winter suicide plan

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Tang Fengxing took a bite of the chicken breast, put his hips on his hips and felt that it was cooked well, nodded cutely, and turned off the fire when he felt it was cooked.I peeked through the crack of the door, and the corners of my mouth raised involuntarily and happily.I watched him walk towards the bedroom door, and I immediately went to pretend to sleep on the two-person bed.

His knees pressed into the bed, and my body and the mattress sagged slightly.My face was buried in the white quilt, and I couldn't see his expression, nor could he see mine.

"Chen Shuning?"

"are you asleep?"

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I maintained a high level of acting and pretended to be asleep, but I was really sleepy.He patted me on the shoulder: "Chen Shuning, don't pretend to be asleep."

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I still didn't reply him the second time, but after the third time, Tang Fengxing will believe that I fell asleep, and everything is nothing more than three.He stroked my face lightly with his fingers: "Ah Ning, get up, eat before going to bed."

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I pretended to have an itchy face, scratched it with my fingers, turned over and pretended to continue to sleep.I was still wearing that overcoat, and I heard him smile helplessly: "I fell asleep before dinner again, and I'm going to make trouble for me to stay up at night."

The bed returned to the original position, I heard the sound of the door lock being pulled open and closed, I immediately opened my eyes, turned around, and was caught by Tang Fengxing standing in front of me, and he went to bed and rubbed against my neck. I was tickled, I was tickled and kept laughing.He put his arms around my waist, exerted some strength, and turned me around, a bit like teasing a baby, looking a bit silly.But the two of us never get tired of it. I like the weightlessness of being thrown up, which is similar to centrifugal exercise, but it will never be centrifugal, because Tang Fengxing will never let me go.He took me out of bed and asked me to go to the ground: "Pretend to sleep? Don't you want to eat yet?"

In winter, my appetite is particularly bad. It’s okay to not eat for a day, and I feel full after drinking a few sips of water.Most of the time, Tang Fengxing forced me to eat, and finally started to take the initiative to eat later, asking him to make me something to eat.

"Don't be so serious, just kidding." I pinched his waist, kissed his lips, and fled to the kitchen.According to what Tang Fengxing told me, I have a habit of always pretending to run away when I kiss someone.I think he has a complete peek into my heart, my escape is a disguise, I just test whether he will wait for me to come back, or whether he will follow me, to show how much his love for me is worth.

When the curry rice was on the table, I quickly poured Coke for Tang Fengxing first: "Give today's chef a cup first, thank you for your hard work."

"Are you ready to help me?"

"Didn't I put the chicken breast on the cutting board properly?"

"Is this called laying hands?" Tang Fengxing took a mouthful of curry rice with a smile, a little stuttering.

"But it hurts to touch sailors in winter."

"Will your hands hurt after applying the medicine? Let me see."

He looked at my hands, it is too cold in winter, my hands are too thin and dry easily.Touching water with a slight high frequency will cause chapped hands. If you keep applying hand cream, it will still sting severely when you apply the hand cream.I used to have this problem, but it was not obvious. Now working in a flower shop is different. I often touch water, and I don’t dare to resign at will. I want to save enough to save the target amount.

"I don't want to help you..." As he spoke, he began to feel wronged unconsciously, making me seem like a useless person.

"A-Ning, I'm not blaming you, feel the emotion of my words." He touched the wounded area "You can sit on the sofa or at the dinner table and wait for me to finish, because I'm in the same space as you Stay here, can you feel this feeling?"

I took a sip of curry, and the spicy taste spread in my mouth. I immediately took a sip of iced cola, shivered, and licked my lips: "Understood, you didn't mean to scold me, you want to talk to me more because you love me." Stay a little longer, I want to talk more."

He wiped the Coke off my chin and said with a smile, "Yes."

Compared with a larger living room, I prefer a narrow bedroom. Occasionally, I would go into the closet and fall asleep in it. After get off work, Tang Fengxing would take me out and wake me up.

I was a little proud, and after understanding what he meant, I rewarded myself with another cup of Coke.The third-level curry was still very spicy, my tongue was sore, my lips were red and swollen, tears rolled in my eyes, I couldn't eat half of it, Tang Fengxing shook his head, continued to be my trash can, and finished the rest of my meal.I don't know if it's because after eating chili and drinking coke, my whole body warmed up, my nerves became excited, and I started thinking constantly.Talk to Tang Fengxing about his work, suddenly jump to the place where he went out to play today, then to what Li Jingyuan and the others are doing, when will I go back to school, and to hear the gossip at the street while working in a flower shop, etc.

Tang Fengxing followed my thoughts without interrupting me once.He asked me, "Should you quit your job as a flower shop and rest at home?"

"No!" I drank a large glass of Coke and smashed the glass vigorously.

"Do you think I can't even do a job like a flower shop well?"

