer: "The rope...the rope is uncomfortable... .Aha, Tang Fengxing, Feng... OK, too fast, too fast!"

He pushed up my sweater with his head, exposing my nipples to the air, he licked with the tip of his tongue, I exhaled harder, and inserted my five fingers into his hair, moaning gradually became louder, and he stopped tossing My red and swollen nipples said: "Ah Ning, there will be cars passing by, please keep your voice down."

He said that he was afraid of being discovered, but the deeper the bottom, the harder it was for me to restrain my lewd screams, and I clamped his waist with my knees: "It's easy for you to say, come and try to be fucked, can you hold it back, ah !Um, well...comfortable, um, lightly..."

A bunch of dazzling white lights of cars appeared in front of my eyes. There was indeed a car passing by. I clamped my head nervously, but Tang Fengxing teased me even more.

"I'm afraid...Tang Fengxing, I'm afraid..." My tears finally became unbearable and kept streaming down my chin.

"Shu Ning, don't be afraid, it's okay, I will accompany you no matter what, I will always be with you."

I was sobbing, every time I wanted to cry out in shock, seeing the light getting closer, my heart was beating like thunder, he held my lips, swallowed all my moans, held them tightly, and blocked them tightly , I was constantly snatched of air, my G-spot was brushed behind me, I couldn't cry out, only whimpered, white light passed through the open window, for a moment, I was dry in fear and forgetting to breathe and lack of oxygen I had an orgasm, like drunk oxygen, as hot as drinking a few large bottles of soju, where it was melting, melting into water, flowing into the sea, floating up and down in the sea.

After a burst of heat and dizziness, Tang Fengxing wiped my wet bangs with a paper towel, and supported my head with a dry palm that smelled like us, and rubbed my lips. He said, his voice was only Being able to tell him, I lost the strength to laugh, I rubbed my hands as a response, and passed out.

When I woke up, I was still in the car, lying on his chest, and he was holding my buttocks, and he had already cleaned up hastily.The cheeks of both of them were very red in the heated car. We looked at each other and laughed at each other, maybe we were laughing at ourselves for being ridiculous, but we actually had sex in this place.

He stroked my back: "You're still scared, aren't you?"

I can't deny that I struggled for half a year to make the move to celebrate the New Year with Tang Fengxing.I couldn't stand Tang Fengxing's slightly disappointed eyes. He has done a lot for me, and I was always afraid that I owed him too much.I want to warm him with the warmth of my only love, he goes to me, and I want to go to him equally.

Sometimes it is difficult for me to express my emotions correctly, and I go on a rampage in depression or mania, but Tang Fengxing will heal me after my body is covered with bruises.I can't lose him, he is my only warm happiness.All I have left is him, the only one I can have, but also the only one I can lose.

But Tang Fengxing can't do it, he still has a family, a family with his parents and younger sister.

I had no words, I could only rub his lips and touch his earlobe, expressing my extreme uneasiness.His kisses soothe me temporarily, like a sedative, but it needs a constant supply.

We temporarily took off the ring in the car, and hid the coin necklace around our necks in our clothes.I followed him stiffly into the gate of my hometown. The moment the wooden door opened, his parents looked at me, as if I had been seen through, and I was still doing that kind of thing with his son just now.I couldn't bear it, and instantly regretted the mess with Tang Fengxing just now.

I froze, my blood was about to coagulate, and I almost forgot to breathe. No matter how much I did to prepare myself, no matter how long I made the foreshadowing, in the past five years, I was still so vulnerable in front of my parents who had raised him for many years.The fingernails got stuck in the palm of the hand. The mess just now was because of anxiety and anxiety. I wanted to use chocolate to appease the anxiety, but now I am restricted from eating chocolate, so I used sex, using Tang Fengxing's direct sex to fill in the safety that has been leaking Feel the wall.

He suddenly put his arms around my neck and fit him together. The coin necklace shook slightly, and I clenched my palms even more nervously. He introduced me intimately and generously. I am his good friend. He briefly talked about my family situation. Wan's appearance made me even more frightened. She combed her hair, wiped her hands with an apron, touched my stiff face and said, "Shu Ning, what a handsome guy, it's not good to be alone for the new year, come on, Hurry up and warm yourself by the fire, it's so cold."

I nodded stiffly and said, "Thank you, Auntie."

His mother went to the living room, and he rubbed my hair behind his back, and whispered to me: "My mother is more gentle, don't be afraid, don't think about it, I'm here, I'm fine."

Gentleness is even more impenetrable, like an absolute protective shield, I can't say the words I prepared to them grandly, those words are hurting the gentle people, right? Someone who is pretending to be almost normal.What's more, I'm still gay with him. As a broken person, how can I get blessings from them.

I changed my shoes, walked into the living room with some dizziness, and met Tang Mengru who was sitting in the living room. It was not a simple fear, but a general fear of thieves and policemen.When I had an intersection with Tang Fengxing just now, the memory of arguing with her before going to the movies was shaky, all of them rushed like a tide, trying to quickly engulf me who fell into the sea, and my sharp eyes seemed to sneak into this peaceful family The thief is criticizing me for breaking into this home.

I just beg her not to expose me at this time.

I froze in place, and gradually began to forget to breathe. All the previously established psychological mechanisms to calm my emotions stopped functioning at this time, and I couldn't stop my thoughts from diverging, and entered into an infinite vicious circle of self-criticism.

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Autoplay: "Night is Klein Blue's Sorrow" - Lan Xinyu