"No, absolutely not. You did a great job, but I think that if your hand hurts now, you can change it. I'm just asking for your opinion and making some suggestions. It's up to you to accept it or not."

I immediately softened from the angry state and continued to drink Coke: "I don't resign. It's very lively there, and now I feel that I can blend in. It's scary to be alone at home."

Tang Fengxing nodded: "How about buying a pet to accompany you? Pets also have the effect of healing the mind. Don't just get angry according to your own thoughts. Think about it. This is my suggestion, not forcing you to accept it. I will not be able to do it in the future With you all the time."

I held back some bad thoughts and touched the edge of the plate: "No need."

"no need."

"why?"

"I struggled even to take care of myself, and I had to take care of another life."

Tang Fengxing nodded, and said softly: "Don't always demean yourself, you can try it. Would it be warmer to hold a furry cat or dog in winter?"

I imagine cats and dogs running around and rubbing people's legs at school, fluffy...

"Why are you asking me this all of a sudden?"

"You stood at the door of the pet store today and watched for more than 3 minutes. Usually more than 3 minutes, it is what you want more in your heart. Because you seldom make requests to me, and I can only make requests."

I froze for a moment, and made a request, which seemed to be a verb that didn't exist for me. This verb was mostly used for me to Tang Fengxing recently.Usually, I couldn't sleep in the middle of the night for half a month, and I was hungry all night, tossing and turning, waking him up, and he gave me scrambled eggs and fried rice.After that, I often wake him up to give me scrambled eggs and fried rice.

And I don't feel guilty, and I think the egg fried rice is really delicious.

"Well, we'll talk about that later."

"Well, give me the Coke, no more drinking, and I have to go to the toilet constantly in the middle of the night."

He immediately took the Coke and the two plates.I said "hey" twice, followed him, chattered next to him, he didn't find it annoying, he would respond to me when he heard it, and occasionally spoke along with my words, but my thinking jumped too fast and the chat was too complicated.After washing, I put some hand cream on him and said, "Your hand, which can play the piano, is more precious than mine." He pinched my face and said, "I haven't even used what you gave me. We hands are the same."

As I said that, I hugged his waist: "Have you ever watched a movie called "Happy Together"?"

"have not seen."

"Why don't you watch it, not many people watch it."

"Because this movie is a tragedy."

"I don't watch it because of the tragedy, why?"

"I just want to have a happy ending with you, and it depends on the direction of the happy ending." He put his arms around my neck and rubbed my face, suddenly the atmosphere between the two became sticky.

"Don't ask me why I saw this movie?"

"Why did you read it?"

"Because you know how to cook egg fried rice just like Li Yaohui."

Tang Fengxing smiled: "I thought you were going to praise me as handsome as Tony Leung."

"It's true." Sure enough, Xi Shi is in the eye of the beholder, even if not, I still have to praise him, he is the person I love the most.I kissed Tang Fengxing, pushed him away, turned on the phone, played a song, and clapped my hands: "Tonight, special program, let's dance."

I clicked on the song "finale (tangoapasionado)" by He Baorong and Li Yaohui in a small room, a Spanish-style tango dance sounded in the room, I turned on the small warm light in the room, and looked at Tang Fengxing who was at a loss Say: "I watched the video and I will teach you."

He nodded slowly, and I said, "One left foot, two right feet, I tell you to turn around and you turn around."

In fact, I don’t know how to do it, and I can’t learn it by watching videos. It’s just a whim, and I want to interlock my fingers and cooperate with my body.

"One, two, one, two..." I pretended to count the beats, and let his palms stick to my hips. I imitated the characters in the movie and wanted to twist my body, but it seemed a little awkward. Tang Fengxing felt that my arms were a little stiff when I moved.We're always stomping on each other's feet, laughing and saying, "Stand on, step on."

"Left foot, no, wait, right foot..." The body rubbed against each other, and the palms kept clenching for balance.

At the end the rhythm is out of order, his foot catches mine, he protects me, acts as a pad for me, on the floor, the music keeps repeating itself, we hug each other and laugh.

"You said you would."

"It's not that the subject forgets to move after jumping with you."

We hugged each other for a while, looked at each other wordlessly, and kissed each other tightly. Both of us took the initiative to bite to the rhythm of the musical instruments in the music. In the dim light, our hands began to caress each other unconsciously.I saw the desire in Tang Fengxing's eyes, his tongue broke into my teeth, and I still had the sweet taste of Coke, all of which were swept away by him.He kept grabbing my tongue and tightened his arm strength to tighten my waist.Breathing began to be rapid, and the eyes began to be hazy, just like the hazy frame of a Wong Kar Wai movie, spinning, slow, and blurred.

I was dizzy from lack of oxygen, and grabbed Tang Fengxing's hair.

Tang Fengxing reluctantly let go, put his finger into the gap between mine and asked, "Today... can I?"

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Chen Shuning's perspective